#outoflavellan

[dirthelgar]

*has been a little bit out of it because has been awake for 14 hours, aka since 2 am*

*Wants to stay awake for at least one or two more hours to not change sleep pattern because needs to keep the current one until friday for mom’s meeting for her retirment*

*lurks online and also wants to finish chapter for Outlast fanfic*

*finds out fave actor is fricking finally in a play meaning I can see him, if we go see the play that is*

*HAS THE ENERGY OF A THOUSAND SUNS*

*and can’t focus*

*and starts to wonder about any friends that might be in London to say hello to*

[dirthelgar]

8 QUESTIONS MEME

Tagged by @pelle-lavellan

Rules: Answer eight questions and tag eight people.

▪️last movie I watched: Good question. Sometimes we watch movies on TV, but not quite the big names, and even then its been a while since we watched one. The last one I know to have watched is Deadpool, but it was months ago (a friend and I watched it at the cinema). These days, I watch a lot more animes, and sometimes TV shows (Charmed is being shown again during the week).

▪️last song I listened to: I’m listening to it right now, and it’s a fan extended version of Nohr’s version of Azura’s song in japenese. I really love it and I’m half tempted to add it to Mika’s theme tag.

▪️last book I read: That isn’t a fanfic? It’s been way too long to remember.

▪️last thing I ate: Homemade swandich with ham and cheese, and a yogurt. We didn’t want to cook.

▪️where would you want to time travel to?: Medieval times, maybe prehistoric times too.

▪️fictional character I would hang out with for a day: Ohhhhh, er, Merlin from BBC Merlin I think. Or maybe Kilgharrah, because, dragon. Although seeing it, I think spending a day around Dorian would also be great. If I can pick my own fictional character though... Mika. No contest.

▪️If I could be anywhere right now, where would I be? I’ll say being able to fast travel to at least three different person.

▪️Current fandom obsession? DA has a tight grip on me~ Although, I have to admit it’s Inquisition that it keeping me hooked. As it is, I’ve also fallen back in FE Path of Radiance (and Ike/Soren).

Tagging: if you haven’t done so already and want to, @tai-trevelyan-the-inquisitor @ass--sass--sin @multiplexmusis @brokenbiirds @dalish-black-sheep @ataash-varin-katara @maleficarnecromancer

[dirthelgar]

Before I get off to eat a little bit and sleep, I just recalled that one thing I told myself I should share:

I crossed path earlier today with someone that qualify well enough as a real life Dorian.

He was watching his phone and at first I only gave a glance but then something made me look again and-

‘Wait hold the fuck up, that guy-omg he has a moustache like Dorian’

BUT THEN because that’s not the end of it:

He was dark skinned, like not that different from Dorian’s skin, he appeared a bit hispanic (though I’m not sure if that’s revelant), he had dark hairs, and he was rather good looking.

I giggled so hard once he passed me, and I thought to myself that if I was more confident, I would have told him I knew someone that looked like him and possibly asked a picture, although that is totally too crazy fan to even pass as acceptable.

I think the best was the convo I had with mom once I told her about that. Mom: “What if his name had been Dorian, though?” Me, giggling: “Or what if he had that stache because he knows DA?”

And now I have Dorian look alike in mind and all I can think is “no but, is he usually around the area back there because I am very much often in this area”

[dirthelgar]

So I finished up making my Guidelines and Profile page, I still need to make a Navigation, but now I’m really back here.

I’ll probably reach out to a few people first, I know I need to discuss starter(s) with @always-the-fall-guy and @multiplexmusiss (hi hello yes I’m finally here for good).

Also: changed ooc tag from “outoflavellan” to “outofelven”!

[dirthelgar]

So, rather obviously, after saying I was almost done being ready to open the blog again, I got busy. I still plan to finish the pages and open the blog again, but not sure when it will be. I’m not saying it’ll take weeks and weeks but I’m going to be tentaively cautious about soon finishing up here. I do have a few things I want to do, and they’ll take priority over Mika’s blog here. But wish me luck!

[dirthelgar]

I’ve finally worked on Mika’s rebooted pages, they still need some reading over and adjusting, but that means I’m going to open him again soon enough.

Sooo I’m likely to approach a few people again, though you can poke at me if you want to interact again, I’m not going to get too greedy on threads but Mika is making eyes toward some of his previous partners so.

I’m back, rebooted but back!

[dirthelgar]

I’m chatting with @thenoahfamily with who Mika’s new background has been formed with, and I just realized the angst there will be because this “new” Mika will have a family he loves (including an adopted brother I am pretty certain he spends a lot of time withn and an adopted father he absolutely adores), and he’ll find himself separated from them with no real way of being in touch.

He will of course lie/only say partial truth, but he won’t even be able to pretend he’s been an apostate, because he knows he will be unable to keep himself from speaking of his family. And he might honestly not even think of pretending he lost his family, because his mind just, cannot think of the Noahs dead.

My boy will be a poor boy who is missing his family and tries not to show it, whiiiiich also mean he will be very, very annoyed at Corypheus for having the Rift happen (which is the reason Mika cant leave Thedas). Like I mentionned, his first/true goal is to back home, and for that he needs to close the Rift.

And he doesn’t want headaches so he figures pretending to be a normal (albeit magical) elf and yes yes I care about the world lets do an Inquisition, will save him headaches.

[dirthelgar]

So here’s the thing: I’ve mentionned how Mika-muse seemed to not be quite there after my unplanned break this summer, and I’ve been trying to catch up since then, having once or twice enough inspiration to write drafts.

I genuinely wanted to try, and at first felt the wish to return. But this whole unplanned break also made me realize that RP drained my energy, and that it’s only when I have genuine inspiration that I can rp without, pretty much, harming my creativity.

I realized I was guilt, after a bit, that made me try still to write here. But it grew blatant that I didn’t have anymore the right inspiration for this blog when the only thread I could do was one was had nothing to do with Inquisition. I love what I have here, I fully aimed to continue them all, but I hit a wall before I realized it.

So, yes, this a post to say that I am putting this blog in full break. I don’t believe I will return to it, as I’ve overall grown a desire to stop all RPing that drains me more than it makes me happy.

This is not a full goodbye though, for a few reasons. I have a fanfic writer blog at @chrisemrysblog and a writer blog at @homeofwriter so these are where to find stories from me, where fanstory or original. And Mika is still present as a muse, but solely in the Ark’s Child verse that formed. I made a sideblog @arkschild for it, though do know that while a possible Inquisition sidestory has been pondered over when Mika gets older, it isn’t the main focus. I might not even take many interactions outside of his adopted family, but if you still want to see Mika it’s there you will find him.

I thank all of you who’ve written with me, for the patience you showed to which I genuinely apologize for not rewarding. I am, of course, still very open to anyone who wish to remain in contact, as most of you remains friends I’ve made over the time I’ve been here.

If not, then I wish you a good road, as I’m still thankful for the time spend together!