If I Were A Blackbird, part 4 [co-written with @darkmagyk] [read on ao3]
Jason was cool. They weren’t in the same sport, which was probably for the best–even a week out from the opening ceremony, tensions were really starting to rise around the village. The blond was a sprinter, but he wasn’t a dick about it like most of the rest of the track and field team.
There was a kind of long history of Percy being told he just sat on his ass and let the boat do all the work. That was demonstrably untrue, but the insult had always sat with him in a weird way. But Jason hadn’t said anything like that. So Jason was cool.
“Mind if I sit here?” he asked, approaching his table, awkwardly holding his food tray like he was the new student on the first day of boarding school, and picking the right table would make or break his social status for the next four years.
Jason swallowed, nodding.
Percy slid into his side of the table. See? Cool. A dude of few words, but cool.
He was trying to take Hazel’s words to heart–really. Expand his social circle. And since he couldn’t find his cousin, Jason would do in a pinch.
They sat in silence for several minutes, eating. The Olympic mess was a big buffet, with many different cuisines competing for his sense of smell. And also a McDonalds, because some forms of imperialism were universal.
Hazel was doing some sort of outing with the rest of the equestrians. Percy loved horse people, and still felt kind of awkward around the rest of the sailing team, so he kind of wished he had tagged along. But instead he ate his food mostly in silence across from Jason, whose glasses were pushed up on his nose, and was reading on his phone while he ate. Did he wear those glasses while running?
Percy picked at his food, not wanting to be rude, and interrupt, but almost bursting to say something.
So it was a relief when he put his phone down and looked up at Percy, “Sorry, had to follow up with some stuff at home. How’s it going?”
“Pretty good,” Percy said. He’d spent the day training, getting used to the rhythms of the ocean here. He loved doing that, being in the water, feeling how all the bodies of oceans of the world, all those bodies of water, were distinct but interconnected. It helped, too, that though the weather on land was kind of killing him, all that vanished when he got out to sea.
Just Percy, the water, and his boat. A holy trinity of sorts.
The workout in the village gym hadn’t been nearly as effortless, but it had been necessary. And now Percy had showered and recharged, and was tucking in for a slightly late dinner with a potential new friend.
He asked Jason about his day’s practice, and then made some small talk pleasantries after that. Luke was the king of small talk with strangers. Percy did not have his gifts, obviously, but he tried to mimic what he saw.
“Yeah, I’m from California,” Jason was explaining.
“So, the weather isn’t so bad to you?”
Jason wrinkled his nose, and there was something about his expression, and blue eyes, that reminded Percy of something. He just wasn’t sure what. “No,” he said, “I live in San Francisco. I was technically born in LA, and did a couple of stints there over the years. But So Cal is not normally this humid. Is it bad for a yankee?”
Percy felt his own face sour. “I’m going to assume, because you're a west coast bro, that that was an honest mistake, and not meant as a deadly insult. But I’m from New York. I am not a Yankee.” He spat out the last word.
“Is this a baseball thing?”
Percy frowned. “Yes,” he said, “yes it is.”
“That’s…” Whatever Jason was going to say was cut off, apparently by something beyond Percy’s head. “Frank? Hey, Frank!” He called, waving an arm, flagging someone down.
The someone turned out to be a tall, heavy set Chinese guy with a black buzz cut, and a Team Canada hoodie. At least, that’s who Percy assumed Frank was. But he supposed it could have been the significantly shorter white woman by his side, decked out in similar Canadian swag.
“Jason,” presumably Frank said. “I’ve been looking for you.”
“It's good to see you, man,” Jason responded. “You guys want to join us?”
Frank glanced at his companion, who nodded, and they set their trays down next to Percy and Jason. Percy smiled, politely.
“Frank Zhang, Percy Jackson. He’s a sailor for Team USA and my roommate here. Percy, this is my buddy Frank. He does archery for Team Canada.”
Curious. “A Californian and a Canadian?”
Frank laughed. “They let us leave the country, sometimes. We went to undergrad together.”
That made more sense. Berkeley, maybe? Or Stanford. Those schools might pull a Canadian in. Even if they did go to California. “Nice to meet you.”
They shook hands. “And this,” Frank indicated to his companion, “Is Kayla Knowles, fellow archer for team Canada, and the person who puts all of my 10000 hours of practice to shame.”
“What can I say? Archery is in my blood,” she said, shaking Percy’s hand, too.
“Her dad is Darren Knowles,” Frank explained. “He won gold in Athens.”
Percy nodded as though he actually knew anything about archers from the early 2000s. “Cool,” he said, as neutrally as possible. “The family business.” Some people enjoyed being a part of the family business, and others felt trapped by circumstances and family ties to participate in certain things. Normally he saw it in sports, but he knew Luke’s career choices had been heavily influenced by his father.
“I’ve always been a big fan,” Kayla promised. “I don’t try to hide my family connections, or anything.”
More small talk revealed that Frank was from Vancouver, but Kayla was from Toronto and had spent some time in New York. She was even able to name a handful of her favorite pizza joints that Percy had been to, and together, they swiftly formed a united front against Jason and Frank’s evil, west coast tastes.
“East coast chowder is best,” Percy said. “End of discussion.”
“You’ve never even had west coast chowder,” Jason pointed out.
“Look, I made that mistake with pizza… and burgers… and hotdogs.” Percy said. “I’m not about to make that mistake with chowder, too. What exactly am I supposed to think California can do better?”
“Poke?” Jason suggested.
“Some white guy’s imitation of Hawiian food is never going to be better than my mama’s,” Percy said. “Try again.”
The metaphorical culinary gauntlet thrown, Jason pulled himself up to his full height while still sitting down. “Fine. Coffee.”
“Dunkin over Starbucks any day.”
“This is Tim Horton’s slander,” Frank muttered.
Jason narrowed his eyes. “Tacos.”
“We’re literally in Mexico right now, and you’re going to tell me that some taco bowl from the Stanford food court is better.”
Kayla giggle-snorted. “Burn.”
Frank frowned. “Whose side are you on?”
“Canada’s, in general,” she said. “But at the moment, Percy’s. East coast, all the way.”
“Thank you.”
“Anyway, if you two are done flirting for now,” Kayla said, “I heard from a buddy of mine on the cycling team that a bunch of us are going to go out to some bar after dinner. You in?”
Percy wasn’t really one for nights out. He mostly did it because it was Luke’s third favorite form of conspicuous consumption. “Ah–it’s getting a bit late, isn’t it?”
“When’s your first event?” she asked.
He opened his mouth, then paused. Not for another couple of weeks.
“That’s what I thought,” Kayla said, without him even saying anything. “I’ll see you guys in 45, out front.”
Percy sighed, but he didn’t fight it. He was going to try and do as Hazel asked, and go out to a club with someone who wasn’t Luke.
So he followed Jason back to their room, and they both changed into slightly less embarrassing displays–no sweatband or obnoxious, red-white-and-blue “USA” in sight. Or, at least, Percy went for something less embarrassing. Jason put on khakis and an actual polo shirt. To go to a club. What a fucking square. If he kept this up, Percy might actually become fond of him.
They met Kayla, resplendent in a little gold number which showed off her arms and back (and good grief was she ripped). Frank had only removed his team Canada hoodie, and was probably the most sensibly dressed one of them all. There were a few other people with them, a motley mix of swimmers and sprinters and skeeballers and whatnot, but Percy kept close to Frank and Jason as they headed out.
Even though night had fallen, and the sun was well beneath the horizon, it was somehow still so fucking hot outside. Percy kept pulling at his collar, occasionally mopping at his face with his sleeve. Not the best look for a night on the town.
The bar they ended up at was a cool, hip, indoor-outdoor thing, where at least the circulating night air made the humidity a little more bearable. Hopefully no one noticed that he snagged the table closest to the little, struggling, but still defiant rotating fan in the corner.
Thank goodness then that the margaritas in Mexico were nice and cold. Percy drank up, liking the ice almost as much as the tequila. He learned, to his eternal amusement, that no one put limes in beer south of the (American) border. Though apparently, they did that north of the border, too, if Frank’s disappointment was anything to go by.
And so, while Kayla and a couple friends went for the dance floor, Jason, to help ease Frank’s pain like the true bro that he was, went for the shots.
Percy lost count after the… fourth one, he thought. The tequila wasn’t necessarily the strongest, but damn did it go down easy, easy enough for him to get that kind of floaty, buzzy feel from being well and truly drunk. Time to switch to water.
With whatever sober consciousness he possessed, he ordered the biggest tray of quesadillas the place offered, and Jason and Frank actually cheered when it arrived. “Holy shit,” Frank moaned, his mouth full of beans and cheese. “Oh my god. What the fuck.”
“Good?”
He nodded, eyes closed against the sublimity of it all. “I don’t even care that I’m lactose intolerant.”
Jason didn’t answer, wolfing down his quesadilla like a man possessed. Then he ordered another shot, and started eyeing Percy’s quesadilla, too, bloodlust behind his glasses. Percy was afraid he was going to have to resort to physical violence to protect his food, and wouldn’t that be bad for morale. Thankfully, for a given value of thankfulness, that was when someone turned on the karaoke machine. And like the runner he was, Jason bolted to be first in line.
“Oh no,” Frank said.
“That bad?”
Frank sighed. “Jason tries to turn his drunk karaoke into an art form. He hasn’t succeeded yet.”
“He do this a lot?”
Frank shook his head. “Normally he’s wine drunk, and that’s bad enough. Who knows what tequila is going to do to him.”
The synth beats started to reverberate through the club, vaguely familiar, but Percy couldn’t place them yet.
Frank did not have that problem, putting his head in his hands. “I’m going to kill him.”
It took about fifteen seconds for Percy to realize Jason was singing “Hungry Like The Wolf.”
“I hate when he does this one,” Frank complained. “He loves Duran Duran. We got banned for life from a bar in Stanford after he and his sister did… I’ll charitably call it a duet.”
“That’s…”
“I still have nightmares, Jackson. I still have nightmares.”
Percy very quickly decided he was also going to have nightmares. Jason, bless him, gave it his all. Possibly, too much. He was loud, he held out the notes too long, he did not stay in tune, let alone on key.
Also, he howled. A lot. Percy was pretty sure in the original song, the howling was more implied.
He ordered water after that. He was plenty confident about plenty of things, But he never wanted to have enough confidence to do what Jason was doing now.
He ordered one for Jason, too. Though when he returned, he took one sip, and then ordered another round of shots, drinking Percy’s when he declined it. “Maybe you should slow down a bit, dude.”
“East Coast Bitch afraid he can’t keep up?” he said with a savage smile: aggressive, sure, but never without an underlying friendship in its drunkenness.
But something in the back of Percy’s brain, beyond just the alcohol still coursing through his system, made him want to rise to the challenge–and beat Jason’s ass. “Not with your embarrassing display that passes for singing.”
“It's your only chance,” Jason said, and in one fluid move propelled himself onto the table. Percy barely even saw him put weight on his arms. It was kind of crazy. “You sit on your ass all day out on the water; there’s no way you can beat me at dancing.”
He wasn’t sure why, exactly, but he could not let that insult stand.
It was not nearly as fluid as Jason, but in just a moment he’d climbed on the table next to him.
“Uh, guys?” Frank said. “I don’t think these tables are really built for this sort of thing.”
But they paid him no heed. They were off, dancing to the new beat.
He wasn’t much of a dancer, really, though judging by his moves, Jason wasn’t either. And yet they found themselves both girating and spinning atop the small round tables. At least it seemed to be a common practice.
He tried to roll his hips and move his arms to the music, some Mexican pop song that a German golfer was attempting to sing, to the general merriment of his Mexican counterpart, trying to keep the beat as best he could, and keeping an eye on Jason out of the corner of his eye.
Everything was going alright, until Jason decided to do a backflip.
On the table.
Without falling off.
What the fuck? Was he secretly a gymnast?
Based on the way he stuck the landing, and then stood up, arms raised, the small crowd chanting his name, possibly.
That could not stand.
Percy could do a backflip. He was 100% sure of it.
The real issue was doing a backflip and managing to land on the table, perfectly balanced.
He could not do that, apparently.
Even so, lying flat on his back on the ground, his ears ringing, his fellow Olympians still gave him a resounding cheer for trying. That was nice of them.
Eyes swimming, he opened them, blinking back into focus. The lights from the disco ball raced across the ceiling, like stars across the night sky.
When his vision finally cleared, he saw a pair of gray eyes peering at him, full of barely hidden mirth. A very familiar pair of gray eyes. He had only had the opportunity to view them up close for less than twelve hours, but they had made quite the impression. “Hey!” he said, grinning. “It’s you!”
“Oh really?” she said, raising an eyebrow at a familiar arch. “So who am I?”
Of course he remembered her name. It was seared into his phone and his memory. But he was still feeling kind of buzzy, and he felt like trolling a little. “You’re an angel, obviously.”
Snorting, she rolled her eyes, holding out a hand. “The Phantom Menace? Really?”
“And she even knows Star Wars references,” Percy said, spreading his arms across the stone floor, then hoisting himself up, leaping to his feet via the power of abdominals. Oh boy. That might have been a bit of a mistake. “You might actually be my dream girl,” he grinned through the pain.
Those beautiful gray eyes glowed in the dim light of the bar, warm like a firelight reflecting off metal. In her heels, she was just barely shorter than him, but she stood as though she towered over everyone. “Are you gatekeeping me, Percy Jackson?”
She even remembered his name! His heart gave a little flutter. Or maybe that was his stomach. “Never, Annabeth Chase.”
Then she smiled at him. That one was definitely his heart.
“What brings you to Mexico?”
“Vacation,” she answered, smoothly. “And you’re here on Olympic duty, I presume?”
“What gave it away?”
Elegantly, she gestured with one hand. “Your posse of multilingual athletes. Plus, you posted about it on your Instagram.”
He smirked. “You’ve been checking me out on the ‘Gram?” he asked, extremely gratified to see her turn pink under the light of the disco ball.
They wandered away from Jason’s continued acrobatics (damn, dude. Motherfucker was way more built than he let on) towards the bar.
“Can I get you something?” She asked. She had her own glass in hand. About a third of her margarita was gone.
“Lemonade,” Percy said.
Her lips curled at the edges. “Cutting yourself off?”
“Yeah.” He chanced a lean-in, straightening himself up a little bit, and getting a front-row seat to the pupils of her eyes as they expanded. “I want to be clear-headed for this.”
“And what, dare I ask, is this?”
“Not sure yet,” he said. “Something good, though, I hope.”
Smiling, she bit one red lip, her lipstick shockingly bright in the dim lights of the bar. When his lemonade arrived, they clinked their glasses together, and drank up.
“So, you travel a lot?” he said, after a lull in the music. “New York, Mérida… Where else have you been?”
She hummed, considering. “All over the place. I traveled a lot when I was younger, mostly in Europe. Now I’m kind of splitting my time between New York and Stockholm.”
Percy whistled. “Stockholm, huh? Exotic! What do you do there?”
Almost imperceptibly, she froze, before going to take a sip of her drink. “My dad works for the government,” she said. “But my job is based in the states.”
“You’re an architect, right?”
She nodded. “Been with my firm for about a year and a half.”
“Have you built anything I’ve ever seen?”
Chuckling, she shook her head. Her hair, already curly, was frizzing out in the humid night, like a great, golden cloud, gently undulating with her movements. “I’m not that high up.”
“Yet,” he pointed out.
Annabeth smirked. “Yet. Soon, though, I hope. I have some contracts for after the Olympics that I think might pan out.”
It was not lost on him that she wasn’t exactly giving him any details, but he didn’t mind a little caginess. He understood the feeling. “What are you most looking forward to, here?”
One eyebrow cocked, her eyes meeting his head-on, she took another drink, treating him to the long line of her throat as it swallowed. She smacked her lips together, obnoxiously enough to be utterly endearing. “Any suggestions?”
He tapped his finger against his chin, pursing his lips. “Not sure. I might recommend swimming, or diving, or maybe something involving the ocean.”
“You a big fan of water sports, then?”
“Oh, yeah. Huge fan. Wait–” He could feel himself flushing, deep red, and she was laughing, her head thrown back. Her laughter was musical, rising and falling like a melody of a song Percy desperately wanted to know.
So, sailing, then?” she eventually said, after her laughter subsided.
Still red, he nodded. “Ever since I was a kid.”
“Is it a family thing?”
He scratched his head. “Kinda… I never really knew my dad, but my mom always said she met him in a fishing boat. Guess it just runs in my veins.” His dad was… a subject, and not one he wanted to think about right now.
Sensing his reticence, maybe, she pivoted the conversation. “Is this your first Olympics?”
“Technically my second. I was an alternate last time, but this is my first time on the team officially.” She was leaning in, her feet turned towards him, her arms open and at her sides. “I have a feeling I’m going to get lucky.”
“Do you, now?”
“Mmhmm.” He craned his head down, stopping just a few inches of her lips. “I’ve got gold in my sights,” he said, bringing up his hand to tuck a curl behind her ear.
She didn’t stop him.
In some part of his mind, he registered that he was acting way more confident than he had that first night, in the club with Luke. But hey, it seemed to be working. “So,” he said.
“So.” Not necessarily an invitation, he thought. But not exactly a deterrent.
Well. Nothing ventured. “It’s a little loud in here,” he said, over the music which was certainly simmering down. “You wanna find somewhere quieter?”
She reached out and grabbed his hand. It wasn’t the most intimate, but he felt his whole body buzz in anticipation. With a gentle tug, she made her way out of the crush of people, Percy following right on her heels.
They rounded a corner, and she pushed him up against the dark, shadowed wall, and then her lips were on his. He gingerly placed his hand on her waist, gratified by the way she pushed into him further, her hands going to his hair.
He’d kissed her before. Of course he’d kissed her before. He’d kissed her everywhere before. And yet, the taste of citrus and salt were not the same as in New York. And this wasn’t some one time, accidental thing.
It was a two time accidental thing. Which meant it was fate.
And Percy would have to be a mighty fool to not believe in fate.
There was no line outside the outdoor bathrooms, but he could still feel her looking furtively around as he kissed her neck, running his tongue up and down the pulse point of the neck which had so captivated him before. “C’mon,” he felt her murmur. “Coast is clear.” He offered no resistance as she maneuvered them closer to the door.
Unfortunately, when she opened it, they were hit with the sad, familiar smell of a bar bathroom. “Balders balle, that’s foul,” Annabeth choked, coughing. Precy had to agree.
He kicked it closed with his foot, then lacing their fingers together, took off back into the crowd, towards the indoor part of the bar. He had seen something earlier, something which could still salvage their mood.
It was his turn to look furtively, and make sure no one was watching. But luck was certainly on their side tonight, and no one but Annabeth was there to watch as he dropped to one knee, fished an old gift card out from his wallet, and started fiddling with the doorknob of the locked office.
“Seriously?” Annabeth asked, though he couldn’t detect any real concern in her voice. Which was good.
Tongue between his teeth, he slipped the card in between the crack in the door, putting as much pressure as he dared on the lock, and…
The door swung open, easy as anything. “Luke taught me,” he said. “Besides, it’s classier than a bathroom anyway.”
Standing up, he pulled her inside, and she went, almost giggling.
The office was dark, small, and most importantly, empty, the cool, neon glow of the orange street lamps streaming in through the blinds, casting her like some sort of ethereal goddess. He backed her up against the desk, giving a satisfied groan as her hands went directly to his ass. He wished he could do the same, but instead he had to use both his hands to get the condom out of his wallet. He was thankful Kayla had shoved one into his, Jason’s, and Frank’s hand before they went out. It was lucky; he had some in his toiletry kit, but he’d used his last condom, ironically enough, with Annabeth in New York (before breaking into the toiletry stash as well for round two.)
He broke the kiss, holding it up between them. “You still wanna?” By the way her pupils were dilated and the way she looked like she wanted to eat him alive, she probably did. Never hurt to check though.
Annabeth ripped the package from his hand. “‘Stop STIs’?” she read.
“Courtesy of the International Olympics Committee,” he explained. “They hand condoms out by the thousands.”
“You all are a randy bunch, aren’t you?”
“I think we’re all just going for the gold.”
She rolled her eyes. “You made that joke already.” But she also ripped the condom open.
“What can I say?” He smiled, because there was nothing else to do. “I just want to get you on my podium.”
“Oh my god, shut up.”
“I can’t.” he said. “You are so fucking beautiful, I can’t think about anything else but you. And bad pick-up lines.”
She smiled at him, radiant, her steel-gray eyes full of laughter. Then pulling him closer once more, Annabeth shut him up properly.
***
Hans was waiting for her as they exited the bar, just two more people in the crush of athletes pouring out into the street. “You good to get back to your hotel?” Percy asked. “I can wait until you get a cab.”
“I’ve got a friend waiting for me,” she promised. “Text me when you get back to the village.”
“Will do.” His smile was infectious, sweet and easy with just the hint of the best kind of trouble behind his teeth. She knew everything about that smile–she had just spent the last forty minutes attempting to eat it right off his face, after all.
And oh, she wanted to kiss him again right now, a kiss full of heat and passion and all those other good things. But it wasn’t a great idea, not with all these people around.
Still. She couldn’t resist giving him one final peck on the cheek, squeezing his hand.
As she bundled into Hans’ car, she was treated to his shocked face, pink dusting his cheekbones and his nose, his dark hair almost blue in the bright light of the street lamps.
“I’m used to you vanishing on me,” Hans grumbled, goodnaturedly, from the front seat, “but this is a new one.”
“I told you where I was.”
“And next time, I would appreciate you letting me know beforehand. Your highness.”
She snorted, resting her head against the window. “I’ll try to remember.”
Maybe she should give him less of a hard time. Hans Gunderson had been more or less a permanent fixture in her life since as far back as she could remember, and a far more accommodating one than most. He had gently tolerated her disappearing acts for years, and he wasn’t one to comment on her various adventures and escapades unless there really was cause for concern. In a world full of people who took every decision they could out of her hands, it was nice to have someone who trusted her… even when they probably shouldn’t.
“Who is he?” he asked.
“An athlete.”
“American?”
“Yeah…”
“And do I get a name?”
She didn’t want to give it, but… he was her bodyguard. It was kind of his job. “Jackson. Percy.”
In the rear view mirror, she saw him nod to himself.
“Don’t hurt him.”
“Do I have a reason to hurt him?”
“No.”
He shrugged. “Then I won’t hurt him.”
“Much appreciated.” From behind him, she saw his shoulders tense, his jaw working as he considered something. “What?” He shook his head, but Annabeth was not going to let it slide. “No, really, what?”
“I forget, sometimes, because you are so quintessentially your father’s daughter, our great princess of Sweden, that you are also your mother’s daughter.”
“I can assure you,” Annabeth said, pushing her voice to be as droll as possible, so as not to let the hurt shine through, “Clubs are not really her thing.”
“That isn’t what I meant,” Hans said. “Your mother was… you shouldn’t be ashamed of who she was.”
“I’m not,” Annabeth insisted. And she wasn’t. She never had been. Angry and resentful, sure, but never ashamed. It was everyone else who hadn’t approved of her parents’ relationship, one that flew in the face of things like tradition and good sense.
“I know I won’t have to hurt him, because I know you’re strong, and I know that for every punch and swing and kick I might have helped you learn, your mother was the base of so much of that,” Hans said. “And so you’ll follow your own path, just as your father did. And just like your mother did.”
She was not crying. She wasn’t. She just had to dab at the sweat under her eyes. “Thank you,” she said, her voice almost a whisper.
“You’re welcome,” he said, the picture of professionalism. She very much appreciated it–it made it easier to pretend she was fine. “Now,” he cleared his throat. “About this man…”
“Oh no.”
“Prince Magnus told me you were consort shopping.”
Annabeth buried her face in her hands. “Please stop talking.”
Through her fingers, she could see the glow of his phone held up, and could make out the screen. It showed a picture of Percy.
“He’s a handsome man,” he offered, “though I do not know know what His Majesty will think of you having sex with the prince consort in a club bathroom.”
“It was an office,” she said, blushing so hard it almost hurt. “I’m a princess, Hans. I’m too classy for a bathroom fuck.”
“Of course, ma’am,” he said. “But–”
“But, I have an early morning tomorrow, so perhaps we should head back to the hotel? You can search Percy’s social media while I take a shower and actually get some sleep. Please.”
Distinctly not chuckling, he turned the ignition, and pulled out into traffic.
As promised, Percy did text her when he returned to the village. By then, she was curled up in her hotel bed, AC turned all the way down and the comforter pulled all the way up to her chin. Checking her phone, she saw that he had sent a selfie, eyes scrunched up and tongue poking out, posing in front of the prone figure of a young blond man dressed in a polo shirt, lying face down on the bed, mouth open and nose pressed against the mattress. Back, he texted. You?
Same
Good
Who’s your friend?
Jason, he’s my roommate for the games
Sprinter
He’s kinda cute😜
🙁
She laughed, out loud.
Damn
And here I was going to ask you out
She felt herself blush as she read the words, for reasons she couldn’t really contain. She was twenty-five years old–way too old to be feeling flustered by the words “ask” and “out.”
Didn’t you do that already?
I invited you to my place
Which was, fyi, one of the best decisions I ever made
But I’d like to follow that up, and actually ask you out
On a date
With me
Annabeth bit her lip.
Hm idk… will Jason be there?
A pause, then three dots.
I was thinking just you, me, and a boat
What do you say?
Your boat? Like the one you’re going to race?
No, like, one I’d rent at the marina. It would actually be big enough for two
I’d bring lunch
Are you a good enough cook without your blue food dye?
I don’t know if I can find a kitchen to make it myself
But I’ll make sure its good
Annabeth clicked away from the text chat, finally taking a look at the weekly schedule Helen had sent her for the first time.
It was packed: there were official meetings and meals with other country representatives, talks with some Swedish athletes, an interview about the game with a magazine, and then approve some last minute whatever for the night of the actual opening ceremony itself.
I can’t tomorrow
Me either, I need time to find a kitchen/food worthy of you
And practice
Annabeth hmmed, scrolling through her schedule. She had an early breakfast meeting morning on Friday, but none of the games that day featured Swedish athletes, so she should be able to disappear fairly easily.
Helen would understand. And if not, Hans wouldn’t rat her out anyway.
Friday?
Works for me
It's a date
Yes it is
She could not suppress her smile, even as she pulled the plush blanket around her and tried to sleep, wiggling further down into the bed, restless energy zipping between the muscles in her face to the very tips of her toes.
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honestly and promise me, part 16 [co-written with @darkmagyk] [read on ao3]
The cold is bracing as she walks towards Percy’s building. Annabeth has a smile on her face, despite everything.
It's the 28th, but she’s still in the Christmas spirit. It's hard not to be. The Jackson family Christmas spirit is infectious.
It still feels like a dream, spending both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day with the Jacksons. Squeezing into Percy’s childhood bed, a full-sized mattress with tie-dyed blue sheets. So many cookies expertly made by Percy and Sally’s excellent hands. And a ham she was still dreaming about.
Annabeth had turned out with an arm load of parcels. She’d knitted Paul a scarf, hat and glove set in the softest wool she could find at her favorite little yarn store in Queens. She’d broken into Piper’s nicest fabric stash and used some to make Estelle Ariel’s princess dress--not some Halloween approximation, but silk and brocade, leg of mutton sleeves and all. The red wig had been a cheap party store thing, but the girl had still insisted on putting it on that moment, and wore it through the rest of the day, from opening presents to Christmas dinner. Percy had sent her a text saying she’d tried to sleep in it, too, and had only been talked out of it by the fact that it was so nice, and it would help keep it that way. She’d loved the dress more than she’d loved Percy’s “Best Aunt Ever” t-shirt.
Percy’s sweater had been a no brainer. And she’d followed it up with a matching scarf, a set of tin soldiers from the Nutcracker marching on the ends.
Sally had been harder. What did you get for your baby's future grandmother?
In the end, it had come to her in a vision three days before Christmas--not a fun vision, like receiving prophecy from an oracle, but a vision like Athena shoving her way out of Zeus’ head, hard and painful, but worth it. Genius, after a massive headache.
She had called Leo up in a panic, waking him up in the middle of the night. Just her luck that the one time she really needed him, he hadn’t been working into the small hours of the morning, but after some explanations, cajoling, threats, and promises to both explain later and compensate him for his time, she had managed to convince him to make her the perfect gift for Sally.
Leo, the little prodigy, had finished it within the day, and mailed it to her the next morning, where it arrived at her apartment door on Christmas Eve. And so, with great relief, Annabeth was able to give Sally her gift, a custom-made cookie cutter in the shape of a male ballerina.
To her delight, they had put it to use immediately, creating an army of little, edible Percys. Estelle had been over the moon, yelling at her brother every time he swiped one of her creations and bit his own head off, while Sally laughed and laughed and laughed, her face red.
It had been a trying week. But the worst was over, and she had come out the other end of it alive, if not stronger. Now, Annabeth just has to deal with the cousins. And she’s dealt with the cousins before.
Walking down the fourth floor hallway, she feels like she’s almost swimming through molasses, moving in slow motion, like something does not want her to reach her destination. Annabeth’s feet are working against her brain, dragging themselves without her input, but eventually, she does make it, rapping sharply on the door marked “417” before she chickens out.
The door opens after what feels like three seconds on Percy’s freshly shaven, smiling face, hair still damp from a recent shower. “Hey!” He grins at her, a miniature sun, bathing her in the warmth of summer. “You made it!”
“Hey,” she smiles back. She goes easily into his embrace as he steps outside, lifting up her lips for him to kiss. To think, she almost lost her chance at this. “Sorry I’m a little late.”
“Don’t worry about it.” He seems a little bit more fidgety than usual, fingers lightly tapping on her shoulders. “You get here okay? How are you feeling?”
“I’m fine. Are you okay?”
He pauses.
“Oh no.”
“No, it’s not--um,” he chews his lip, green eyes boring into hers. “Everything’s fine, it’s just, ah… I didn’t tell them you were coming until a little while ago.”
Annabeth sighs, dropping her head. They had agreed he would give them a heads up, but Annabeth had expected him to do it, you know, with plenty of time to process it. Or at least the morning of. “Percy…”
“I thought it’d be better later--like ripping off a bandaid.”
“I should go,” she decides, there and then. “This was a mistake, I’ll text you tomorrow morning, okay?”
But Percy catches her around the middle as she attempts to leave. Damn him for having a job that requires him to grab women as gently but firmly as possible. “Oh no you don’t--as my girlfriend and the mother of my child, you have every right to be here, just as much as Will or anyone else does.”
“I don’t want to cause any more trouble,” she protests. Which isn’t untrue--she mostly just doesn’t want to see Thalia.
It’s not that she doesn’t still love Thalia, or that she doesn’t miss her. Thalia is impossible not to love, for all her sharp, jagged edges. Thalia’s the one who picked her up when she was down, who cut her hair and held her hand through all her various tattoos and piercings, who led her into the bright, vibrant punk scene, and eventually, straight into Percy’s arms. Annabeth would love her forever on that alone. But the look on her face at Halloween…
Thalia was not, in general, a happy-go-lucky kind of person, not like Percy could be. Annabeth can count on one hand the amount of times she’s seen Thalia truly smile, not just ease off her scowl. Thalia has turned the resting bitch face into an art form all on its own, pushing the genre to newer, more terrifying heights, heights with which Annabeth is very familiar. She had followed that particular career very closely, and had done her best to imitate it. But, as Annabeth realized, she’d never actually seen Thalia truly angry until that night. It was… not something she wanted to experience again.
“You won’t,” he insists. “I’m really, really glad you’re here. I’d like you to stay. But if it gets to be too much, we can leave whenever you need to. Sound good?”
His hands are wrapped around hers, fingers doing that thing again where they rub against her, skin to skin, like he’s reassuring himself that she’s still here. That she won’t run away again.
“Okay,” she says. “I’ll stay.”
He smiles, and the baby does another flip. Although that time it might just be her heart.
Actually, that hasn’t even occurred to her--”Percy, do they know? About the baby?”
Percy shakes his head. “I haven’t told them about the baby--not because I’m ashamed or anything,” he rushes, “but because I wasn’t sure how we were doing this.”
Something about the situation still makes her feel kind of icky if she thinks about it too long, trapping a man with a baby. “Do you want to tell them?”
“I want to tell the whole world,” he says, softly. “I want everyone to know about my amazing girlfriend and the wonderful baby that we’re having together. But only if you do, too.”
“If I said I did?” She asks, “if I want to tell the whole world?”
He draws out his phone and holds it up, “Then I will take a selfie and post it on Instagram for the whole world and Beyonce to see.”
“Beyonce can’t see me with my hair like this,” Is the first thing out of her mind and out of her mouth. It's easier to think of that than any other reason not.
“Then in that case, we’ll wait.” He presses his mouth to hers, chastely and sweetly, and her toes curl in her sensible shoes, even through the faint taste of ash on his lips. “You ready?”
It’s funny how she’s been to this apartment plenty of times, has grown to intimately know the giant windows, the low tables, the sharp corners and the skyline view, and yet the moment she walks in, she’s never felt less welcome.
The lights are low, the city lights sparkling like stars just outside. There’s a little Christmas tree resting on the coffee table, unadorned save for a tiny crystal star on top, and an old, faded, red-patterned tree skirt underneath. Surrounding the table like some kind of grand council of doom are the rest of the key members of the Cousin Consortium: Hazel, Nico, Jason, and slouched in the loveseat like it’s her own personal grand throne, Thalia. Everyone else is turned to look at her, but Thalia, her arms are crossed as she glares at something in the corner.
“Welcome!” comes the cheerful voice of Will Solace from her right, startling her so badly she nearly jumps. “Thanks for joining us.”
“Thanks for having me. Um, I brought this…” she trails off, brandishing the big box of chocolates she’d brought on Percy’s recommendation in lieu of a bottle of wine that she couldn’t drink anyway.
