Overactive Thoughts
Have you ever had those nights where you can't sleep, because you are playing over every little thing in your life? Reevaluating every decision, and move you have ever made.
Whether it be within a friendship/relationship that you have, or did have, or just about your life path in general. Those nights are simultaneously the best, and worst for me. I love it when they contain more happy times that I get to think over. However on the other hand, when they consist of thoughts about what lead to bad times, or outcomes I never wanted, and still don't like reliving (but my stupid brain hasn't seemed to grasp yet), I am not so fond of them.
There are so many things my brain has been going over recently, and not all of them happy. I just feel like somehow there are still a few things I haven't been able to resolve, or figure out yet, and my brain is working overtime trying to figure them out. So in relation to that my sleep is being cut into. Or, well it was the other night. Which was the first time in a long while that I have had a “memory lane evaluation night” as I like to call them. I just wish I knew what I feel like my brain, or my heart is trying to tell me right now. That I knew a way to figure this all out. A way to quiet my brain.