#pac(c)man

[chasingthousands]

if ever I loved Thee, my Jesus 'tis now

How can I stand here with You / And not be moved by You?

Jesus I love You...I know I have little to give, but Jesus I love You. I want to give my all to You– my flesh and my spirit, my heart and my mind– Lord I give You all. My entire life, all my will– it's Yours and Yours alone.

"Ask Jesus not to allow me to refuse Him anything, however small. I [would] rather die."

Today I am reminded that the anointing is not just for peace and comfort, the anointing is not for myself. Jesus loves the people– and because He loves the people, I too must love the people.

Jesus wants me to tell you again … how much is the love He has for each one of you—beyond all what you can imagine Not only He loves you, even more—He longs for you. He misses you when you don’t come close. He thirsts for you. He loves you always, even when you don’t feel worthy.

Why does Jesus say “I thirst”? What does it mean? Something so hard to explain in words— “I thirst” is something much deeper than just Jesus saying “I love you.” Until you know deep inside that Jesus thirsts for you—you can’t begin to know who He wants to be for you. Or who He wants you to be for Him.

Again, I find my heart stirring, this time for the people. Jesus loves you, both the churched and the unchurched. Jesus loves you.

Lord let me be Your light in this dark hour. I lay my life down for Your will, for Your heavenly desires. Your ways are higher than my ways, Your thoughts higher than my thoughts. Less of me, more of You.

Jesus, allow me to show the world Your joy.

I would go to the ends of the earth for You– where do You want me to go?

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Because of you (and You), my heart has found a home

Today my heart is full of gratefulness and love for the people who have come to mean so much to me and the One who has come to mean so much to me.

To PAC(C)MAN: I don’t think I can ever say enough just how much I love you all. It’s because of you that I found a home. Am so grateful for each and every one of you. So many days, it’s because of you that I have the strength to push on. I can’t believe it’s only been slightly more than a year since I’ve become a cgc, and I am so proud to be leading this group. I love you. And I would go to the ends of the earth for you.

And God- all I feel is love for You, cos all I feel is love, from You. There is no need for more to be said…You know my heart, You know that I love You.

It is never easy. But you and You make it all so worth it.

So thank You. Thank You for grace. Thank You for hope. Thank You for love.

"If I know what love is, it is because of you."

[chasingthousands]

let our faith be more than anthems

God blessed them; and God said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply, and fill the earth, and subdue it; and rule over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the sky and over every living thing that moves on the earth.”

But the word of the Lord continued to grow and to be multiplied.

Moreover, the angel of the LORD said to her, “I will greatly multiply your descendants so that they will be too many to count.”

"I will certainly bless you, and I will multiply your descendants beyond number."

Today God is working in my heart, moving with faith. As I seek God for EmergeJC and for RI and for W555 and for PAC(C)MAN, God is challenging me with the story of the empty contract. He’s asking me to give up all of my human understanding, all of my human knowledge, all of my human desires, in exchange for His marvelous marvelous plan. If I had to sign a contract with God and I didn’t know what it entailed, would I still sign it? Yes, yes, yes. Definitely, without any shadow of a doubt.

And as I pray this prayer and keep an open mind about what He wants in my life, He is blowing my mind. 

All this while, I’ve been believing for growth- in RI, in W555, in PAC(C)MAN…but today God says: Phine, I don’t want growth, I want multiplication. Don’t limit Me. Make disciples, not believers. I want multiplication, not addition.

God…use me however You want to. I’m a broken, willing vessel for Your glory. However You want to, Lord, I am here. Let my life reflect Your love, let my walk reflect Your glory. Here I am, send me. By grace, through faith, I am Yours and Yours alone.