“Aw, you shouldn’t have.” He takes it from her, polite smile firmly affixed to his face. “Look, Nico! Eighty percent dark!”
Nico does not respond.
Percy leads her further into the apartment, where she is greeted by the youngest cousin, who wraps her in a warm and friendly hug, if not overly intimate. Hazel’s smile as she pulls away is bright. “I love your dress.” She says taking in Annabeth’s grey sparkles, “I loved the McLean Winter Collection from last year.”
“Thanks,” Annabeth says, the idea that she’s wearing a designer that Hazel recognizes is uncomfortable. She knows that the family distantly has money, she’s standing in an apartment that’s proof of that, but she is not used to them in that context, minus that terrible gala. Hazel is wearing Dior, she reminds herself, she can’t judge you for this. “Piper did good work last year. And I so rarely have an opportunity to wear any of the stuff she forced on me.”
“You know Piper McLean?” asks Nico, still not moving to greet her.
“Um, yes,” Annabeth says, “We went to highschool together.” She leaves out things like we were in a sewing club together or I was her model for most of her fashion school portfolio pictures.
“Annabeth,” Hazel says, a hand still resting on her arm, “You’ve been holding out on me.” It is true, and the fact that Hazel manages to not make it sound like a condemnation is impressive. “You’ll have to introduce us.”
“Sure,” she says, “as soon as she gets back from her creative retreat.” Hell, for Hazel doing her best to make Annabeth feel included, it’s the absolute least she can do.
Jason stands up, that senatorial handshake already outstretched. “I don’t believe we’ve met? I’m Jason,” he says, politely.
She takes his hand. “Annabeth. Um, we have met, actually.”
“Oh.” He blinks. “We have?”
“At Hazel’s gallery on Halloween.”
“I… am sorry, I guess I didn’t recognize you.”
“It’s okay,” she grins weakly, “I, uh, had a lot more hair a few months ago.”
“Have a bad run in with a weed whacker?” Nico asks. Next to Jason, Thalia snorts. It goes through Annabeth like a spear.
Percy and Hazel sit her down on the couch, sandwiching her between them, as Percy slings an arm over her shoulder, drawing her close. Staking their claim. Declaring their opposition.
For a few fraught heartbeats, no one speaks. Percy’s arm tightens around her shoulder, squeezing her, grounding her. It’s okay, it says. I’m here.
Taking a breath, she takes the plunge. “So, Jason,” she says, trying not to wince as every head swivels in her direction, except Thalia’s, who looks out the window. “What brings you out to the East Coast?”
“Ah--Thalia, mostly. Usually I spend Christmas with my roommate and her friends, but Reyna went to visit her sister in Seattle this year, and after Halloween, I wanted to make sure… well, I thought it might be nice to see mine, too.” He smiles, a little strained. “And, you know, the rest of these guys. Percy’s ugly mug, though, I could do without.”
“Hey!”
Hazel giggles.
“Some wine, Annabeth?” Will appears at the arm of the couch, glasses in hand.
“Um, no thanks. But I’ll have some water, if that’s okay?”
“No problem!” He chirps, crossing to hand a glass to his boyfriend. Nico, stony-faced, takes a sip. He looks like a goth judge, savoring the taste of his wine before he doles out her terrible fate.
“Don’t let Percy’s teetotalling ways rub off on you,” Jason says to her with a smile, “We love him but he’s boring at parties.”
“I am great at parties.” Percy says. She doesn’t know if he’s trying to distract from her lack of drinking or defend his honor, but she doesn’t care, “one of us can keep rhythm and dance to a beat, and it isn’t you.”
“He’s not wrong,” Nico says and Annabeth is so relieved when his gaze shifts to Jason, “You can’t dance at all and it's embarrassing when you try.”
“Is that why you stopped going clubbing with him?” Thalia asks, Annabeth feels herself sink into the couch and lean into Percy’s side. If they can all just carry on like this, it will be ok.
“No,” Nico says, “I stopped going out with him because all the guys wanted to chat him up. And that was like five years ago, before he even came out, which was not at all fair.” Will passes Annabeth a glass of water with a smile and a nod, before settling himself next to Nico.
“Well, now you can have all the boys on either side of the Atlantic to yourself,” Jason says. “It is not true what they say about San Francisco; I haven’t been on a date in months.”
“That’s because you’re a workaholic,” says Hazel, leaning on the arm of the couch.
“You and Percy always say that,” Jason says, “It's still workaholism if it's art. And you two have that problem.”
Nico snorts, but Thalia shifts uncomfortably. When she sees Annabeth glancing at her, her features freeze and she looks away pointedly.
“Yeah yeah yeah, Nico di Angelo, king of work/life balance,” Percy says.
Nico reaches over to high five Will, who meets it with a fist bump and a raised eyebrow. “It’s so cute that you think you have a work/life balance,” Will says, “when this is the first time I’ve seen you in weeks.”
“That is not my fault.” Nico says, “That’s med school's fault, and therefore your own damn fault.”
“Hey, I’m neck-deep in my rotation, you’re just spending all your free time banging out another vampire erotica.”
Annabeth chuckles softly, and no one bats an eyelash. This is nice, this gentle roasting, every teasing remark softened by compassion and love. Her shoulders relax, just a touch.
“Your cousin is in med school, right, Annabeth?” Will says, “Does he ever see his girlfriend?”
Jason and Hazel and Percy look at her with polite interest. Nico looks at her but his smile flees his face. Thalia looks away from the group.
“Um,” she tries not to squirm under the sudden attention. “Fiance(e), actually.”
Hazel coos, clapping. “That’s wonderful! When are they getting married?”
“Next summer. They’re having a destination wedding at his father’s place in Norway.”
“How long have they been together?”
Annabeth blows out a breath. “Just about four years. They actually met when the hotel they were both staying at double-booked their room. According to Magnus, Alex walked in on him half-naked. Neither of them had the money to try and find another room on such short notice, and the hotel was totally booked up, so they just said fuck it and decided to share the room for the night, and they ended up hitting it off.”
“Someone in your family didn’t have money?” Thalia says, “That’s truly a shock.”
The room goes quiet. “Thalia,” Percy warns.
“Um,” Annabeth tries, but she thinks it might be something Thalia won’t have a response to, plus it's the truth. “No, Magnus probably could have afforded it, but Alex definitely couldn’t have. Her dad cut her off and kicked her out when she came out. And she wouldn’t have stood for Mangus’s pity or charity.”
“That’s sweet,” Hazel offers.
“Yeah,” Annabeth agrees, looking at her and smiling, “Turns out one of Magnus’s good friends from high school is actually Alex’s half sister. And they both lived in Boston, both hiked the same trails, and had some similar hang outs.” From the corner of her eye, she can see that her cute story is not winning everyone over. But she can’t just not finish. “And they’d have never known it if it weren’t for Floor 19 at the Hotel… um, the Hotel…” Thalia is looking at her nails, frowning intensely. Disapproving. “...Um, sorry, I can never remember the name.”
“You really are just terrible with names, aren’t you.” Thalia says, looking to the corner and drinking her beer.
Percy frowns. “Huh?” says Jason.
“That’s such a cute story,” Hazel says, beaming. Annabeth glances around the room, hoping someone will bring up another topic of conversion, and attention will turn away from her.
She looks to Percy at her side and tries to will him to understand that he needs to distract everyone away from her.
Because Percy is the perfect man, he doesn’t even look at her, just glances at Jason and says, “But really, I think the most important bit is that we’ve established that medical students, notorious for their lack of social lives, can find time to be gross and in love, what’s your excuse?”
“We’ve also established that you’re also a workaholic,” Jason says.
“Yeah,” Percy nods, and pulls Annabeth closer to him, “And I have an amazing girlfriend.” He kisses her forehead, but the bubble in her heart is popped by the face she sees Nico make from the corner of her eye, and by the gagging sound from Thalia.
She’s expecting tears. She’s expecting another one of those terrible hormone rushes that she has become entirely too familiar with over the last few weeks, going from clinically depressed to out of control horny and back, five times a day. But this time, it’s neither of those: not the heavy, cool, sinking feeling of sadness, but a hot, rising, curdling anger.
“What the fuck is your problem?”
Like a bad movie, everything freezes--jaws open, hands in place, Will’s wine glass halfway to his mouth. Percy is still next to her, but vibrating, his shocked gaze burning a hole into her skull.
Thalia turns her head, slowly, her eyebrows drawn into a deep, furrowed glare, a snarl playing on her mouth, but Annabeth isn’t afraid. She’s seen this look before, usually aimed at guys who tried to cop a feel or girls who try to ditch without paying, and she’s grown desensitized to it. “Excuse me?”
“If you have a problem with me, why don’t you just say it, instead of forcing your family to dance around the issue.”
She swivels her legs, feet hitting the floor with a muted thud. Even without her combat boots, the effect is impressive. “You want to know my problem with you?” She asks, leaning forward, elbows on her knees. The snarl is gone, replaced with the white, baring flash of her teeth, predatory as a wolf.
Ever mindful of her stomach, Annabeth leans forward too, out of Percy’s safe embrace. “Yeah. I do.”
“Fine.” Thalia draws herself up, a queen on her throne. “For starters, how about the fact that you lied to me for two years.”
“Yes, I lied to you. I lied about my financial situation, I lied about my job prospects, and I lied about my family.” And it feels good to say it to someone who isn’t Dr. Vesta, despite the cold fire that licks in her stomach, or the tremors in her limbs. Percy lays his hand on her back, warm and steady. “I lied about everything, and I’m sorry. I only did it because you gave me the first taste of unconditional support I’d had in years, and I was afraid to lose that. I know that’s a stupid excuse, but I’m sorry anyway.”
If she thought Thalia would be taken aback by her confession, it turns out she was dead wrong. “Two years, Annabeth! Two fucking years! And you didn’t just lie to me--you lied to Nico, to Percy, who’s now apparently madly in love with you despite the fact that you couldn’t even remember his goddamn name--”
“She’s already apologized to me for that,” Percy says, voice low, almost commanding. “I’m not seventeen. You don’t have to look out for me anymore.”
“I don’t? I take my eyes off you for one second and you fall in with her!” She points to Annabeth like she’s some sort of village harlot.
Percy scowls. “I like Annabeth. A lot, in fact. I would hope you’d be able to trust my judgement by now.”
Raking her hands through her hair, Thalia growls. Annabeth starts--it’s something that she’s seen Percy do, whenever he starts to get more and more frustrated with a set of moves he just can’t pin down. “You said it yourself, you’re the one who keeps letting rich girls walk all over you. How in the hell am I supposed to think this is any different?”
“Uh, because it’s been ten years? Because I’m an adult? Because I don’t actually need your approval before I start dating someone? Take your goddamn pick.”
“Well excuse me for being worried about you!” Thalia jumps to her feet, her fists pulled and ready to fly. “You’re the one who called me up in the dead of night after that bitch practically blackmailed you into her bed, while I paid for your early ticket home--”
“And I’m the one who had to scrape together enough money to pay your phone bill so I could talk to you and make sure you didn’t kill yourself!” Percy leaps up to meet her, his whole frame practically shaking. “I’m the one who had to, after just flying from Paris to Stanford and back again for Jason’s graduation, had to fly from Paris to New York because you told me you were about to do something drastic! I have dropped hundreds of dollars on last minute flights to check up on you--”
“I never asked you to do any of that for me!”
Percy almost growls. “Have you considered maybe it wasn’t just for you? Maybe I didn’t want to have to call your little brother and tell him that you froze to death on a park bench. Maybe I didn’t want to have to call our little cousins and tell them that in addition to both their mothers and their older sister, their big cousin ODed, too!” He stops and takes several large breaths, “And I did do it for you, and I’d do it all again, because I love you. Because you’re like my sister! And I won’t let you hurt yourself if I can help it. But I am not going to stand here and listen to you disrespect the woman I love like this.”
“Explain to me just one thing,” Thalia says, her anger concentrated into the hard point of a diamond, practically spitting. “Of all the little rich girls who want to fuck the poor broken dancer to get back at their fathers or whatever,” which hits Annabeth in a strange place, because Thalia knows perfectly well everything Annabeth’s done since they met has been a reaction to her mother, “why the one who lied to us?”
And the words are out of her mouth before she can stop it. Proudly, Annabeth stands up, takes Percy’s hand, and declares to the world, “Because I’m pregnant.”
She manages to silence Thalia for a grand total of thirty seconds. Which is possibly a world record. No one else says anything. Percy squeezes her hand.
And then Thalia’s face absolutely sneers. Acting, Annabeth thinks. Thalia is an actress. And she can see it as she makes sure every muscle in her face communicates the utter, absolute loathing she feels.
“My mother tried that,” She says, “twice, actually. She thought if she made a baby it would make an Olympianides man love her. It didn’t work in the long run. Just the actions of a pathetic, desperate woman, who knows she’s got nothing else to offer.”
“Thalia, that’s enough,” Jason says. But Annabeth can’t even appreciate it, her focus is too much on Thalia. Who always shot straight with Annabeth. Who knows the world and the people in it. Who had always seen something in her. That thing, now, might be a scarlet A.
There is no one in the world Thalia despises more than her mother. No one on the planet past or present could sink lower in her eyes. Thalia would not make the comparison lightly, and she would not make it if she didn’t believe it.
But now Thalia looks away from her, past her, where Percy is standing at her side. Thalia ignores the sobs that come out of Annabeth and looks only at her boyfriend. “And you should be smarter than this. After we saw her with her boyfriend on Halloween. She’s just Luke Castellan’s type, but he’s not boyfriend material. Or baby daddy material. The baby isn’t yours--she just knows you'd treat her worth a damn out of some very misplaced sense of loyalty.”
For a second, Percy’s hand falls away from her back in surprise, and a deep dread fills Annabeth. No one says anything, and she can’t stand it anymore.
She almost runs out the door. But the idea of going through the building lobby and back into the cold streets is too much to bear. She spins and runs towards Percy’s room, slams the door, and then throws herself into the comforting blue sheets. She can’t even be happy about the fact that Percy just told them all he loved her.
It hurts a little bit that Percy would doubt her in that. But she can deal with it. She will deal with it. She’ll get them a fucking paternity test tomorrow. She knows she’s given him reasons to doubt her, even if she would never lie about this, not to him, not to anyone. She’ll do it with humility and grace, she’ll pay for the most accurate one available, and she’ll prove herself to him.
But the rest of it weighs heavy on her. Not least of all her own words. Why her? When Percy, with his kind heart and keen mind and clever tongue, could have anyone in the world? Just because she was pregnant, and he was a good man.
She can hear voices from the living room, more than just two, muffled, but getting louder, she grasps out for a pillow and shoves it on her ears. She doesn’t want to know what the consortium of cousins is saying about her. What Nico and Jason and Hazel are saying to help Thalia’s claims.
When she hears the door open, she tenses, and for a second she can hear everything in the living room, multiple people yelling at each other.
“Annabeth?” Hazel has the faintest of southern accents, soft and soothing. “Can I come in?”
“Sure,” Annabeth says, and sits up. She’s well into her second trimester, so the morning sickness is gone, but she still feels a little woozy and off kilter as she straightens.
Hazel’s got a large plate full of food in one hand and a bottle of water in the other. “I figured you wouldn’t want to go back out there.”
“Thanks,” Annabeth says, reaching out.
Hazel sets the plate down on the nightstand, then wraps Annabeth up in another hug, holding her close. “Congratulations,” she murmurs, directly into her ear. Annabeth feels herself welling up again, from the simple act of someone congratulating her for this, the best thing that has ever happened to her. “How far along are you?”
“About four months.”
Hazel grins. “So right around Swan Lake, then?”
That, and his thighs in those tights. Even now, the memory of Percy as Siegfried can still make her flush. But she smiles back, ducking her head. “It was my fault… I’d let my IUD go for too long without replacing it. Can’t say that I’m not happy about it, though.” Of course, as quickly as her good mood comes on, it collapses, and Annabeth buries her face in her hands and moans. “Oh, God, I really fucked this up, didn’t I?”
“No, you didn’t.”
“I knew getting involved with him was going to ruin our friendship, and I still went ahead and did it anyway. He was just so--he’s so passionate and kind and funny and fucking hot, I couldn’t help falling in love with him.”
“He’s easy to love,” says Hazel, her hand on Annabeth’s back. “You can’t blame yourself for that.”
As grateful as she is for the comfort, it’s weird, she thinks, that Hazel is in here with her, when she should, by all rights, be out there yelling at Percy, hating her as much as the rest of the cousins do. “I’m sorry for ruining your party,” she sniffles, wiping her tears with Percy’s sheets. “Are they going to be okay?”
“Percy and Thalia?” She shrugs. “They’ll be fine. Those two always have to fight about something, trust me. If it hadn’t been about you, it would have been about something else.”
She can still hear Percy and Thalia shouting at each other, with brief interjections from Nico and Jason, but she can’t tell what they’re saying. “Are you sure? It sounds pretty bad.”
“This?” She gestures to the door. “This is nothing. You should have been there for the legendary Capture the Flag match of 2007. Now that was a fight.”
Annabeth shakes her head. “She told me not to get involved,” she groans. “She told me this was a bad idea.”
Hazel rubs her back, a soothing, circular motion. “Yeah, well, Thalia doesn’t always know what she’s talking about. She tries really hard to make it seem like she has her whole life together, but honestly? She’s probably the most messed up one of us all.”
That brings her up out of her hands, raising her red, puffy eyes to Hazel’s. “What do you mean?”
She sighs, casting a look to Percy’s closed bedroom door. The shouting has died down, somewhat. “You know about all of our dads, right?”
The broad strokes, at least. Annabeth nods.
“Then you know that they did a number on us.” She is so serious, her small frame quietly commanding and compelling. “Percy likes to say that all of our dads were assholes in their own special way. If you ask anyone, they’ll probably say that my dad is the least terrible of them, but he’s never been the warm and fuzzy type. After Bianca died, that’s when he decided that his family was more important than his business, and he started arranging playdates for us with Thalia and Jason and Percy. It meant a lot to us--to Nico especially. I hadn’t known him for very long at that point, but even I could tell how much he needed them. Uncle Poseidon, on the other hand, never really tried to take an ounce of responsibility for Percy. But he always wanted to be like a cool, fairy godmother type of figure who would sometimes sweep into his life and shower him with gifts--between that and his mom, Percy never felt like he was really unloved.”
Annabeth has, historically, always hated the stereotype of the lonely rich kid, and not just because she fit it to a T. But it’s a stereotype for a reason: it does happen, all the time. And the Olympianides kids are living proof of that, in all different flavors. Hearing it laid out like this, so clinically, stripped of any hyperbole, it feels so much more real.
“That’s the difference between us and Thalia and Jason. Their mom, she was a real mess, unfortunately. She self-medicated with alcohol and cocaine, even before she met Uncle Zeus. And I’m going to be honest here: Percy and I were probably accidents. Bianca and Nico were planned. But Thalia and Jason? Beryl had them to keep Zeus’ attention. And it didn’t work. And Beryl resented them for it her whole life, and Zeus resented Beryl, and Hera resented all four of them. Jason’s saving grace is that Thalia adored him, and that Zeus and Hera saw potential in another boy after Hercules. Thalia didn’t get any of that. She poured her heart and soul into looking after all of us to fill that void in return, but she never took the time she needed to heal from that.”
“She took care of me,” Annabeth says softly. “After I fell out with my mom, she found me, and she took care of me.”
“And she took care of Percy after his first big heartbreak. It’s what she does; she takes care of people. She’s just afraid of the people she loves getting hurt.”
Thalia had tried to warn her, she realizes, all those months ago. She had told her, point blank, that Percy would ruin her. And she had been right--Annabeth had been brought low by his honesty and his passion, and she would never recover. And she never wants to.
“For what it’s worth,” Hazel continues, taking her hand, “I think Thalia’s wrong. I’ve never seen Percy so happy before.”
There’s that bubbly feeling again, a thousand little embers in her stomach, warming her from the inside out. Her child kicks in time with her beating heart. “Really?”
She nods. “Percy has given his whole life to ballet. He tries to downplay it, but it’s a demanding lifestyle. Countless hours of rehearsal, thousands of dollars in shoes and tights, permanently screwing up your feet; sometimes we would worry that Percy would get lost in it all, and he wouldn’t be able to pull himself out again. And then he met you.” Hazel squeezes her hand. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen him look at anything like he looks at you.”
Annabeth swallows around the lump in her throat as large as the ocean.
That’s when his door swings open, and Percy pokes his head in, brow furrowed in that adorable concerned look he gets if he thinks Annabeth has been on her feet for too long. “Can I come in?” She barely has time to nod before Percy is crowding her, plopping down on her opposite side and drawing her into his arms.
She buries her nose in his shirt, in the warm, sea breeze smell of his cologne, mixed with the strong, undeniable smell of smoke. She wrinkles her nose at it, unintentionally.
Percy stiffens, almost imperceptibly. “Sorry, I--I can go shower.”
But Annabeth shakes her head, holding him tighter. “I don’t care about the smell.” It's a part of him. And she needs him right now.
“I know it's bad for the baby, and I’ve been meaning to quit and--”
“The smell after the fact in your shirt is fine,” she promises him. “And I know. It's a process. It’s okay.” After all of this, he's acting like he let her down. He’s too good, this man she loves.
“Where’s Thalia?” she hears Hazel ask, but it sounds very far away.
“She’s staying with Jason tonight. They have a lot to talk about,” says Nico.
On one level, she feels like she’s won something--Hazel’s allegiance, maybe. Or Nico’s neutrality. The fact that Percy is here at all, that he’s come back to her even after everything Thalia said, it settles her nerves more than she’d like to admit. She’s sure he’s gearing up for some kind of speech meant to refute Thalia’s accusation, but she doesn’t really want to hear it, not because she wants to wallow in her self loathing some more (although, that is looking like a pretty good option right now) but because, on some level, Thalia is right. She’s lied to all of them and hurt all of them, Percy most of all. They’ve given her a second chance, and she is not going to screw this up.
“I’m going to get a paternity test tomorrow,” she mumbles into Percy’s shirt.
His arms around her tighten. “You don’t have to--”
“I want to.” She pulls back, just enough to look him in the eyes, and she can feel Nico and Hazel watching as well. “Tomorrow I’m going to go to my OBGYN and get the fastest, most secure test possible.”
Percy holds her gaze, eyes searching. “If you tell me the baby is mine, then I believe you.”
“I know you do. But I never want to give you reason to doubt me ever again. Please, Percy--let me do this for you.”
“It’s not a bad idea,” says Nico, and Percy glares at him over her shoulder. “I’m just saying.”
After a few moments, he sighs, turning back to Annabeth. “You don’t need to prove anything to me. But if it’s going to make you feel better, then alright. We can do the paternity test. But I’m paying.”
“Percy--”
“We’re doing this together. Let me do this for you, okay?”
Nico sidles into her line of vision, arms crossed. “If it’s all the same to you two, Percy, I’ll pay for it. Don’t give me that,” he scoffs at Percy’s narrowed eyes. “There’s no way you can cobble together enough money in time. And…” He gives Percy a look that Annabeth is coming to realize must be genetic between the five of them, another inheritance from the three Olympianides brothers. “You know it’ll make Thalia feel better if it’s coming from a neutral party.”
He bristles, his hackles automatically rising at the thought of accepting his help. “Fine,” Percy bites out at last. “You can pay. But I’m going with you tomorrow,” he says to Annabeth. Then, from nowhere, he cracks a small smile, one hand traveling a familiar path down to her stomach. “I missed out on four months of your pregnancy; I’m not missing another second.”
The baby in her body kicks, like it can hear its father, trying to get close to him. Annabeth can understand the feeling, and gives into it, curling further into his embrace. Distantly, she hears the door close behind her, Nico and Hazel leaving the two of them together, huddled close, a safe port in a storm.
honesty and promise me, part 15 [co-written with @darkmagyk] [read on ao3]
True to her word, she does text him when she gets home. But she tries to be cool about it at least. And not act like she had spent the entire cab ride composing it in her head.
sorry my dad came on too strong
On the toilet, she hits send, chewing her lip.
He texts back immediately.
it was nice to meet him
did you get home ok?
yeah
nice and warm? You and the baby ok?
we’re fine. Are you ok?
I’m great
just a little cold
Nico skimping on the heating this winter?
No im just chilling on the balcony
She frowns at her phone. It really was freezing, and he had to be exhausted, why was he on the balcony?
And then it comes back to her. Halloween. Most of it hasn’t left her mind, but that bit at the end, the cigarette. He’s still smoking. She’s driven him there. Once at Halloween and again today.
I know we have a lot to talk about
but I promise I’m not going to be a burden to you
You’re having our baby, you cant be a burden to me.
I don’t want to add to your stress
She pauses. A little too strong, maybe?
We’re ok
Me and the baby, I mean
He doesn’t respond for a long time. She watches those three dots for nearly fifteen minutes.
p sure stressing about your kid is just how parenting works
And then before she can tell him he doesn’t have to have any bit of parenthood he doesn't want, or really linger on the fact that he specified the kid and not the mother, he starts typing again.
When are we having lunch with your dad?
we don’t actually have to do that. I can tell him you’re busy
Do you not want me to come?
Of course I want you to come, but I don’t want to bother you
I know you’re busy
I want to come
your dad seems cool
They agree on Monday for lunch, and Annabeth feels lighter than she thought possible as she goes to bed.
The next day, she and her dad go out for yet another fancy, overpriced New York dinner. He probably notices her picking the olives off her plate at dinner. She wonders what he thinks of it.
On Monday, they meet Percy at Annabeth’s favorite brunch place. It's weird to be here without Piper.
Percy meets them there, pulling her into a hug and kissing her on the cheek. She can’t figure out if it's affectionate or just European. He’s not really what she expects him to be.
He’s wearing dark jeans and a button up shirt under a sweater. The sweater doesn’t fit him very well, and she thinks she might crochet him one, if she has time to get one done before Christmas. She knows him in going out clothes or dance clothes, or that one devastating time in the Armani suit, but the idea of a soft, domestic Percy, wearing a sweater she made him is… enticing.
They get a table, and she turns down a mimosa, even though technically the brunch menu is still in effect, and she knows for a fact that they are delicious. Percy notices and gives her a smile.
Her dad chatters on, asking Percy about his experience and Boston and when his recent time abroad comes to light, about France, comparing notes.
It's all very pleasant. She nods and asks follow up questions and eats too many waffles. Until her father says, “I’m so pleased to get to eat with you, Percy. You’re the first of Annabeth’s boyfriends I’ve ever met.”
She has what might be called a mini-heart attack, eyes darting to Percy. They haven’t talked about--
“I’m honored,” Percy replies. And then he looks at her, and instead of glaring or rolling his eyes or doing anything else that might suggest that he’s annoyed by the label, he smiles. “I’m so glad I got to meet you properly while you were here.”
The fact that he hadn’t known Frederick was going to be here until he’d spotted them outside of the stage door is conveniently left out.
She doesn’t really know what to make of how well they seemed to be getting on. Like her dad had said, she’d never brought anyone home before. She probably assumed it wouldn’t go well, but this was great. And she finds herself pleased by how great this is going, which is shocking in and of itself.
She’d spent so long trying not to care what guys thought of her, and what her father thought of her. And now, well, it’s not like her whole sense of self rests on their shoulders. But she loves them both: her dad and her… Percy. And seeing them getting along, and to have them both here with her, is a moving thing.
She can almost feel her eyes start to water. She’d spent most of their Christmas movie binge sobbing, already. That at least had a convenient excuse, but not over lunch, as her dad and Percy compare notes over some museums in Paris.
The mood swings and crying are not exactly a bad part of pregnancy, really. In some ways, it’s a relief; she’d spent so much of her life trying to suppress her emotions. Trying to make herself stoic and calm like her mom, and then aloof and above it all like Thalia. Now she just has to cry sometimes. But it’s freeing.
But she’d like to not cry this time, and enjoy the moment. So instead, she clears her throat, and mentions something about how one of the people at lunch hasn’t been to Paris yet, and so maybe they should redirect the conversation to places they had all been, like Boston or San Francisco.
And then they’re off, talking about Fisherman's Wharf.
It’s a perfect lunch. Her dad picks up the bill, and Percy’s eye twitches, but he doesn't try to stop him.
And then it’s time to go. Her dad starts messing around on his phone, ordering them an Uber. Percy’s afternoon class is in half an hour, but it’s not far, he promises. He’ll just walk.
The restaurant and the street outside are bustling. Not quite crowded, but full of energy and life.
And yet, they’re alone, for just a moment.
“So…” Percy smiles, a hopeful quirk in his lips. “Boyfriend?”
“Yes,” she says, quickly. “If you--if you want.”
“I do.” He kisses her cheek. “I really, really do. Plus,” he grins, “it will make it so much easier when I tell my mom I got my girlfriend pregnant, instead of just some rando.”
“You didn’t get me pregnant,” she says, glancing down the block towards her dad, scanning for their Uber. “It was a mutual act. It was--”
And he cuts her off with a kiss. A real, proper one, on the lips. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 counts. Not European at all.
“When are you going to tell him?” he asks, pulling away.
“Tonight,” she says, with finality.
“Good. I’ll tell my mom tomorrow--we’re getting lunch.”
She nods, but it feels like an end date. Even though it's been three days. Her dad might really like Percy after a performance and a lunch date, but Percy’s mom has a lot more reason to hate her. And Percy adores his mom. When she tells him to drop the whore who got pregnant…
She’ll think about it later. For now, she’ll just enjoy the moment.
Her dad calls her over, and Percy walks her towards the white sedan, his arm linked with hers, for just thirty feet or so. But it feels like everything.
Her dad and Percy shake hands. “Hopefully we’ll see each other soon.” Her father says, a ringing endorsement if ever there was one. “I am hoping to get out here more often, and maybe you and Annabeth can come visit us in California. And if the timing doesn’t work out, then at least at Magnus’ wedding next summer.”
Magnus’s giant, international destination wedding in July of the next year seems like a really big thing to invite Percy to, but it gives Annabeth a kind of strength. Her dad sees Percy as a fixture in the family.
“Hopefully before then,” Percy agrees. Then he turns to Annabeth. “I’ll definitely see you beforehand.”
And they both blush at his words, though it might just be the cold against their cheeks.
He lends down and kisses her again, quick, but on the lips.
“I’ll text you later tonight, okay?”
“Yeah,” she agrees, “Okay.”
He doesn’t walk off. Staying until they’ve loaded into their Uber, and waving as it pulls away. It reminds her of Halloween, only she sees a smile on his face as they drive off.
She and her dad order in that night, and instead of watching Christmas classics, they watch family ones; things she remembers from childhood, with him, and a few that might have even once been watched by her mom.
In between A Muppet Christmas Carol and A Muppet’s Family Christmas she has to pause. He was eating one of the leftover pot stickers, but caught her eye.
“Is something wrong?”
“No,” she says, the anticipation fighting with the hesitation in her throat. “But I have to tell you something. Something really big, something I’ve been scared to tell you.”
Judging by his face, she had not successfully reassured him that nothing was wrong.
She takes a deep breath. “I’m pregnant.”
He frowns, and she sees his eyes glance down to her stomach, hidden under an oversized Harvard hoodie.
“You…” He trails off, and then looks up at her face. “Your… Percy? The two of you are having a baby?”
No one else had said it like that. Her father’s tone wasn’t exactly joyful, but it wasn’t scornful, either. She nods. “We are.”
“I… didn’t know you’d been together with him long enough to be trying for a baby.”
Oh. “Um...we haven’t.” She admits. “We haven’t been together long enough for that.” About four months and twenty-four hours. Not long enough for this to be on purpose. And yet she doesn’t think she could stand to call her baby an accident, let alone a mistake. “It wasn’t planned.” That’s all true, but things can not be planned, and still be wonderful. That’s what she was. Unplanned and wonderful.
Right?
“I see…” He trails off again, looking very troubled for a moment. Then he grasps her hand. “I… Annabeth, I liked Percy. And I don’t know what he or any of your other friends are saying. But you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.”
Something in her stomach that had nothing to do with her little dancer drops. “No one is making me.” She thinks of Luke, that first day, and his idea of a solution. “The opposite, occasionally. People have tried to talk me out of this.” She squeezes his hand, willing him to understand, like he had just a few days ago, when she’d told him everything about her mom. “But I want this. God, dad I want this so much.” She can feel the tears at the corner of her eyes. She hopes she can keep them at bay. This is too important.
“You’re happy?”
“I don’t know if I’ve ever been this happy, Dad.” She does know, though. And she hadn’t been happy. She couldn’t have been.
“Is that why you wanted me to go to lunch with Percy?”
“That was your idea,” she points out, hoping he’ll understand what she’s about to say, “But, yeah. It’s part of the reason why I invited you here.”
“What do you mean?”
“I wanted you to come, because I want you to be part of my life again. I want you to be part of my baby's life and I…” I thought I had to butter you up? I wanted to remind you you loved me? I am so scared and so alone? How was she supposed to say all of this?
He just stares at her for several long moments. She knows what he looks like when he’s lost in thought, carried away by his work and his own brilliant mind. He still looks lost, but he’s not carried away. He’s right here, with her. She’s not sure she’s ever seen that happen before. She isn’t sure what to do with it.
And then he leans in and hugs her. It isn’t like it's the first hug of this trip, but he holds her close and whispers her name into her hair.
He’s crying when he pulls back. “I am very happy you’re sharing this with me.” He looks her up and down. “What do you need? Do you have a doctor? Do you have a nursery set up? How far along are you?”
“Dad,” She cuts him off. “I’m good, I have a doctor. And I’m only four months along. There is time for nursery stuff. And Percy and I are still working some stuff out.” Like co-parenting, for starters. And whether or not there’s any hope left for a relationship.
