Summary: Pure fluff of Patton helping Roman illustrate a children's book.
Prompt: Soft logan/pat/janus fluff for @Polarisbees from @tss-camp-and-coffee's Camp Cartoon event
Word Count : 1,197
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Patton groaned underneath the mound of stuffed animals on his bed. When he flopped face down on his mattress, he somehow ended up half buried from the sheer number of plushies that he owned. It gentle pressure would be nice, if he wasn't so mind numbingly bored.
Thomas was researching for a new video, so everyone must be too busy for Patton to interrupt them. He tried to fill his time productively (which involved Patton cleaning up dinner dishes, folding all of the laundry before depositing it into the appropriate room, and vacuuming all of the carpet in the house).
All those tasks seemed more boring than usual. Patton typically found them fun, but today they felt like the chores they were. To add to his reasons for being bored, anytime Patton had tried to talk to one of the others, they would quickly exit the conversation to help Thomas with something related to his video planning and research.
Everyone seemed to be busy except for him.
Patton contemplated falling asleep within his stuffed animal mountain, but after all was said and done, it was only 6pm. And after 30 minutes of failing to fall asleep that early, Patton resigned himself to his fate of slowly suffocating from the deadly combination of far too many plushies and abject boredom.
Thankfully, Patton wasn't allowed to stew in his boredom forever. Soon, Princy found himself equally as bored with the task's he had been assigned, and he had no qualms about interrupting others solitude. He may have also felt a little guilty for blowing Patton off earlier that day when Thomas tried to summon the creative side to ask for his opinion mid conversation. Roman swung Patton's door open with nary a knock, proclaiming, "Fret not, dearest padre! Your knight in shining armor hath arrived, and I have paint."
Patton lifted his head, dislodging a stuffed unicorn from its resting place so that it fell on the floor with a muted thump. "Huh?" Patton eloquently replied.
"You know how I've talked about creating a children's book? Thomas has finally given me permission to begin it! I have already written the majority of the script, but it will take some time for me to finish creating the final product alone. This book is going to be the most spectacularly special space story to ever be sold!"
Patton sat up and titled his head, holding a stuffed dog in his arms now. "That's great kiddo…? But um. Why did you bring paint into my room?"
Roman sheepishly rubbed the back of his neck. "Well… sorry for bursting in so suddenly, but I was just wondering… wouldyouliketohelpmemakeit?"
Patton squinted at Roman. "Help you make it?" Patton parroted, amusement glinting in his eye.
Roman grinned, slightly mischievous. "You did say that you like to paint, right?"
The fatherly figure knew what that look meant. If Patton accepted the offer, either trouble was going to be created or Patton would soon have a mountain of things to do. But Patton was just feeling bored, wasn't he? Its not like he had anything to lose.
Patton's internal debate lasted only a fraction of a second, and Patton broke his blank stare to nod in acceptance of the offer. "I hope you're fine with finger painting," Patton warned with a sheepish smile. Roman's face immediately lit up out of pure unfiltered joy.
And that's how Patton got roped into making artwork for Roman's children book.
Despite Roman claiming to have "finished the script" for the book, there was still much planning to be done. The story was set, but Roman and Patton discussed art styles, formatting, and colors.
Patton was worried about overstepping by shutting down one of Roman's ideas or offering a suggestion of his own, but Roman listened intently to all of Patton's input and constantly stopped to check for Patton's opinion if it seemed like the fatherly side was holding back.
Thomas finished researching for his upcoming video at 9pm. Logan promptly came into Patton's room after three short rapts on the door immediately. Logan proceeded to matter of factly complimented everything Roman and Patton had already planned (with citations), but mostly he was content to simply listen in. He didn't interrupt Patton's and Roman's brainstorming, but he did act as a tie breaker occasionally when the other two couldn't settle on an idea.
They traded concepts and ideas well until midnight, despite the fact that Roman already had a vague idea of what most of the illustrations would be.
When it was time to start actually painting the next morning, Patton was excited. He poured out the colors he would need on a pallet and immediately dove in. Thick paint squished underneath Patton's fingers. His hands became stained by layers of purple, blue, silver, and gold paint. His fingers glid smoothly across the canvas satisfyingly.
The colors were swirling together to create a breathtaking galaxy when Logan entered the room. "Do you need something?" Patton asked, pausing his painting.
Logan shook his head no before hesitantly asking, "Is it alright if I watch your creative process? This seems rather soothing for some reason."
Patton beamed up at the logical side. "Of course your welcome to stay!" Logan's shoulders relaxed , a tension that Patton didn't realize was there already disappearing. Patton continued adding colors to the nebula, once again engrossed in his task.
