#schizoid

[girlzoid]

i dont "struggle" with isolation, i'm actually soooooo super fucking good at it

[ghostlyschizophrenic]

schizophrenia spectrum people who have violent urges are still deserving of care and compassion without judgement

schizophrenia spectrum people who are homeless or experience food insecurity are still deserving of care and compassion without judgement

schizophrenia spectrum people who talk out loud to hallucinations and act erratic in public are still deserving of care and compassion without judgement

schizophrenia spectrum people who cannot work or go to school because of their symptoms are still deserving of care and compassion without judgement

schizophrenia spectrum people who struggle with personal hygiene are still deserving of care and compassion without judgement

schizophrenia spectrum people who don’t want to take medication or cannot adhere to a medication regiment are still deserving of care and compassion without judgement

schizophrenia spectrum people who live with their parents as an adult or needs a carer are still deserving of care and compassion without judgement

just because someone on the schizophrenia spectrum is stereotypical or societally ostracized doesn’t take away their right to being treated with kindness, compassion, and respect and given autonomy

[giritina]

I've encountered many people with schizospectrum symptoms (including myself) who say therapy doesn't work for them, and usually after talking it becomes clear they lie to their therapist, make up problems to talk about, or go along with whatever their therapist's assesment of them is and suppress anything that doesn't fit. This is actually a problem common enough that it shows up in schizospectrum therapy research. It's worth stating explicitly you should be able to tell your therapist whatever youre feeling, even if that is

1. I feel nothing and have nothing to talk about

2. I hate you/think you're evil/think you're plotting again me

3. I think you hate me/think I'm evil/think I'm doing something bad

4. I think this isn't working and the things you tell me don't help me

5. Your analysis of what I'm going through is wrong

6. You're making me feel angry/sad/useless/stupid

7. I feel like you're secretly trying to communicate [x] to me because you said [y]

8. I've just been trying to guess what you want me to say and saying it

9. I'm suffering because of things I can only describe as otherworldly or spiritual or not of this world

Getting a trustworthy therapist can be difficult, and a bad therapist might react in a way that makes you feel like you can't do these things when you do say them. I always look for leftist therapists who will advocate for my rights as a patient and who are critical of police and institutionalization, and this advice is most relevant to people who are entering therapy consensually rather than under coercive, dangerous circumstances. A good therapist will want you to say these things and won't be upset or reject you, they'll just try to help with the issue.

[sarinisanta]

One day we'll live in a world where we'll be able to treat the experiences of folks with schizophrenia with the respect they deserve and not like a circus show.

One day.

[nopointinname]

Cluster a culture is being suspicious and somewhat convinced and paranoid that others can read your mind and see into your internal world, especially if you:

a) tell them too much

b) don't control your facial expressions and body language

c) give accidental proof that you have..thoughts, feelings and are a real person *gasp*

[hazedxg0]

When people talk about mental health issues that cause low mood, hopelessness, apathy, etc, they always say things like "Don't worry, you won't feel like this forever! With the right treatment all your positive emotions will come back and you will feel so satisfied and happy!"

And it makes sense, because they're approaching it from the understanding of depression. But as someone with schizoid personality disorder, I kind of hate how this kind of attitude is seen as the "correct" way of addressing MH issues, and if you disagree you're just "anti-recovery" or "pessimistic". You're treated as if you just haven't seen the light yet.

But the thing is, there is no real treatment for SzPD. No medications are known to be effective, and there aren't any cohesively developed therapies for it either. If you look hard enough into clinical databases, you can find outlines for potential future therapies that could be developed with further research, but nothing concrete.

Therapists don't know how to treat us because cluster A personality disorders don't receive a lot of coverage in psych courses, and of course there's the aforementioned lack of developed treatments. If you have a good therapist, they can try tweaking schizophrenia or ASPD therapies for you, but again, none of this is designed for us and it's really just trial and error.

SzPD is also just...not depression. There's no chemical imbalance in my brain that can be corrected with an SSRI, this is the way my literal personality has developed. I didn't lose interest in things I used to care about, I've never cared about anything. I didn't stop feeling connection to people, I never felt it in the first place. I don't feel like a burden or like I'm worthless, I have no concept of what my "self" is even supposed to be. And so on.

I can't even feel upset that I'm supposedly going to be like this forever. It's not like I'm crying myself to sleep every night over this. I just don't feel satisfaction from anything, never have and probably never will. I literally don't have the emotional range to have an existential crisis over this, even though it sounds like the plot of a psychological horror story.

You try to explain this to non-schizoids and they go "Oh, you're just depressed :) have you tried meds?" but no, it's a completely different issue on every single level. An issue that has no known treatments that most MH professionals barely know exists.

It's funny that some psychiatrists will say that the SzPD diagnosis should be removed because "they never seek treatment anyway". What treatment? Meds I don't need and therapies that are designed for completely different disorders? Your little issue of "low clinical utility" seems to be a self-fulfilling prophecy.

[haretic]

i think people dont understand that if i have a paranoid disorder, im going to be paranoid, all the time, without fail. sometimes less, sometimes more. if i have an episode, you cant do anything about it. ill believe it until i dont. thats all. im not just going to stop being paranoid because im told im being paranoid or told that it isnt true. in fact, ill even start to resent you for it if you press me too rudely on how im wrong. i know i am, i cant change it, and now youre being mean to me. who is this going to help? certainly not me, because now i have another thing to be paranoid about. thanks.

[chartnumber3]

i hate when people think youre "more" than you are

i literally have zero opinion of you

"you seem mad. its okay lol, i know that youre just denying that you really do want connection and you do care! ill help you"

i do NOT desire anything with anyone how is that so strange and impossible to understand

"lol youre so weird. stoic but everyone knows you got feelings and loneliness in there. i know youre shy, but ill help its ok dont be scared"

just kill me at this point..

they assume that youre well rounded and complex and have hidden desires. youre thinking too much about it, youre just making me a weird fictional character at this point