“Do you need money, or--”
“I didn’t ask you here for money.” It is a little bit of a plea, a little bit of an assurance. “I just… I want you around. For me and for my baby.”
“Any time,” he says. “Both of you, any time.”
They start the movie again soon after that, but she rests her head on his shoulder, and when it's done, he takes out his phone and starts marking dates on his calendar. Due dates, potential baby showers and gender reveal parties and everything else.
“I suppose you and Percy won’t be able to come visit us in California before the baby is born,” he says, “but you’ll be going to Magnus’ wedding in July. So maybe in June? It would be a good idea, I think, to practice a transcontinental flight before a transatlantic one? Don’t you think so?”
She laughs at his eagerness even as she nods, and surreptitiously makes the plans in her own mind.
He leaves early the next morning. And she sees him off to the airport.
“I’ll see you soon,” he promises. “Call me any time. I’ll be back for any celebrations you might have.” She had basically forbidden him from letting Mary throw her a gender reveal last night. “But if you need me, I am friends with people at the airport. I can be on a plane so quickly.”
“I know, Dad.”
“I love you,” he promises.
“I love you, too.”
He looks back as he gets in line for security. Something about that, the hint of regret, it feels nice, He’s going back to his life. His wife and his sons, but he’s sad to leave her behind.
In some ways, that’s one of the things she’s always wanted from him, the idea that he thinks about her when she’s gone.
And then he’s gone.
She goes back to her apartment, and she goes back to her new project, a sweater just for Percy.
It's a deep blue, but with subtle shifts throughout the skein, like the ocean. She knows it will look beautiful against his skin and hair. She had actually bought the yarn over the summer. When she’d been falling in love and lying to everyone including herself about it. She hadn’t been able to use the soft wool until she’d actually committed herself to a Percy project.
Just before lunch he texts her: Going to tell my mom. I’ll tell you how it goes.
She stress-crochets and stares at her phone and listens to Paramore. She curses Piper’s no phone rule and hates that her dad is still in the air.
The hours pass. She finishes one sleeve and then the other. Percy doesn’t text her again. Even though lunch is long since over.
She remembers that she should eat at about 3pm, and sends a quick order for some biryani. She needs spicy raisins like yesterday.
At four there's a knock at her door. The Indian place is normally slower than that, but she is hungry, so she’s quick to get it.
The delivery guy is gone when she opens the door. But he left his parcel.
It isn’t her biryani. It's a brown box with Amazon’s creepy corporate smile on it.
She knows she 100% didn’t order anything.
For a moment she wonders if Thalia mailed her a glitter bomb or something. But Thalia doesn't know her address.
So all she can do is open the package.
The packing slip has a note written on it.
I figured I’d let you New Yorkers have your little Yankees fan. But I am claiming hockey for my first grandchild. I love you both so much. -Dad (Grandpa)
She’s full on crying when she lifts the plastic bag out of the box and unwraps it.
The contents are simple, small. A black onesie with white and yellow letters on it. They say Boston Bruins.
She hadn’t bought anything yet. This is the first bit of baby things she’s owned. And it's a gift from her dad. His favorite team. Something he wants to pass down.
She holds it tight, and cries some more.
She falls asleep holding it, and crying in the best way.
In the morning she wakes up to two texts. One, expected, is from her dad: I’m glad you like it, and I love you too.
And one from Percy: Mom says the mother of her grandchild has to come to dinner on Saturday.
***
Standing outside the apartment building in the freezing cold is probably not good for a pregnant lady, but Annabeth simply cannot bring herself to enter the lobby. She has been standing there for a solid seven or eight minutes, staring at the door, and doing absolutely nothing about it.
“He wants you here,” she whispers to herself. “He wouldn’t have invited you if he didn’t want you here.”
Through the glass, she can see Percy in the lobby, a paper bag of groceries at his feet, as he checks his phone. He hasn’t seen her yet. She could leave, and he would never know she was there at all.
She had been promised a small affair, just Percy, his parents, and his sister, so he could introduce his family to his girlfriend. Yes. She is Percy’s girlfriend. She is having his baby. She counts as family now, so that’s why it’s okay for her to be here.
At least, that’s what she’s been trying to tell herself for about twenty minutes.
Drawing in a deep breath, she pushes open the glass door, strutting her way over to him feeling bizarrely like she’s a lady of the night, meeting her illicit client in his hotel room. Her pregnancy sort of distorts the whole thing, though. “Hey.”
He looks up, eyes sparkling. “Hey,” he says back, leaning in for a kiss, and her toes curl in her shoes.
Then he pulls back, and looks down. “Is that a Birkin?”
Annabeth, caught red handed, freezes. “...Too much?” she asks, nearly a squeak.
Frowning, Percy considers it.
Earlier that afternoon she had spent probably a solid eighty minutes debating between which purse to bring to dinner with Percy’s parents. Which is ridiculous. They weren’t even going out to eat for god’s sake. Who was going to see?
...Just his mom. And his little sister. And his stepdad, if she were unlucky enough for him to have a stepdad who actually knew what a Birkin was.
Percy comes to a decision. “It’s fine,” he surmises. “Just… you know. It’s okay. You don’t have to be so--”
“Insane?”
He smiles, despite himself. “Nervous.”
“Can you blame me?” She cards her fingers through her hair, attempting to tamp down a stray, stubborn lock which keeps wandering into her eyes.
Huffing a laugh, Percy reaches out with some effort, gently pushing her hair back into place, out of her eyes. It’s such an easy action, so unselfconscious, that her heart stutters a little bit. “Don’t worry,” he says. Like that’s going to help calm her fears at all. “Just be yourself. You’re gonna knock their socks off.”
She’d better. She really doesn’t think she can handle another disappointed mother.
The very thought is enough to make her want to claw her skin off. But she has to settle for adjusting her sweater sleeves again.
“Aren’t you a little warm in that?” Percy asks, hefting his grocery bag as they walk to the elevator. She had offered to help him carry them, but he had said ‘no’ and then glanced down at her belly. She’s not so pregnant yet that she can’t carry some cheese and crackers and a bottle of wine, but he had insisted.
“I’m fine.” She’s not. It’s hot as fuck in here. But she’ll live.
It’s a small price to pay for Sally Jackson’s approval.
Two minutes later, arms wrapped around the paper bag, Percy lifts his leg, ringing the doorbell with his foot.
“I could have just done it,” she says. He beams at her in response.
Not a moment later, the door opens.
“PERCY!” Quicker than a flash, a small figure barrels out of the doorway, nearly knocking him over in a hug of epic proportions. “You’re here!”
“Hey, guppy,” he says. “What’s with all the excitement? You saw me for Thanksgiving.”
“That was a whole month ago!” says the small creature, curly brown head only coming up to his stomach. “It’s been AGES.”
Percy laughs, gentle and delighted, and Annabeth is about two seconds away from melting into a puddle on the floor. “Well I’m here now.”
The little girl pulls back, flashing a wide, toothy smile--which is when she sees Annabeth. Who just waves, like a dumbass.
“Annabeth, meet my sister, Estelle. Estelle, this is Annabeth.”
“Ooh!” the girl crows, looking up at Percy. “Is she your girlfriend?”
Her eyes flick over to him, waiting with bated breath on his answer.
Percy extricates a hand out from the paper bag, ruffling his sister’s hair. “Yeah, squirt, she is. Now can you get off of me? I gotta go put this stuff down.”
“Okay.” She unsticks herself from Percy, turning on her heel to run back into the apartment. “Mooom!” she calls. “Percy’s here! And he brought his girlfriend!”
“She already knows!” he calls after her, stepping in first, holding the door for Annabeth with his back.
The smell of cooking food wafts in through the open doorway, garlic and tomato mixing with cinnamon and sugar. She can hear the soft, muted sounds of a radio--in this day and age?--playing dim, cozy swing, momentarily drowned out by the sound of a great shriek of laughter.
Laughter. There is laughter inside this house.
Annabeth steps inside.
Expertly, with all the balance in the world, Percy toes off his shoes, sneakers with loose laces easily sliding off his feet, falling haphazardly to the side of the hallway. Annabeth, with her swollen ankles, has traded out her heavy boots and worn out converse for a pair of sensible slippers: black, so as not to clash with her thick, black woolen leggings. Out of consideration for Mrs. Jackson, she pushes them into a corner with her toe.
“Ma!” He calls.
“In the kitchen!” Comes the faint reply.
Arms full of food, he turns to her, one brow gently raised--an invitation, with a coolness not entirely smothering the hope and trepidation which she can see in his eyes. Part of him is afraid, she realizes. Worried she might back out at the last second.
Brazen, she steps further in.
The light is warm and yellow. In the corner of the living room is a tree, bare and undecorated, but with a dented, off-white plastic box beneath it, likely holding the treasure of ornaments within. The walls are covered in photographs: a wedding photo of Sally and Paul, Estelle’s first day of school, Percy holding his baby sister in the hospital, the four of them in Paris, Estelle on Percy’s shoulders beneath the Eiffel Tower.
Grinning, he overtakes her, three wide strides to the kitchen.
“Percy!” says his mother, stepping away from the oven for a moment to embrace her son. “Hi, sweetheart.”
“Hey, mom.” Even with his arms full, somehow he’s still able to hug her, bending over so she can wrap her arms around him, pushing his shoulders into his chest. “Smells amazing in here.”
It really does, the warm, heady smell of hot cheese and tomato sauce curling through the air, making Annabeth’s mouth water.
“Thank you, sweetie.” She pulls away, hand lingering on the paper bag. “Do you need any help with these?”
“I got it,” he says, waddling over to the tiny bit of available counter space left. “Do you need any help with dinner?”
“We’re just about set--Paul ran out to get some drinks, but he should be back any minute.”
Annabeth’s heart sinks. Shit. She can’t drink any alcohol. Are they going to think she’s being rude?
Percy casts a glance her way, too quick for her to make out what he might be thinking. “Maybe some water to start?”
“Of course,” says his mother, smoothly, already pulling down the appropriate glasses--two, one for him, and one for Annabeth. Or for her. She can’t tell.
Fucking ADHD and noticing stupid things! Fucking calm down!
“I’m back!” comes a man’s voice from the front door. Tucked under his arm, he carries a large case of seltzer. “You would not believe how empty the bodega was, it was like a ghost town in--oh! Hey, kiddo!”
“Hey Paul,” he says, crossing over to give him his hug.
They’re so… friendly with each other. No, that’s not the right word. Comfortable. Percy hands out hugs like candy on Halloween, and his parents are just as receptive. Annabeth can’t remember the last time her stepmother even touched her shoulder. Let alone her biological mother.
“So?” Sally asks, once all the appropriate greetings have been given. “Is this her?”
“This” being Annabeth, who is shocked out of her stupor with hopefully nothing more than a brief shake of her head.
Percy takes her hand, pulling her out of the corner, into the light. “Annabeth, these are my parents, Sally and Paul.” They nod in turn, staring politely at her. “Mom, Paul, this is my girlfriend, Annabeth.”
The g-word changes the atmosphere, imperceptibly: Paul straightens up, the corners of his mouth stretching open further, while Sally’s gaze sharpens on her, taking her from the top of her ugly-ass haircut, down over her torso, to the tips of her grey, hand-knitted socks. Assessing her. Lingering on her ankles. Maybe. Oh boy.
“So nice to finally meet you, Annabeth,” Paul says, sticking out a hand. “We’ve heard so much about you.”
“It’s nice to meet you, too,” she replies, automatic. “Thank you so much for having me tonight.”
“Of course,” says Sally, picking up the conversational flow. “It’s our pleasure.”
And there we have it. Annabeth has officially met the parents.
She’s just grateful that she’s not shaking too visibly as they sit down to eat.
Dinner is baked ziti--warm and hearty and heavy with cheese, and oh fuck yes to the olives hiding in between the noodles, little bursts of umami heaven. Thank god her taste buds aren’t all fucked up tonight. It helps that it’s also absolutely delicious anyway, everyone murmuring their appreciation for the chef, even Estelle, who doesn’t complain at all about having to eat her veggies. Annabeth is shocked. She was way more of a picky eater at Estelle’s age, subsisting on a diet of plain potatoes, cocktail olives, and whatever bags of junk food she could sneak in under her stepmother’s watchful eye.
Estelle isn’t shy, either. “You’re really pretty,” she says to Annabeth, completely unprompted.
“Oh,” she says, shocked. But… also very pleased. “Thank you. You’re--you’re really pretty, too.”
“Are you a ballerina, too?”
Annabeth shakes her head. “I’m an architect.” Shit, is that too big a word for kids? “Um, I like to build stuff. I mean, I don’t do the building, but I tell people where and how to build stuff.”
Estelle nods. Annabeth can hear her feet as she swings her legs, knocking against the table. “Do you know Beyonce? She and Percy are best friends.”
Percy snorts, wiping his fingers on a napkin. “We just met the one time, squirt.”
“Yeah, but she liked your pic on Instagram! I SAW it,” she announces, proud of her big brother. “That means you two are best friends.”
“Moving up in the world, there, kiddo,” says Paul.
“Did she really like your pic?” Annabeth asks, leaning in to Percy.
He nods, smug as all hell. “I took a screenshot. I’m gonna print it out and frame it.”
Fair enough. It’s an achievement of the highest order.
The conversation moves on. Paul is a teacher and Sally is a writer, and Annabeth nods along like she already knew that. Estelle happily contributes to the conversation where she can. A few questions are thrown Annabeth’s way, but only a few.
She’s happy about that.
When dinner is over she offers to help clear things away, but Sally and Percy shoo her away, and instead she ends up with Estelle introducing her to their fish tank. It's a large aquarium that, Annabeth learns, has been in the family since Percy was twelve. They don’t have any lobsters though, Estelle tells her seriously, which is a shame, because she’d name it Francisco Montague Xanzibar the Third if she did.
It’s hard not to be charmed by her earnestness. She’s just like Percy in that way. It must be genetic.
Eventually, Sally’s voice floats down the hallway. “Estelle, sweetie, we’re about to start cookie decorating!”
At that, she leaps to her feet, grabbing Annabeth’s hand and hauling her to the kitchen. Good god she is strong for a ten year old.
The kitchen has been transformed, the counter and table cleared off and prepared with decorating stations like a well-oiled machine, mismatched jars of sprinkles in between paper plates with puddles of colorful frosting, like a painter’s palette. Estelle gives out a cheer, grabbing a frosting palette and a handful of cookies, then taking her rightful place at the head of the dining room table. “Annabeth!” she calls. “Come sit with me!”
So excited, Annabeth can’t exactly refuse.
It’s… nice. It’s really nice.
Percy slides in next to them, but Estelle smacks her hand down on the table, pointing. “No boys allowed!”
Taken aback, he laughs. “You’re not serious.”
But she will not be moved. “No boys! Shoo!”
“Stellaaaaa,” he pouts. “I wanna decorate cookies with my girlfriend.”
“Too bad!” she chirps.
“You heard the boss, Percy,” Sally says, sitting down on Estelle’s other side. “No boys allowed. Besides, Paul could use help with the tree.”
Grumbling goodnaturedly, Percy shuffles off.
Annabeth stiffens. Alone with his mother. Well, his mother and his kid sister. Swallowing, she prepares herself for an interrogation.
...An interrogation which never comes.
Old hands, Sally and Estelle decorate cookies with the kind of speed and efficiency that only comes after ten thousand hours of practice. Sally is more artistically minded than Estelle, who both blow Annabeth out of the water, but between the three of them, they amass a stack of decently decorated cookies. Some are more traditional, green trees with red dots, or white stars, and some are decidedly less so, like the blue and orange candy cane.
While Annabeth is hard at work on a cartoon reindeer, Estelle asks, very sweetly, if she can pass the blue sprinkles.
“Of course,” she says, handing it over. “What are you working on, Estelle?”
Proudly, she shows off her creation, a long, light blue humanoid, its arms outstretched. Parts of the side have been broken off, either because the dough was stretched too thin, or some enterprising cookie thief had snapped up a piece when not being watched. Honestly, Annabeth would have done the same.
It takes her a second to see it, but she realizes what it is the moment Estelle announces: “I’m making a Percy!”
Now that she thinks about it, she had spotted a ballerina cookie cutter on the counter. It looks like Estelle has just snapped off the sides, where the tutu would have been. On the torso, in thin, shaky lines, she has begun the outline of a leotard in dark blue frosting, little tufts of navy and white streaking out from the center. The hair has been painted black (so that’s why they had black frosting!) with a yellow and blue crown on the bun.
It is Percy, in his Bluebird costume from his first ever Sleeping Beauty. She’s seen the pictures before.
And here Annabeth has just been filling in stars with one solid color and calling it a day. “It’s beautiful.”
She beams, wide and toothy.
“Oh, that looks wonderful, baby!” Sally leans over, eyes warm.
Flush with success, Estelle very politely excuses herself from the table, darting off to the bathroom.
Annabeth can’t stop looking at the half-finished cookie. “This is amazing.”
Sally hums, painting red trim on a tree with a toothpick. “She’s been practicing. She went through probably half a dozen sketches yesterday. So, how are you doing?”
The question catches her off guard. “What?”
“How are you doing?” Sally repeats, kindly. “I remember my second trimester--both of them. Percy’s was miserable, but Estelle’s was a walk in the park.”
“Oh. Um, it’s been fine, honestly.” She’s stopped throwing up mostly, which is nice. Her new maternity clothes are nice and warm, and she hasn’t had any weird aches and pains yet. “Just peeing a lot. Hungry all the time. Um, kind of hormonal.”
Sally raises an eyebrow, and Annabeth flushes.
“Not like that.” Well kind of like that, too, but she’s not about to admit that to her boyfriend’s mother.
The other woman chuckles, plucking up another toothpick. “Oh, I remember those days, too, don’t worry.”
“But, really, it’s been okay.” Truthfully, Annabeth had been expecting much, much worse. The very concept of pregnancy is enough to give someone nightmares, and yeah, maybe she isn’t enjoying the weight gain and the way that pregnancy seems to make her impulsivity even worse, but considering what it represents? How it brought Percy back to her? It’s worth it. It’s all worth it. “I feel fine most of the time. And Percy’s been amazing.”
Sally sets her toothpick down, looking Annabeth in the eye. Her face is serious now, delicate eyebrows furrowed together. “Has he?”
Annabeth nods. “Absolutely. He’s been so supportive right from the get go, and I’m--I’m really happy.”
“Are you?” Percy’s mother holds her gaze, piercing brown eyes going right through her, looking for… something. Maybe Annabeth’s commitment to her son. Or maybe just to see if she’s telling the truth.
She is telling the truth--she is happy. Her father is back in her life, and her relationship with Percy is on the mend. She’s sitting here, decorating cookies with his mother and his baby sister, and she hasn’t felt like crying once. Annabeth can’t remember a time when she was happier. She nods again.
Whatever Sally is looking for, she seems to find it, because she relaxes, smiling again, and Annabeth’s breath catches in her throat.
After meeting his father at Halloween, she had thought that Percy was a carbon copy of him, from the straight nose down to his broad shoulders and his large, strong hands. But she had been mistaken.
Percy isn’t a copy of his father. That smile? That warmth? That’s all Sally Jackson.
While Paul makes the hot chocolate and Estelle puts away the cookie decorating supplies, Sally calls her son and Annabeth into the other end of the little living/dining room. Their lights twinkle on the tree, a string of colored lights and two strings of blue ones. They’d only had white lights on the tree at her dad’s house in California, Annabeth recalls, because her stepmother had said it was more sophisticated. Chase family Christmases, with its store-bought glass bulbs, had somehow been homier than Athena Pallas Christmases, where she hired the same decorator who had done her office lobby to come in and set up the tree for her.
She thought that fact explained a lot about her mother. And about her.
The Jackson tree is covered in ornaments that had clearly been made by Percy and Estelle at all ages. Pipe cleaners and popsicle sticks and glitter and cardboard cover the fake green branches.
It is enough to make Annabeth want to buy a tree.
“Stand here,” Sally says, ushering them in front of the trees. Then she proceeds to move them around like dolls, adjusting arms and tilting heads and adjusting shoulders until Percy stands just over her shoulder, both of their hands resting on her belly.
Sally takes out her phone and snaps a couple of pictures and then she takes out an old fashioned polaroid and takes another one. She smiles as she shakes it and then shows it off to the couple.
It's a good picture. Annabeth doesn’t have any pictures of the two of them. She needs some. And some of Percy himself. She could set one as her phone background. That’s what you do with your hot as fuck boyfriends, right?
Then Sally reaches for something on the little mantle.
“Oh!” is all Annabeth can say when she sees it. It’s like so many of the ornaments on the tree: popsicles, sticks and glitter. The sticks are connected to form a little square frame the size of a polaroid. On the lower stick, in blue puff paint are the words, “Grandbaby’s First Christmas.”
Sally takes out a sharpie and writes on the back of the polaroid “Percy, Annabeth, and Baby, 2021,” and then slips the picture in the frame, hanging it up high on the tree. “Estelle doesn’t know yet,” she says, “and I know Percy wants to tell her. But I want this on my tree, even if it's not technically Christmas yet. We’ll do a new picture next week, on the actual day.”
“Ma,” Percy says, “You can’t just assume Annabeth is coming for Christmas.”
“You said her father was here last week, and he lives in California,” Sally replies. “She’s having Christmas with us.”
And so, the matter is decided.
At the end of the night, Sally and Paul send her home with a Ziploc bag full of cookies, and Estelle runs out after them to give Annabeth a great, big hug. “Come back soon, okay?” she asks, rubbing her face into Annabeth’s coat.
Annabeth can’t resist, hugging her back. “I’ll be here for Christmas,” she promises. “I can’t wait to see you again.”
Percy has a pep in his step as he walks Annabeth down to the lobby, humming snatches of the Nutcracker, and Annabeth is hit with a wave of nostalgia, warm and cozy like baked ziti and home-decorated cookies. “What’s got you in a good mood?” she asks, tone too fond to be truly snarky.
He shrugs, grin too wide to be truly aloof. “Oh, you know. Just our smashing success.”
“Our success?” she teases. “As I recall, your sister was stuck to me all night, not us.”
“Must be a Jackson family trait,” he says.
“What?”
And he turns to her, pulling her into his arms. “Loving you.”
She inhales sharply. Did he just…?
His face is warm, radiating. Like a dancer in awe of his partner. Only this, she can tell, isn’t an act. She’s seen him act this way. And now she’s seen the real thing--and it’s a hundred times as strong.
“Well, the Jacksons are in luck,” she says, voice thick. “Because loving them back is pretty dang easy.”
His smile grows, somehow, and his arms tense around her. Before she realizes what’s happening, he’s picked her up by the waist, feet off the ground, and he spins her around, laughing.
She wants to sink into the feelings of his words. She wants to live and breathe this moment forever.
“Can I walk you home?” He asks, putting her back down. The moment is perfect. But not pushed. It's beautiful and delicate and she won’t ruin it by running away anymore.
“I would love that.”
So hand in hand, they set off into the cold New York night, Annabeth feeling like she’s walking on air.
honesty and promise me, part 14 [co-written with @darkmagyk] [read on ao3]
She escapes into the bathroom during the applause, and misses Percy’s grinning bow, his presentation of his fairy princess. She misses having to hear the crowd go wild for him.
She already knows how perfect he is, how beloved. She doesn’t need the reminder. As she dabs at her eyes and tries once again to tame her hair, she tries to think about the fact that her investment in cry proof mascara and eyeliner was a good choice, and not think about… everything else.
Breathing deep, she looks at herself in the mirror, and then decides to venture back out, meet her dad, and then run home. Run away. She can’t stand this anymore.
There's more of a crowd in the lobby when she gets out. Saturday night at the ballet, it's mostly older people taking in a New York classic. But dotted through the crowd she sees children. Some are twirling away from their parents, some are walking along, chattering animatedly, and a handful are asleep, held securely in their dad’s arms.
She puts her hand on her own belly. Mindful, so very mindful of being that in just a few years time. And the father of her child is in this building. She can’t ignore that. Even if so much of her wants the shame and the embarrassment and the heartbreak makes her want to.
It’s not about her. It’s about him, and their child. Percy deserves to know. End of discussion.
She’s talked with Dr. Vesta about a million and one ways to tell him. This is not one of the ways. And yet, it's perfect. Like ripping off a bandaid. It will not allow her to back out again and again until the baby’s in college.
“What a show,” her father says, when she meets him at the doors. “I am so impressed with those dancers. Just, so much work. So much artistry.”
They’re just stepping out into the cold winter night when Annabeth finally gets up the courage to ask. “Hey,” she says, grabbing her dad’s sleeve. “Do you want to meet them?”
“Hmm?”
She has to stifle a laugh, even now. No matter where he is or how nicely he’s cleaned up, he still has a permanent “deer in headlights” look whenever you catch him off guard. “The Cavalier. I don’t know if I mentioned it,” she knows she hasn’t, but hopes he doesn’t realize it, “he’s my friend, Percy,” and she’s proud of how little she stumbles over the f-word. “Do you want to meet him?”
He’s nodding before she finishes her sentence. “Of course! I’d love to meet your friend. Are you thinking of inviting him for dinner tomorrow?”
“Actually, I was thinking we could go storm the stage door?” She asks, knowing he’ll say yes, because if he says yes, then she can’t run away. This is the lynchpin of her whole brilliant, sudden plan, and she doesn’t think she’ll be this brave ever again.
Her dad beams at her. “I’ve always wanted to do that!”
Twenty minutes later, Annabeth and her dad are still waiting in the small crowd outside the stage door, but that hasn’t dimmed Frederick’s enthusiasm anyway, practically bouncing up and down. “I have to say,” he says, rubbing his hands together to keep warm, “this isn’t what I expected when you invited me out to see you.”
She breathes in sharply through her nose, hoping that the cold air will freeze her tear ducts before she starts crying. Again. She’s going to have a serious case of dehydration if she keeps this up.
“Oh, no, I don’t mean that in a bad way,” he hurriedly continues. “This weekend has been absolutely lovely. I simply mean, I didn’t think you’d become a ballet aficionado.”
“I’m not really an aficionado,” she admits. “But Percy… he makes it interesting.”
“How did you meet?”
She closes her eyes against the fresh wave of tears that threatens to burst, remembering the sweet, buttery smell of perfectly made pancakes. Before she can explain, however, there is a burst of noise from the crowd as the dancers exit the theater.
Percy is escorting the woman who danced the Sugar Plum Fairy, holding her arm as they walk down the steps. Immediately swarmed by her acolytes, armed with only a pen against the onslaught of programs and adoring fans. She looks older than she had onstage, but no less gracious, accepting each program with a smile and a heavily accented “Thank you,” even as Annabeth can see just how tired she is. Her shoulders are tight, and she has just the tiniest limp as she moves to the next person in line. Percy stands next to her, supporting her, even as he is cautiously approached by his own fans and admirers--not nearly as many as hers, and not nearly as many as he deserves.
He looks tired, she thinks. The lines on his face are deeper, caked foundation melting into his frown and smile lines, the color just… a little bit off. Maybe a little too orange for him. In the harsh light of the streetlamps, no amount of concealer can hide the bags under his eyes. And Annabeth would know.
This was a mistake. He’s not going to want to see her; he made that very clear. But just as she’s about to lose her nerve and do something stupid like throw herself into oncoming traffic, he turns his head, and he sees her.
It takes him a second. She watches him look at her face, then her hair, then her eyes again, his own widening in recognition. He says something to his partner, and she smiles, sending him off with a kiss on the cheek.
She blinks, and he’s right in front of her. His whole body is tense, like it is just before he does one of his gravity-defying leaps. “Annabeth,” he breathes, unbelieving.
“Hey,” she says, weakly.
“Hi.” Then, after a moment of silence, “You cut your hair.”
“I did.”
“I almost didn’t recognize you.” His gaze flits to her almost-empty ears, to the wisps of hair flying off them like she’s stuck in a wind tunnel. “It looks nice.”
It looks terrible. Even a few months ago, he would have told her outright that it looked terrible, but he would have smiled, and kissed her anyway, and he would have used his fingers to ruin it further.
Focus. Please. “Um, Percy,” she says, turning her body to bring her dad into the conversation, “this is my dad, Dr. Chase.”
Percy’s eyes practically bug out of his head, his mouth dropping a little.
“Dad,” Annabeth continues, “this is my… friend, Percy.”
Seized with enthusiasm, her dad takes Percy’s hand, shaking it vigorously. “You were absolutely magnificent, young man, really, just an absolute pleasure to watch.”
“Um… thank you.” He dips his head, a gesture of deference. Or maybe he’s just hiding his shock. “I’m so glad you enjoyed the show.”
“Would you mind signing my program?” From one of his pockets, her dad produces a pen, the cap missing. “You know, when Annabeth called me up last month and asked me to visit, she promised me that we’d do all of the typical touristy New York city things, and getting an autograph at the stage door is right at the top of my list!”
Percy looks at her, curiously. “Yeah, of course I can sign your program.”
“I must confess, our whole family is from Boston, historically, and I haven’t yet had the chance to really visit New York, but it’s been an absolutely wonderful weekend so far.” This he says to Annabeth, proud and fatherly smile firmly on his face. “I saw in your biography, you worked with Boston Ballet?”
“I did,” Percy confirms, signing his program. “Right when I was starting out.”
“That was during your freshman year of college, wasn’t it, dear?”
“Yeah, dad,” she says.
Percy must be able to sense her reluctance, still, because he jumps in. “Unfortunately, I didn’t really get to see much of Boston; it was my first big job, and I spent most of my free time practicing.”
“Well, clearly it has paid off,” says her father, accepting the signed program and folding it up, probably smearing the wet ink, and tucking it back into his pocket. “You are very, very talented, young man, and I do sincerely hope you’ll make it out to the West Coast at some point. Unfortunately, it may be a little too expensive for me to keep flying out to New York to see you perform.”
Annabeth does not have a favorite Percy smile--that kind of thing is way too sappy and lovey-dovey, especially for a guy who publicly disavowed her--but the one he gives them at this moment is pretty nice. She’s struck again, just how open and honest he is with his feelings. Love isn’t a burden, for him. Joy isn’t something to hide.
But then again, he is a really good actor.
“We’ll see,” he laughs. “You know, I have family in California, too--I have a cousin there, Jason. He works as a programmer for Lupa Industries.”
“Then you two have no excuse not to come visit,” her father says.
Percy gives her a smile: small, tentative. But hopeful. “Maybe we will.”
‘You two.’ ‘We.’ He said, ‘we.’ He said ‘we’ like he didn’t hate the idea of her and Percy, together, as a unit. She can feel a solitary tear running down her face. In the corner of her vision, Percy’s hand twitches.
“I’m sure you must be very busy, but if you have the time, would you like to come out to dinner with us? I’m only in town for a few more days; Annabeth can give you the details.”
“Let me check my calendar,” Percy says. “Annabeth and I can work it out.”
‘Annabeth and I.’ She’s crying freely, now--any minute it’s going to get really ugly. Her father, though, doesn't mention it. “I’m so sorry to run out on you, dear, but I just remembered, I need to get back to the hotel and make a call. Will I see you tomorrow for lunch?”
She nods, unable to speak.
“Well, it was wonderful again to meet you, Percy. You have a very bright future ahead of you, I can tell.”
“Thank you, Dr. Chase,” he says, shaking her father’s hand. “It was great to meet you, too.”
He kisses her on the cheek, squeezing her in a hug, then trots off to the curb, sticking out his thumb like he’s trying to hitchhike instead of calling a cab.
Once he’s gone, Percy turns back to her, incredulous. “You… called your dad?”
She nods. Sometimes she can’t believe it either. “I called my dad,” she sniffles, rubbing her nose, “invited him out here, and we just… got to talking.”
“He’s really nice.”
She nods. “He is. He--he said he knew a couple of architecture firms that were hiring, and he offered to put in a good word for me. I asked him to help update my resume.”
“That must have been really hard for you,” he says, neutral. She can’t tell if it’s approval or disapproval.
Annabeth snorts, watery and gross. “It was.” She hates how her voice squeaks, she hates that she’s out here, two seconds away from falling to pieces, and most of all, she hates how he’s just standing there, and she can’t figure out what the hell he’s thinking. “But I--it was time. I’d been so afraid of him, so scared to ask him for help, but he… he didn’t even blink. I mean, he didn’t even care that I’d ignored him for two years. He was just happy to hear from me.”
“And the hair?”
“The undercut wasn’t growing in well.”
“I don’t…” Percy bites his lip. “Don’t take this the wrong way, but you look like Kate Gosselin.”
That startles a laugh out of her, but some wires must have gotten crossed on the way from her brain to her mouth, because it comes out as a sob instead. “I do, don’t I!”
Percy’s hand twitches again, like it has a mind of its own. “Are you okay? I--I feel really bad about how things went down at Hazel’s party. I meant to call you, honestly, but…”
“It’s okay,” she says, sniffling. “I’m sure you were busy with rehearsals.”
“Yeah,” he says noncommittally.
The silence that follows could definitely be classified as awkward.
If her heartbeat were any stronger, it would tear its way out of her chest and into him. The crowd at the stage door has dispersed by now, leaving them alone. The noise of the city falls away, until it’s just him, and her, and… “I have to tell you something,” she says.
He says nothing, but waits for her to continue.
“I didn’t… I didn’t want to say anything in front of my dad. And I didn’t want to distract you from the show. I thought about calling you a million times, but I knew you must have been so busy, and I didn’t want to… anyway. The point is, I should have told you sooner, and I’m sorry I didn’t. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you a lot of things.”
This, too, must be him acting. His eyes are showing nothing at all, as calm and unflappable as the surface of the ocean. She has no idea what his reaction will be. Still, she has to say it. But will it be enough? “Percy, I’m pregnant.”