Patton occasionally paused before adding another smattering of silver stars. He'd dip his finger tips in silver before flicking his fingers out quickly, effectively flinging the paint was to create the illusion of stars.
Eventually, Patton paused his finger painting to examine the canvas. He was so proud of his work. Would he ruin it by adding the final part of the painting? Did Roman make a mistake by asking for his help?
Patton was broken from his worry when Janus set down a sandwich, cookies, and milk next to him. Janus turned to sneak out, but Patton grabbed his sleeve to send him a thankful smile.
"Thank you Janus!" Patton said cheerily, "What do you think so far?"
Janus' cheeks burned red, but he suavely responded, "It is the absolutely worst space scene I've ever seen. Stars? In space? How dreadful." Then he turned tail and fled the room. Patton giggled at the sight, knowing that Janus thought his painting was actually spectacular. Patton could hear Virgil's muffled voice telling Janus good job outside his room. There was some hard to make out teasing back and forth, but eventually the corridor fell silent once again.
Patton ate his delicious snack, ready to move on to the next step of the process. Using a small paint brush, he added a young boy sitting on a hill, gazing up at the night sky in wonder. Each of Patton's stroke rendered a boy that was inquisitive and oh so small compared to the colorful night sky above and the dark hill below. Patton carefully dotted each small star in the reflection of the boy's eyes.
Stepping back from his work, Patton gently smiled. Being the painter that Roman chose to help bring a children's book to life wasn't that bad after all.
warnings: unreliable narrator, physical & mental abuse, violence, dissociation, panic, remus-typical body horror, PTSD, painfully high number of dad jokes
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Everything was not fine.
Patton shook his head, trying to focus on the meat he was browning. That wasn’t true, not really. Here, everything was wonderful.
That was the problem.
One day turned to two, turned to a week, turned to two weeks. And Patton was still here.
In all that time, they hadn’t made a single mention of kicking him out, not even Umbra. They’d settled into a routine, displacing their usual lives to live in what had to be a secondary safehouse, and Patton had somehow been folded into that routine without any of them thinking twice.
He wasn’t the best cook, but he was good at what he knew, and he had the time and the energy to make meals where the others dragged themselves back from patrol looking near-ready to collapse. It was the least he could do for them, even if Dee insisted on buying the groceries.
When their schedules got really rough, Umbra in particular had been sustaining himself on pre-packaged snacks, coffee, and stress. Patton seemed to be slowly but surely working his way into the hero’s good graces through warm meals alone.
Remus was an inventor in the kitchen, and so excited to try bizarre combinations that it was contagious. Whenever a dish went sideways or Patton had an odd idea for a garnish or sauce, he found himself setting the trial portion in question aside for Remus to try.
Whenever Dee got the chance, he would appear in the kitchen to help him, chatting as they worked through preparing each dish, probably making sure Patton wasn't poisoning anything. He had mentioned several times that Patton ‘really didn’t have to do all this’, but Patton had noticed the way his shoulders had eased and his face lightened when everyone ate together.
He enjoyed the cooking process, too, introducing him to new recipes or better ways to prepare certain foods. Patton suspected that Dee would have been filling this role already if it weren’t for the fact that– no matter how many hands he had on hand– he simply didn’t have enough hours in the day.
After all, it was The Conductor who seemed to do most of the managing when it came to their chaotic crime-fighting trio, and even when they weren’t patrolling the streets or battling megalomaniacs, he could be found nose-deep in extensive legal documents or making phone calls to mysterious contacts and/or friends in high places. According to Remus, it was thanks to him that the three of them could use their abilities without being impeded by local law enforcement in the first place.
It was amazing, watching the way they put their all into being heroes, into helping people. Even someone like him. It was only natural that he’d want to return that kindness as much as he possibly could.
And so it went.
Every day, Patton did his best to make himself useful and make the three of them happy.
Every night, he tossed and turned under the force of horrible, gut-wrenching memories, fragments of a life he didn’t want to remember.
Every morning, the pit of guilt grew larger in his gut and he thought about telling Dee.
And yet, the words remained locked in his throat, all stoppered up by the idea that he’d tell them just as soon as he had to leave. The promise that he’d confess once he finally overstayed his welcome.
But he was still here. And the memories were getting worse.
They’d started out like that first dream. He still felt like himself, if a version of him that had been through an unending streak of bad days. The memories would start during little moments of solitude, walking the streets or curled up at home, finally feeling like he was half-settled in his skin. No matter how hard he tried, he could never remember his surroundings or read any of the street signs.
