#partial program

[thenexussystem]

We are starting a partial hospitalization program tomorrow and we are suuuuuuuper nervous...

what if they don’t believe we have DID?

what if we are made fun of for always carrying around a backpack full of comfort objects (stuffies, a paci, slime, fidget cube, etc.)?

what if we accidentally oversleep and don’t make it there on time?

our anxiety is pretty high right now aaaahhhhh

[never-not-ever]

Curious about how this partial thing is going to work out. My old therapist used to work at one of the partials I’m looking into. We had to end things after a year because she was part of a DBT training program and because she also worked a the partial she couldn’t continue seeing me. That was back in August 2017 so it’s been a while and I’m not sure if she still works there or not. I had sent her an email about 6 months after we ended things with an update of my life and I never got a reply from her. I think someone had mentioned she was away from McLean for a while so I’m not sure what happened or if she’s still there.

As for the other place, every time I’ve gone there I had the same team and my doctor there was amazing. She’d always tell me when I left that I could always call her (work voicemail) if I needed anything. Well the last time I was there I called her my first night home and left a voicemail saying how everything completely spiraled in the course of 12 hours and I don’t remember too much of exactly what I said but I know I was suicidal. She had called my outside doctor and told her of my voicemail and then my outside doctor called me and I went inpatient. So there’s just some weirdness there if I were to 1) go back there and get her or 2) go back there and not get her and just feel like there’s this giant elephant in the room.

Ughh I fucking hate how much I overthink things.

[crossfitjesusinblackskinnyjeans]

Therapy is an interesting thing. Especially the ppl you meet there. They can become new friends in your life.

[mangos-or-tangos]