Everything freezes: the noise of the city, the snow that’s started to fall. His expression, a perfect mask. Her heart, desperately afraid.
“I’m not asking you to do anything. I’m not even expecting you to do anything, even though I’m pretty sure you’d be the most amazing dad ever. I know I’ve probably blown any kind of chance with you to hell, but you deserve to know.”
“You’re pregnant?” His mouth barely moves.
“That’s why I was throwing up at the gallery. That’s why I cut my hair and called my dad and asked him for help, because I didn’t think I wanted this baby but I really, really do--because it’s a little you inside of me, and I love you so much I will do anything for this fucking kid. I’m going to be a better mom to this baby than mine was to me, and that starts with getting my life back on track. It starts with telling the truth.” At some point, she realizes that she’s stopped crying. Finally. “I love you, and I love our baby. And even if you never want to see me again, I just wanted you to know that.”
There’s a sniffle, and for a split, idiot second, she thinks it’s from her--but it’s from Percy. His lower lip is trembling, and there are tears in his eyes, too. “You’re,” he sniffs, clears his throat. “You’re having my baby?” His voice is thick, and wet, but he’s smiling. He’s happy.
“I am.”
And then his arms are around her, her chest pressed to his, her face tucked into his neck, enveloped in the arms she missed so much. She closes her eyes as she presses her nose into his skin, breathing deep the scent of sweat and smoke and makeup. Oh, she missed this. Oh, how she missed this.
He pulls away, looking down at her, at the swell of her stomach which slumbers, hidden beneath her sweater dress. “Can I…?” he asks, hushed and reverent, like they’re standing in a cathedral, instead of a busy, dirty alleyway.
She doesn’t even know what he wants, but she nods.
Slowly, precisely, he reaches out a hand, laying it over her belly, sea eyes wide with wonder. It’s far too early to feel it kicking, to even really see that it’s there with all these layers on top, but she can feel the warmth of his hand all the way down to her toes… and hopefully, their baby can, too. “Wow,” he whispers.
It’s such a perfect picture, she has to stop herself from bursting into tears all over again. “I’m sorry,” she says, hoping he’ll be able to figure out what for. “Um, do you mind if I tell my dad?” she asks the crown of his head, watching it move from side to side.
“Only if I can tell my mom.”
Annabeth stiffens. His mother--who she still hasn’t met. “S-sure. Yeah.”
Then he looks up, traces of that familiar grin crossing his face, and her heart stutters. “Looks like you can’t weasel out of dinner with her now, can you?”
Biting her lip, she looks away. “Are you sure? I--I don’t want her to…” Hate her? Think poorly of her? She’s not sure she could handle another mother’s disapproval, especially not her boyf--... friend’s.
“Of course I’m sure,” he says, easily. “She’ll love you.”
The L-word, even though it’s not from him, drops like a bomb in the middle of the street. He retracts his hand, and Annabeth shivers.
She watches, anticipating, as he swallows, clearing his throat.
“...Listen, Annabeth--”
“Yes?” She blurts. God, shut up, let him speak!
“I…” His gaze is unfathomable. What she wouldn’t give for a red sky right about now. “It’s… it’s getting kind of late. I should get home, get some rest.”
“...Oh.” Of course. “Yeah, I--I didn’t mean to keep you. I’m sure you’re tired.”
“But--thank you,” he says, his hands in his pockets. “For telling me.”
“Of course.”
Silence again, for a few seconds. Who is waiting for whom, she thinks?
“I, um…” and he reaches up a hand, scratching at the back of his neck. “I just… need some time to think, yeah? Like, maybe a day or so?”
She nods, throat full. “Sure.”
And then he moves his hand like he’s going to slide it back into his pocket--but he doesn’t.
Instead, he reaches for her, his hand landing on her waist. She steps to him--or he steps to her, partners in a dance they’ve done a thousand times by now. He cups her cheek, thumb rubbing against her cheekbone, brushing the tears which have begun to fall again.
And he kisses her.
He pulls back, his forehead resting against hers. “Text me when you get home?” he whispers, his eyes closed, even as Annabeth’s are wide open, drinking in every single lash, every bit of smeared eyeliner, every little bit of Percy that she never imagined she’d get to see again.
“I will.”
“Okay.”
She stays with him until he can manage to hail a taxi, then he leaves her with another kiss and a gentle squeeze of her hands, watching her from the backseat of his cab even as it rounds the corner of the block and disappears from view.
Raising her eyes to the heavens, opening her mouth, she sticks out her tongue, and tastes the fresh, clean snow which falls around her, and she smiles.
honesty and promise me, part 13 [co-written with @darkmagyk] [read on ao3]
It is the longest and shortest month as November becomes December. Her second trimester is in full swing, and she finds herself reduced to sweatpants and leggings until she bites the bullet and buys herself a couple of new pairs of maternity jeans. At least she’d made a habit of stress knitting chunky sweaters for many years.
She spends Thanksgiving at home, after turning down Aunt Natalie’s offer of family Thanksgiving. She’d tried to make her own mashed potatoes and dressing because moms should probably know how to cook, but ended up throwing out both her pots, and ordering in from the open Indian place two blocks away.
Thanksgiving sucks anyway. The pilgrims were murdering colonizers and turkey tastes like napkins.
Somewhere in Oklahoma, Annabeth is sure, Piper just looked up to the sky and smiled, satisfied.
Fuck, she misses her so much.
In the absence of her closest girl friends, she finds that she feels that loneliness more keenly than ever before, especially now. Not that she thinks either of them would be particularly thrilled about the baby--particularly one of them--but at least she could complain to them about the constant peeing and painful boobs and they wouldn’t be too grossed out by it.
Piper would have given her such an amazing pep talk while she waited for her father at the airport. Piper understands having a strained relationship with your dad, and the fragile hope when everyone is trying to do better.
This isn’t even something she can talk to Luke about. He’s been surprisingly open about baby stuff, particularly the material, like buying a crib. But he has no patience for absent fathers. He and Thalia have that in common. And she and Leo don’t talk about feelings.
Annabeth and Dr. Vesta have spent the last two sessions deep diving into this, talking about her history with her mom and her dad and how she can move on with or without them. Boundaries and the baby, and what that means to be the adult child of her parents.
She still feels utterly unprepared. She feels like her dad is going to take one look at her, see the unplanned pregnancy by a guy she isn’t dating, and bolt. Or that he’ll spend all weekend with just her, and then decide he would have rather been at home, with his other family, even if it meant carrying lacrosse equipment.
From across the airport parking lot, she spots him as he comes to a stop in the middle of the flow of people, waving at her and blocking traffic.
She just takes a deep breath, and heads in. “Hi, dad,” she says. His smile is wide, and he opens his arms wide, pulling her in tight.
“It’s so good to see you, dear,” he replies.
Even a few weeks ago she might have pulled away. But now, god, now she just wants to burrow into her dad’s arms, safe from the world.
“I am so glad you’re here.” And she means it.
“I am so glad to be here.”
Then it's the normal airport things, he checks a bag, she calls an Uber because she’s never actually owned a car. And they are off to see the sights and sounds of New York City.
She thinks it's been two years since he was last here. She hopes so, she hopes it was when he visited early into her move, and that he hasn’t returned and she’s refused to see him. But he doesn’t look out the window at the city, his eyes stay on her.
She knows she looks so different from the girl he knew before. She’s down to a nose ring and a couple of extra ear pieces, and her tatts are all hidden under her chunky sweater. She’s had this pair of black Doc Martens since grad school, though if the swelling doesn’t stop, soon she’s going to have to buy another pair. She’s wearing her maternity jeans, a calm, conservative dark wash, under her purple sweater and winter coat. But she feels so different. There is the hair. Shorter than he’s ever seen, mature and severe. And the fullness that is just starting to creep in around her face.
But he doesn’t comment on it. All he says is, “I’m so glad you invited me, dear.”
She wishes she knew what he was thinking.
Or maybe she’d be better off not knowing.
The Uber drops them off at the little diner that Percy took her to once, after a late night concert, swearing up and down that it had the best breakfast in New York that wasn’t made by him or his mom. And while she can’t comment on Mrs. Jackson’s cooking, she does agree that it almost holds a candle to Percy’s homemade croissants, the eggs and waffles nearly up to his levels.
“This is good,” her father says between bites of hash brown. “How did you find this place?”
“We have some stuff for the evening,” she says, not answering him, “so eat up.”
They engage in some typical small talk: she asks him about his research, nodding along as he explains his recent trip to England he’d taken in October in order to get his hands on some RAF letters from 1941. It sounds really interesting, as he lightly sketches the tactics involved and his arguments for the paper he was writing, and how he hoped it might fit into his next book. She had always liked hearing him talk about his work.
When she had been young, in the few years after he and Athena had fallen apart, and before he’d remarried, she had spent a lot of time in his office, building things with legos in the corners and drawing with her crayons. Sometimes he’d read her his work, the history and battles washing over her.
Just the two of them, here, now, reminds her so strongly of that time. Lulling her into a false sense of security
“So,” he wipes his mouth with his napkin. “Now that I’ve bored you to death, what’s been going on with you, dear?”
For a moment, she thinks of telling him, imagining where he is the father he was when she was six years old, squishing spiders and telling her that it was okay that she slipped and fell, not everyone was good at ballet, and that she was probably smarter than the boy in class who had finished his multiplication tables better than her.
But she swallows around the biggest of revelations. “I… might have an upcoming job.”
He perks up. “Oh?”
“One of the lawyers at Luke’s firm is moving her practice to a new building, and she asked if I would be interested in helping renovate it.”
“That’s wonderful!” he beams. “After that Eta award, they’ll all be chomping at the bit to work with you.”
“I… I don’t know about that,” she says. This project is a long ways away, and she doesn’t want to put the cart before the horse. “But I have been polishing up my resume, reaching out to references, and stuff.”
But his smile doesn’t dim. “Please let me know if I can help. I can reach out to people on your behalf, or even look at your resume or…” He pauses, considering. “That is… if you wanted, of course.”
“I’d… really like that.” She takes a sip of water, swallowing down the lump in her throat. “Can I send you a draft of a cover letter?”
“Oh, please!” He nods, enthusiastically. “I’d be happy to. And--and don’t be afraid to reach out and check up on me if it takes a little longer than you’d like.”
Opening lines, all around. “Definitely.”
It feels… really good.
They drop his stuff at his hotel, then make a beeline for the Rockefeller Christmas Tree, and then Saks Fifth Avenue shortly thereafter, walking companionably down the street, their progress slowed to a crawl as he stops at every single window display, fumbling out his phone for a picture, even though she’s told him that it’s better at night, when everything is all lit up.
He doesn’t get any faster by the time they reach Bryant Park for the Christmas markets, insisting on seeing the wares of every single stall, observing all the little wooden statues, every possible iteration of the Empire State Building, and helping himself to as many free samples as he can get away with.
“Got enough food there, dad?”
“I haven’t had stollen in years!” he says with pride, arms laden with fruit bread. “Not since I was doing postdoc research in Stuttgart. This is the real deal! Try some!”
She helps herself to some of the bread.
It’s sweet--very sweet--almost more of a cake than a bread, with little gummy fruit bits that she knows she’ll be picking out of her teeth later.
“What do you think? Do you like it?”
“Mhmm,” she nods, wishing desperately she had some mustard to swallow it down with. Oh dear sweet Jesus some mustard stollen sounds incredible right about now.
In the end, they spend so much time at the market, sipping hot chocolate and eating various candies and pastries and whatnot, that it’s sunset before she knows it, and she has to drag him away from the display of little model airplanes at one of the toy vendors on the outskirts of the park so they can go up to the observation deck at One Vanderbilt.
It’s new--very new, but it’s made such a splash that even Annabeth, disconnected from the architecture world as she is, couldn’t ignore it. A 1400 foot office, restaurant, and public art building, it towers above Midtown, staring down the Empire State Building, the Chrysler Building, and all the other iconic high rises of New York, its glass-encasement making you feel like you’re literally walking on air.
At least, it’s supposed to. All Annabeth can feel is her stomach churning.
“Oh goodness,” Frederick breathes, face pressed up against the glass window. “My goodness. Just look at that view!”
Annabeth is entirely too preoccupied with the floor, the endless reflections of the city below and the people around making her head spin.
Maybe all that stollen was a bad idea.
“I think I can see all the way to Bear Mountain!”
She manages to straighten up, swallowing bile, carefully teetering her way over to the window. Her father still looks out, but she can’t pull her gaze away from down, staring at the city which held her for years: its streets, its bars, its people.
It’s… smaller than she expected, somehow.
She’s seen this height and angle in tons of movies, establishing shots to bring the viewer into the magical universe of New York City, but seeing it for herself, standing as a god above the people of Manhattan--it lessens it, almost. New York isn’t a whole dimension unto itself, it seems. It’s just a place.
Her father sighs. “This is the sort of place your mother would love,” he says, almost to himself.
Annabeth can’t help but stiffen. And of course, this would be the one time he notices.
His fingers curl against the glass. “Have you… seen her lately?”
Annabeth snorts. “If she saw me, she’d have to admit that I’m not in rehab. And we can’t have that.”
And only realizes that was the wrong response when he turns to look at her with a frown, leaving the view below behind completely.
“I don’t know what that means.” He finally says, “I just...didn’t you move to New York to be closer to her?”
“Well, yeah. But that was two years ago.”
When she realizes, her stomach drops in a way which has nothing to do with the stollen or her baby.
Her dad doesn’t know.. He doesn’t know what happened to her.
She’d told him in the early days that she was leaving for independent projects, before she’d stopped answering his texts. But he has no idea what went down between Annabeth Chase and Athena Pallas at a swanky New York City lunch spot two years ago.
Under her father’s kind but piercing gaze, on top of the city, the questions and her history hanging in the air like the snowflakes which have just begun to fall, Annabeth does the only thing she can do: she bursts into tears.
She’s cried about this before. Many many many times, in various states of sobriety. But she’s never cried about it in her father’s arms.
It takes a long, long time for her to get the whole story out. Not because it's that long, but because she can barely finish her sentences without getting lost in her own snot. She tells some of it out of order, the dinner before the expectations, and then only bits and pieces of the aftermath, but eventually, she lays it all out. The dreams she’s been chasing, her own and her mothers, and Athena’s dismissal. The fateful lunch, and her own self destruction. Everything right up to just a few months ago, the Eta Awards on Percy’s birthday, where she found out her mother was so ashamed of having a community architect for a daughter, she told everyone Annabeth was in recovery.
Her dad doesn’t say much, save for a small, sweet, “It’s alright,” while he rubs her back. He doesn’t remove his arms from around her. And when she’s properly done with her story, he doesn’t say anything for a long time.
“Oh Annabeth,” Is how he starts, and she can’t imagine what he’s going to say next.
He’s still rubbing his back. And the silence stretches on as she prepares to face the great confrontation. The one that she’d been dreading for two years, or maybe even twenty. The one where her father, nodding, agreed, saying that her mother was right, that she’d never amount to anything, and that she was a waste of all that time and money. For a thousand conversations for the early days of her father’s marriage, when Mary had had new babies, Annabeth had been an annoying left over, and her dad had been away for work.
She doesn’t want to hear him say he didn’t love her, even if she had wondered and suspected more than a few times over the years. Her dad was the only one who’d ever said that he loved her before. It sounded like he meant it. She didn’t think she could stand to lose it.
That’s why she’d pulled away, she thinks. God, she should be taking notes for her session with Dr. Vesta on Thursday.
"Oh, my poor poor Annabeth,” he murmurs. “I am so, so sorry you've kept this all to yourself for so long."
She shifts her head, trying to get a good look at him, but his arms are already squeezing her tighter and planting a kiss on her temple.
“I can’t believe Athena said that to you.” Her whole life, her father had talked about her mother with a sort of bemused sadness and even some wistfulness. She’d never heard this tone, the anger, the venom on her mother’s name. “I mean, I can, of course I can. I just… oh, Annabeth, I am so sorry.” He pulls back, and he made a point to look her directly in the eyes, something he didn’t always do, “You know she’s wrong, right?”
Does she? Probably, objectively. But…
She shrugs. “I’m working on it.”
The silence hangs between them. He seems shocked that he can’t find any words to say, opting instead to draw her into another hug. A long one.
A really nice one, though.
It feels like ages before he finds the will to speak again. “I’m so sorry you had to go through this alone,” he mumbles. “Had I known, I…”
What could he have done? What would he have done? Would any of it have helped at all? She wishes she could comfort him, lie to him and tell him that he could have made it all go away, that he can go back in time and fix things. But he can’t. There’s no changing what happened.
Maybe she can assuage his worries somewhat, though.
“I wasn’t alone,” she says into his shoulder. “I… had a friend.”
He pulls back, eyes hopeful. “You did?”
She nods. Emphasis on ‘had.’ “Thalia. She kept me from doing anything too drastic.”
Feeling the tears well in her eyes again, she turns back to the window.
She hasn’t thought about Thalia in months, she realizes, somewhat guiltily, having spent all her spare energy crying over Percy. Thalia had held Annabeth together with alcohol, loud music, and a bad attitude that Annabeth had fiercely coveted. Those first few months, she practically idolized her friend, sticking metal in her face and covering her body with ink to mold herself into the shape of the punk princess that Thalia had imagined for her.
However badly she broke Percy’s heart, she must have broken Thalia’s, too.
“I think I remember that name,” her dad says, “from just after you switched to freelancing.”
She wonders if he’s pretending to make her feel better. She doesn’t have any clue if she had mentioned Thalia in the early days.
But she doesn’t want to talk about her anymore. That’s a scar that hurts too deeply right now.
He seems to sense her reticence. “In any case, I’m glad you had someone to help you.”
Annabeth frowns into the mirrored glass.
Thalia… hadn’t helped her all that much, really. She had been a dear friend, a trusted confidant, a lifeline, but she had not been much for healing, much preferring to let it fester instead. Better to let it burn.
She thinks of Zeus Olympianides at Halloween, and her own father now. And she knows she’s in a better place than Thalia.
If nothing else, she has a better dad.
“I’m glad you’re here,” she says.
He embraces her again. “Me, too.”
Good to know that crying is a Chase family trait.
***
Day two, they hit the museums.
They start with the Met, of course, and Annabeth just thanks her lucky stars that her father isn’t into classical antiquities. Still, it’s an amazing place, and they have a wonderful time, before meandering across Central Park to the Museum of Natural History. After a late lunch, Annabeth had suggested checking out the Guggenheim and the Neue Gallerie as well, but her dad doesn’t have much of an eye for modern art, so they compromise on walking around the Park some more.
It’s a beautiful day, cold but bright, clean air crisp with the promise of an evening snow. Making their way down south, they arrive at Wollman Rink, already packed with couples and families, the air full of laughter and cheers and snatches of Christmas carols.
She had been worried that her dad wouldn’t want to go skating, afraid he might think it just a touch too childish.
Boy is she being proven wrong.
“You alright there, dear?” he asks, skating a circle around her as he comes to a stop in front.
Annabeth, never really one for grace, skates with her knees knocked, one arm out for balance as she clutches the barrier. How the fuck is he so good at this? “Hanging in there,” she says through gritted teeth. “Where did you learn to skate?”
“Oh, ages ago,” he says, drifting backwards. “You know I played hockey in high school?”
Her eyes bug out of her head. “No?”
He nods, not even looking where he’s going. Bastard. “I was even on a shortlist for recruitment, I believe. But, well, my teammates were… shall we say, not very academically inclined, and after my last fight, I couldn’t very well write essays with broken fingers, could I?”
Fight? His last fight? As in, last of many?!
And then he skates away, weaving in between the clumps of people on the ice, leaving Annabeth with so, so many questions.
Her skates are a little too tight, and she has serious concerns for the health of her child which obviously vastly outweigh any imagined sense of embarrassment on being so bad at skating, she takes a breather with some hot cocoa, sitting on a bench and watching her father skate around. She’s worked up a bit of a sweat, despite the weather, so her coat sits pooled around her lap.
A little ways down the rink, she sees a little girl, probably three or four years old, her hair up in space buns, giving much the same performance on skates as Annabeth had just a while ago. Arms outstretched, she wobbles towards her father, who kneels on the ice, his arms outstretched, waiting for her to fall into his arms. When she reaches him, he gives a little cheer, picking her up, and spinning with her in a circle, her arms and legs wrapped around his torso, screeching with delight.
Smiling, so enraptured, she barely notices her own father come to sit down next to her, his hands wrapped around his own cup of cocoa. “I like your tattoos,” he says.
She blinks, then looks down. She had completely forgotten--the sweater dress she had picked out today only had short sleeves. “Thanks.”
“I like this one,” he points to a stylized Delta symbol in her inner elbow. “I remember, you used to draw this in all of your notebooks.”
…That she had. “Thank you,” she says, hoping he’ll understand what for.
After skating, they go for dinner on the Upper West Side. A little more expensive than she’s used to, not that either of them can’t afford it, but she had picked it because of its proximity to the Lincoln Arts Performing Center.
She had suggested it, yesterday, shyly, hoping he wouldn’t want to. Or hoping he didn’t even hear her. No dice--the words had barely come out of her mouth before he agreed, almost jumping for joy.
It’s only her father’s excitement now which forces her feet to move from where she’s frozen, stock still on the steps of the theater.
“Everything alright, dear?” he asks, looking back at her.
She doesn’t answer, only flashing him a tight smile as she takes his arm, steering them to the box office.
Maybe this was a bad idea, she thinks to herself as they settle into their seats in the balcony. It’s the same section as last time: close enough to see h--to see the stage, but far enough away to melt into the faceless crowd.
She rebuffs all attempts at pre-show conversation. The last few minutes of orchestral noise consist of Frederick, his head buried in the program, and Annabeth, doing breathing exercises as she crushes hers in her fist.
She can’t read it. She can’t--she can’t even open it.
The orchestra begins to tune, the oboe tone piercing through the muffled roar of the audience, which falls to a breathless, excited hush.
The orchestra begins to play. Curtain rises.
Honestly, she’s impressed with how long it takes before she starts to cry. The Mouse King creeps on stage, his footfalls perfectly soft, back gracefully bent. It could be him. He’s certainly tall enough.
She doesn’t really stop after that point, just manages to keep it quiet.
During intermission, she sits, glued to her chair, fingers tight around the program, and nearly confesses the whole sordid tale when her father asks her what’s wrong. But she isn’t quite ready to ruin his ill-gotten positive regard.
And she still hasn’t seen Percy yet.
She can’t leave before she sees Percy.
She feels like she should marvel a little more as the characters enter the land of sweets. The set and the costumes are beautiful, of course, bright and sparkling, a feast for the eyes. But her eyes remain fixed on Clara. She desperately wishes they’d gone with a dancer with red hair or something. Her blonde curls bounce under the stage lights, her wide eyes shining with wonder.
Annabeth will have to send her little girl to ballet classes. She’ll have to.
She nearly rests her hand on the stomach at the thought, but she stops herself. What if her dad sees?
Gripping her armrests, she swallows around the lump in her throat, and attempts to lose herself in the familiar story. It’s not like Swan Lake. She knows this one. She can follow the plot.
And then the sweets start to dance.
She still hasn’t checked the program. She still doesn’t know who Percy is playing. It makes it harder. Every time someone new comes out to dance, she has to brace herself for him.
He isn’t Chocolate or Coffee or Tea, and by the time Mother Ginger comes out, she’s half convinced herself again that he actually had been the Mouse King, and that she hadn’t recognized him through the mask. Then the children run out from under Mother Ginger’s skirt and she is once again overwhelmed. Her daughter (oh, she hopes it’s a little girl, please) will surely inherit all her father’s talent, and Annabeth doesn’t know if she’d be able to sufficiently support her. God, maybe she’ll turn into one of those terrible moms from Dance Moms. Because really, can she possibly avoid being as bad a mother as Athena?
She has all of the Waltz of the Flowers to think on it.
The only advantage to that is she is already crying when the Cavalier steps out to join the Sugar Plum Fairy.
It does not prevent her from letting out an audible sob.
She shoves her hands to her face, in an attempt to keep quiet, splaying her fingers. She cannot miss this. She refuses to miss the few moments she has left to look at Percy.
She’d been an idiot to think he could have possibly been the Mouse King. She’d have known his thighs anywhere in those tights. It is as terrible a reminder as everything else. Pregnancy is doing terrible things to her libido.
But watching him dance has always been about so much more than that.
Percy Jackson is himself when he dances. In sparkles and the most becoming makeup, he is entirely himself. She’d learned that the very first time she’d seen him perform. Every jump and spin was done not just with his body--and what a body--but with his heart, too. He’d wanted this his whole life; he’d worked himself to the brink for it. Every plie and releve is done with gratitude.
He is a great actor, too, telling a fantastical story with his body alone. But part of that is because he puts so much of himself into his actions. He looks at the Sugar Plum Fairy now with a kind of awe, the reverence of a man who has found a magnificent woman, one who constantly surprises and delights him.
Annabeth has seen that look on his face before. She’d seen it over a sticky table and a couple beers. She’d seen it on a picnic blanket on Long Island. She’d seen it on a park bench on a sunny day. And she’d seen it in soft blue sheets, the night her daughter was made.
Percy looks so taken with his partner, now. So consumed with love.
And why shouldn’t he be?
The Sugar Plum Fairy, balancing herself on toes and ankles and looking as easy about it as you please, is beautiful. There is a technique and artistry there, and Percy, a master himself, can surely pick up things that Annabeth, with all her clumsiness, just can’t.
They are two masters at work in the same glorious craft. Her toes are probably bruised and cracked. She has probably worked just as hard for this as Percy has--possibly even more. She’s the fucking Sugar Plum Fairy. Little girls the world over dream of this part. Even Annabeth, with neither the time nor talent for ballet, had indulged in it a time or two as a six-year-old.
This is what Percy deserves. A once-in-a-million dream.
When they had met, at least, Annabeth had been some sort of fantasy. Punk princess, anarchist architect, devil may care. What’s not to like about a friend with benefits and a tongue ring? And knowing what she knows now about Percy, about his past and all those princesses, she can understand the gutter punk appeal.
But she was never really any of that. She was a fraud. The attitude and persona, sure, but even how unaffected she was by everything about him. He’d shown himself to her, time and time again, and she’d just thrown up mask after mask.
And look at her now: sensible shoes, nice dress before she can’t hide it anymore and has to switch to all maternity clothes, down nearly all of her face piercings. Every day her belly grows, undeniable. Soon there won’t be enough oversized t-shirts and empire-waist dresses to hide it.
She shakes her head to try and clear it, the ends of her horrible, awful, garbage mom hair tickling her ear.
Percy Jackson, father of her child and love of her life, is dancing with one of the most beautiful women in New York. And she is sitting in the audience, watching, with mom hair.
The tears get worse.
Her only consolation is that the ballet is almost over. Then she can put on her Harvard t-shirt, crawl into her own bed, and tell her belly all about the future she saw for her tonight, of Clara and Mother Ginger, and visions of Sugar Plums Dancing in her head.
Her only consolation is that she knows she’ll never tell him.
the marble king, part 12 [end] [read on ao3] [rated M for adult situations]
Constantinople, 1453
Even here beneath the waves, down in the darkness of the crushing ocean, all she could smell was smoke. War drums still thundered in her ears. On her lips, she tasted blood and salt--though whether it was the seawater or her tears, she could not say.
But it was not enough that she had failed to defend the city of Constantinople. It was not enough that she had lost her unit to a man, or had abandoned her post, or had allowed the Ottomans through the Kerkoporta on her watch.
Any one of these things would have branded her a failure--but that the wretched, insufferable, intolerable son of Poseidon had borne witness to it all only turned the knife even deeper, salting the wound and taking pleasure in her misfortune.
To be reduced to a weeping woman like this, taking refuge in his embrace, it was disgraceful. It was nearly as painful as the loss of the city.
The city… gods above, the city.
The heart of the known world. The defense of Europe. The last gasp of the Roman empire.
Gone.
And all that was left of it was him.
And so she clung even tighter.
It felt vaguely sacrilegious to be here, holding his hand, beneath the shadow of the temple erected to his father’s defeat. Her siblings would shun her. Her mother would disown her. The earth should have split open and swallowed her whole for such blasphemy.
And yet, it felt so right.
They had traveled so many miles together, weathered so many storms and stood against so many monsters. He had followed the Hunters of Artemis all the way to Mauretania, chasing a hazy vision of Annabeth struggling beneath Atlas’ burden. He had returned from certain death, thrown himself before her when she was in danger, had refused the gods’ offer of immortality. Then, even after she had spat in his face, expelling him from her sight, when the world crumbled around them and he could have so easily turned and ran, straight into the arms of the sea, his protection and the source of his power--he had sought her out.
“If you agree, Annabeth,” he said, strikingly earnest in the way that only he could be, “let us, here and now, tie off these threads of our history, as one would to a tapestry. Let us end this rivalry of ours.”
Percy had always risked life and limb for her safety. And, she thought, her old shoulder wound itching, she had done the same. They were a team, a partnership. In the absence of their brothers in arms, of their divine parents, of all trappings of the world they once knew, they should stay together. His logic was sound.
“A plan worthy of Athena,” she said. “I agree to your terms.”
That her mother did not immediately emerge from the temple, in all her heavenly glory, to smite her for such an insult was even more proof that her spirit no longer dwelt in this place. Lady Athena had never attempted to hide her distaste for her uncle’s son.
“To think,” he wondered, softly, hazily, “that such a legendary rivalry could have been resolved so easily.”
“It is strange,” she admitted, looking out on the diminished city, the light streaking across wooden roofs and weathered stone, “that along with my mother and our ancestral home, I have lost this as well.”
As long as she had known him, Percy had been a remarkably consistent presence in his life--in some ways, even more solid than the other foundational truths of her life. Her mother would not always be pleased, her friends may not always return from war, but Percy would always be there to irritate, antagonize, and infuriate her to previously unreached heights. To let that go as well, to be so unmoored… it was frightening.
“Well,” said Percy, squeezing her hand, a silly little smile crossing his lips, "my first act, in the shedding of our rivalry, is to pledge myself to our future empress, Ana Zabeta Palaiologina."
Palaiologina. The word cut through her in a way she could not quite understand.
Maidens the world over dreamed of marrying into a family with such prestige, spent every waking moment scheming how best to attach themselves to royalty. Annabeth herself had done the very same thing, not days previously. To ingratiate herself to Thomas and Demetrios would be child’s play for someone with her abilities.
And yet… she did not want Percy to call her Palaiologina.
He raised her hand to his lips, and kissed the skin there, gracious, deferential. Or mocking, if the glint in his eye was any indication.
Phykios, she grumbled to herself.
Pulling her hand back, she wiped it on her dress, hoping to rid her fingers of the hot, tingly sensation which had taken hold.
***
The words echoed in her head, long after they had been spoken aloud, clanging like the bells which sat atop the churches on every corner, inescapable.
Percy had long since gone to sleep, safe in the strength of their companionship. How easily had he divulged his secrets to her! Were their rivalry still intact, she would now have the precise knowledge she required to ruin him entirely. Alas that the same knowledge which would have brought her victory years ago now brought her to ruin and despair.
No mortal woman.
Again, for what must have been the fifth time since he had fallen asleep, she examined every corner of their conversation, turning each word over for double, triple, twisted meanings, meanings which he may not have even been clever enough to imply. That he had rejected Rachael’s advances, even though she had been a fine marriage prospect, that she had never seen him in the company of another woman, that he had admitted to relations with a man so easily, that he had never pursued her, despite years of questing and friendship and several less-than-obvious hints--it all pointed to one logical, if devastating, conclusion.
Yet there was another side to such a terrible coin. She should not have spent so many years agonizing over her words and actions which had turned his heart from her, for she had never had his heart in the first place, had never had a chance to it. No woman had. Annabeth need not have gone to such lengths, seducing Katya when she had expressed an interest in Percy’s hand, monopolizing his attention, flaunting her femininity before his eyes, for he never would have noticed her at all.
While Annabeth was beside herself, worrying herself sick over his health and safety, Percy had been languishing in the arms of another man--of a man of the Legion.
She felt so cold, despite the fire, despite her cloak, despite the heat of the summer night which lay upon her, heavy and still.
None of it had mattered, she was coming to realize. Not the time he had refused immortality, nor the time he had returned from the island of Ogygia, nor the time he had crossed the known world to rescue her from Lukas and the titans. A maiden’s fanciful romance, she had enjoyed imagining that at least some of it may have been for her sake.
The stars blurred before her eyes, her breath hitching.
No. She would not let herself fall to pieces, in her silent, lonesome revelation. There was no sense in weeping over spilled oil; to mourn for a future which had never been possible was a waste of time and energy.
And yet. Gods above, and yet.
She had so successfully repressed the stunning depths of her feelings for him for years, her stubborn, willful pride refusing to let go of a silly grudge and a terrible misunderstanding. How fitting, then, that it should resurface as soon as she discovered such an avenue had never been available to her.
Sniffing heartily, she scrubbed at her eyes, wiping the tears which had gathered in them.
Do not weep, she told herself. There were more wars to fight, more battles to be won, and matters of the heart did not take precedence, no matter how much they hurt.
***
Her siblings, as children, always teased her for her fixation on her hair. Blonde was not an unusual color at the agoge, but children of the war goddess were not supposed to be so concerned with such things as physical appearance. That was strictly the purview of the sons and daughters of Aphrodite; Athena’s children were supposed to focus their wits on things far more deserving of their attention than beauty. Beauty was fleeting, ephemeral, intangible--beauty did not win battles. Athena and Aphrodite were always at odds, in this way.
Yet when Annabeth, a child of fourteen years old, one day very shyly sidled up to Silena, having swallowed her pride to ask the older girl for assistance, Silena agreed immediately, without ever having to hear any arguments. “You have always had such lovely hair,” she had cooed, sitting beneath the shadow of one of the olive trees, her hands deftly twisting her thick, curly, unruly hair into sleek, orderly locks. “Many a sibling of mine has lamented that you have been given so many gifts, your tresses not the least among them.”