Then, the dream would shift to a punishment, like he was being reprimanded for those little moments of selfhood even in his subconscious mind. They varied in method and intensity, but none of them were as simple or painless as that first memory’s blow.
He learned that he could tell how old the memory was by his reaction to the worst punishment. In the old memories, the ones that were even hazier than normal and patchy at the edges, his memory-self would struggle and writhe and beg. It would take several other people to pin him down and force him into a kneel, their harsh hands leaving heavy imprints.
In the more recent memories, he didn’t fight. He folded to his knees and simply waited there, still and silent and unrestrained, for the blistering pain to white out his vision. His mind was mostly blank, but the reasoning still lay there under the surface: They went quicker that way. Only a single hand laid on him that way. Boss was happier that way. It was better.
Patton woke from those memories sobbing every time, trying to remind himself that it wasn’t real, that it wasn’t him, that he hadn’t given up hope. But he had, hadn’t he? If someone pressed along those fault lines, wouldn’t he do it again? Didn’t the memories prove that?
He hadn’t known it was possible to feel so betrayed by one’s past self.
Patton was jarred from his thoughts by a timer going off, and found himself stationed at a cutting board, halfway through dicing some chives. Hadn’t he been in the middle of something else before…?
Turning, he could see the ground beef sitting on the stovetop on low heat, already seasoned and ready to be scooped into taco shells. The smell of cumin and garlic powder was thick in the air, seemingly impossible to miss. He had no memory of even pulling the containers from the spice rack.
He’d lost time again. It was so easy to get caught up in his own head these days. Alarmingly so, when he didn’t know just what lay in the corners of his mind. There might be a supervillain in there somewhere. He was lucky that the episodes had been subtle so far, enough that he could just be dismissed as airheaded.
Something was wrong with him. Really wrong. He needed to tell the others.
The front door opened, and a chorus of three mismatched voices called out a greeting, toppling into the kitchen like sleep-deprived college students.
Umbra ducked past him with a grumbled ‘behind you’ and hauled both the first aid kit out from under the sink and four plates from the cabinet, Remus hopped up to sit on the bar with bloody lips and a cheshire grin that was missing a tooth, and Dee stripped off his outer armor to don his favorite apron (emblazoned with ‘No Bitchin’ in My Kitchen’, courtesy of Remus) before bustling over to the stovetop.
“Welcome home,” Patton told them, watching as they bickered and set the table and slowly but surely let the strain of a long night slide off their shoulders.
It was late. They were tired. He would tell them later.
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“Umbra, now!”
His lips twitched down into a muted scowl as a bubble of darkness descended on him, blocking out his view of the street around him. Surrounding him entirely in darkness, with only his own glowing form visible in the void.
Only a heartbeat later, there were multiple hands grabbing hold to his arms, legs, all of them attempting to pin him in place. For a moment, his mind grew confused, a memory of punishment– of darkness and gripping hands– overlapping with the present for just long enough to make him pause.
“Surrender,” The Conductor demanded, his voice strained with the power of maintaining his constructs. “Whatever it is you’re dealing with, we can get you help.”
Anger bubbled hot and bright in him. These false heroes were a plague, and they insisted on trying to infect him. Unforgivable.
The bubble of shadow constricted closer, heavier around him, but it didn’t matter. They couldn’t hide away in the darkness. He was the bringer of light.
His glow grew into a piercing shine, brighter and hotter until it was burning away the hands and evaporating the darkness. Cleansing the scourge from this city, as always.
The so-called heroes disengaged, more than familiar with his blast radius, but he wasn’t willing to let them go so easily. He would engage them here, keep them occupied and contain their impurities while Boss made changes in the city unhindered, working on a bigger scale than these meaningless skirmishes.
He didn’t like the heavy darkness. A small, distant part of him cowered away from it.
With an outstretched hand, he pulled back his light before it could finish its usual crackling halo and redirected the energy towards a new target, one darting between the shadows cast by his brightness. Between one shadow and the next– there.
“Umbra!”
The others’ warning only gave the hero enough time to turn his head. His eyes went wide and frantic, the terror on his face lit from below as the bolt of concentrated light struck true.
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Patton woke to a scream strangled in his throat and hot tears in his eyes.
A dream. Just a dream. … A memory?
No, that dream– it couldn’t have been a memory. It couldn’t have been. It hadn’t been like the others, where he felt like a real person, like himself, and only realized it was a dream when he woke up. This one was different.
He had watched from the eyes of– of Lightshow, fine, he could admit that much. But the shift of his gaze, the wave of his hand, the step of his feet? Patton hadn’t been able to control any of it. He’d been forced into the position of a silent spectator, trapped in place, forced to watch as his body moved and fought and burned.
