Gah, Max Bowden you are so good. Making me feel all the things.
Of course he isn´t going to tell Callum how he´s really doing.
Imagining how good it was, how great it could have been. Crying thinking he´ll never have that again (stoppp i cannot).
Resigning himself to letting him go.
Cry-laughing about doing the dance routine with Phil. Instead of Callum. Hurting. Without Callum. Needing Callum. Feeling undeserving of Callum. Waaah.










