#schizoid

[girlzoid]

everythings boring because im boring

[yaybadluck]

I think you are going to cause massive emotional trauma to some vulnerable people, if you haven't already. And I think being you must be a very special form of hell.

That sounds mean and I'm not trying to be mean so I'm posting this to no one in particular so that if you read this you won't be certain if I'm talking about you or not and so you won't be sure if I'm shitty or not (I'm so very afraid)

[chartnumber3]

i wish i can do anything weird and "unconventional" that i feel like doing. things only i would understand. sit outside in one spot for hours, seeing what itd be like to be a certain plant or lamp post for the day, or lay on the unconfortable sharp gravel and purposely sensory deficit myself, climb a tree and stay in it until it rains and im cold and its night and the suffering would be the point, it would be the experience. i would like to collect "experiences" like that. (these examples are somewhat sterilized and generic, trying to describe these desires accurately are hard to explain but these get the idea right especially about the suffering)

of course then people come rushing in, asking about this or that, about if they could come, if they could help, what about the time, what if something happens, what about 1 million trillion other things, why would i want to do it, why alone, thats weird, etc. etc. like the world itself is against me having some weird artistic schizo peace. just, leave me alone. why do people insist on being involved?

it doesnt mean anything if i say no by the way, nothing at all, theres no emotion in that decision. i just sometimes want to be alone and strange. i havent got to experience anything weird id like to do because of it. i just want to do one of those things. i think itd do a lot for me

[chartnumber3]

a coworker did the usual "hi how are you doing?" thing (which i hate so, so much you dont even know) when i was clocking in, of course i responded with just "hi" or something and she asked if i was "shy". ughh.

i just kind of said "i just dont care about people. its a ... mental thing."

she just responded with "ok!" and nothing else was said or asked about it. and, i do appreciate that. thats along the lines of how you could properly "talk" to a schizoid (if for some reason you found it necessary to). that was cool. shes alright.

[schizoidpolls]

is part of your "aloof behavior" an effort to not make others feel invaded/engulfed?

yes

maybe/idk/nuance

no

not schizoid button (see results)

Remaining time: 6 days 7 hours

for example: i don't ask people many personal questions, because i find personal questions to be invasive and don't want to invade someone else, but it ends up coming across as disinterest sometimes.

(this poll is inclusive to those who are self-diagnosed or questioning! reblog for sample size!)

[internetdwellingvampire]

yeah, i might be a self-serving apath who doesn’t feel particularly inclined toward anybody or anything. but at least i’m self aware about it.

[enemylloyd]

I hate hate hate the term "social contract". Maybe ill make a longer post about my thoughts but like I'm not obligated to be nice to you and youre not obligated to be nice to me. I do not agree to your contract dont ever talk to me again.

[schizoidpolls]

do you feel like you're on the schizophrenia spectrum?

yes, i relate to people with schizophrenia

no, but i understand why szpd is considered schizospec

no, i don't consider szpd schizospec

idk i dont think about it

nuance/other

not schizoid (see results)

Remaining time: 5 days 7 hours

(this poll is inclusive of those who are self-diagnosed or questioning! reblog for sample size!)