Music Saved Me
All my life I’ve been told that I’m not good enough, that I will never amount to anything… All my life I’ve been called Fat and ugly and that I will never be skinny or beautiful… I have spent my whole life being told these things so often that I never had a voice, I never had a though of my own to myself about myself… I have spent my whole life being told who I am and what I am that I lost myself… I have spent my whole life worrying and stressing about what others think of me that it caused me to never find myself… I became one of the millions out there that was so saddened by all this bullying that all I wanted to do was take my life.
But then I found my music, I found something that I was passionate about. I played until my cheeks hurts from blowing into my saxophone. But then I got onto my drum set and hit and banged as long as i could, coming up with beats of my own until my arms felt like dead weight. I pushed through the pain… and finally… I found myself. Even to this day, when my heart feels heavy, I try to pick up my guitar and practice until my fingers hurt from pushing against the frets. The pain unwinds my stress, just like my tattoos. Pain unraveling into something more beautiful than the pain that hurt my heart.
Even now to this day, when I still hurt, Music always saves me. Even after finding out that people knew I was hurting myself back then and did nothing to reach out and help me, music always saves me. Even now when someone tries to bring me down, I can finally say that Music gave me my strength.