Alright guys. I sent an ask acknowledging it to ASOF, but Iām officially dropping my muses. Akaba Reiji, Archer (Shirou) [which was only reserved but still], and Jean here are all going to be inactive.
I may eventually rework them into indie blogs when I regain motivation to write, so you donāt have to unfollow them, but I understand if you decide to. Iāll be removing affiliations and bios, and theyāll be a mostly blank canvas in case I do decide to revive them later, but yeah.
Iāll list some reasons for this decision below the break, in case youād like to know.
So, the whole reason I joined DD in the first place, before everyone moved over to ASOF, was because I needed an escape. My relationship had just ended after 17 months, which was a majorly stressful point to me, which added onto a lot of other stresses. Working at McDonaldās, having expensive bills that left me with almost no spending money (as well as the possibility that my bills would be going up due to another family member possibly losing their income), having a lot of health issues (hypertension, torn meniscus, and possible lupus, just to name a few physically; letās not even get started on my myriad of mental disorders)... The list goes on. Iām an emotional wreck, suffice to say.
Kay informed me about the group and suggested I join. Seeing as how theyāre an amazing friend, and I admittedly have had a crush on them for a couple years now, I figuredĀ āwhat the hellā and joined. I donāt at all regret doing so. Iāve met some wonderful people here and I cherish every memory Iāve had of you guys. Jean, Aura, Nic, Kay, Sonic, Aqua, and Tayo especially, all of you have been such wonderful friends to me, and I really really appreciate everything you guys have done. But I know a few of you went your own directions as well, and itās my turn to do the same.
Iāve been discovering myself, thanks to guidance from several friends, and I did begin shifting to a new name and identity. I started off here as Gray, and if any of you have noticed, my Skype name (and OOC info on my profiles) is now Keidryn, or Kei for short. Iām sure that could cause mix-ups said aloud if I were ever in group chats with Kay (but since I was ejected from the group in the first place, that wonāt be happening anyways). But Iām still working on discovering more about myself and trying to figure out where I want to be, and how I want to get there. Thatās going to involve a lot of time. I was supposed to start physical therapy a long time ago, and never did. I have at least two surgeries to schedule, but Iāve been procrastinating. I also was supposed to schedule psychiatric evaluations many months ago; I still havenāt.
So itās time I get off my ass and do something. I canāt neglect my own health any longer, so Iām going to be talking to doctors about a lot of things, and getting things set right. Eventually... Iām hoping that may mean there will be a serious change. Iām frightened by it, very much so, because itāll have some irreversible side effects, and Iām very nervous about that, but... I think itāll be better for me to be happy and give up a few dreams, than to resign myself to accepting things as they are when Iām not really happy.
Iāll be moving to a new Skype, if anyone would like to stay in touch. I donāt want to stick to using a Skype linked to my RP accounts when Iām not actively roleplaying, but I donāt want to go back to my personal because itās my birth name. So if youād like to reach me, please addĀ ākeiidrynā to your contacts.
Thank you guys so much for understanding, and I hope you all have a wonderful night, and follow wherever your dreams may lead you~.
Just wanted to apologize for my lack of activity for a while. I owe four replies, that I can remember anyways, just on this character. Reiji and Sun, Iād have to double-check.
The past week has been busy with it leading up to my sisterās ceremony for her induction into the NSCS just last night. Between that, a hectic week at work, personal anxiety, and everything else thatās been going on, Iāve just neglected to be as active as Iād like to be. I was on semi-hiatus in the previous group, and while I donāt think it carried over to ASOF, I do want to state that I am only semi-active, at least until I get into the swing of things.
I promise, I will get to posting my replies. Maybe tomorrow after work, if Iām not physically drained by that point. Maybe before work, if Iām motivated enough. Hopefully. But soon, I promise. Soon.
// Additionally I may bring this blog back to activity, to have an open/independent canon!Jean. However, Iāll have to purge my following list, so if youāre still an active roleplayer, pleaseĀ like this post if youād like me to continue following you. Iāll be deciding within the next few days, so yeah.
Sometimes, when you think you've lost yourself... You find out just who you really are. [Closed AU...
Iāve moved to a new blog. Originally it was purely a closed group and I couldnāt interact with anyone outside of said group, but since everyone moved to a new group in itās place that does allow outside interaction, I figure I can let some of my old RP followers know, if youād like to interact with me, you can do so here.
Do note however that itās a different Jean. Itās not canon SNK Jean, itās an AU version. I might be able to do a few canon!Jean threads, since all of them have to be tagged anyways, but donāt count on it.
Also, if youāre considering becoming part of a great group, definitely look into the affiliation link. ASOF is run by wonderful mods and I have wholly enjoyed my time with everyone in the group.
// Sorry for vanishing again. I've had a lot going on between work, family emergencies, surgery, and emotional breakdowns. I'll try to come back soon, though. Can't make any promises as to when, but... soon.
// Temporary return just to say I'm not able to come back as soon as I'd intended. Even though I'm settled in where I moved to, I don't have stable computer access yet since I'm sharing a room. Once I have my own place (god knows how long that could take) I'll try to return finally. I'll probably start over fresh though, and unfollow a good majority of people (I have over 500 blogs followed) so yeah. Thanks for being so patient with me.
