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I'm stupid or mad cuz Lightning is my dream girl?

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outofchara; Even if I’m not seemingly active with threads or asks here, I am around and do regularly check in. I’m just not always in the headspace or have the time to get to replies. I’m running two businesses at the moment and barely have time to myself, but just wanted to leave this psa for my mutuals to let you know I’m still around and hope to return here one day soon and become more active again--just can’t promise when that will be.

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Guys, I made a thing. Tell me I’m wrong.

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what is the "silver phantom" au youve been tagging in replies to xestheim?

outofchara; Buckle up, anon, because I’m about to take your ass to town on the biggest angst train you will ever experience. Choo choo, mother fucker.

The Silver Phantom AU was created by Hope and yours truly, to be the most heart breaking au verse that could ever exist (copyrighted to us). It is the to be mother-load that is angst. To keep it short and simple for you, the basis of the AU is this:

After the events of Lightning Returns, instead of rejoining the rest of the group and being reborn into the New World, Lightning does become the new Goddess of Death and then resides in Valhalla. After spending all his life searching for Lightning, and after being horrifically tortured by Bhuni using the rose-haired phantom (which is canon, in case some people have forgotten), Hope decides that he doesn’t want to be reborn and live the rest of his life without Lightning, and chooses to go with her into Valhalla. His decision came easy to him, due to the fact he heard Lightning cry out in the darkness at the end of LR, when she said that she didn’t want to be alone. And, therefore, he decided to stay with her during her newfound title.

Now, that doesn’t sound so bad, right? WRONG. No one gets to have a happy ending with us. As time continues on in outside of the realm of death, Lightning and Hope spend their days together in the timeless realm, but eventually, Lightning begins to change into becoming the real goddess of death; the goddess Valhalla really needs.

Now as it was previously discussed in Lightning Returns, Lightning struggles to feel anything, (she struggles with her humanity) as not only was it her doing, but partly a side effect to her becoming on-par with a God herself, and we all know, God’s can’t feel human emotion. So as the years eventually continue on, Lightning loses parts of herself, and forgets what it means to be human. In turn, Hope also no longer appears to be in a human form, but instead takes the appearance of a silver-haired phantom. As Lightning’s humanity is stripped away, and she forgets human emotions, in turn, she forgets herself, Serah and ultimately, Hope.

When she first started experiencing amnesia, (which includes beautifully written moments of her breaking down) Hope and her made a promise that they would always remind each other of who they were, and who they were to one another, but as time moved forward, they eventually forgot why they were reminding one another of such things, and as an extension, what these things were.

The real sad part is the fact that Hope had to watch Lightning lose herself first. He watched, helplessly, as Lightning changed from a human, to a Goddess. He watched her forget herself, her life, Serah and him. He witnessed her forget that she loved him and that she use to be human herself. Lightning became so lifeless that she would spend (what would be years outside the realm of chaos) on her throne, almost turning to crystal, only moving when she had to continue the rebirthing of the cycle of life. But Hope never once left her side. 

Then, slowly, Hope forgot himself too. The two stayed in each others vicinity, but never understanding why or knowing who they were. The silver phantom only knew that he had always been present to the Goddess, having never been reborn, but not understanding why. He would drift aimlessly throughout Valhalla, but not going far from the Goddess. And all the Goddess knew was that a silver phantom seemed to haunt her, never leaving her side. 

And so, essentially, for the better part of eternity, they stayed like that.

And, from the time Lightning and Hope reside in Valhalla, to the amnesia happening and Lightning becoming a complete Goddess, it’s about 200 years in Valhalla, which is close to 1000 years over the course of time outside of Valhalla.

@aeristheancient you’ll probably like this angst train. All aboard. 

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8 PEOPLE I’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER. repost, don’t reblog.

one / name / alias. Blaize two /  birthday. January 14th, 1997. three / zodiac sign. Capricorn sun, Aries moon. four /  height. 5′0 nothing. five  /  hobbies. Video editing, writing, gym, mma, photoshop stuff I guess? Learning languages is kind cool too. six /favorite colors. Black, greys, silver and light blue, pastel and dark purple, dark red. seven/favorite books. Outsiders by S.E Hinton (legit read it in a day), Vampire Academy series, Hush Hush series. I read a lot of YA novels when I was younger, haven’t read a book in years. eight  /  last song listened to.  so it was Lie (Le Youth Remix) - Shallou but then I listened to Nightmare - Halsey as I wrote this up so?? nine  /  last film watched. Avengers: Endgame  ten  /  inspiration for muse. the games, Halsey, and my life eleven  / dream job. Personal trainer & Paramedic. twelve  / meaning behind your url. Name of Lightning’s blade in XIII-2 but I added an x to be x-tra (heh, pun).

Tagged by: @ndeavor & @soldariusx Tagging: @aeristheancient @drakante @spraysigil @praywishing @naukais @breselin @badassbarmaid @omnistrifed @soldierlegacy

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outofchara; Also accurate @xestheim

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outofchara; toned enough for you, soldariusx? (happy munday, I guess?)

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psa.

outofchara; So I’m just gonna put this out there that one of the reasons I loved this blog and interactions so much (other than the fact that Lightning is my spirit) was because of my interactions with Aerith (aeristheancient) and Hope (xestheim). There was also my interactions with Serah (vitriss) and a few Cloud’s that have ALL gone inactive. You guys are actually my biggest inspirations and I’m so happy that I’m able to write a bit with you guys again, even though with Hope its just on discord and through ask box memes, I can not put it into words how much joy it brings me. I also hope that I can get that bond with a bunch of new blogs that I’ve been following cause the rp community really can be great when there is no drama involved and I really want to come back to this and be around her more.

Aerith, Hope and Serah basically write as if they’re channeling their muses and it’s honestly impressive and I’m in awe of it. 

Also, Dante (pleasedonte/tenebrisdurante was one of my bigger inspirations too, but he’s gone as well. I loved the connection I had with the mun at the time when I was still around, and I loved exploring the vamp!light verse I got to create. But that’s all in the past now.