#p4 year

[notstephanie]

Today my graduating class got the final verdict and we are not having an in-person hooding ceremony once the quarantine ends.

And I am very bitter. And upset. (I understand fully what its going on the world, and I know that other people have worse problems. Believe me, I am aware.)

But this is my first college graduation. I got into grad school without a prior degree. And this is the only graduation I might have been able to walk for in my life. And I was robbed of it.

I had told myself to enjoy it when the day finally came and walking across that stage was going to be the best moment of my life. (The other best day was supposed to be my white coat ceremony but I was too drugged up on pain pills due to an infection to enjoy it fully.) Now it's going to be over a Zoom meeting in my crappy apartment.

This is my doctorate. I wanted it to be special. I spent 7 years in college for this exact moment. I don't even get to show of my friends to my parents!!

Sorry, rant over.

[cheersandotherthings]

Presentations

Today I gave a presentation about Vasopressors and inotropic agents to be used in neonatal hypotension, hypoperfusion and septic shock. There were:

4 medical doctors (neonatal specialists)

6 NICU nurses

1 Pediatric pharmacist

1 medical resident

1 medical student 

and 1 pharmacy student

It was intense. But everyone said that I did a good job, I got a round of applause, and the only comment was that I spoke too quickly. The entire thing took about 20 minutes, we made it for the last half of rounds in the PICU and at 10:30 this morning I was sent home to relax until my next presentation at 2. 

All in all its been a good day. 

[rawritsjennknee]

19 days

Match day is in 19 days! So in 19 days the next year of my life will definitively have a plan. This is exciting, terrifying, and reassuring.

[rawritsjennknee]

I'm averaging a 99.77 in my rotations right now. LOOK AT ME RIGHT NOW! BEASTING my P4 year and my APPE rotations. I may not have been the strongest student in the classroom but when it has come to application I have been giving it my all and it is definitely showing. 

*screaming* This makes me really excited for my future and my career. 

[rawritsjennknee]

Lately I’ve been frustrated because I feel like my experience in Arizona has not been the best. My learning experience at the ambulatory care clinic has not been fulfilling. I came to this site because I had high expectations for what I’d be completing and learning with this team of pharmacists. So far nothing has lived up to those expectations. Disappointing. I’m not getting the ambulatory care experience that I crave so I’ve decided to make the best out of these next 18 days and get the experience I want. I obviously have to mold my preceptor and train him to get what I would like out of my experience so I shall do that.

One thing I am learning from this experience is that not everyone has my best interest in mind. Especially not the “friend” (using that term VERY lightly) that I decided to come here with. she has been nothing but rude and showing me that she could care less about my experience or me as a person. I used to address her as a friend but now I don’t even want to be in the same room as her. Welp, you live and you learn. Pharmacy lesson or not, I appreciate it.