#our ending

[peculiary]

Young Avengers #9 August 28, 2013

[sourbeach]

The end of us...

I never thought that we’ll have our ending. I really thought that you are the one - who will be beside me until my dying days, who will cuddle me at night and be my confidant, who will be there to comfort me and will tell me that everything will be alright. But I guess no matter how hard I thought about it, it was never really meant to be. Sucks cos I can see my future with you. Sad cos I wanted it to be you. Broken cos me and you are over.

I hope you find someone whom you’ll feel all of this. I hope for you to be happy, really.

[marisadonnelly]

this is how you will miss me

You will remember me in all the ways I will never remember myself. Because I am no longer her anymore.

[kates-notes]

what happened with Ben?

Dear Anonymous,

Ha ha ha. It’s a very long story. Summer was fun and perfect with him - there was laughter and heart-to-heart conversations. I wouldn’t trade our carefree times together for anything, but as summer reached its height, I began to realize there was nothing more for me with him…

We had confessed and ironed out our feelings from years ago, but some things, some people, are better left in the past, perfect and untainted. I got the closure I wanted and had always needed from him, but to start a fresh blank page with him felt wrong. 

Yes, he was still the great guy I had known him as, but everything had changed. I was older, I was wiser. Time made all the difference with Ben. I couldn’t see something happening, not now, not right before I was going off to college. It wasn’t fair for me, it wasn’t fair to him, it wasn’t fair for us.

I will admit that the way I went about distancing myself from Ben wasn’t the kindest way possible (see ghosting). I kinda cut all ties off from him–all media besides my number. He probably got the message, but it is not as if he tried to reach out to me in some way. We just stopped talking–not that we had bad blood between us, but simply because there was nothing more for us. Friendship or relationship felt wrong, so having neither was our resolution. 

This isn’t to say I am a bad person, because I’m not. I just recognize when it’s healthier to be apart that cling to a person, a feeling, that isn’t fair for both parties involved. It wasn’t right, this summer’s downfall, but distance is what we both needed in some way or another. Maybe somewhere down the line I will regret how I broke things off with him, but for now, I cling to my stupid naive pride and notion that what I did was for the best…

Sincerely,

Kate

[lostfeeels-blog]

Im so afraid we'll always be a book with the end pages ripped out

[tradingheartbeatswithyou]

So this is what they're so called heart break. It wasn't really that painful. It just feels as though you've lost something important in your heart; it became empty and hollow. And you were left there inside that vacancy all alone where darkness wraps around you. It feels a lot lesser than home.