It wasn’t a memory. Those weren’t his thoughts. It was just a nightmare, a normal run-of-the-mill nightmare, constructed by his mind as some twisted response to stress. He was feeling guilty over not telling them, and his brain had taken it too far, that was all.
It had to be just a nightmare.
Patton tried to calm his breathing, to lay back down, but Umbra’s expression at that last moment flickered into view every time he closed his eyes.
Eventually, he gave up, just like he had that first night, and climbed out of bed. On the nightstand, the clock’s digital numbers glared up at him; three AM. Maybe he could figure out something really fiddly and time-consuming to make for breakfast. Maybe Umbra would help!
To his surprise, when he rapped quietly on his door (to avoid ‘scaring the life out of’ Umbra the way he had that first night) and poked his head out, there was no hooded figure sitting next to his door, back against the wall.
Had the other two finally convinced him to stop keeping watch on Patton? Or…
A sudden jolt of foreboding ran down his spine, and he pulled the door open wider, looking up and down the hall. Nobody was there. Had something happened to him?
Patton hesitated; they’d never explicitly told him to stay in his room while they were sleeping, but it only made sense that they’d want a potential threat contained. If he started wandering around now, would they be upset with him?
A flicker of that memory flashed in his mind’s eye again, and it was enough for him to force his shoulders firm and cross the threshold. A potential punishment wasn’t important. Not when Umbra could be in danger.
He hurried down the hall, only registering the sound of lowered voices a beat after he’d burst into the common area.
Remus was laying on the couch, flat on his stomach with his face buried in his arms, and above him on the back of the couch–
“Umbra,” Patton said, unable to contain the relief that swept through him. It didn’t even matter if he was in trouble for breaking the rules. Umbra was here, he was alright, he was safe.
The hero in question blinked at him in surprise for a moment before frowning, more confused than upset. “Lightshow? What are you doing up?”
Remus popped his head up, craning it back at a painful-looking angle to grin at him. “Glowbug!”
Patton smiled back and drifted a few steps closer automatically before stopping short, remembering that he had yet to explain himself. He opened his mouth.
“You weren’t there.” … That wasn’t what he’d meant to say at all. That wasn’t an explanation, that was an accusation!
Before he could start panicking, Umbra raised his eyebrows questioningly, and then seemed to put it together. “Oh. Yeah, I left to help Remus. Figured you probably weren’t going to get up and murder us all on only two hours of sleep.”
“Unless…?” Remus drew the word out suggestively, and Umbra jabbed his heel into his back in retaliation. Neither of them seemed upset at him, not even a little.
Patton dared to step a little closer, shaking his head and showing them his empty hands as proof that he had no murder plans. Remus pouted, letting his head flop forward once more.
“Help with what?” he asked, watching the way Umbra was applying pressure to Remus’s back curiously.
Umbra stiffened a little, narrowing his eyes at him the same way he always did when he thought Patton overstepped in his questions (which was frequently), but Remus didn't hesitate to answer in his place.
“Power malfunction,” he said, his nasally voice muffled through the couch cushion he was talking against. “Couldn’t sleep, so Paramoan here is keeping me company.”
“I couldn’t sleep either,” Patton replied wryly. A power malfunction? “Are you… hurt?”
Both of them went oddly still, and Remus rolled over onto his side to shoot Patton an incredulous look.
“Wait, do you not know my power?” he asked. Patton flushed, embarrassed. “Holy shit, you don’t know my power!”
“Here we go,” Umbra said with an eyeroll, drawing his legs up and tucking them under him like a cat as Remus squirmed up into a sitting position. He was going to give a demonstration of his power. Patton felt dread begin to fill his lungs, making his breaths shallower.
“Behold,” Remus announced grandly, waving his arms and wiggling his fingers dramatically for a moment before slamming his hands together. He had his two hands fisted side-by-side, with a thumb poking out between his pointer and middle finger of his left hand.
… Wait a minute.
“Tada!” Remus crowed, pulling his fists apart to reveal that he’d ‘separated’ his thumb from his right hand. It was a classic grade school magic trick. Above him, Umbra was facepalming.
Patton muffled a chuckle, smiling good-naturedly. “Remus, I may not remember much, but I wasn’t born yesterday. I know that one.”
“Aw, damn. Well, here, for your troubles,” Remus said, and dropped the thumb into Patton’s hand.
The thumb. The single, unattached, warm thumb.
Patton looked up, eyes wide, and Remus waved at him gleefully. His right hand was conspicuously missing a digit.
The thumb in his hand wiggled.
A short, strangled shriek of terror escaped him. “Your thumb!”