Annabeth had smiled, pleased. The older she became, the more comments appraising her apparent beauty she received, and she was not always so pleased to receive them, though coming from Silena’s mouth, they seemed much more sincere. “You speak truly?”
“Of course! And it is not only my siblings who say so.” Then, Silena had leaned over, slipping Annabeth a sly wink. “I have heard tell that a certain son of Poseidon has expressed quite a particular admiration for it as well.”
Indignant, she had squawked, lightly smacking her friend, while Silena tittered, very prettily. “Cease with such falsehood! I know you do nothing but jest!”
“It is no falsehood, korie,” she had said, pulling on a curly forelock. “Carlo has told me how he often speaks of you in such flattering tones. One would think he had decided to court you already!” And then she had laughed again, gaily, delighted--but never mocking.
Flushing, Annabeth’s heart had begun to pound as she considered the potential truth of such a statement, that Percy had spoken of her that way. Recently, she had developed a rather peculiar set of reactions to Percy’s presence: flushed cheeks, pounding heart, an absence of all her faculties so that she, at times, became nearly as foolish as he.
She did not like those feelings. Not at all.
“Can you teach me,” she had said instead, unwilling to dwell on such strange emotion, for such things were so obviously beneath her, “how you wove your hair so skillfully the other day?”
“Of course,” Silena had said, a knowing glint in her eyes. “In fact, I will teach you one better. My siblings say that this particular braid is supposed to resemble the tail of a mermaid.”
Annabeth had practiced the skill for years, long before and long after the moment she had divined what those feelings of hers had truly meant. The mermaid’s tail, however, had not caught its mark--nor had any of the other simple or complex plaits she had mastered and perfected. By the time she was old enough to begin covering her hair, as older girls were meant to do, it seemed that there was nothing she could do with her hair to entice a particular man’s gaze, nor with any other part of her.
Of course, now she understood why.
How cruel were the Fates, that they had finally given her what she had so fervently desired, Percy’s hands in her hair, at such a terrible, unromantic time!
Still, he treated her with all delicacy and respect as he quite crudely hacked away at her gathered hair, sawing off all traces of her femininity. Annabeth was not endowed with so much in her hips nor her breasts; her hair was certainly the most obviously feminine part about her, thus with its removal, she would be better able to pass for a man, and be better kept safe from marauding bandits with evil, grasping hands.
It was sound logic, yes. But it was not her only goal.
She closed her eyes, measuring her breathing so as to keep the rapid war-drum of her heart from alerting the other party. All she could smell was the comforting salt scent which seemed to engulf her, like the warm embrace of the sea on a sunny day.
With a tug, then, it was done. “There,” said her companion. “It is finished.”
How odd, she thought, to feel air on her neck, so cold and exposed. “Well?” she asked, turning round before she let fear get the better of her. “Am I sufficiently boyish?”
He looked on her so oddly, his face a strange concoction of overlapping emotions, coalescing into a furrowing of his handsome brow, a pursing of his lips which still sent her into madness if she should consider them for too long. Please, she nearly prayed, as though she could change his mind from the force of her want alone. Am I as beautiful as all the boys in Rome? Am I someone you could love?
It seemed he had learned quite a bit of tact in their years apart, for he relieved her of her little fantasy ever so gently. “I am not certain,” he said, careful, deliberate, “you could pass as a man--though, perhaps you could be seen as a particularly delicate one.”
Her foolish wish shattered, as glass hurled against a wall.
Well. What was done was done. With a snap and an appeal to his gentlemanly nature, she sent him away so that she could pilfer a dead man’s clothes--and mourn her childish dreams--in peace.
***
Something in the air, the cold snap of it, the feeling as though one were breathing in pure ice, little shards of glass tickling the lungs and stomach--she had not realized just how much she had missed it. Of course the summer nights of the south were pleasant and fair, but there was something so sublime in the frigidity, the freezing, the ice in her fingers and the heat in her cheeks.
And, truth be told, something to say of her traveling companion as well.
Percy had been… nothing short of a miracle. Ripped far from his home, from everything he had ever known, and from his great Roman love (she thought to herself, with an internal scowl), he had been, the whole time, staunch, stalwart, solid. A better companion she could not have asked for, nor a better friend.
She told him as such, and distantly enjoyed the way his face flushed, ever so lightly. Tanned a deep, dark brown by the sun and by his natural coloring, it was sometimes difficult to tell what he was thinking, but she knew him well enough now. Had known him well enough for years.
He was very, very close now. For warmth, they had begun drifting closer together, their bodies’ natural attempts to stave off the bitter, northern cold.
She saw his eyes flick down to her lips.
No, she told herself firmly, no. He did not want for her advances. She had done everything she could to demonstrate her interest, short of simply throwing herself at him, and he had never risen for a single one. Annabeth and Percy were simply not meant to be, and no amount of forced companionship could change that.
For a brief, agonizing heartbeat, she thought she saw him twitch closer.
Then, from the corner of her eyes--light. “Percy, look!” she gasped.
Ásbrú, the rainbow bridge, pierced through the night sky as a blade through water, a burning ribbon of color, near as bright as the moon itself, even more beautiful than in her wildest imaginations. Though she knew well its existence, the bridge had never presented itself to her, not as the mountain of Olympus had. To see it now, it felt like stepping through a silk curtain, passing some invisible line. It felt like a rush of bloodlust, a guttural roar, like a warm fire and the hot curl of mead in her stomach.
“I can’t believe it,” she murmured.
It felt like coming home.
***
How little her father had changed.
Politics was certainly not his area of interest, but he threw himself into his work as passionately as he had with the histories of Anglia and Gallia. His collections of papers, books, and pamphlets of various sizes and subjects were dizzyingly well-researched, a kind of organized chaos which resonated within her, every piece of information in its precise place, even if the place was incomprehensible to others. However, she could sense how little he cared for it.
“My dear,” he said, exhaustion in the slump of his shoulders, “I am afraid there is not much else that I can do. Mary tells me the Totts are growing more and more insistent--and they are merely the kindest about it. Word of both your reappearance and your inheritance has spread far faster than either of us had suspected it would, and we are expected to reply to a demand.”
Annabeth had returned to Svealand, it seemed, in the middle of quite the precarious situation. In the years since she had escaped her monastic doom, there had been no less than three separate kings who had ruled over the joining of northern lands: one deposed, one dead, and one perilously close to danger. Now the union had split apart, and had been at war with itself, with no signs of stopping.
Like many, many noble girls, Annabeth was being paraded around for marriage. At first, when she learned her mad uncle Randulf had left her some properties and the like, she had been oddly touched. She had never known the man personally, nor his children, who had died by some supernatural force whilst she had been roaming the European countryside, but she supposed it had been a final act of some charity, some avuncular affection for his brother’s daughter--yet, after she had learned what the inheritance had brought with it, she wished her uncle had given it to Magnus instead. Or at the very least, kept it to himself.
At least her father was equally upset at this turn of events, if not more so.
“Understand me well, Anja,” he said, his voice thick with fear and worry, “were it up to me, I would never allow it. If I had known you would have been subjected to the predatory whims of the blue-blooded fools in Uppsala, I would have never prayed for your return. I did not get you back just to lose you to--”
“I understand, papa,” she interrupted, gently. It would do neither of them to lose their heads at this time. “Of course I understand.”
“The rebellion is growing, and it is powerful. I do not think it will be very long until Karl Bonde is overthrown, but I worry this land cannot undergo any further crises. To see you enmeshed in such bloody business is one of my deepest, darkest fears, and yet…” He then put his head in his hands, the picture of defeat. “I see no way out of this.”
For her part, Annabeth could think of a few ways, each more distasteful than the last, full of lies and conceit. If she knew she would be forced to be married after all, she would have done more to convince Percy to take her to the Morea.
Then, a thought occurred to her. An idea. A magnificent, inspired plan. A dirty, sordid trick.
“What if…” she said slowly, considering. The next few words out of her mouth could determine a whole host of things, be they pleasant or or unpleasant. She had to speak carefully. “What if I were already married?”
He raised his head, peering at her curiously. “Are you--?”
“No, no,” she assured him. “Certainly not.” Not for a lack of trying, anyway.
Still, he looked thoughtful. “That is a clever idea,” he mused, rubbing his chin, “though I suppose they would then question why we did not think to mention it sooner.”
No doubt her stepmother had paraded about her unmarried status to all who would hear her. “We could say I was married in the eastern church. Perhaps that could explain the irregularity.”
“Perhaps.” Her father sounded doubtful. “I fear, however, that without a union in this church, it would not be recognized as legitimate.”
Seated in her chair, her foot tapped against the floor, quite unbecoming of a lady. Her fingers twitched in her lap, blood pulsing. “Then I suppose my ersatz husband and I must be married again.”
He nodded. “I see… yes, I see. And have you someone in mind for the role?”
It came tumbling out of her mouth so quickly, she ought to have been embarrassed. “Percy.”
“Your friend from the agoge?”
Upon her return, she had relayed a number of stories to her family of her adventures--and of course, nearly all of them included Percy. They had all been privy to tales of his nobility, honor, and gentlemanly nature; surely there would be no reason for her father to refuse the idea.
She swallowed, a knot of terror in her stomach.
“Percy,” he said again, “yes, I do believe this could work.”
At his assent, Annabeth nearly collapsed.
“Another brilliant idea, my dear,” said her father, fondness suffusing every word, “though I cannot say I am surprised. Even as a child, your mother’s influence shone through quite clearly.”
Were she of a crueler, colder nature, Annabeth could have walked away right there and then, freedom solidly within her grasp, in a form most pleasing to her. Percy’s hand in marriage--the dream of many a girl in the agoge. She could leave it at that, and be done with the whole affair.
But. But.
“I will speak to him on the morrow, then,” he said, gathering up his files. “Is there anything else you would like to discuss?”
“Just--” she blurted, heat rushing to her face. “Only--promise me, papa, that we will not move forward without his consent to the match. I do not… I would never wish to force his hand in this manner.”
She may have had him in her grasp, but she loved him too much to keep him there.
But, she vowed, as long as Percy was beside her, she would never be able to marry another man, not a lord nor a king nor an emperor--for what were any of these compared to her prince of the sea?
***
She silenced the little voice of doubt in her mind, cast aside all thoughts of fear or nerves.
Percy had agreed to marry her, and, all told, it had taken very little convincing, as she had suspected--his nobility was well-documented and unflagging. He would never have left her to such a horrid fate if he thought he could do something to save her.
It did not make her feel better.
But, in the end, they were married in the local church, in a simple, unfussy ceremony. Annabeth wore blue for the occasion, a garment of her own creation, and a garland of flowers, as was custom. Percy, of course, was unfairly handsome as always, his eyes lighting up when he first saw her, and when he kissed her, as the ceremony required, she allowed herself to pretend for one beautiful, beautiful moment, that he had kissed her of his own volition.
She was smiling as she pulled away, carried off by the fantasy, even as she could tell he worked very hard to keep his composure. It would not do to show open disgust at his own wedding, she surmised.
They were forced to kiss once more by her dastardly cousins, Magnus cheering and jeering and egging them on until they participated in the little wedding game devised by Alejandro. Her cousin was far more empathetic than many people realized, and though she had never spoken of it to him, she was almost certain Magnus knew the truth of her feelings, and had decided to play a cruel trick on her. If only it did not make her heart tremble so!
Fortunately, or unfortunately, depending upon the perspective, she could not dwell on it for very long. The marriage bed awaited them.
Her family accompanied them there, to see her off on this final portion of the path to womanhood. Magnus and Alejandro were still quite inebriated, but her father was sober as could be, embracing his daughter warmly. “Tell me, Anja,” he whispered to her, in their language. “Do you love him?”
Athena would only have chosen the cleverest of men with whom to create a child. Of course he had uncovered the truth of it.
She nodded into his chest, and he held her even tighter. “I am glad,” he said. “I am so glad.”
Then releasing her, he nodded to her husband--her husband--and he left them alone with the marriage bed.
The two of them had shared a bed several times during their journey. It should not have affected her so--but there was a slight, yet significant, distinction between a bed shared by two friends, and one shared by a husband and wife. A distinction she could no longer ignore. A distinction which Percy, too, seemed well aware of.
A distinction which, unfortunately, changed the nature of their relationship.
The trinity men believed a marriage was not valid until intercourse had occurred--the rule held even more strongly for those of the nobility. Percy and Annabeth shared no such inane assumptions, of course, but they were beholden to a different set of rules, now. To please the land-grabbing nobles of Svealand, they would have to consummate the marriage.
Annabeth wished she could say she explained the matter plainly and calmly, and that Percy had accepted her logic without much fuss, and they had gone to bed in order to fulfill the silly contract set out for them.
In reality, that was not how it had gone.
She had fallen to pieces, dissolving into tears, so intense he had had to hold her, and she could not even enjoy the feeling of his arms around her, so ashamed was she by her display of emotions. Haltingly, punctuated by sobs and hiccups, she explained her case, and all but begged him to make love to her.
And he did. Because he was a noble man.
And it was just as wonderful as she had always imagined it.
He finished inside of her, glorious and copious, and she could have died in that moment, so full of him, she might never be empty again.
But the truth swiftly fell upon her like a sword: she had coerced, tricked, and beguiled a good man into her bed, a man who did not, and would never, love her. She felt cold all over, from the pit of her stomach to the tips of her toes, still wrapped around him.
It was done. They were married. And Annabeth had never felt worse.
Not even sleep could soothe her, for that night, she had a most frightening dream.
In her dream, she stands upon a stone hill, overlooking a little town. From the rocks beneath her burbles forth a spring, salty and strong, and beside, an olive tree, of thick trunk and golden branches. Before her, there is a king, his body compounded of a man and a serpent, and there is a god, he who is the wave and the storm and the thunder of hoofbeats, and she, too, is a god, she who is the owl and the spear and the shield who strikes terror in the hearts of men, and the king delivers judgement onto them. He says then to the wave and the storm, “The people have spoken, and their choice is clear. This land shall be ceded to the goddess.”
“Bah!” scoffs the god, the rumble of the earth in his breath. “You would insult me so, who cares for your sailors and delivers them home unharmed?”
“Cecrops has spoken, uncle,” she says, in a voice not her own, silver and gold and unyielding. “The Oracle has given the people of this city the power to choose their patron, and chosen they have. You, who lay claim to the bounty of waves and the power of the sea, will you not allow me this little hill? Will you not respect their judgement, and go in peace?”
But the god frowns, his thick brows drawing together above the typhoon in his eyes, and he brandishes his weapon, the three-pronged trident which had split the very earth itself. “I shall go,” he says, as the crash of water on the shore, “I shall leave you the city--but be warned, glaukopis, and be wary, king, for you and your people have made a powerful enemy on this day.”
“No, uncle,” she says, commanding and columnar, the sound and the fury and the cry of triumph, bolstered by the land which now belongs to her, and the people who are already worshipping in her name, an ever present thrum in the core of her being. “It is you who has made a powerful enemy.”
He glowers, the black, heavy clouds of the horizon, and he strikes the stone with his weapon, and from that spring which had been his gift, now becomes his curse, a mighty wave pouring forth from the earth itself, powerful and unyielding as the hundred foot waves and the stampede of horses, rising up as the sea itself, flooding the plain and the people and the king and the goddess, burying it all beneath the sand and the water, but still the stone hill remains, and still the olive tree stands upon it, its branches stretching towards the sky, defiant, willful. It stands, proud, rooted, planted, immovable, immutable.
Permanent.
***
Annabeth had dreamed of married life with Percy for far, far longer than she was willing to admit. In her dreams, she had imagined it to be endless fun, endless bickering, and endless bliss.
It was none of those things.
He did not love her, nor any woman. He’d married her to secure her hand away from squabbling lords and wicked step mothers, and possibly for the financial security of her land--she did not blame him for it, of course. Such a large favor demanded an equal reward, and if any man deserved to rest on his laurels it was Percy. She was happy to take care of him, but as the days dragged on, she wondered if that was what was happening at all.
Marriage seemed to have drained all the light out of Percy. He floated around the manor, gray and listless, speaking rarely, and then mostly to Alejandra. They shared a bed, closer than ever before, and yet, she was not sure she’d ever felt so distant. He looked at her, yet she was not certain he saw anything at all.
She tried to entice him to enjoy the finer things, offering to hunt with him as Alejandro had, suggesting that they go for a trip around the lake, even attempting to arrange for them to visit his new holding, so he might see where they were to make their estate. Each advance was summarily turned down. He resisted meals together, and ate very little. He retired to bed early, and stayed in after she’d gotten up.
Once, desperate and sad, she even asked him to join her to view the beauty of the midnight sky. It was an indulgent thing, but she thought only the night sky could compare with him in beauty, and she wished to see it all up close.
He declined.
He did not even seem to notice when she found herself ill several mornings in a row. He slept for much of the time these days, but it still hurt--once upon a time, he had been so quick to observe her.
Her maidservant tutted as she instructed a chamber girl to take the chamber pot into which Annabeth had vomited away. She was a middle aged woman who had served Annabeth’s aunt, and was rather eager to have another woman in the family, because Alejandra did not like having a personal servant to help with dressing for reasons Annabeth understood, but that was not well known beyond the family. After the pot had been emptied and the dirtied linen had been delivered to the laundry, she had helped Annabeth into her gown.
Annabeth had not engaged any servants in Constantinople, obviously, nor at the agoge, and could lace her stays perfectly well, yet there was something delightful about having assistance. The gowns here were heavier, after all, the fabric much thicker and the detailing far finer. Not having to do it all herself was a relief, as was someone to clean the room and cook the food.
“Will you and the master be moving to your estate before or after your babe is born, ma’am?” asked the maidservant.
Stunned, all she could say, was a single, inelegant, “What?”
“I know you were inquiring with the steward about going and surveying them, and the houses,” said the older woman. “But no one was sure what you’d found.”
Slowly, like the pieces of a good strategy, the woman’s meaning began to make itself clear: Percy, her master, and the estate her dowry, now transferred to her husband, where they would have to move sooner or later. “We have not yet gone,” Annabeth said. Percy had not wanted to. “We have not yet gone,” Annabeth repeated, because she could not quite understand the last part of the maid’s question.
“Then, if Lord Magnus and Doña Alejandra will have it, best stay here until the baby is born. You and your husband can have some time then to engage the household. My brother in law would be a good candidate for steward, ma’am. He’s learned in his letters, can write anything the master might need, even in Latin.”
“Percy can write Latin,” Annabeth said distractedly.
“Oh, of course, ma’am. I should expect nothing less of a prince.”
Annabeth could not even begin to parse that statement. Percy was, technically, a prince, but that status was kept even from the small group of people who still kept the heathen gods in her cousin's house, and this woman was not one of those. But--“What baby?” she asked, instead of interrogating the woman what she knew of Percy.
Her servant blinked, and paused in her lacing, just above Annabeth’s stomach. She gave a kind of condescending smile which would have normally rubbed Annabeth all the wrong way, but she was too struck with terror by the implication. “Well,” she said, speaking as though Annabeth were a little girl, “you can never quite tell before the quickening, of course. However, it has been seven weeks since your monthly, and five since your wedding. Now you have fallen ill in the morning,” She had a twinkle in her eye. “I won’t be getting anyone in trouble, but there has been lots of talk, given how taken you and your prince are with each other, for how long it would be before you’d be with child. Such a joyous occasion is to be celebrated, even if perhaps it wouldn’t do to go around announcing it just yet. For safety's sake."
Her blood rushing, the ocean in her ears, with almost trembling hands, Annabeth touched at her belly. Nothing felt different beneath the layers of fabric.
It had not occurred to her it could even be a possibility. Percy had only laid with her once, on their wedding night, and only at her insistence. Now that the idea had entered her head, it began to grow, taking shape in her mind and her heart. Just like Percy’s seed in her womb.
Percy’s child. She could give Percy a child.
That happy thought carried her for several more weeks, as she monitored the signs and tried to find the perfect time to speak with him, to get him to visit their land, so she might show him his fortune and share the news that she would give him an heir for it as well.
Men wanted sons, she knew. Perhaps, perhaps with luck Annabeth could still win him, could give him money and a son, and earn a little of his affection in return.
As the days turned longer, still his mood did not improve, until one day after the morning meal, she prodded him to eat more, so she could then take him out to see all that was his.
He told her instead that he wished to leave. Leave Svealand, his newly acquired land, and leave her, too.
Struck with panic and despair, still she would not resort to cheap ploys. She fell back to the tricks that always worked with Percy: a little bullying, a lot of logic, and a refusal to let him go without her.
By the end of the week, then, the plan was set. Once again, she would set out for lands unknown, leaving her father and her family behind, with no assurance she would ever see them again. This time, however, she was able to give her a proper farewell--and to tell him her suspicions.
He embraced her, his joy overtaking his sorrow, and she embraced him in turn.
To leave once before nearly rent her in two. Leaving him now was sorrowful, yes, but startlingly simple. The road would be long, and hard, and dangerous, but she was going to have Percy’s child. She was going to find her mother.
Let all manner of horrors just try and stop her.
***
She was beginning to understand why her mother had sworn to remain a chaste goddess.
Pregnancy was a truly nightmarish invention. Between the nausea, the soreness, the constant need to relieve herself, the inability to use the full spectrum of her wits in the manner to which she had been accustomed, she was well and truly suffering--to say nothing of the incessant, unending, all consuming lust which would strike her at the most inopportune times. The wind could merely change direction, and she would suddenly be aflame with carnal desire, aching for the touch of her husband in her most private, feminine parts, unable to think for the haze of want and need.
It was maddening. Utterly, utterly maddening.
Then, her hand would come to rest on her stomach, and it all would fade away at the mere thought of the child inside of her. Percy’s child. Their child.
Their son, she prayed.
And oh, how she prayed for a son, a little boy with wild black hair and eyes the color of the sea in the sunlight, who drooled in his sleep and loved his mother above all other women!
Concern gripped her, then, cold fingers around her heart.
What did Annabeth know of being a mother?
She had only met her true mother a handful of times, and had barely ever received an ounce of affection from her. Her father’s wife had been the sworn enemy of her childhood, the two of them always at odds, until it had reached its boiling point, and Annabeth had taken her chances with the wild. The most she knew of motherhood had been what little she had been able to glean from Percy’s mother, Sarah, who had been more than happy to share the secrets of her trade--yet she could have spent a lifetime under Sarah’s tutelage, and still she feared it would not be enough.
Annabeth was not a kind, nurturing person by nature. Hard rather than soft, sharp rather than gentle, none who had ever known her would have ever imagined her to be a mother. In truth, as a young girl, Annabeth had not even imagined it for herself. A warrior woman, a daughter of Athena: she had been so sure that she had been destined for greater things than marriage and children.
How foolish she had been.
Wives and mothers won wars in ways that Athena herself could not even conceive of. When she considered motherhood now, she thought of Mary, her father’s wife, moving money and bodies on a chessboard of titanic proportions. She thought of Sarah, who had labored every day beneath the notice of the men around her to provide and care for her son, to teach him what he would need to know to defeat the titan lord.
Now she better understood why Hera, queen of the heavens, had also been the patroness of mothers.
Annabeth would do everything in her power, she swore, to shore up influence around their little family, to ensure that they were safe and secure and comfortable in all ways, both seen and unforeseen. And, well, if Percy would not accept her affection, as was his right, then at the very least, she would be able to give it to their son.
***
He was perfect. By all the gods above, he was absolutely perfect.
Her son. Their son. Little Alexandros.
She had so wanted to name him ‘Perseus,’ not after the slayer of the gorgon, but instead the hero of Olympus. No matter her personal feelings, for all that he had done, Percy deserved to be immortalized with the best of the heroes, for he was the best of the heroes--no, the better of all of them--and he deserved to have his name and his legacy passed on.
But, alas, it was not meant to be. Percy, gentle as could be, rejected the name for their son, and so they had settled on Alexandros.
He had been right, to her great surprise. Alexandros, the name, was perfect.
“The ship’s crew are in a tizzy,” was Nico’s greeting the day after her son’s birth, and nearly three years since they had last seen him.
Glibly, she said, “I had not meant to give birth aboard.”
“That is not the issue,” he said, his eyes locked on Percy. “They have noticed we are, apparently, traveling at a much faster pace than we should be.”
“Do they not wish to reach Venice in a timely manner?” Percy asked, before busying himself with her shawl, though she had assured him she was warm enough.
Nico’s eyes had not left him, piercing. “They are wondering if it is an ill omen.”
“They should be happy that the new mother and her child will be in safety soon,” was her husband’s only response.
“Yes,” Nico nodded, “about that…” He trailed off, eyes boring into her now, brimming with so many questions.
“You promised you would not pester them so soon,” Will scolded, though he had a smile in his voice.
“Well you cannot expect me not to wonder at such extraordinary circumstances.”
Annabeth did not remember Nico and Will being particularly friendly during their days at camp; in fact, she distinctly recalled Nico running away from any sort of friendship at the first chance he could. He had been a surly, combative young man, with his stony glare and frightening aura. That he had attracted a friend as sunny and cheerful as Will was nothing short of a minor miracle, and that they tolerated each other enough for light teasing was quite the achievement.
In her memory, Niccolo di Angelo was still a skinny little thing, carrying an ancient, profane sword too big for his body, following Percy about like a lost puppy. She would confess to not knowing much about the young man, but she was certain she would have remembered if he had been a noble--yet somehow, the revelation that he was a count had completely blindsided her, with a fortune fit for the son of the god of wealth.
“Well, what of your story?” she asked, adjusting her position to better support her sleeping child. “We have not seen you for nearly three years.”
He raised a brow, familiar disdain on his face. “I reside in the city.”
Oh. Well, then. Annabeth had sort of been under the impression that he lived in the Underworld, with his father. “Truly?”
“My mother was a countess,” he said, “many years ago, and, with some light forgeries, I was able to access her estate, as her sole living descendent.”
Many, many years ago, on their very first quest, Percy and Annabeth had sought to take refuge in a large tavern, only to discover it to be the den of the Lotus-Eaters, whose power stole time away from one’s perception, seducing them with food and wine and cards and dice to trap them there completely. Though they had not realized it at the time, Nico and his sister had been trapped in the same establishment, stashed there by an Underworldian associate some seventy or so years prior. How strange it must have been for him, to emerge into a world he could no longer recognize, and all his family long since perished.
But Nico would not be moved. “Our tale is long and tedious by comparison, but yours--now that has piqued my interest. I understand you and your husband were still in the city on the eve of its fall?”
“We fled as the walls were overrun,” she said. “We had thought to make straight for the agoge, but when we arrived, it had vanished, as if it had never been there at all.”
He frowned. “Yes, it had gone by the time we had arrived as well. Afterwards, then, Will and I traveled to Aachen, to speak to the Legion. I would have thought you would have gone as well.” He turned his eyes to Percy. “Iason sends his greetings, by the way.”
Clenching her teeth, she busied herself with something on Alexandro’s blanket, so she would not open her mouth and say something particularly foolish.
“We traveled to Thera, and to Athens, first, to try and contact our divine parents” said Percy. Annabeth did not think she could detect any changes in his voice, any hints of longing or the like, but she heard nothing--though that, in itself, did not necessarily indicate much. “Once we were unable to reach them, we decided to travel to Annabeth’s homeland in the North, to return her to her father.”
“A successful journey, I take it?”
Lightly, Will swatted him.
“After our marriage, then,” Percy went on, “we thought it best to return to the South.”
“And Venice?” he asked. “Have you any family here?”
Percy cast her a sideways glance, one she could not quite parse. “We… wondered if, perhaps, the gods had landed here,” he admitted, in a low voice, “after they fled the city of Constantine.”
“We have not seen hide nor hair of them,” said Will. “Nico has not even been able to contact his father."
Percy’s eyes widened. “Lord Hades has gone, too?”
“It seems so,” Nico said, looking pensive. “The ancient doorways have moved as well: the River Styx, the Door of Orpheus, and others.”
“The only clue we have is a message imparted to us in dreams from our parents,” said Percy, “the city of old soldiers.”
Will straightened in his seat. “I, too, have had such a dream.”
“As well, there also was a vision from my mother. In this city, she said there is a church, green and white with a red dome. Have you ever heard of such a place?”
Nico hummed, thoughtful. “Possibly. I was delivered a different clue, it seems: Zagreus and Thanatos, blood and death, appeared to me in a dream, and bade me to seek the birthplace of fire itself.”
As one, they frowned, turning over their words as though they had been handed one of Rachael’s prophecies. As one, they all came up empty. “Well,” said Will, after some time, “I do not believe we shall divine an answer today. There is another riddle I have in mind, one quite simpler: Percy, Annabeth, have you a place to stay in the city?”
With little persuasion, Nico had been insistent that they stay with him for the time being, in his large palazzo. When Annabeth was feeling better, he swore, Nico would show them all his available properties--for, of course, he had several--and that they would discuss rent at that time. Quickly and expediently on their arrival, he arranged for his staff to move their things, and granted them use of his beautifully appointed rooms, a separate one for each of them, down the hall from each other. In an uncharacteristic stroke of compassion, she thought, he had even located a wet nurse for Alexandros. Though Annabeth was loath to part with him during the day, she found it to be a godsent at night, even after only a week, allowing her the sleep she so desperately needed.
Percy proclaimed the procurement right and good, but it took her several days to realize he wanted to relieve her of her son. “Let Nico handle it,” he said, fussing over her, “you should rest.”
Days turned to months, and he let Nico handle a great many things. He spent hours holed up in Nico’s study, discussing matters of economics, travel, and management, as the Conte di Angelo poured his resources into a new business venture--a shipping company, financed by Nico and overseen by Percy.
The months stretched on into a year, and predictably, Percy had already seen great growth and investment from some other bankers and merchants in the city, what with his ability to not only turn the seas in his favor and outrun any marauding raiders, but also to simply discern the best days to sail, to predict weather patterns and wave directions.
She always knew he’d be superbly successful at this line of work--even without his father’s blessings.
Annabeth, meanwhile, had not been sitting idly by. Once again, with Nico’s assistance, she had entered the expatriate community of Constantinople, rubbing elbows with certain persons who would not have even deigned to look her way, had they known her before, in the fallen city itself. Now that she was moneyed and married to a very important shipping contractor, a whole world of politics had opened itself to her strategic ways, though she largely tried to avoid the thorniest problems. Even now, there were whispers of what to do with the poor princess Zoe, how they might set her up in marriage with a Roman prince or Northern lord, and grow their strength and finances until they had mustered enough of a force to retake the city of Constantine.
Even with all her newfound money and influence, unfortunately the men of the community did not often take her thoughts into consideration--unsurprisingly.
Besides, she was a mother now. She had a child, and a new sympathy for Zoe’s plight. Were it her decision, she would recommend that they leave the young lady alone.
Annabeth could not say that she liked her new friends. They were pleasant enough people, and provided ample stimulating conversation, but many had never known the feel of a weapon in their hands or had tasted their own blood, never mind that they were all, of course, Christian. Oh, there were a few children of the gods here and there, one or two legacies of the Legion, but they were few and far between.
Percy was not always working, but he was not one to be confined to the home. He adored the city, and the city adored him right back, filling him with a kind of life and energy she had not seen since those few, halcyon months after the second Titanomachy. He was thriving in Venice, not just financially, but emotionally--and physically. Somehow, in the year since they had arrived, he had grown even more handsome, merry and always flushed with laughter after he returned from Nico’s residence.
A part of it pained her to see him thrive among the Latins where he had only shriveled up in her own homeland. He had not looked poorly in Svealand, of course--Percy could not ever look poorly--but there he had been so sour and withdrawn and cold, and here he very nearly burst with life. After weighing the differences between there and here, she could only conclude that the greatest changes in his life had been the lack of snow, and the presence of a companion he liked better.
Not her, of course.
When she was feeling less charitable, it seemed to her as though her husband spent every waking moment with the count. They were an odd trio, Percy, Nico, and his doctor friend Will. At the beginning, she had thought Percy was exercising some latent protective tendencies over the count. She knew he still harbored no small amount of guilt over the death of his sister, many years past; the man of noble character that he was, of course he would want to see that Nico was well taken care of. It was one of the things she loved most about him.
Then they became business partners, a sound financial move. Then they began to spend the bulk of their time together. Then, during the Carnival season, Annabeth had heard them stumbling into her house together, no doubt having just come from the raucous festivities which had captured the whole city, tittering like a couple of young girls.
Things began to piece themselves together after that.
“The next time we travel to Aachen, you and Percy should accompany us,” Will said, extending an invitation for which she had a distinct feeling only came from him, at supper one night, while Percy and Nico were out overseeing some new contract or other. “I know Iason and Franko always ask after Percy; I suspect they would be very pleased to meet you.”
Franko, perhaps, she thought to herself, but certainly not Iason. Annabeth very much doubted he would be pleased to make his acquaintance with the woman who had stolen his great love from him, trapping him with a phony marriage and an unplanned child.
The children of the elder gods had a kind of undeniable sway; Annabeth had felt it for herself. How darkly amusing, she thought, that not even Percy was immune to its influence, having attached himself not only to the son of Jupiter, but the son of Hades as well.
“I should be very pleased to meet them as well,” she replied, sipping on a cup of tea.
She would not, but she had no real recourse to refuse.
Annabeth had made her deal with the devil, and now she reaped the rewards: her son’s love, her friends’ affections, her social standing, and her husband’s indifference. If she had to meet another of her romantic rivals, she would do so with all the grace and poise her station required of her.
Even if she would rather die.
***
Venice, 1455
The distance from Conte di Angelo’s residence was a little farther than she would have liked. Most days, she would have taken a gondola all the way from the palazzo to their little house, but today, she needed time to think. What better way to do so, she supposed, than by strolling through the Piasa San Marco.
