#paper bleeds

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It’s official; they’re not my friends

I’m sure ones blocked me, one no longer follows me (on Instagram) they all hang out without me and the worst part, THEY WILL NOT TELL WHAT I MUST HAVE DONE!! I don’t understand 😭 I’m too scared to ask tbf but like come on

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I’m writing two fic updates; one on Ao3 (Wilson has the infarction instead of House) and another in my notes app (Neil goes to military school and that whole shebang but happy Anderperry ending trust) and I’ve just realised something.

This is absolutely fucking stupid. I’m disregarding really integral parts of canon (dps especially) all because ideas intrigue me. What the fuck. I should actually put a pin in it genuinely. I can’t remember a thing of what happens at this stage as stated in canon for the House fic and I’m too scared to rewatch. None of this shit would ever happen, I understand that’s the whole point, but oh my lord.

Additionally; I have too many on going fics and people might think I’ve dropped them, any ones beside thg, I haven’t I promise, but time flies and I have no excuse. I wanted to write a book, I can’t even commit to this, I could never. Ts pmo.

Oh and my writing style is ass, it’s horrendously repetitive but I cannot do shit about it. I’m gonna chuck something.

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On todays episode of people my age and who I know are getting drunk in fields while I am certainly not- today I have an hour long conversation about fanfiction with my friend on WhatsApp which stemmed from whatever conversation we were having about six hours ago cuz we were chatting for a while about all sorts

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I hate being a teenage girl, I have shitty friends and they keep hanging out (without me) and I keep hearing about it and it makes me sad especially as today I actually went out on my own and they won’t even tell me why they don’t want me there what did I do?!?!!