sleep sucks ass why'd we invent that shit you fuck up and lose track of time once and suddenly you're living on Owl Time for two weeks and then you try and fix it and you're making progress but then you fuck up and before you know it you're alternating two weeks Owl one day Agonies with nothing to show for it because you can't control when you actually go to sleep and control over when you wake up is denied by the stupid version of yourself who emerges when your alarm goes off to turn it off and then gets right back into bed and lies to the version of yourself who is capable of making short term sacrifices for long term gain saying shit like "oh you know i just want to be warm for a bit and then i'll get up" and then you wake up again and you slept for another 5 hours and now you're so deep in Owl Time you could flap your arms to fly slower than any other bird and nobody could tell the difference and you can't even blame anyone for it because despite the earlier description implying that they're separate entities for ease of explanation the Stupid and the CoMSTSfLTG are two parts of the same whole You and assigning blame to yourself well that's just not a mentally healthy path to be travelling down and god knows you need the fortitude you can keep because Owl Time is not a place to be if you want your faculties intact and no bugs hallucinated. having the kitchen to myself when i'm making my pasta is nice though