Annabeth adored the square: the red stone with its straight, white lines, the beautiful arches on the surrounding buildings, and of course, the church which dominated the eastern end. Mammoth and blocky it was, yet it reminded her so strongly of the old St. Sophia, from the golden walls which shone in the morning sun to the grand domes which rose above it. The domes still had their weight borne by expertly decorated pendentives, each surface layered with gold and portraits in the style of Eastern Romans, hideous, of course, yet comforting in its familiarity. Whenever she walked around inside the building, pretending as though she were observing the rites of the Christians and ignoring the scandalous gazes of older women as she went about with her hair only lightly covered, a complex crown of braids piled upon her head, she felt as though she were inside of a great, golden jewelry box, fit for an empress. It was not, she thought, the church of Sarah’s dream, but it was beautiful nonetheless.
She did not enter the church today, but stayed outside of it, settling herself in one of the arches of the surrounding buildings, observing the strange procession of Christian men as they passed, their steps and their songs hypnotic, in their own way. Annabeth was no expert in the rituals of the trinity, but even to her untrained eyes and ears, the differences between such displays of piety on the part of the fathers, and the rituals and regimens of the eastern patriarchs were stark, almost exaggerated.
Some days, she missed Constantinople and the agoge so much it ached. The good St. Mark, despite its Latin trappings, helped her to feel a little less lonely.
And her son, of course.
Even thinking of her son, she could not help but smile. Little Alexandros. Already he took so much after his father, his same dark hair and green eyes and large nose. He would grow up to be very, very handsome, she could already tell. To her great delight, he was just as attached to her as she was to him, eschewing the nursemaids and nannies for Annabeth instead. He was her great comfort while Percy was out conducting business on the water, the little piece of him that he had left with her.
Annabeth loved her son, more than nearly anything else in the world. All of her immediate peers, however, they had large, sprawling, enormous families. Annabeth, with her single child, simply could not compete, and she so hated to lose. Was she merely lonely? Jealous, of the family ideal? Perhaps.
But even besides… she still loved Percy. Even though he had barely so much as looked on her ever since they arrived. He was a decent husband and a magnificent father, and she wanted to give him more. She wanted more for herself.
And selfishly, she wanted him to touch her once again. She could no longer satisfy herself, not when the sense memory of his fingers inside of her still haunted her dreams.
So, she had gone to the count in order to petition him for the use of her husband.
Nico had only stared at her, flabbergasted.
“...Come again?” he had asked.
In her finest dress to prop up her ego, she had once again repeated her request. “I know you and my husband are involved,” she had said, her head raised high, “but one child is not enough for a family of our class. He will need an heir, of course, as well as daughters for dowries and sons to carry on the business. I can provide those for him.”
Yes, Annabeth could--and not Nico. This was the keystone of her strategic brilliance, a body which could bear children.
Still, he had stared at her, more confused than ever. “I… Signora, I do not understand.”
What was so confusing? “Your excellency,” she had said, ready to try again, “I have come to you today to--”
“No, no, I understand that,” he had said. “You have made your request quite clear. My confusion is thus: why do you feel the need to petition me for children, when you could very easily ask your husband?”
“Because…” Was he being deliberately foolish in order to mock her? “Well--because, you two are…”
He had raised an eyebrow. “We are what?”
Gods above, was he going to force her to say it?
“I think, perhaps, you may have misunderstood the nature of our relationship, Anna Elisabetta,” he had said, dryly.
“With respect, sir,” she had replied, “do not mistake me for one of the trinity zealots of this city. I know what heroes do when they keep company with each other.”
He had frowned, befuddled. “You… are you implying that your husband and I--”
“I, too, have kept company with women,” she had said, quickly, suddenly worried he would take her words as an insult, “and I would never seek to cast judgement.”
Then, he had done something she never expected.
He had laughed.
“I beg your pardon?”
He only laughed harder.
So uncivilized, she had thought, her irritation growing by the second.
“I can certainly say,” he finally said, when he regained his wits, though stray chuckles still escaped every now and then, “that this was not what I was expecting.”
It had been odd to see him laugh. Odd, but not unpleasant. Truly, he had a lovely laugh, the dourness falling from his countenance. It was not difficult to see why Percy might be so taken with him.
“Oh, Annabeth,” said the count, “I do not know what mist has deceived you, for it can only be through magical means that you do not recognize just how deeply Percy loves you.”
He had sent her away shortly thereafter, to seek out her husband, and ponder on his words, which was how she found herself at the church of St. Mark, lingering as the day stretched on into evening.
Did… did Percy love her?
She thought he had, once. In their youth she had sought his affections and thought she had been making progress. She had spent several long months waiting for him to ask for her hand.
She had destroyed all hope of them, then, and then he had found the legion, and the beauty of men… or so she thought.
Had he not gone around the world with her? Had he not agreed to marry her, to stay with her and build a family with her? Had they not shared intimate moment after intimate moment, exchanging secret words and heated touches?
But he had also avoided her as best he could, eschewing her companionship for that of his friends. He had only lain with her once, at her insistence. He had had to be convinced into the truth of his marriage, that they were a union, and not two people unhappily bound together. And those same, maddening words, the ones which had haunted her for months, ever since they had made camp in the ruins of Olbia, they rang so clearly in her ears: no mortal woman. The implication there was clear. Whatever interest he may have had, he had not acted on it.
However…
Perhaps she had been… mistaken.
A different sort of fear took over her then. Had she been mistaken? Had she missed such an obvious clue, and thus doomed herself to a life without love, all because of a silly misunderstanding?
She could not think on it for too long, lest she become consumed by the hurricane of her own fears and misgivings.
Rather than take the river road, she chose to walk the rest of the way to their apartments in the eastern end of the city, the neighborhood they called Castello, hoping beyond hope that her heart would have calmed itself by the time she made it back.
It hadn’t.
Entering her home, she was first greeted, as always, by Freya the cat, who had, in the intervening years, grown even softer and furrier than she had been as a kitten, the tiny little puffball. Trotting up to Annabeth, her tail held high, she gave her mistress a perfunctory sniff, and a sweet little bump of her head, before darting off to commit untold amounts of feline mischief, as was her wont. Following her inside, then, her heart already softened, the next thing she saw was him.
Percy must have taken off work early; she had assumed he would still be at the port for another few hours at least. He had Alexandros with him, as well. They made such a wonderful picture together, father and son. When she next had a stretch of uninterrupted time, she would go about having this moment captured in perpetuity in a tapestry, a moment trapped in time and memory, just to make her smile. He had not yet noticed her, so taken with their son was he.
Then she saw what he was doing.
“There you are,” he said, popping another olive into Alexandros’ mouth. “Yes, they are your favorite, are they not?”
In response, Alexandros gurgled, happily. He had spoken a few words already--”mamma” and the like--but he did not need words to express his joy at being given his favorite food.
“Indeed?” he asked, as though he were truly carrying on a conversation with his son. “Another?” He held out another olive to him, but Alexandros would not accept it, clumsily smacking his hand away. “Oh no? You are finished, then?”
He shook his head, indicating Percy with his thick, chubby hand.
“What,” Percy gasped in delight, “you wish me to eat with you? Yes?” he asked, bringing the olive to his mouth in order to test his hypothesis.
Alexandros giggled, clapping.
“Oh, very well,” said Percy, his bright, beautiful smile like the glint of the sun off the water. “Since you insist, and since I love you very very much, I shall share this with you. Not a word of this to your grandfather, however--understand?”
Then he popped it into his mouth, and swallowed. Alexandros giggled again, smacking his hands together.
“And here I thought,” Annabeth said, unable to keep her silence any longer, “you hated the fruit.”
To his credit, he did not jump at her presence. His smile did not fall either. “I think our son is more important than my father’s disdain for olives, no? Say ‘hello’ to mamma!” he bade his son, hoisting him up on one hip.
Alexandros reached for her, his sea green eyes wide and wanting, and she took him into her arms, kissing his forehead. “Hello to you, too, angele mou,” she said, falling in love all over again. “I apologize for being gone so long.”
“It was no trouble,” said her husband. “We were able to keep ourselves entertained well enough.”
She recognized the look on his face well enough. It was the one he wore whenever he was overcome with love for Alexandros, a silly little grin crossing his face, his eyes soft and shining, his whole being exuding warmth and comfort.
But he was not looking at their son. He was looking at her.
She swallowed.
Many months ago, she had asked Percy how he knew that his mother had reached safety, and he had responded thusly: that it was a matter of faith.
Pressing another kiss to Alexandros, enjoying the way his face scrunched up at the odd feeling of her lips, she passed him off to the nanny who had been observing the scene from a respectable distance, whispering, though he could not understand at so young an age, that she would be with him shortly.
Then she turned back to Percy. Still did he look on her with that same expression, softness and affection, care and comfort, home and serenity.
A matter of faith.
Stepping up to him, she slid her arms about his neck, and pressed her mouth to his.
He responded in kind.
His hands immediately went to her hair, tangling his fingers in the free-flowing strands. He tugged on them, just a touch, but enough that as her mouth opened in a gasp, he was able to slide his tongue inside, and there she tasted all of him, felt the firmness of his body as he pressed up against her.
Yes, she thought, her senses full of the sea. Yes.
Pulling back, he chased her lips with his, whining a little as she did not let him continue, and oh, how she wished to continue, but words had to be exchanged first. She could not be wrong again. She refused it.
“I love you, Percy,” she murmured, gazing deep into the waters of the ocean. “I love you, most ardently.”
Those eyes crinkled in the corners, joy crossing his face in thick lines, like the faces of the saints on the walls of St. Mark. “I love you, Anja,” he whispered back, bringing her hands to his mouth, kissing the knuckles. “I have always loved you.”
Then, without further ado, he kissed her again, and she melted into the warm embrace of the waves.
***
The first thing she felt in the morning was soreness.
She felt it everywhere, but she felt it most keenly in her stomach, pulsing out from the core of her into every muscle and sinew and bone.
No, not her stomach--lower.
She flushed.
Ah.
With a groan, she rolled over, only to be met with the smiling face of her husband. “Oh,” she mumbled, still half asleep. “Good morning.”
“Good morning, Annabeth,” he said. “How was your rest?”
Deep and fulfilling, for she had been pushed to the very brink of exhaustion by their activities the previous night, a fact which he most certainly already knew. “Well enough,” she replied, with an air of disaffection, and he chuckled. She could feel it against her chest, realizing, belatedly, that he wore no night shirt, cuddled so close together they were. “And yourself?”
“Wonderful,” he said, and he kissed her cheek. “Marvelous.” He kissed her nose. “Absolutely divine.” He kissed her mouth, running one hand gently over the bare skin of her side, and she shivered.
“Mmph, Percy--” The force of his kisses stoked the fire within her, and as much as she desired to give into it, she felt that there were a few things which required a brief discussion. “A moment, please.”
At her request, he pulled back, though he kept a hand loosely curled at the juncture of her shoulder. His fingers brushed against her, as though he could not stop himself from touching her the way he wished to, the way she wished him to. “Yes?”
“We…” By the gods, she could not focus when he looked on her like that, dark and arresting and wanting. “I--”
But she could not help herself, breaking down into giggles and laughter. Percy joined her, until the two of them were as children again, laughing at nothing and everything.
“Oh, perdono, perdono,” she said, breathless with humor. “There were things I wished to say, I swear.”
“There will be time later for discussion,” he replied, a familiar heat overtaking his gaze. “Now there are different sounds I would have you make.”
Rolling her on top of him, he kissed her once again, his mouth hot and insistent against hers, crushing her to his chest, the currents of his hands running through her hair and buffeting her body. With great, great regret, she lifted herself up, pulling herself away from him, even as he rose up after her, eyes gleaming with such affection that she could not even fathom, as boundless as the sea that was his lifeblood and his birthright--she drowned in him, and she would be more than happy to die with him once again.
“Percy, wait,” she said, firmly. She could not let this go on a moment further without saying her piece.
Obedient, attentive, loyal to a fault, he sat up with her on his lap, his fingers curled about her hips, tapping lightly, waiting for her. She touched him in kind, her hands about his shoulders, rocking back and forth on his lap as she tried to settle her nerves.
“I…” She swallowed, raising her eyes heavenward. Old shame caused her cheeks to heat, mistakes long since made rising from the fog of the past, like mountains. “There is… something I must say to you. Please, allow me to say it in totality, and without interruption.”
Frowning slightly, nevertheless, he nodded.
To ground herself, she squeezed his shoulders, focusing on the swell of his bare chest as it rose and fell with each breath, indisputable, irrefutable proof of his life, of his life with her. “What I said to you,” she began, haltingly, “all those years ago--please, you must know I never truly wished you dead.”
“Annabeth--”
She squeezed again, more firmly. “I beg you, allow me my space to speak.”
Mouth twisting, he acquiesced.
“When you disappeared,” she said, casting her mind back to that horrible, terrible time, “I--I thought I had left you to your death. You, the person whom I loved most in the world, I thought I had left you to tender mercies of some monster, and that in my moment of weakness, I had abandoned all that I had been taught by Chiron, Thalia, you, to never leave a friend in peril. For over a year, I lived in my shame and my weakness, and when you did return, miracle of miracles, know that I was happy. I was so happy to know you were safe.” She could not count the hours she had lost to tears and sleeplessness and self-hatred. The year had passed as though in a terrible dream, in bursts of meaningless activity which she could not recall and had only served to render her even more miserable. To see him home once more had felt like the passing of a sea storm, or the healing of a wound, but then--”But when I saw the mark of the Legion upon you, I--I was so angry with myself, to think that I had spent all those months worrying myself sick for nothing, when you were as hale and healthy as one of our kind can reasonably consider to be… but that feeling, in itself, was childish and immature. I should never have thought those things, or treated you thus, yet I let my baser instincts take over until I pushed you away in the most vile manner, and for that, know that I am deeply, deeply sorry. I do not beg your forgiveness, nor do I deserve your love.” Then, taking his hands in hers, she kissed the knuckles there, as he had done to hers many times before, and closed her eyes against his face.
It was not graceful, but it was the truth. She had never been so skilled with words, but she could not let another moment pass her by without her great confession.
Percy was, by nature, not a vengeful person. In that way, his mother’s influence far outweighed his father’s, so she was not surprised when he pulled her forward, and kissed her forehead. Opening her eyes, she saw Percy looking up at her, his beautiful gaze shining like the glass of Murano. “Of course you are forgiven,” he whispered. “Of course you are loved.”
“You forgive too easily, kærasti.”
“I most certainly do not,” he said. “But we were young and misguided in many things, and we deserve a little grace between us.” He kissed one cheek and then the other.
“I do not want there to be anything between us,” Annabeth said. “no ambiguity or animosity. You must understand how much I adore you and always, have.”
“I love you.” Even at such simple words, she felt her face grow hot, felt her mouth curl up in a smile. “I have loved you for so long, certainly since before we arrived at your father’s house, but, truly, for much, much longer than that--ever since I was a child.”
“You have?” she whispered, afraid to even voice the question, lest the fantastical words be ripped from her.
“Do you remember,” he said, twirling a stray curl about his finger, “the night of the Solstice festival upon Olympus? When we danced in the hall of the gods?”
Of course she did. She had been taller than him then, bless him, but they had danced together well into the small hours of the morning, to a song both sorrowful yet bursting with hope.
“That was the moment I realized that I loved you, and I have never, never stopped--not even during my time with the Legion.” His countenance changed, then, frowning lightly. “My only regret is that I did not tell you before I went with them. I should have said something on our way to Aachen, but, you must understand, I had nothing: no money, no employment, no--”
She placed her finger on his lips, silencing the stream of dour truths. “I know,” she said. “Of course I understand.”
“Never did I think that I could have this,” he said, around her finger, kissing the tip of it. “The gods saw fit to bless me with your hand and your child, and I would have been happy with no further.”
“But now you have me, too,” she responded--perhaps a little cheeky.
Percy liked a little cheek, she knew.
He grinned. “Oh yes,” he said, sweeping her close once more. “Now I have you, too.”
And if it were up to him, she knew, he would have her, again and again and again, a series of events to which she was not unopposed. Yet, he had given her so much, his life and his love and his loyalty, and so he deserved something in return. Something she had never done for anything else. Something she never imagined she would do at all.
His arms crossed the bare skin of her back, one high, one dangerously low. It was almost difficult to move, to shimmy herself out of his embrace and down, and not only because Percy was stronger than she. He must have made a valiant effort to control himself during their little heart-to-heart, for she could feel the hard press of his cock up against her, no doubt having been awakened by such a warm, friendly presence, rocking back and forth upon it. As he had done the previous night to her, so she did to him this morning, kissing her way down the planes of his chest, his stomach, his hips--a body worthy of Phidias, of the greatest marble-men and bronze-workers of the ages.
“Where are you going?” he pleaded, petulant. “I have not had my fill of kisses.”
“Worry not--you shall have all the kisses you desire, and more.” Truly, he must have been a man of particular restraint and discipline, to have gone all those years without kissing her, so demandingly, so full of passion. To think that such a romantic had been lurking beneath the surface of the sulky, downtrodden boy who had stumbled into their camp! Certainly, she had never imagined that they two would be in this position, until one day, when she could no longer imagine being in this position with anyone else.
Both in the literal sense and the metaphorical.
Lukas’ betrayal and Percy’s disappearance had made things… somewhat difficult for Annabeth, in the realm of romance, and without Silena, her closest confidant, to help her make sense of her feelings, she was left to the whims of her own imaginations. Though she never acted on any of them, her imagination had provided her with many, many scenarios to dwell upon, most, if not all of them, featuring the man before her--and being pregnant had only made them even more intense. To have known his attentions so intimately, to bear the proof of it so obviously, made her dreams even more vivid and agonizing than usual, particularly since he was so physically close, yet so maddeningly far away.
She had not had a chance to perform this on her wedding night, too burdened with hesitation and dread. Now that she had him as he had her, she would not hesitate.
A student of art and architecture, Annabeth was no stranger to male anatomy--beyond the simple study of marble and body, she had grown up with a number of young men and women in very tight corners, which did not allow for much privacy. She was even no longer unfamiliar with Percy’s anatomy, having studied it quite extensively the previous night.
Upon seeing it again, she could not help but flush, biting her lip.
Percy was a proper man, with a proper man’s cock--small and perfectly sized, unlike the large, boorish, sex-crazed animals in the poems and drinking songs. He wielded it as skillfully as he wielded his sword, bringing her to greater and greater heights with each thrust.
She should thank it for giving her a son, no?
Annabeth then wetted her lips, and kissed the very tip of him. Percy nearly jumped out of his skin, his knees knocking into her shoulders. “Anja!” he gasped, “what--”
But she would not let him answer, taking the whole of him in her mouth.
For some time, she had him prisoner there, hypothesizing and experimenting and committing to memory everything he enjoyed, which twist of the tongue or pull of the lips brought the most broken, wrecked sounds from his mouth. At his sides, his hands flexed and unflexed, hypnotic like the tides, grasping at nothing but air. “Anja, Anja, Anja,” he babbled, breathless and writhing, and Annabeth found she was quite enjoying this. The taste was not so pleasant, but the sight of his head tilted back, his chin pointed to the sky, the strain in his muscles as he struggled not to thrust in her mouth so that she would not be so rudely interrupted, the control and the power--she liked that very, very much.
It was not long before he was pawing, clumsily at her head. “Anja,” he groaned, “I cannot--I cannot--”
Even this, too, was becoming more and more familiar, the state of him as he neared that point. She must have miscalculated, however, for it was not a moment later that she was forced to pull her head away, her mouth suddenly very ill-tasting.
Unable to grasp any sort of control, he spent himself in her hand right there and then, so forceful it even landed on her face, and in her hair.
“Cazzo, cazzo, merda, Anja,” he sighed, twitching and moaning as he fell once more to earth. “Oh, Anja.” His chest heaved as he gasped for his breath, his limbs boneless and lax. On his face was a smile, sleepy and silly, his eyes closed.
She gave him one more lasting caress, and he shuddered, whimpering.
Climbing back up the expanse of his body, she returned much the way she came, kissing each exposed inch, from stomach to chest to shoulders to neck, then meeting him once more at his lips. He groaned, his face twisting quite adorably at the taste of himself in her mouth. “If I must taste it, love,” she said with a smile, “then you must too.”
His eyes popped open, then. “No,” he said, “no, no, you mustn’t do anything which you do not like.” With some effort, he craned his neck to see her, his hands coming up to cup at her face. “Neither something to me, nor with me, nor for me. I will only see you brought perfect pleasure in our bed.”
“You misunderstand me,” she said, raising a brow. “I did not dislike it. I did not dislike it quite a bit.”
A moment, then he blushed, divining her true meaning, and flopping his head back down. “I see.”
She tittered, feeling once more a girl of sixteen years old, in love with a boy and with the funny feeling in her stomach whenever he smiled at her.
“As well, I felt as though I had a debt to pay for all the pleasures you performed upon me last night. I must say,” she said, nestling into the space of his shoulder, drawing her finger up the planes of his chest, “that was very well done for one who has never known a woman.”
He frowned, though she more felt it than saw it. “How do you mean?”
“What you said to me, all those years ago--that you had lain with ‘no mortal woman.’” It had been a phrase which had haunted her waking dreams, ringing in her ears like the bells of the churches on every street corner, frightening her into withholding the truth of her heart for far too long.
An odd smile crossed his face, then, something far more smug and self-confident than she had ever seen him before. Percy lightly stroking the skin of her neck, she shivered, pressing into him. “No mortal woman, yes.”
The implication of emphasis was clear.
She leaned up on an elbow, incredulous. “An… immortal one?”
Strange little smile, he nodded.
Her heart thudded in his chest. An immortal woman. The pool of potential partners had just expanded considerably. “Well,” she said, perhaps a little shakily. “Look at you.”
Look at me, she wished to say. Look at me, so plain and mortal. Look at me, who spurned and rejected you, whose beauty shall fade in time, who will one day leave you, through no will of my own.
Curiosity overcame the greater part of her fear. “With whom?”
But Percy, sensing her turmoil, raised himself up on his elbow to look her in the eyes. “One day,” he said, soft and low, “I shall tell you the truth of it. I shall divulge every moment of that time, and how each one paled in comparison to the long, cold, lonely nights beside the Danapris. For now, however,” he reached out to tuck a stray curl behind the swell of her ear. “Now, let us have peace. There will be time later for talk--a whole life’s worth of it, and one I look forward to sharing with you.”
“A whole life’s worth,” she agreed, settling down beside him. Instantly, he turned his body towards her, his arm coming up once more to pull her close. “I cannot think of anything better.”
“Nothing?” he teased.
“Well,” she said, stretching her neck up towards his face, matching smiles adorning their faces, “not quite nothing.”
In truth, there was nothing more she required of him than this, his body beside hers, their fingers intertwined, and their hearts finally, finally, finally together.
But she would never say no to another kiss.
It took them the better part of the morning, but they did eventually find the strength to pull themselves out of each other’s arms in order to get dressed and rejoin the household. The feel of Percy pulling the laces of her stays made her wonder if perhaps her maidservant would find herself relieved of that duty. When he was done, he pushed her hair aside and kissed her neck, the feeling of his chapped lips against her skin inspiring yet another surge of heat inside of her which nearly forced her to rip her clothing right back off, but the dual promises of food and her son kept her from pulling him back to her bed.
The bed they would now share, she was sure.
She found one of her veils, a white one detailed in blue that she had hoped her husband would like, and began wrapping it around her head. “Must you torture me so, my love,” he said, face set in an adorable pout.
“How do you mean?”
“Why do you insist on covering even more of yourself?” As he spoke, he reached under it before she pinned it in place, and pulled several of her curls out of it.
She giggled at his expression, strikingly reminiscent of the one which Alexandros wore when he did not wish to eat his sprouts. “You wish everyone to see me?”
“Well, perhaps not all of you,” Percy admitted, his hand curling around her waist. “Some parts of you are mine alone.” He brushed his hand over the space where her feminine center lay, and even through her gown, it was nearly too much. “Yet, if it meant I never had to have it shielded from my view, I would not mind everyone seeing your hair.”
Pausing, she considered his eager, wide-eyed look. It was a little scandalous, but… there was not much work to be done outside of the household today. What was the harm?
She stripped her veil away running a hand through her hair. Unexpectedly, it caught on something hard and crusty resting in her curls. Frowning, she pulled on her hair, confused--then when she realized what it was, she felt her entire face heat.
“If you insist on spending your seed in my hair, love,” she said, dryly, “then I will not be able to walk around with it uncovered.”
He flushed, too, dark and red, turning and retrieving one of her combs from her table. “Allow me then to rectify my mistake.”
“Oh, no, no.” She waved him off. “As your punishment, I am going to keep it this way. But, as I am a respectable, married woman, and respectable married women tend hot to keep their husbands seed in their hair, it will be covered, for now, to teach you a lesson regarding aim and husbandly manners.”
Thoroughly chastised, yet still smiling, he set down the comb. “Might I… plait it, before you cover it, then?”
Once he promised he would not attempt to remove his dried seed, she acquiesced.
It was not her boldest fantasy about the man sitting beside her, but she had long dreamed of the feeling of his hands through her hair. The only time she had experienced the feeling before had been the day he had cut all of it off. It had been quite the experience, certainly, and convenient in many many ways, but given his affection now, she vastly preferred this.
He made quick work, weaving her hair into a rope, not as delicate or intricate as she might have done, but still, the fact that it was Percy doing the weaving, Percy tracing his fingers about the shape of the curls, Percy performing the act, made all the difference.
When he had finished, he tied it off with a leather strap, kissing at her hairline. “Please,” he murmured, “do not ever think that you are not the picture of wifely virtue in my eyes.”
A flattery, for Annabeth could not quite imagine what about her was the picture of wifely virtue--she had just insisted on wearing her husband's seed, for gods’ sake. She was neither deferential nor demure. She had broken his heart, and forced his hand, ripping him away from his life to deliver her halfway across the world, and then once more. Certainly he loved her. She knew that now, and could see it through their long years together. But to see her that way, when she felt so much like she failed as a wife, and could only now make it up to him with the full force of her devotion, was almost more than she could take.
“When I have the best husband in the world,” she said, “to be a good wife is no great difficulty.”
He paused and took her hand in his once again, kissing at her knuckles and then the palm, along a very old, once very deep scar. Then, her hand still in his, he led them out of the bedroom, and into their house.
In some corner of her mind, she had expected just a little bit more of a reaction from the other members of the house. She thought the servants would have given them a suspicious look or two, or, at the very least, for Alexandros’ nurse to raise an eyebrow, yet neither strange word was spoken, nor odd look thrown their way as they walked their apartments, or sat down for their luncheon. In that state of utter normalcy, then, when they were done, they went to visit Alexandros.
Usually, Percy and Annabeth had often spent much of their time with their son alone, without their partner, as Percy was often at sea, and on his return, Annabeth rather felt she needed to leave them be, so that they could bond without any external influence on her part. Today, Alexandros sat between them, trading smiles with his father. They looked so alike, it warmed her heart.
It always had, from his first moments, and even before, as she had been eager for her son to look like his papa, yet for the past year, there had been something of a painful edge to it, to the heavy knowledge that, while she had the love of her son, she did not have that of his father. It had been sweet and pure and perfect, yet bitter and cold as well. Now, however, as a family, real and whole and complete, she could not help but be overwhelmed with them both, with how much she loved them, and with the knowledge that they loved her in return.
After an hour or so, in which Percy entertained her son with his menagerie of little animal toys, Alexandros turned to her, wide-eyed and innocent. “Mamma,” he said, grasping at her breast. “Mamma.”
“Are you hungry, my darling?” she asked, picking him up and taking him onto her lap, as she had dismissed his nurse when they’d come into the nursery. Now that he was on solid foods, he required less nursing on the whole, but his nursemaid also knew that Annabeth vastly preferred to do the deed herself, in something of a break with convention. She had not done so in the presence of Percy since Alexandros had been the smallest of newborns, on that ship, in the tightest, most unavoidable of quarters, and when they had reached Venice, and Nico had set them up at his house while they waited to find their own, Percy had left her alone to it. No longer bashful, she undid her lacings, and pulled down her chemise, and with very little effort, began to feed her son.
Percy swept several of the toys aside, and came and sat with her on the little bench she held him on.
“I am so happy,” he said, in a quiet voice, “that you have such a wonderful mamma, Alexandros. You deserve only the best--and you have received it.”
She looked at him, and there were tears forming in his eyes. One like a crystal rolled down his cheek, and he made no move to hide it, or pretend it was not there. Percy was not usually one to weep--that was more her own purview, to her great chagrin--but she was pleased to see how he presented no shame at the thought of revealing his emotions. Good, bad, towering, subtle, a crashing wave or a gentle tide, after years of being deprived of his feelings through her own foolish actions, at last, she had them once again.
“I love you,” she said again, unthinkingly, though she must have repeated the sentiment a thousand times before in the last few hours. She had wasted many a year by denying them both the truth, and so, she vowed, she would never withhold it again.
He smiled, face wet like the morning mist off the shore, moving closer, shoulder to shoulder, hand in hand, kiss to her brow. “And I, you.”
The day proceeded as naturally as possible from there, though they did not return Alexandros to the care of his nanny until the hour had grown quite late. Watching Percy hold him, as their little boy drifted to sleep in his arms, she was loath to part with such a wonderful picture.
They laid him in his bed together, then, as soon as they had closed the door behind them, Percy picked her up, clear off the ground. She shrieked as she suddenly found herself in his clutches, though she knew it to be the safest of all possible places. “What are you doing?” she gasped, breathless with laughter.
“Holding what I cherish as close as I can,” he said, a touch dramatic, and swept her off to her bedroom.
“You lovesick fool!” she cried, giggling as he practically bounded through the halls.
The moment the door had closed behind him, he dropped her on their bed, nearly ripping her veil right off of her head.
“Please, take care--I happen to quite like the stitching on that one,” but he stopped her chiding in its tracks as he wound his fingers through her hair, dislodging handfuls of it from its braid, and pulling her mouth to his.
“You have punished me long enough, I think,” he smirked, “and now I shall have my revenge.”
His revenge was the sweetest kind.
With a gentle hand, much lighter than she had expected, he unwound her hair, and, picking up her comb from where he had set it down earlier, went about brushing it out, the slow, sweet process of removing his leavings from their earlier intimacies.
She winced as he pulled on a particularly knotty section. Of the many pains and indignities she’d suffered, her hair being tugged by her husband was not terribly high on any sort of list, though she was a bit theatrical about it.
“A thousand pardons, my love,” Percy said.
Oh, Annabeth could hear him say it a hundred times, and she did not think she would ever tire of those words. She had no wish to abandon their old, childish names for each other, but adorations such as these filled her with a lightness she had never known.
“I shall need a thousand more” she said, “as you should not have spread your seed so liberally. Going forward, we shall have to clean it more quickly.”
“I will endeavor not to pain you so,” he replied as he moved all her hair aside, planting a hot string of kisses along her neck that caused her to question the sincerity of such statements. Then, taking up a jug, he poured a bit more water on the hardened curls, reapplying the comb.
“See that you do,” she said, “and that, in the future, you shall place your seed where it belongs.”
“And where, pray tell, would that be?”
He leaned in again to suck at the junction of her neck and shoulder and she moaned at the feeling, bringing her own hand to her center, rubbing lightly, before it grew to be too much, and she pulled away from him turning around to face him properly.
Lifting her skirts to sit astride his lap, she said, “It belongs inside of me.”
Wrapping one hand around the curve of his shoulder, she snaked the other between them, down to his breeches. And squeezed.
“Yes.” he breathed, hot and heavy.
“Oh, yes,” she agreed, short and clipped, trying to force her own breathless desire down for just a moment longer, “for if you do not spill inside of me, how am I to give you more sons?”
She leaned in to kiss him again, but he pulled back.
Not far, not out of her arms, but away. All lust faded from her, replaced with concern.
“You do not have to give me a single thing,” he said earnestly, raising a hand, and tracing her cheek with a sword-callused finger.
“What?”
Sincerely, far more sincerely than his earlier promise of decorum, he brushed a stray curl from her face. “You have given me more than any man deserves--yourself, and our son. Please, please, my love, my dearest dearest Ana Zabeta, do not ever think I would ask any more of you.”
His words took a moment to sink in, but when they did, they strung with the bitter bite of a poison dagger. “You… do not want any other children, then?” she asked, attempting to keep her voice level, her face calm, her pulse slow.
“Do not think me to be so greedy,” he said. “My love, do not think I would put you through such pain and fear again. I have our son, and I have you. My only desire is for your health and happiness.”
“But…” She knew not what to say, how to argue against this. If he truly wanted no more children, if Alexandros was to be their only one--
He went on, beseeching. “Yet do not despair, for I can love and pleasure you in a hundred ways which shall carry no risk. I can give you everything you desire, and you shall never want for my affection and my care.”
“But I do desire more children.” It sounded petulant to her own ears, but, there was no other way to express the force of her wants. “Alexandros is perfect, his father is perfect--how can I not wish for more? Faced with such perfection, how can I not dream of growing our family, our home, our love?”
He looked at her, his handsome features marred by hesitation and fear. “I… could not bear to lose you, Anja,” he said, softly, achingly gentle. “I only just got you. I almost lost you so many times before, either to monsters or to years of silly arguments and pointless squabbling. I almost lost you to pregnancy last time.” His voice shook as he spoke. “I, too, would love more children, but not if it carries any risk to you. You are too precious to me,” he breathed, tracing his fingers over her skin, so careful. So wonderful. “I could not bear it if anything happened to you.”
