#outofbending

[exfirelordozai-blog]

I was out for some time. Where have you been ? :)

//Taking a break from the fandom. The irritation and paranoia I went through every time I opened my dash was unhealthy and I didn't have the courage to unfollow people. 

[exfirelordozai-blog]

//I'M BACK, BY THE WAY AND IM DOING MUCH BETTER. HELLO, I MISSED YOU ALL.

(did anyone notice that I was even gone for 3-4 weeks? >.>; lmfao)

[exfirelordozai-blog]

And the line was not a read more.

bloody fucking hell

[jadeborn]

((Send me things, seriously. I'm losing hope in this blog really fast and I'll really just terminate it if no one wants to do anything with it.

[jadeborn]

((adsflkgjl nothing good is coming out of this blog i should close it

[jadeborn]

((I should do more things on this blog who's with me))

[exfirelordozai-blog]

As a white male on tumblr with a severely low self esteem, seeing feminists call men trash, sexist, disgusting etc Hurts me. 

I'm not a bundle of thrown away items. My family loves me.

I'm not sexist. I love everyone the way they are.

I bathe twice a day and have no fetishes.

I have feelings and people do hurt them.

I've been on tumblr for 3 years and I think I can safely say that white men are not welcomed here by the majority.

I'm tired of all the hate men get on this site just so the haters feel better about themselves.

I'm very upset about this. Very Very.  

[exfirelordozai-blog]

UPDATE

idk if anyone missed me but I have been inactive on this blog for about 3-4 days? I'm not sure. 

Sad reason under the cut. If you don't like death, don't read it.

This week, I learned that my Grandmother is dying so I wanted to stay away from tumblr's negativity that pops up sometimes. 

It's not something to really mourn over since she was suffering for years and not living a fulfilling life, etc.

She doesn't know she's dying and she recognizes no one. At 84, she'll probably pass peacefully in her sleep. 

I have to keep reminding myself that this is a good thing for her and, for everyone(including my very exhausted mother) who had to care for her months before her kidneys finally failed. Nursing homes are expensive... so the family took it upon themselves to care for her(she couldn't walk or go to the bathroom by herself and woke up 4 times a night to use the portable toilet by her bed which she needed help to get to... LPN work. Poop and pee included... 

So yeah, that's what's been going on.

I think the most upsetting part of this whole thing is the mentality of my Grandfather whom I watched kiss her for the first time in my life...on the forehead(in the hospital). I was surprised to see him comprehend what was going on. After he kissed her, he had a smile on his face... I think he knows this is good for her too.