If, like me, you reverted in 2010's and were active on tumblr at the time, partytilfajr/osama eisa was probably very much on your radar. When I was in my early 20's, spiritually confused and very eager to make sense of my newfound religion, I looked up to him as a resource and role model - The image he cultivated made sure that was likely.
This is, unfortunately, far from the first time I've learned that someone in a position of social power has abused that power on this platform. It's also not the first time that someone acting as a spiritual leader in an American Muslim context has abused multiple women - those of us who remember Nouman Ali Khan certainly recognize the pattern.
I'm writing off the cuff, here - I have a mind to link to various resources, and I certainly want anyone who follows this blog to reach out; If not to us then to trusted people in their communities, and to disclose if they feel they're being manipulated by a faith leader.
Spiritual abuse is... so, so real. And it's gone hidden among Muslims for far too long. I don't know how to end this statement- I'm thinking of the women this man took advantage of, I'm making dūa for them, I'm sending lanat on this cruel, vicious man, and all men like him who seek to harm vulnerable women.
If you need you speak to someone, please don't hesitate to message- I'm able to provide an ear and familiar perspective for my fellow shi'a, and will gladly do whatever I'm able to for Muslims of all paths who need someone in solidarity with them.
Siblings, take care of yourselves. Trust ﷲ ﷻ with all things, and listen and speak to your friends. I love you, Allah loves you, and Islam is for you, no matter how many terrible people try to use it to harm you.