She leaned over, kissing his cheek, small, quiet tears at the corner of her vision. His pains were so clearly evident, for her and caused by her, all at once. “It will not be so dangerous as you imagine,” she said, hoping to put him at some kind of ease. “By some great fortune, Will is here. Not only is he the greatest healer in the world, he has magic: ambrosia and nectar and all sorts of potions and pastes.”
But she could not dismiss his concerns entirely. Bringing Alexandros into this world had been a frightening experience, her fear and terror lingering even for months afterwards, slow to fade.
“I will freely admit it is not without any risk,” she said, after a moment, “but we have taken so many risks together, for us and for others. We have faced only the greatest of dangers, dangers that our mortal peers could never even dream of in their darkest, most terrible thoughts. Let us face this smaller danger together, with all the comfort of our house, and all the safety of the good doctor. And,” she grasped the hand that still rested on her face, and pulled it away, bringing it to rest on her belly, “think of the reward.”
He swallowed, casting his gaze downward. “It would be great,” he murmured, reverent, speaking before an altar.
“The greatest,” she promised. “I can give you more sons, each one greater than the last.”
“And daughters?”
She blinked. “Excuse me?”
“I--” He flushed. “Well--if I am permitted, then, to indulge in greed…” He pulled his hand off her belly, taking hers and bringing it to his lips, kissing it, just as he had over two years ago in Athens, when they had sworn an end to their hostilities, speaking faster, and with greater intent. “Whenever I thought of a family for us, I always dreamt of a daughter, of your daughter, a little girl with all of her mother’s spirit, intelligence, and cunning, her strength of heart and her wickedness with a dagger.”
“I see.” It had not even occurred to her. A daughter, yes, in passing, those things happened, but that Percy might wish it so strongly… “Yes,” she nodded. “We can work towards that, as well.”
He slid a hand around her back, bringing her even closer, her chest flush against his clavicle, desire and worship in equal measure in the heat of his eyes. “Then let me give you as many sons and daughters as you wish, my love,” he whispered, a rumble in his chest she could better feel, rather than hear. “Let me see as many legacies of Athena as I can provide take Venice by storm.”
And with that, he pulled her down onto the bed with him.
***
“I hate the lost years,” he whispered into her skin, “but the truth of the matter is that I could not have made you a good husband when we were young.”
“Of course you would have,” she said, breathless, her mind mostly on his hands as they combed up her flanks. His skill with his tongue, his hands, his cock, it all had to be innate.
Still stroking her tender, he said, apologetic. “I had no means to support a wife. I still have no means to support a wife. It is only due to a sheer stroke of luck that you possess enough means for the both of us.”
“I have looked at the accounts,” she pointed out. “In just two voyages you have earned back nearly all of our investment. Within a year, you and Nico will be clear and settled. You support your wife and your child quite well.”
She’d almost said ‘children,’ but she did not wish to curry his excitement just yet. The midwife had not been so sure, and given Annabeth a whole host of other potential maladies.
Will had said it was not any of those things, but told her to feel for the quickening, and then they might all know for sure.
"You support us,” Percy said, “I merely work to make sure your money goes far. I do not mind,” he sat up, assuring, “It is not a question of some manly pride on my part. I am so very happy that you and Alexandros are so well cared for, and that you care for me, as well. That it must all fall to you, however, and that without our journey to Svealand, I would not be able to see you taken care of as you deserve, is what irks me so.”
“But I am,” she said, “I am well taken care of by you.”
His smile was too small and sad for such a happy conversation. “I love you with more passion than I believe some know to be possible,” he said, simply, “and I hope I take care of you in many ways. I pray that I am a worthy steward of your money, and that I represent you well when I use it on both of our behalf. Yet I must never forget it was you who brought such an asset into our marriage. We would have had nothing after the war with the titans, and I would have hated that.”
"I would have had you,” she told him, equally as simply.
What a sweet thought! How they might have grown together in that time! How many children mind they have, now, if they had not gotten in their own way!
“I would have worked my hardest to be worthy of you,” he said, all the earnestness of youth clear on his face, “but I fear you would have only ended up with the least eligible man in all of Constantinople.”
She laughed at his little jest.
He did not laugh with her.
Her laughter trailed off at his confused look.
By the gods, he was serious.
“Need I remind you,” she said, “that you were the most eligible man in all of the agoge.”
“I was no such thing,” he said. “When my lack of any kind of material advantages showed, all women but you were rightfully scared away.”
Annabeth stared at him. This man. Her husband, father of her son, love of her life. A great hero, a brilliant strategist, the person she’d want with her in battle over all else.
And, she sometimes remembered, the occasional fool.
“Do you know how much effort I spent, Percy, seducing women away from you?”
He blinked. “What?”
“Oh yes.” And what a time that had been. “Most of the girls of our little village had their own money, you know. Katya had some truly wonderful land, I was told, and Tora’s father was simply dripping in silks and spices.”
“You… seduced them?”
“I did indeed,” Annabeth said, easy and straightforward. “I distracted them, made them think that a man would not be worth their troubles compared to the passion I could provide.”
It had not, precisely, been much of a chore. They had been beautiful women, all, vivacious and full of life. Clarice and Silena had been her own choices, of course, sweet childhood romances while she’d mulled over her feelings for Percy, but the women whom she’d engaged so they might direct their attentions away from the man she loved had proven to be sweetly entertaining nonetheless.
“You romanced Katya and Tora to get them away from me?” His eyes were wide, the blush in his cheeks winding its way down his chest, roses in bloom.
“Not just them,” she said. “Between our journey through the labyrinth and the great war, I must have bedded… oh, half the children of Aphrodite--save Silena, of course, who was too enraptured by Carlo by then. And then a few others.” It was truly a wonder she had not garnered something of a terrible reputation. Truly, the children of the gods were an enlightened few, unburdened by arbitrary rules. “You were quite the catch.”
He blinked again, his gaze very far off. “You must have been… very distracting.”
His voice hitched, and she realized he might have been picturing it.
“Oh yes,” she nodded. “I was quite the distraction.” Leaning in close, she trailed a line of kisses from his jaw up to his ear. She liked the rough stubble against her lips, a feeling she’d only ever known from Percy. She’d long loved women, their smooth skin and sweet faces and musical voices, as friends and partners both, but she loved Percy, too. “Would you like to hear about it, my love? Would you like the stories of the women I seduced, so I could have you all to myself?” she whispered into his ear.
He whined, marvelously, his breath shuddering in his chest.
She would not give him all the stories today, as she had many to share. Before he went back out to sea, however, she would give him a few.
***
“Do not think,” Annabeth said, attempting crossness even as she lounged on their bed, “that I shall allow you to continue to put off your voyage this way.”
“Think you so little of me?” She could sense him attempting crossness as well, though he was far less accomplished at it than she was. “Which one of us can control the waves, again?”
“And which one of us has put off the extraordinarily lucrative Genoese shipment for the last two months?” she countered.
Percy shrugged one shoulder, jostling the bowl of olives awkwardly held in the crook of his arm, though he had remained in that position for at least an hour, now. “Giovanni does not require my assistance to move a few silks and spices ‘round the country. L’Imperatrice is in good hands, I promise you,” he said, plucking a fruit from the bowl and feeding it to her.
L’Imperatrice--the Empress. That he had named his flagship after the little canoe which had carried them together through to the ends of the earth, which had taken her name from Percy’s private little fantasy, it sent her heart on a strange little dance.
Annabeth should have been cross with him, truly. In all considerations of the situation, to defer and delegate such an important shipment to his mortal second-in-command who did not possess even a tenth of Percy’s skill with the waves in order to spend time with his pregnant wife, rubbing her feet and hand-feeding her olives, was a poor business decision. She should have been cross, yet, doted upon and loved and with a belly full of his children, she simply could not bring herself to feel anything less than perfect bliss, neither anger, nor irritation, nor even a passing annoyance.
Yes, children. Will, the poor man whom they kept poaching away from the Conte di Angelo, suspected it to be two. Her treasures were many, and multiplying.
She moved her body, just a little, repositioning herself on the soft bed. Though her pregnancy had been rather a dull affair, all things considered, as compared to the previous one, some things, unfortunately, had remained constant.
“Still,” she said, as she refused to give up quite so easily, “please do promise me that you shall go down to the docks to at least speak with the man before he departs.”
“I suppose I could,” he tilted his head, considering.
She narrowed her eyes. Having seen and catalogued all possible configurations of his handsome face by now, there was virtually no possible way to construe this one as sincere.
“Or,” he said, a lascivious grin crossing his face, his free slowly, agonizingly slowly, tracing random patterns on her shift and her skin, sauntering ever so vaguely downwards. “Or, I could spend the afternoon doing something infinitely more… appetizing, shall we say, than speaking to Giovanni.”
Percy, the absolute rapscallion, even had the audacity to lick his lips.
Damn him. Her sense memory was far too strong to resist.
It was only a matter of time before she gave in. She knew it, he knew it--to argue otherwise would only be prolonging the inevitable, driving their lusts higher and higher with impatience and anticipation.
So, then, she decided to prolong it a little.
She hummed, tapping her chin with a finger. “Allow me to think on it for a moment or two.”
“Of course, my love,” he murmured, his voice already deep and warm, the quality it only took on during activities such as these. His fingers had transported themselves from her collarbone and clavicle to the skin of her shin, dancing and tapping at the edge of her shift, occasionally crossing underneath the hem. “You shall have all the time you require.”
Tap, tap, tap, a maddening little dance he played on the bumps and ridges of her knee, so distracting she could not even focus on pretending to be uninterested, her hips moving of their own accord, ever so slightly.
As it happened, she did not require nearly as much time to decide as she had thought she would.
And she did not even mind terribly when the bowl of olives, overturned and spilled in haste, ended up on the floor.
***
For weeks, Annabeth had been dreading the birth. Twice the children, twice the trouble, she had thought, and given just how dangerous the last one had been, she had been wracked with nerves for days. Not even Percy’s presence, warm and soothing and solid, could chase away her fears.
Though, at the very least, there was no danger of Percy accidentally raising another typhoon.
“Much simpler than last time, no?” Will had commented in Greek, attending to Annabeth while he had his assistant wrap the babies. “I was, at the very least, expecting some sort of earthquake to send the city plunging into the lagoon.”
Percy chuckled at the good-natured jest, far past the point of chagrin. “To have you here the whole time has put me much at ease, Dottore,” he said. “If you are certain there is nothing more I can do for you as repayment--”
But he waved Percy off, wiping down an instrument. “Think nothing of it. I am always glad to assist old friends.”
“Scusatemi, signora,” said his assistant, timidly, holding the newest members of their family in her arms. She had been somewhat scandalized when Percy had not made himself scarce during the birthing process, as was customary for menfolk, and though she had not been outwardly cold to him, or anything less than professional, Annabeth could sense she was still in something of a state of shock. “I tuoi infanti--un bambinetto e una bambinetta.”
Having already assisted Annabeth into a sitting position, Percy relieved her of one child, passing it to his wife, then took for himself the other. She had received the bambinetto, the little boy, curly wisps of blond hair nearly invisible against his skin. Just as Alexandros had been, he was beautiful, tiny and wrinkled, yet sublime in his smallness, in the little hands which curled into fists, in the slow, sleepy blink of his gray eyes as he first ever beheld the light, beheld his mother’s face.
Loving Percy had been an unexpected surprise, something for which she had neither predicted nor planned. Loving Alexandros had been something of a foregone conclusion, a soothing balm to her then-broken heart, and she had feared she would not have enough room in her soul for her son, so taken was she with his father, unwilling to exchange one for the other. Loving this little boy, however, and his sister, would be the simplest thing in the world.
She turned to her husband, pleased to see the look of awe and delight on his face. “Well, kærasti? How fares you now, now that I have given you a daughter?”
So enraptured, it was as if he had not heard her.
The door opened then, with a creak, a small, dark-haired shape toddling his way in, past the reaching hand of his caretaker. “Mamma!” he cried. “Mamma!”
“Accidenti,” muttered the Conte di Angelo, standing in the doorway. “A thousand apologies, Annabeth, but your little… child… could not be contained.”
She laughed. “Worry not--I have heard more than a few similar such sentiments from his nanny.”
Clumsily, lacking all grace, Alexandros clambered up onto the bed, making to crawl towards his mother, until he was stopped by the nigh impassable barrier of Percy’s outstretched leg. “Careful, careful,” Percy said, sweetly. “Your mamma is resting.”
All wide eyes and curiosity, he crept even closer, his mouth hanging open in a child’s confusion, as doctor, midwife, and count exited the room, in the periphery of her vision.
“Angele mou,” she murmured, “would you like to meet your brother?”
He did not respond, not so old yet that he possessed the gift of uninhibited communication, but he did peer, curiously, at the small thing in his mother’s arms.
If she cast her mind back, Annabeth could not quite recall the first time she had ever met her brothers. Buried beneath the dirt and rubble of time and more pressing matters, she tried to remember if she had been excited to become an older sibling, to have some sort of sororal responsibility for her father’s new wife. Her situation had been quite different, of course; she had been old enough to comprehend what was taking place, and too clever by far for her to not feel some resentment, and in a fit of terror and rage, had taken flight into the unknown.
Alexandros, perhaps, did not yet understand the matter, could not quite understand that these two little things were now his family, that his mama’s love and his papa’s attention would no longer be solely focused upon him.
“This is your brother, Lukas,” she told him, the name she and Percy had agreed upon, a bygone memory of a friend and brother who had taken care of them both, and risen above all his failures in the end. “Can you say hello?”
“Loo-kas,” he said, reaching out a pudgy hand.
“Very good!” She was charmed far too easily by her children, but she simply could not help herself--it was far too sweet an image. “And that,” she said, indicating her husband beside her, “is your sister.”
If Percy could even conceive of a world outside of his daughter, now, he showed no indication of it, barely even moving when Alexandros made his way over to him, grasping onto his shoulder for balance.
Hushed, she asked him, “Percy? Have you chosen a name for her?”
They had spent weeks agonizing over names for their newborns. Names had power, they knew intimately, and had to be chosen with great care. When it was determined she would be having twins, they had each agreed to choose one child’s name, to be shared with their partner, or kept a surprise. Percy knew the names for which she had a distinct distaste, and so she was not concerned he would choose something she truly hated, but she was quite curious.
His gaze, green and glassy, was fixed on his daughter, a single tear falling down his cheek, his throat working as he summoned the will to speak. “Anja,” he murmured.
“Yes, my love?”
He turned to her then, his mouth trembling, the sunrise of his joy breaking on his face, warm and brilliant. “Her name is Anja.”
If her heart were any more full, it would burst right out of her chest.
“Then, if you are able to part with her, I believe Anja,” her voice hitched as she spoke the name aloud, the name of the little girl with blonde hair and gray eyes and all of her father’s love, “is in need of a little food.”
Percy nodded, bringing his little Anja to his lips, and laying a soft kiss on her blonde head.
Carefully, then, he passed her to Annabeth, making sure she was well situated in her mother’s arms, then he brushed a hand over Lukas’s head, as softly and tenderly as he could. This man could fight and kill, lead armies and win wars. His blood was that of the earth-shaker, the vengeful, the violent, who cursed and doomed any who would harm his children. Yet here he was, the absolute gentlest of fathers.
Little Alexandros, sweet thing, was drooping, sleepiness over taking his frame. Plucking him up, Percy transferred him to his other arm, so that he could be even closer to her, tucking Alexandros beneath one arm, and Annabeth beneath the other, his fingers playing with the ends of a curl or two.
The lord of the sea could never be so soft, cradling Sarah and a baby Percy, nor the lady of war so affectionate, cuddling with Fredrik while they looked on their little Anja. All children of the gods emulated their parents, in ways both great and small, proliferated year after year, generation after generation, all their mistakes reborn alongside the heroes and the monsters and the stories. Yet, sometimes, they could break free of it. A daughter of Athena and a son of Poseidon could learn to trust each other, to love each other, to end the mighty rivalry of the heavens--and thus, in this way, they were already better than their parents, like the words of the old poet.
Yes, she thought, as Anja and Lukas took their food, as Alexandros fell asleep in the crook of his father’s arm, as Percy stroked her hair, the thump of his heartbeat beneath her shoulder, beautifully, breathlessly mortal. Yes, they were better, by far.
the marble king, part 11 [read on ao3] [rated M for adult situations]
“I was speaking to your mother while you went to market,” his wife said as they settled back into their bed for the night.
For the time, they were lingering a few extra days in Messalia. It was difficult not to--Venice did not have his mother’s cooking, nor his sister's sweet smiles, and Paul was much better at teaching Annabeth Italian than Percy. As well, Percy needed to go and convert some of their money to florins and ducats and the like, far, far more money than he had ever thought he would ever possess. He was very glad for his step-father’s assistance in this manner; neither he nor Annabeth were terribly talented with numbers, and there were quite a lot of calculations to be done. He was equally glad for the affection between his wife and his mother; that the two most important women in his life got on so well was very pleasing to him. “Oh, yes?”
“I had some questions about pregnancy.”
He turned to look at her, a sudden flutter in his stomach. She had not told him of any new complaints or complications, but perhaps she had shared them with a trusted woman. “Are you well?” he asked.
Annabeth pursued her lips, frowning so hard he could nearly see the interconnected web of her clever mind. “I... must admit I have a problem.”
Percy raised himself on one arm, concerned. “A problem? Is it serious?”
“No, no,” she shook her head. “Your mother assured me it was perfectly normal. However, I may require your…” Annabeth trailed off, then, glancing uneasily at him. “...Your assistance.”
“Anything,” he said, laying a hand on her arm. Such casual touches still managed to thrill him, sending shivers down his spine. “I am at your disposal.”
“I am…” She swallowed, licking her lips. Percy’s eyes could not help but track the movement. “That is, your mother assured me it was normal for a woman in the last stages of her pregnancy to be taken with certain… needs. So to speak.”
“Of course,” Percy nodded. Expectant mothers were cursed with sudden, intense, often contradictory desires. He had learned that years prior with his mother and Esther, and had witnessed it firsthand with Annabeth and their little Anja.
Annabeth met his eyes, stunning storm clouds ringed with gold. “Certain… carnal needs,” she said, slowly.
Percy… Percy blinked.
“It is quite common,” Annabeth said, her pink cheeks rapidly turning red in a manner quite becoming, “for women who are pregnant to find themselves with increased lust.”
“I… see,” Percy said.
Well, he had certainly not known that when his mother was carrying Esther.
Still, there were much more pressing matters at hand. “How… may I assist you?”
Did she require the room to herself, and need him to protect her privacy? Did she wish him to go and… procure her a tool for aid?
Was that why she had been so fixated on brothels the other day? Was he meant to find her a companion at one? If he did, would it be presumptuous of him to select a woman? He did not like the idea of her laying with another man, but--but she had told him of Katya and Clarice and--
No, he furiously thought, nearly shaking his head. Annabeth did not wish to be the object of his lust, and he would not make her so.
“What may I do to assist you?” he asked her again. As her husband, he would serve his wife and her pregnancy however she required it. The actions he took which led to such a situation had been distasteful to her, and so he must endure some of his own distaste now on her behalf.
She cast her eyes from his once more. “I… cannot reach,” she admitted, her hand flicking below her round belly. “I was wondering if you would be willing to…” her voice faded away, shame and embarrassment plain on her red face.
Percy swallowed. “I… you--you wish me to… touch you?”
She nodded. “I find myself in rather… urgent need of completion, and I should be very grateful for your assistance--if,” she rushed to assure him, “it is not too distasteful for you, of course.”
“No,” Percy said, then, quickly, at her crestfallen expression, “I mean, yes, of course it is not distasteful.” He swallowed again, his mouth watering, but making sure his eyes rested on her face and no lower. “I am happy to assist you however you need.”
A moment passed between them, long and charged. There was a time when he would have been able to divine the whole of her mood and motivations, just from the tilt and shape of her brow. Now, however. He had not been able to read her for quite some time.
Slowly, as though he was approaching a skittish animal, he sat up in bed, peeling the sheets off the both of them. She wore a red kirtle over her chemise this night, her wimple discarded on the floor below, her hair braided down her back. Simple, sturdy traveling fare.
Hushed, he questioned her once more. “May I…?”
Annabeth nodded.
Ever so carefully, Percy pulled her dress up, up over her calves, her thighs. Her stockings were tied above her knees, the garters delicately embroidered with wavy lines of green. Percy had not had the pleasure of undressing many women, and the goddesses of his father’s court did not take to modern fashion. He did not know if such garments were standard, or a mark of the maker. Perhaps Annabeth had made them herself and merely liked the pattern.
“Is there a problem?” Annabeth asked when he waited too long, Percy attempting to keep all his attentions on the cloth and not her pale thigh.
“No, no,” he said, faintly, and then pushed her dress up more. Perhaps sensing his fear and trepidation, she took it from his hands just as it uncovered her center, pulling it the rest of the way so that it lay at her hips just below the swell of her belly.
There, beneath the curve of her stomach, he saw the pink flesh and more of the blonde curls which adorned her head, and his mouth nearly watered. They were a darker gold, here, and easier to see in the afternoon sun than they had been by the glow of the hearth on their wedding night.
Would she allow him the use of his mouth, rather than his hands, he wondered? He was not unskilled with his fingers, but his true abilities were in his tongue. He would prefer it, as well, the flatteries of which his tongue never tired.
With a deep, steadying breath, grounding himself in the sweet, fantastical reality of her laid out before him, open and willing and longing for his touch, he reached out a finger, and traced along the seam of her cunt. Once, twice, three times, until she gave a little gasp, her outer lips parting carefully about the tip of his finger.
So wet already--he tried not to moan himself at the feel of it, at the smell of her as it wafted into the air around him.
Up and down and up and down, he sweetly toyed with her folds, then dipped inside with a finger. At the little whine which escaped her throat, he had to force down his pleased smile.
Cease with your foolish thoughts, he chided himself. This was not about his own pleasure. This was about hers.
Over and over again, then, he went, caressing her cunt as it deserved, as he wished he could do to her every night, trying desperately not to get lost in her sounds of pleasure. This was to ease her suffering, he always had to remember--not for his own benefit.
“Percy,” she gasped his name, and he felt himself twitch in his breeches. “Please!”
Too afraid to ask, too caught on his name on her lips, he did not know for what she begged of him. So he took his other hand, and after briefly caressing her belly, the holy chalice which held their child within it, he brought his thumb down on the place at the top of her cunt, rubbing at it while his other hand teased at the rest of her sensitive pink flesh.
“Yes,” She cried. “Yes, just like that, yes . Percy, yes, please .”
He quickened his pace on her skin, and rather than tease her further, as he so desperately wished to do, instead slid his fingers inside her and out again. As long as he did not say so, as long as he did what she asked, he allowed himself, just for a little while, to pretend it was his cock instead.
Her sweet cries grew hurried, more breathless as Percy moved his hand faster, harder, with greater intent.
“Good girl,” he murmured in a hushed voice, a voice which was not under his control, yet nonetheless taken from the deepest, most desperate places of his desire. “Good girl. Just like that.”
She cried out once more, and he was forced to bite his tongue, lest he declare her beauty to rival that of Aphrodite--or lower it for a taste.
As a flower to the sun, her cheeks bloomed, her eyes fluttering shut as her lips pulled beyond a smile in ecstasy. Letting out one final, piercing cry, Percy felt more wetness gush out of her, straight into his waiting hand.
He was certainly not unschooled in the ways of women, but he had never seen that before. Percy licked his lips, thankful that she could not see him.
Slowing his movements, then, he gently brought her down from her feminine heights, her body twitching with latent pleasure as her climax passed her over. Only when he was certain that she was well and truly sated, that her breathing had returned to normal, that her limbs were loose and lax, that her cunt had ceased to ripple around his fingers, did he finally, torturously remove them, sliding them from her body with a great, private reluctance.
Sleepily, she slid her eyes open once more, catching him with her gaze. “Thank you,” she mumbled, her skin still flushed. “Thank you.”
His heart pounded as though he were the one who had just undergone such a physical act, throbbing in his chest. “It was my pleasure,” he said, his voice sounding at least somewhat more normal--a feat far more heroic than any other he had ever attempted before. “To--to help you however you need,” he stammered, quickly following up.
She nodded, waving a limp hand.
Almost against his will, he glanced once more towards the peak of her thighs, wet and glistening. “Allow me to clean you,” he said, pathetically desperate for just another touch of her.
Slipping off of the bed, he made his way to the water basin. When he turned away from her, it took every ounce of willpower and fortitude he possessed not to lick his fingers clean. Instead, he rinsed them off, and then wet his handkerchief, returning to the bed to gently wipe at her folds. She squirmed, weakly, her brow furrowing in a discomfort of feeling.
When he finished, she tossed down her skirts, and with his help climbed out of bed, undoing the lacing of her dress and shucking off her kirtle, before easing herself back down again. He had seen her like this for months now, Annabeth in her linens, her growing belly pushing against the fabric until she had to purchase more to modify her dresses.
So beautiful, he mused. So perfect. His wife, but not his.
He would do well to remember that fact. Anja Elisabet was wife, his friend, the mother of his child--but not his. This was the deal they had struck.
She looked out the window, her eyes half closed in sleep and Percy stripped off his own outer clothing.
He was careful as he climbed into bed not to show Annabeth how much his assistance had pleased him.
“Thank you, Percy,” she hummed, pleased and pliant, turning onto her side, a hand curled protectively around the swell of their child.
This bed in the inn was far too comfortable, he thought. They had been here for much too long. “Of course,” he said once more.
Of course.
Of course he would serve her, however she needed.
Of course he would feel empty as soon as the deed was done.
***
They had no need to stay in Messalia for three weeks, but stay they did, for his mother’s embraces, his step-father’s smiles, and his sister’s giggles. Were it his decision, he would have put down his roots in the port city, never to be parted again. But Venice was what he had promised his wife, and there was the church built in the image of the St. Sophia, perhaps the new home of their godly family.
So there he left his mortal family behind.
“Here,” he said on the last morning, as their various parcels were loaded onto the boat, and Annabeth was distracted by Esther’s hugs. He handed his mother another velvet purse, stuffed with more money taken from his little allowance.
“Percy,” his mother said, breathless at the flash of gold. “This must be at least a year’s wages.”
He nodded, a bit uncomfortable. “I thought it might do you some good.”
“Oh, my darling son.” She placed her slander hand on cheek, her calloused skin rough against his, and his willpower nearly dissolved. “You do not have to do this.”
“Of course I do,” he said. “You took care of me for so many years, and now that I am able, I shall take care of you in return.”
He paused, then, as he considered his next statement. He did not wish for it to be misconstrued, as he held no ill will towards her husband, but… it needed to be said.
“I am giving this to you,” he spoke, catching her eye so that she could divine his full meaning. “Not to Paul.”
She frowned. “What do you mean?”
He took her hands in his. “I have left Paul our cart and our horse. I know that you told him of the money I gave you weeks ago, but please, do not feel as though you need to share this with him as well.”
“Percy,” she chided, “Paul would never--”
“I know that, mater ,” he said, for if there ever was doubt to his character, he might have dispatched the man himself long ago. “Still, I think it is fair for you to keep something for yourself, for any trouble which might arise.”
With those keen, piercing eyes which saw so much, they looked on him with so much affection, he felt his own eyes grow wet. “My son,” she said, so full of tenderness, “I can see that you are a good husband, and will be an even better father to your little girl.”
He smiled at her words, a tear falling down his cheek. Her excitement over her granddaughter was palpable.
Percy would see them all again, he swore, and one day, his mother would meet his little Anja, and she and her family would come to call Venice home.
They all embraced. Esther sobbed, and Paul and his mother were not without tears. Nor was Percy, though he was only in real danger of unbecoming emotion when he heard Annabeth whisper to Esther about what a good aunt she would be to the baby.
And then, once more did they board a ship, sailing towards a place unknown.
The first few days, he had worried that perhaps sea sickness would strike his wife again, but, to his pleasant discovery, she was as hale as could be expected, waddling about the ship, hand around her middle as she took in the fresh, salty air. Percy thought fleetingly of the Madonna he had seen in the church Athens, then put her from his mind entirely, for this was surely a more divine and holy mother, this Anja Elisabet, draped in robes of blue and white, belly full of his daughter, standing proudly aboard a ship.
What goddess, either that of the Christians or the Hellenes or the Norsemen, could ever hope to compare? Perhaps this was the source of Hera’s animosity and ire, all those years ago, the knowledge that one day Annabeth would surpass her in her own domains of marriage and motherhood.
“You are in a very good humor,” Annabeth said, five days into their journey. “I would have expected leaving your family to put you in a foul mood.”
She was in something of a foul mood herself today, languishing in their little cabin, unwilling to tread outside. In hopes of lifting her spirits a little, he was rubbing the tightness from her feet, digging his fingers into her muscles. At one particularly strong motion, she moaned, low in her throat, in a manner not dissimilar to when she came, shaking on his fingers.
“I am very sad to leave them,” he admitted, hoping to keep his mind off of… other things. “But we are our own family now, are we not?”
Her face still slack from the relaxing massage, she frowned, her brows drawing together the way they did whenever she was faced with a particularly thorny Gordian knot of a problem. Percy could not, strictly speaking, discern whether or she derived any joy from such a statement.
He spared a moment to wonder if he had said too much, or if he had made her uncomfortable. But she just nodded. “Yes, of course. We are a family, as well.” She shifted, trying once more to situate herself in the position which would cause the least amount of physical discomfort from her stomach.
Though she were still, at times, entirely unreadable, Percy knew when something weighed heavily on her. “What is it?” he asked, his hands stilling on her foot.
Pausing, she looked away, no doubt weighing the merits of keeping whatever it was to herself. “It is nothing,” she said, after a moment. “I was reminded, for a moment, of Lukas, and of Thalia.”
“Oh.” Percy pressed his thumb into the ball of her foot, easing the tense muscle there, grounding himself in the feel of the delicate bones of her ankle beneath his fingers.
The last Olympian had granted him a vision, once upon a time, of Annabeth as a very, very young girl, lost in what he now knew to be far northern wildernesses, having been rescued by the two older children. Lukas had pledged to her, then, to be her new family, to replace the one which had so cruelly cast her aside--only to cast her aside himself, five years later. Undoubtedly, the concept of a family which would not abandon her was not a concept with which she was overly familiar.
Well, Percy would certainly do his best to familiarize her with it.
Shifting again, she shooed away his concern, bidding him to keep up his work on her aching feet. She seemed to prefer that to even his work on her cunt, which he still provided nearly every day.
“You never told me,” she inserted into the silence, tight and restrained. “When did you sell the cart and horse?”
He froze, his knuckles pressed against the sweeping arch of her feet, a wave of guilt crashing over him, as the shore in a morning storm.
Oh, dear.
Percy swallowed. “I… that is to say…”
In truth, he had hoped she would not ask. She seemed accustomed to a certain standard of living, and now, burdened with her share of her inheritance, he had thought that she may not notice some of the finer details. But of course, she would, being the cleverest, wisest woman in the world. How, then, did he apologize for such a gross misuse of funds? Of her trust? “I must confess something.”
With some difficulty, she adjusted her seat, so she could look on him more fully. “What is it?” she asked, her tone short.
She had been so forthright with him, it was only fair that he did the same. “I did not sell the cart and horse,” said Percy, meeting her gaze. “I gave them to Paul.”
She tilted her head, appraising. “I did not know he was in need of either of those things.”
“I gifted them so he could sell them,” said Percy, “so they could make use of the money.”
“Of course,” she said, nodding her head. “That is good compensation for their hospitality, among many other things.”
“There is more,” he said, nerves rising. “I also… gave my mother some money. Well, quite a sum of money.” A year’s wages, she had said, but between both purses he’d handed over, it had really been much closer to two. “A… rather large sum of money.”
She frowned, and he felt the guilt sinking lower in his stomach. “How large a sum?”
“Probably… a hundred or so ducats.”
“Oh,” she said, her face falling from a frown into a sort of bemused smile. “I understand why your mother would think that was so much money but--”
“I wish to assure you,” he chimed in, quickly, desperate to explain himself, “that I will work tirelessly to recoup it when we make land.”
“Recoup what?”
“The money which I took from you.”
“Percy,” she said, in a tone he knew from their youth, the one she assumed whenever she tried to patiently explain something to him, rather than simply calling him the fool she considered him to be. “The money is in your name. You know that, yes?”
“I do,” he agreed, “but that does not make it mine.”
“Any law would say otherwise.”
“The law does not always speak truly,” Percy said, “The money is yours, by right and by blood. I apologize for taking so much of it without your express permission, but please know that I do intend to pay you back in full.” Such a task would take a long while. Two years at least, for the money he gave to his mother, and quite a bit more for the horse and cart, then he could begin working to save to send for his mother and her family. Hopefully, Annabeth would be willing to pay for their room and board when they arrived. “I suspect there is work to be had on many a ship in Venice. I know a good many merchants make their homes there. If not, perhaps I can find employment in a shipyard. I cannot be a shipwright, of course, as I would not be able to afford the apprenticeship, and I am too old besides, but there is always work to be found, if not on the sea, then in the city.” It would be torture to live so close to the sea and yet work with the soil, but he would find a way to persevere. “I will find something, I promise you.”
Annabeth stared at him as though he had grown a second head. “I do not understand.”
Percy knew very well how the children of Athena hated problems they could not quickly understand. “I want to assure you,” he tried again, “that I will pay you back all that I owe. Unfortunately, it shall not be quick. Nevertheless, I shall toil until you are compensated in full. I fear, though, that without any previous social standing, such an undertaking may encompass several years. I am sorry for the delay, but I will fulfil my debt to you, one day’s wage at a time.”
This had been the issue, oh so many years ago. It had been an issue in Constantinople, when it was all he could do to feed himself during the siege, and it had been an issue at the tender age of sixteen, when he could never have supported a family. Now, thankfully, his wife had a deep cushion upon which she and their child could fall, which took a tremendous weight off of his shoulders.
“One day’s wage…” she repeated, softly, unbelievingly, then with a force and speed which surprised him, Annabeth yanked her foot back from his hands. “You mean to tell me,” she said, steel-voiced and spitting fire, “that you plan to become a common laborer?”
“Unless by some measure of luck a man of distinction from Constantinople with whom I served now resides in Venice, I have nothing in the way of connections.” The odds of that, he felt, were startlingly slim, however. He could, perhaps, send a message to Aachen, as they had their own web of social ties running up and down Italy, but he thought Annabeth might dislike money made from a Latin connection even more than the slow amounts he could provide with work by his own hands. Iason would be eager to help him, but Annabeth would likely not be eager to take it, and so he would not mention it.
Annabeth still stared at him, befuddled, angry. “But--I--You--”
She stood up off the bed with easy grace, long practiced even despite her belly, but as she began to pace in their very small cabin, she did waddle around a bit, distracting Percy with the beauty of the image. This was an important conversation, he told himself, shaking his head. “What can I do to--”
Then, with a frustrated cry, she whirled on him. “You truly would disrespect me so much?” she demanded, her face red.
The force of her words was so strong he had to lean back a little. “I--” he stammered, uncomprehending, “I only wish to do right by you.”
“Do right by me?” she sneered. “How? By disrespecting our marriage so entirely that you will not claim what is legally yours? By reducing me to a laborer's wife in a city of strangers? Me!” she scoffed, her voice rising higher and higher in pitch and volume. “A daughter of Athena. A warrior of Rome. A legacy of Frey and a lady of house Förfölja!”
“You can be whatever you wish,” he offered, and although it was true, it sounded small to his own ears. Her father had wished for her to play politics among the noble houses of Svealand--if she wished to do so in Venice instead, he would not stop her.
“Oh yes,” she said, venom in her voice. “I can certainly go and meet with the Doge and his retinue. I shall dress up in my silks and my aunt’s jewels, and when they say, ‘Oh, Signora Thalassinos, who is your husband?’ I will have to reply, ‘Oh, he mucks the stables near the shipyards!’”
Overwhelmed by her fire, her intensity, he blinked at her, speechless.
“You would have me introduce our son,” she went on, incensed, “not as the legacy of great gods and greater heroes, but as the son of a man who refuses to honor his marriage, and would rather toil away on the docks!”
His hands raised before him, he beseeched his goddess, demurely, placatingly. “What would you have my do, my lady?” he asked.
Her eyes narrowed, and he was reminded of her mother, of so many years of disapproval. Lady Athena had wanted him to stay away from her daughter, and for several years, he had thought she had gotten her way. “Take what has been freely given,” Annabeth demanded. “If you wish to return to the sea, well, buy a ship. Buy a dozen! Surely you would have better luck carrying goods across the Mare Nostrum than any other man, with your father’s blessings. But if you insist on ignoring the money that is by law, custom, and my own wish yours , then you shall earn it back in a manner which will not shame me or my child.”
Stunned, he said in a quiet voice, “I do not wish to take advantage--”
“Oh, I know,” she nearly snarled. “You will take no advantage, nothing of me--only my hand and my maidenhead.”
He flinched, as though he had been struck.
“And what do you give me in return? Your distance and your disrespect.” Her breathing was hard, labored, as though she had just gone several rounds in the arena. His own heart beat so rapidly in his chest it felt like the sparring match was against him. Perhaps it was. “I took you as my husband, son of Poseidon. I expect you to act like it.”
She made to leave their cabin, to make a grand exit worthy of the Empress she should have been, had she chosen a better husband. Then, as she reached the door of their cabin, her shoulders tensed, and she curled in on herself, letting out a cry of pain.
Percy was by her side in a moment. Wrapping his arms around her, her hands clutched at her stomach. “No,” he breathed, all anger and fear forgotten, “not now.”
“No,” she agreed, “no, I think not.” She straightened up a little, but left most of her weight on him, “Your mother told me this could happen. False pains, she called it. It is not yet time.” But she did not seem so confident.
“Come,” he said. “Sit.”
She ended up laying down on their little cabin bed, huddled on her side, her face drawn in pain and worry, but after ten long, excruciating minutes, no other pains came, and her breathing returned to normal.
“Do you need anything?” Percy asked her, gently. “Some water? Some wine?”
She nodded weakly, but did not specify which.
After a few minutes, making certain she was no longer in any serious pain, he then went in search of one or the other, and possibly even a little bit of food.
The sailors greeted him as he emerged onto the deck. He was quite friendly with the seamen. Annabeth had paid good money for their services, yes, but also, he sensed that they could feel a kindred spirit among them.
He found the quartermaster, a kind man with five children of his own and the air of a legacy of Neptune, with very little trouble. The man was always eager to assist this young charge and his wife, and gladly procured Percy wine and hard bread.
“Anything else?” he asked.
Percy considered, as a thought occurred to him. “You do not happen to be in possession of any olives, do you?”
He gave Percy a sort of sideways look, and then, to Percy’s amazement, nodded, producing a small jar of the stuff.
Percy could have kissed the man. His thanks would have lasted all night, had he not been shooed away, back to his wife.
She had maneuvered herself to a sitting position once more when he returned. Freya the cat had made herself quite at home against the line of her thigh, purring contentedly as Annabeth rubbed at her belly, speaking words he did not understand, but recognized as her father’s tongue, so musical and lilting that it could have been a lullaby.
“I have returned,” he said softly, almost unwilling to interrupt the moment. “With--"
At his voice, she raised her head, her eyes a little red and puffy from tears, but the smile she directed towards him was soft and pleased. “Oh, thank you, Percy. Here, come sit by me.”
Settling in on her other side, ever mindful of both her stomach and her furry companion, he handed her the wine, resisting the urge to brush her hair which had fallen into her face.
“I do apologize,” she said, after she had taken a drink. “I did not mean for my words to be so harsh.”
“It is alright,” he replied. “I did not realize the enormity of your feelings.”
Nibbling on a piece of bread, she swallowed, chasing the morsel with a little more wine, before pinning him with an odd sort of stare. “You must remember, Percy, that your choices no longer solely affect you. You are a husband, and a father. There are certain things which you are now obligated to provide.”
“Yes, I am aware,” he said, throat thick. Money and order and prestige, none of which he possessed. “All I meant for was to reassure you that I would not trap you in a situation from which you could not free yourself, should you ever need to.”
More than she knew, the shadow of his mother’s first husband hung over him still. He would rather die than submit Annabeth to even an echo of the same treatment.
“I am not trapped,” she said. “I extended the proposition of marriage to you, and you agreed--quite the opposite of the way things are usually done, might I add.”
He chuckled. That did seem to be a common thread between them.
“But,” she went on, “I am your wife. You must remember that. There are things for which I will not stand, and unlike some women, I have a noted history of running off when I do not like my treatment. When I married you, I knew, however, that you would never do those things.” She paused, considering him, holding his gaze. “I am a reflection of you, as a wife always is. I chose a brave, handsome, powerful, intelligent husband, and I am happy to be with him--but it will do me no good if he hides away and refuses to use his gifts, or disrespects our union by not valuing property that is rightfully his. If you act as though our union is not one of partnership, but one of a great burden, then, whatever your intentions, that will harm me.”
There were a million things he wished he could tell her, in this moment, promises of autonomy, declarations of love, but he knew she would not want to hear either. “That is not fair to you,” was all he ended up saying.
“I never said it was fair,” she agreed, a sympathetic twist to her mouth. “However, this is the way it is. I am not so displeased with my choices, not yet, but please, for my pride, if nothing else, do not prove me wrong.”
“Well,” Percy offered, falling into old step, “pride is your fatal flaw, skjaldmær . I suppose I must take particular care with it.”
She smiled at him, real, true, beautiful. “That is what I ask.”
“Is that all?”
“Well,” she grinned, a little of her humor shining through, “I daresay I shall ask for much much more--for what, however, at this time I cannot say.”
Percy wished he could, were she so inclined, offer her the world, his devotion, his love, all that he had and more. He settled instead for reaching beneath his cloak and pulling out his gift from the quartermaster. “I know you said that your cravings had--”
Before he could even finish his sentence, Annabeth had yanked it from his hand.
“Olives!” she cried in a tone not dissimilar to that of her lusts. “Oh Percy, you found them! You found me olives at sea!”
In very quick succession, she kissed him, and then she had the jar open and began shoving olives into her mouth.
***
In Neapolis , as he was disembarked, he made certain to purchase more olives for her. He did not do so because he wished to put some space between himself and his wife, but rather because she loved them, and at this stage in her pregnancy, she was finding herself uncomfortable all the time. The movement of the boat was not the cause of her nausea, but the cramped quarters and lack of comforts were wearing on her.
So, he set out to find her olives. The fact that he felt his own failure as a husband keenly, but he still did not know how to rectify it, was merely an additional consideration. Thus, he would provide her with food, because it appeared he was unable to provide her with anything more effective.
He managed to procure a few figs as well, juicy and sweet. And some salted nuts he thought might please her. And many many olives. He spent a good deal of money on the volume, hoping that they would last them to Venice, or at the very least to their next stop.
Spending money on his wife was no hardship. On himself, however? It took him several minutes to convince himself into purchasing a new hat, as his had accumulated a rather disgusting layer of road dirt.
She would like this one, he hoped. It was black, but with a blue and gold trim around the brim. She seemed to enjoy that particular color scheme.
He came back to the ship to some commotion, though he only half listened to the first mate’s words as two trunks were loaded aboard. He was nervous around his wife, still, her condition always lighting fearful fires within him, but he found he could never be too far away. Percy felt as though he were a young boy of fifteen all over again, just returning from their terrible, terrible trip beneath the earth, only now coming to terms with the breadth of his feelings for her.
“There's been some commotion on the ship while you were gone,” said Annabeth as he entered their cabin, once more laid out on their bed. Freya the cat did not crowd her this afternoon, but slept peacefully on Percy’s discarded winter cloak.
“Yes,” Percy agreed, handing her the olives and figs, watching with detached horror as she stuffed them both simultaneously into her mouth. Would it be husbandly to mock her choice? Had they both still been youths, he would not have hesitated to do so, and that good natured mocking had come so easy to him still, even with his devotion, but everything now felt so unbalanced. Marriages did contain humor and good-natured ribbing, but were they acceptable enough substitutes for love and affection? Too fearful to try, he instead answered her question. “We have taken on a new passenger, it seems.”
“Anyone interesting?”
“A count, returning to his home in Venice,” he said. “The first mate did not volunteer many more details.”
“Perhaps you should introduce yourself,” she suggested. “As you said, we have no connections in the city. A count on friendly terms could potentially be a great boon.”
A part of him hated how she had listened to his every word, as she should not have to manage his life so fully, but, well, it was a very good idea.
“I will do so when you are feeling a little better,” he promised.
“See to it that you do.”
She winced, then, moving about to readjust herself on the bed. “I apologize,” said Percy, for what must have been the thousandth time. He never wished to cause her such discomfort, even if the reason was a happy one.
“I have asked you repeatedly to stop apologizing,” she said, relaxing into the bed. “You know it is no trouble. I have traveled to the ends of the world with you twice now, both ways. I think it is in fact easier to do while with child, mostly. Next time,” she continued, quickly, refusing him ample time to dwell on her strange words, “perhaps we shall arrive before the later days.”
Such words belonged to the realm of dreams; “next time.” In truth, they would not have another opportunity such as this. This would be their only child. He tried to comfort himself with the fact that it was better for her, as many a tragedy befell women in the birthing bed.
His own fears about what might await his wife were quiet, but as the date came nearer, it had been harder and harder to quell them. She was hearty and hale, but normally she would have been confined to comfortable rooms. Even traveling up and down the continent, the meanest inn made a far better place to lay than the softest beds upon the undulating ocean.
They had no nectar or ambrosia here, no healer of Apollo or midwife of Artemis on hand. Annabeth only had Percy, and he was sorely terrified he would find himself lacking in the crucial moment.
Ashore, in Neapolis, he had burned a sacrifice in preparation, to Artemis, Eileithyia, and Hera, and any deity who had even the remotest connection with childbirth. He had strongly considered using one of their precious few drachmae to attempt to contact the agoge , or perhaps Thalia and her maiden hunters. They had, like their lady, brought babies into the world on occasion.
Without a guarantee of success, however, he found himself loath to waste such time and resources. But it mattered not--they would be in Venice in a few days, he would find her the most comfortable of rooms, the most talented of midwives, and the most celebrated of doctors, and there they would await the birth of their daughter.
Afterwards, what he was supposed to do still remained a mystery. Not be a laborer, not find work on a ship, he was too afraid to ask what she wanted him to do. Too afraid to once again ignite her ire. Too afraid that he could not give it to her.
In some ways, her growing discomfort was a blessing. It distracted them both from having to figure out what he was to do to make her truly happy.
They set sail again, and Percy sunk into the feeling of the sea all around him, a brief escape from his wife’s, his dearest friend’s discomfort. They were very close to their destination, less than a fortnight at a normal speed, and with Percy’s help, well, they could be much, much faster.
As Annabeth winced and groaned, her momentary peace fleeing her with the rocking of the ship, he decided that they would make it to Venice in ten days’ time. Most likely, he could manage an even quicker pace, but he did not wish to scare the sailors so badly that they might stop all together.
Perhaps they should not have dallied in Messalia. Or perhaps they should have remained longer, long enough for her to give birth.
He should have done a great many things differently, it seemed.
At her request on the second day, he took her out of their cabin, supporting her as they slowly walked about the deck. All night, he had heard her toss and turn in their shared bed, groaning in pain. She seemed a little better this morning, but hopefully the sea air would do her a bit more good.
“And if not me,” she said, her jest squeezed through gritted teeth, “then perhaps your sea spawn.” Her laughter was cut off by her gasp of pain, digging her nails into the skin of his arm.
By his count, she had done that at least every five minutes for at least several hours. The time between the pain might have even been getting shorter.
“Are you certain you are alright? There are plenty of places to make port between here and Venice.”
She waved him off. “I am fine, I just… ooh , it feels as though your child is nearly as excited by the sea as you are.”
Usually, Percy would have been mollified by such a statement, and he would have gone about his business as usual--but not today. “I think we should return to our cabin, and get you back in b--”
All at once, she crushed his hand, nearly falling into him as she let out a terrible, heart-wrenching cry.
“Annabeth!” He braced her against his body, a hand on her shoulder to steady her. “What is it?”
“ Ma ton Dia ,” she gasped, “I… oh, no! Oh, stupid, stupid, I am such a fool!”
“What?” he pleaded. “What?”
Her eyes were wild, shiny and tinged with pain. “The baby,” she groaned, “Percy--your mother told me I would--” Then she cried again, even more anguished than before.
“Anja!” He nearly buckled beneath her weight.
“It’s coming,” she grunted, struggling to remain upright as the ship roiled beneath them. “The baby--it’s here!”
Oh, no. Ohhh, no no no. “What? Now?”
“Yes, now!”
“I--”
“Perc--” she wailed again, too much in pain to speak.
A large wave crashed on the side of their ship, sailors shouting orders to one another.
Paralyzed with fear, all Percy could do was clutch her closer. Now? Now, of all times?
One of the men stepped up to them, beginning to herd them towards below decks. “Signore Thalassinos,” he said, gruff but commanding, “there seems to be a storm rising, we ask that you return to your cabin until it has passed--”
“My wife is having her baby,” he blurted to the man.
His fear and terror must have been plainly evident, for the man paled in response. “Now, sir?” he squeaked.
“Yes, now!” Percy said. “Come, we require your assistance.”
When he made to shift her so that he could carry her, she cried out even more, releasing her grip on Percy so as to clutch at her stomach. Together, they braced her between the two of them, but rather than return them to their cabin, he led them to the captain’s suite. “The captain has a much larger bed,” he said, easing the door open with his shoulder. “Your wife shall be more comfortable here.”
Percy did not even have the wits to protest, or thank the man.
She shrieked as they laid her down, her hands clawing at the fine sheets. “Shh, shh, Anja,” he gentled, lacing her fingers with his. “I am here, I am here.”
“Signore…”
The crewman was looking down at his feet, gesturing to a spot on the captain’s rug. It took him far, far longer than it should have for Percy to realize that it was blood. A trail of it led beyond the door, onto the deck of the ship. Squeezing her arm in a silent apology, he positioned himself in front of the other man so he would not be able to see, then lifted up just a corner of her dress.
Her chemise had been white when she had put it on this morning. Now it was all stained and colored, a deep, dark, red.
Hastily, he laid the fabric back down, his hands shaking.
“Annabeth, darling,” he said, one hand coming up to push the hair which had fallen from her wimple out of her eyes, “you are bleeding. What do I do?”
“I don’t know,” she said, her face red, tears leaking from her eyes. “I--I have never done this before. I do not know.”
“Is there supposed to be so much blood?” Percy knew little of childbirth, but quite a bit about injuries. Had this been an arm or a leg, he would have been very concerned. Being a woman was bloody business, he knew, but was this how they were supposed to go?
“I do not--I do not think so…” she whimpered.
The helpful sailor still stood there, at a loss of what to do with himself. From beyond the cabin, he could hear the pelting of rain as it smashed into the ship.
“Percy, I think something is wrong,” she said.
Something was wrong.
Something was wrong.
“It hurts,” she cried, “differently, differently than it had before. I can’t--” Then she let out a great wail.
No. No. No.
The boat beneath them rocked, violently. Percy was able to keep himself and Annabeth stable, but the crewman was not so lucky.
“It’s alright,” he soothed, “it's alright.”
Again the ship lurched beneath them, sailors shouting in fear and terror. He paid it no mind.
Annabeth screamed, her whole body contorted in pain.
“Something is wrong,” she said once more. “Something is wrong .”
No. No. He felt like the sea outside--angry, rolling, ready to burst.
The ship swayed again.
“Percy!”
"Signore, what is it?” asked the crewman, having finally, fully righted himself.
Had he been of a clearer head, he would have recognized that the man could not understand Annabeth, as she had been screaming in Greek. At the moment, however, he was too full of fear to be kind. “Don’t just stand there,” he snapped. “Go and get the doctor!”
A midwife would be far, far better, but they would have to settle for the ship’s doctor. Between his experience and Percy’s battlefield expertise, hopefully they would be able to come up with something between the two of them.
“Yes,” said the man, “the count’s friend, he is a doctor, he said. He is a doctor.”
“A doctor,” Percy repeated. “There is a real doctor aboard?”
“ Si, Signore, yes. He is not Italian, but the count says he is a doctor.”
“Fetch him for me,” Percy pleaded, “please, fetch him, tell him something is wrong, and I will pay him whatever he wishes.”
The sailor departed, nearly tripping on himself to get out of the cabin. “What is happening, Percy?” Annabeth asked, frantic. “What did you say, where is he going?”
“He said there is a doctor aboard,” Percy said, turning his attention back to his wife, “he is going to get him.”
“The ship’s doctor?”
“No, the count’s doctor is aboard--I sent him to fetch the man.”
Weakly, she reached for him, her fingers clumsily hitting his arm. “It will be alright, won’t it Percy?” she asked. He had never seen her so afraid before. “Percy, promise me it is going to be alright.”
“It will be alright, I swear it.” Hands working quickly, he undid her wimple, as he knew she disliked the garment, and he did not want her to grow even more feverish.
Under it she looked pale and almost clammy. Still she bled.
The seas outside turned even choppier as Percy waited for this mysterious doctor to come and save his wife.
He did not want to disturb his wife with any more loud noises. The last thing she needed right now was to see him in all his fear and terror. Within the depths of his mind, he cursed himself for being a fool. If only he had not been so selfish, staying in Messalia for so long! If only he had not given into the sweetest of all possible temptations!
But now was not the time for self-flagellation. Now was not even the time for prayer, though pray he did, begging all the gods who had ever thrown a scrap of goodwill their way to save her, Eileithyia for a safe delivery, Apollo for a safe recovery, even the queen of the heavens, who had no lost love for either of them, but whose protection extended towards families. He prayed to them all for the gift of Annabeth’s life, and that of their child, promising anything, everything. There was not much he would not do, should they call upon him to pay his debt, as long as she would survive this.
“You’ll be alright,” Percy said, pressing a kiss to the curls plastered on her forehead. “You’ll be alright.”
“And our son,” she said, her voice barely more than a whisper. “He’ll be alright too, won’t he, Percy?”
“Of course.” He smiled, hoping to put her at ease. “Everyone shall be healthy, hale, and whole--you shall see.”
It seemed to work, somewhat, Annabeth relaxing into the pillows, giving him a shaky smile in return.
Kronos’ curse upon them, perhaps, it was likely mere minutes, but felt like another age had passed before the cabin door once again swung open. “Here, Dottore , here she is.” said the crewman, ushering in another man. “Signore, I have brought you the count’s doctor. As I said, I apologize for the interruption--”
“It is no trouble,” said the other man, his voice lightly accented. “I am happy to help. Hello Signora Thalassinos, I am… Ana Zabeta ?”
Percy looked up sharply. That voice, that--
“Guillaume?” Annabeth whispered, raising her head.
“ Guillaume ,” Percy repeated, “Will.”
It was him. Will, son of Apollo, the greatest healer of heroes, the most skilled doctor that the agoge had ever produced.
“Percy?”
“Oh, thank all the gods,” Percy cried, dropping his Italian completely. “Oh, thank you, Boedromios , thank you, father! Will, something is wrong.”
Sparing him a quick glance, he stripped off his own outer layer, discarding it on the floor of the cabin, and rushed over to Annabeth. “Help me get her gown off,” he told Percy, before waving at the crewman. “You, stay--I may have need of you yet.”
“Can you help her?” he asked.
“Childbirth is generally the purview of women,” Will said. “I have only assisted my aunt in a few before--but I am confident in our process.”
That was enough reassurance for him.
He and Percy got her kirtle out, so she was only in her chemise, the linen sticking to her skin as Will peeled it away to examine her. A consummate professional, his face remained calm even as the boat ferociously lurched to one side, then the other.
“Percy,” WIll said, firmly, “please stop raising a storm outside.”
He blinked. “What?”
“Please try, for Annabeth.” Touching at her belly and between her legs, he frowned as he looked at the blood. Even in pain, nothing escaped Annabeth’s notice.
“What is wrong?” she asked, weak and withdrawn. “Will, Will, is my baby--”
“Sailor,” Will called in Italian, turning back to the man to look at him, “please go and tell the count to bring me my specialty bag. He’ll know what it means.”
“I can go fetch it for you, sir. I will not bother the count.”
“No,” Will said, firmly, years of wrangling unhelpful demigods in the infirmary lending him strength. “Tell the count to bring my bag, and some linens if he has some on hand, which he should. If he questions you, tell him I demanded it.”
“Will,” Percy said, “let me go go and--”
But he shook his head, reaching into his bag and removing some cloth. “Stay. I shall need your assistance for this next portion.” He handed Percy a wooden rod and a cloth, then leaned over Annabeth, the picture of peace and serenity, even in such a stressful time. “Annabeth,” he said slowly, “I sense there is some tearing, and you are bleeding far too much. However, I promise I can take care of that. Unfortunately, there is another problem: the baby is in the wrong position.”
“What does that mean?” she asked, wincing as another wave of pain crashed over her.
“I can feel the baby’s feet,” Will said, “when I should feel the head. I will try to turn it, but I may need to try a few other things beforehand.”
Eyes glassy, she begged of Will, “You will save my baby, Will, yes? Please… Percy…” She grasped at his hand, mumbling words he did not understand.
“Percy,” murmured the good doctor, “this will be painful. I will do what I can, but I wish to keep her as comfortable as possible. I’ll need you to make sure she can bite down on the wood, and wipe her face and her chest as well. Can you do that?”
For her? Anything. “Yes,” he said, “yes.”
“Very good. Can you calm the sea?”
“I--”
There was a knock on the door to the cabin again. “Will?” came a deeper voice, speaking Greek. “What is going on? There is a vicious storm brewing, and I found this cat who seems to be in serious distress."
“Quickly, quickly.” Will called back, not looking away from Annabeth. “Come in.”
Too exhausted, too worried, too scared, Percy could not properly comprehend precisely what he was seeing when Nico Di Angelo walked into his cabin, carrying a leather bag that seemed to glow even in the dark room in one arm, and Freya the cat in another.
Nico, however, did not have that problem. He nearly dropped both of his parcels at the sight of them. “Percy?” Eyes wide, mouth open, he then took in the whole strange, frightening scene. “Annabeth? What--what is the matter?”
“Several things,” said Will, “and we shall have our joyous reunion once they are resolved.” He wiped his bloodied hand on a cloth, and then opened the bag which Nico had placed beside him, taking out several little clay jars and water skins. Smearing a substance on his finger from one of the jars, with his other hand, he gently tapped Annabeth’s cheek, pulling her attention, her eyes fluttering open. “I need to attend to some of the bleeding,” he said, serious and stern. “I apologize in advance, but this will feel very strange.” His countenance never wavered, even as he lowered his hand and slipped his fingers inside of her. Then he nodded at one of the water skins. “Percy is going to help you drink some, yes? Just a few sips.”
“Alright,” she agreed.
Percy reached for the skin, recognizing it as nectar from the smell as he dribbled a bit into Annabeth’s mouth. For him, it smelled of his mother’s kitchen in the evening, cinnamon and honey and nuts. “Here Anja,” he said, hoping it would remind her of home, “drink up.”
“No,” said Will, “only a little! The other is unicorn draught. She can drink all of it, if she wishes, as long as it is done slowly.”
He brought the other skin to her lips. “Careful,” he said, as some of it leaked out of the side of her mouth. Unicorn draught was potent, powerful--he himself had had much of the stuff during his stay with the Legion, and he knew firsthand just how effective it could be. “There we are, there we are, love.”
Nestled in Nico’s arms, their poor cat wailed, upset at her mistress’ distress.
“Nico,” Will ordered, “please pet that cat before she wakes every sea monster that Percy has not already raised with his storm.” Then he took a deep breath. “Annabeth, I am going to reach inside and try to reposition the baby. You can bite down on the stick. It will all be over soon.”
“Can you bite down for me, Anja,” Percy asked, putting the water skin aside and raising the stick to her mouth.
Eyes shining, she pulled together a smile, soft and full of pain. “ Jag skulle göra vad som helst för dig .” she whispered. Then she bit down.
He could still hear her scream around it. Several tears ran down her cheeks, and he wiped them away
After a few moments, Percy looked towards Will, who was now smiling.
“Good, Annabeth, very good,” said Will. “You're ready, you can start pushing now.”
“ Malaka ,” swore Nico, looking rather green. Dressed in a black doublet, surcoat, and breeches over black hose, in his arms resting their little white kitten, he made for a startlingly amusing picture, entirely out of place for such a fraught moment.
“It is alright, Anja,” Percy said. “It is nearly done.”
Weeping, red-faced, exhausted, she nodded, and began her most harrowing trial.
There was not much more he could do to ease her suffering at this point, but he supported her as best he could without a birthing chair, allowing her to brace herself against him as she cried out and made aborted movements. Then Will was announcing things: a head, shoulders, arms.
And then a cry pierced the room, cutting through Annabeth’s moans and the roar of the sea in Percy’s ear. Annabeth fell back against him, loose like a bow released from its string.
“Annabeth,” Will said breathlessly, a bright, broad smile on his face. He stood, holding something in his arms, and presented it to them. “You have a son!”
A son.
A son.
Percy had a son.
He took a closer look.
It-- he --was small, and round, blotchy white and purple and brown. Wrinkled and wet. Ugly.
He looked, all things considered, like a turnip pulled from the ground.
Reverently, Will placed him into Annabeth’s outstretched arms.
“Oh,” she cooed, breathless, “look at you.”
A son. He had not wanted a son. He had hoped, so hoped, for a daughter, a little Anja to be a reflection of her mother in all things.
The boy resting in Annabeth’s arms already had dark hair, and a mighty cry, calming when he came to rest on his mother’s chest. Then, for the first time ever, he opened his eyes.
His face was still purple and white and splotchy, yet when he looked up at Percy, his eyes were the color of the Bosphorus on a sunny day. Those were Percy’s eyes. That was Percy’s dark hair coating his small head, Percy’s nose reflected in miniature.
Yet there was something in his expression, mere moments old, passing judgement on his father. You wanted a daughter , it seemed to say, but I knew better .
Annabeth always knew better than him, and so, it seemed, did her son. Her beautiful perfect son.
His son.
He fell in love at that moment, meeting his son’s eyes, sea green to sea green. “Welcome,” he said, reaching out to run a finger along a round, splotchy cheek. “May all the gods' blessings be upon you.”
When he pulled back, Annabeth was watching him. “Are you alright?” she asked, hushed.
“I have never been better,” he promised, his voice thick with unshed emotion. “And you?”
“I…” She did not answer, her brow furrowed. Swallowing, she turned back to the baby in her arms.
“Here,” said Will, holding out a square of ambrosia, “take this, if you please.”
Nico hummed, looking out of the cabin door. “It appears as if the storm has broken.”
While Will did his best to make Annabeth comfortable as she took the baby to her breast, Percy cleaned up what mess he could, gathering the dirtied linens together. He would have to apologize to the captain for commandeering use of his quarters, and pay him back for the use of his bed.
“Do not fret over the captain’s things,” said Nico, somehow divining his thoughts, as he usually did. His black clothing was now covered in white fur, as Freya had made herself quite at home in his embrace, all distress forgotten, sleeping peacefully in the crook of his arms. “He is a good friend--I can certainly compensate him for a new set of linens.”
Percy shook his head. “That is very kind of you, but I can afford it.” If he were to have some control over their shared finances, then he would not begin by placing themselves in debt.
“I apologize for the interruption,” said Will, “but I need to give Annabeth another exam. Percy,” he grinned, and it was then he noticed that Will was holding the baby in his arms. “Would you like to hold your son?”
“Yes,” came tumbling out of his mouth. “Yes, I do.”
“So he is your son, then?” Nico asked. At least he had the decency to look bashful at the look Will shot him.
The good doctor placed the baby into his waiting hands.
He was so small.
He did not cry, being removed from his mother, but blinked up at him, sleepily, uncomprehendingly. Percy began noting so many little details--the thin, patchy eyebrows which would no doubt grow in with time, his pudgy fingers, curled into a little fist, his ears, an exact replica of his mother’s, the ones for which Percy had once considered composing sonnets. This was his son , made in their image, but also a little person in his own right.
Was this how his own father had felt, all those years ago, holding Percy in his arms?
“I think you will be just fine,” Will proclaimed, rising from Annabeth’s side. “I will go get you some food, but in the meantime, please, drink the rest of the unicorn draught. I shall return shortly. If there is any issue, do not hesitate to send for me at once.”
“But--”
“We can ask for their adventures later, Nico,” Will said, tossing his golden bag at the son of Hades. “Come, let us give them some privacy.”
Though, as they made to leave, Freya the cat extricated herself from his one-armed embrace, landing on the floor without a quiet thump , before leaping up on the captain’s desk, observing the whole scene from her perch.
Nico and Will shut the door quietly behind them, leaving only Percy, Annabeth, and their son.
Propped up against the pillows, Annabeth reached out her arms. “I wish to hold him again,” she said, quietly, still so exhausted. “Please.”
He acquiesced without hesitation.
Annabeth took him with a sweetly tired smile, bringing him to her chest. Immediately she returned her gaze to the baby, tenderly fingering a stray wisp of hair on the top of his head.
His breath caught in his throat.
Now he had a better understanding of why the trinity men worshipped a mother.
“What should we name him?” he asked, sitting beside her on the bed.
“I had thought we could call him Perseus,” she said, so taken with the little boy. “A first born son should be named after his father, should he not?”
He swallowed, his heart fit to burst. He deserved not this woman, nor their son, and yet the gods had seen fit to bless him with both. He could not, however, allow his son to labor under his curse. “I think not,” he said, with only a little regret. “I think very much not.” The first, great Perseus was only related to him by the most distant of circumstances. His own mother had given him the name of the only hero of antiquity who had earned a happier ending than his peers, dying old, in his bed, surrounded by his family, in order to pass some of that same luck onto Percy. He had never considered himself terribly lucky, until this very moment, but his life had been a long, hard one, and he did not want his son to share his fate. Percy did not deserve this family--not yet. When he did, then, perhaps, they could have a child which bore his name. Placing a hand on her shoulder, she turned her head to face him. “Let them say,” said Percy, quoting that old poet, “that he is greater, by far, than his father.”
Annabeth’s face fell, but she nodded.
“Alexandros, then,” she said, after a little silence. “Alexandros, for greatness.”
“Alexandros,” he breathed, looking at the child. Will had wrapped him in a bit of the linen Nico had brought with him, and he was, all told, barely bigger than a loaf of bread. “Alexandros is perfect.”
“Then be we agreed.” Annabeth said, pulling down her chemise, and helping the baby latch onto her nipple. Percy retrieved the unicorn draught from its place on the floor, opening the stopper, ready and waiting for her. “Alexandros Thalassinos.”
Beyond the cabin walls, the sea was calm, placid, the ship moving smoothly through the waters towards their final destination, the city on the lagoon. There were many, many things still to be done, money to be exchanged, property to be sought, connections to be forged. What good fortune, then, that they had happened upon Nico di Angelo--the man was surly and ill-tempered, but he had proved himself a good friend and a great ally on many occasions. With his assistance, they would be able to find what they sought in Venice, he was sure of it.
But that was all to be dealt with later. Now, there was Freya, who leapt from the captain’s desk onto the bed, curiously sniffing at the small thing which now occupied her favorite spot of her mistress’ embrace. Now, there was Annabeth, and Alexandros, sweaty and panting and in dire need of a bath.
Now, there was his family.
He wrapped an arm around his wife pressing another kiss to her curls.