“No, Patton. It’s your thumb now,” Remus told him solemnly, apparently completely unconcerned.
Patton skittered over to Remus with his hands cupped around the missing appendage, mind racing. Could a finger be reattached? Would it heal if they put the pieces back together!?
The others had jerked back at his approach, but Remus obligingly held still as Patton grabbed his injured hand and inspected the wound that would surely be gushing blood by now.
The wound that… wasn’t gushing blood at all, actually. Instead, there was a dark green patch where flesh and blood should have been, as though Remus’s insides were made of clay. When he looked down at the thumb in his other hand, the severed end of it looked the same.
“Superpowers,” Patton recalled out loud, and slumped over onto the couch as his utter panic faded. “I forgot about superpowers.”
Remus immediately started cackling at his expense, and even Umbra had his face turned away to hide amusement of his own. Abruptly, Patton realized that he was so exasperated that he’d forgotten to be scared. He hid a smile, waiting for Remus’s amusement to die down before holding his hand out.
“I’m sorry Remus, but I can’t accept this gift,” he said, offering the thumb back. “It’s too opposable.”
That had definitely been a snort from Umbra’s direction. Patton resisted the urge to fistpump.
“Ah, well,” Remus replied with a delighted grin, taking the thumb back and reattaching it to his hand with ease. “You win thumb, you lose thumb.”
Patton cracked up. “I can’t believe you!”
“Just be grateful he didn’t do ‘pull my finger’ instead,” Umbra told him, shaking his head, the beginnings of a smile on his face. “He pulled that one on me and I threw the finger at him.”
“So cruel!” Remus agreed enthusiastically. “I mean, on one hand, I was wounded. But on the other hand, I was fine.”
There was a beat of silence, and then Umbra grabbed the nearest throw pillow and attempted to smother Remus with it. The homicide attempt was accompanied by snorting laughter, though, so Patton thought it was probably fine.
He hoped so, anyways: he was too busy laughing himself to perform a rescue.
[No warnings that I know of, just pure fluff! Enjoy!]
There was one thing everyone knew about Patton. He couldn't deny it. He didn't even try.
His enthusiasm and happiness was contagious.
Whenever he laughed, the other sides couldn't help but smile (outwardly or inwardly, they all always felt more positive). He was just a very positive person. He enjoyed joking and playing about with the others and of course, he liked to sing.
Though as the others began to realise, it became more apparent that Patton only sang properly when the others did. (The uncomfortable singing was just that. He was trying to distract himself. Does not count.)
Virgil was the one who pointed it out to the other two.
"... do you two notice that Patton doesn't sing out loud unless someone sings first?"
Logan stopped typing and Roman stopped doodling. They all had been in common room (aka the mindscapes version of Thomas' living room) while Patton was away with Thomas (he'd seen a dog and did not want to miss out).
"I believe I hadn't fully noticed that. Now that you mention it Virgil, that does seem to be true." Said Logan. Roman nodded.
"Yeah. Pat always joins in with me but never starts by himself." Said Roman, frowning a little.
"I mean, he hums a lot but I've never heard him sing alone." Said Virgil, shrugging and unsure what to say. "I wonder why. I mean he's a lovely singer." Said Roman.
"Maybe it's different for him in some sense. Roman when do you sing?" Asked Logan. Roman raised an eyebrow.
"Most of the time it's when Disney is on my mind or something great happened especially if I created something excellent. So basically most of the time." Said Roman. Logan nodded, taking in the information. "Okay and why? Why do you sing?" He asked.
"Uh to express myself? Because it makes me happy? I'm relaxed? Lots of reasons. I just like to sing." Said Roman. "People don't just have a reason to sing. We sing because we can!"
Virgil rolled his eyes amused as Roman dramatically threw his arms out. Logan pushed up his glasses.
"Singing is a creative outlet. It's also an emotional one. I suppose you sing for your creative outlet. Patton likely only sings with his emotions are high." Theorized Logan. Virgil shook his head.
"L, we've all seen Patton with his emotions high. He was not singing during those times." Said Virgil. Logan furrowed his eyebrows. "Ah. Yes. You're right. Hmm I'll have to think this through some more." Said Logan.
"Maybe he just prefers to sing to himself? Or our singing is what spurs him on?" Suggested Roman. Virgil shrugged. "Maybe. Who knows."
"You won't believe how cute that dog was!"
Virgil flinched in surprise and they all saw Patton rise up into the common room. Roman chuckled. "Fluffy and adorable?" Inquired Roman. Patton squealed.
"Yes! How did you know?!"
Virgil chuckled as Patton gushed about the dog, thoughts of his singing pushed to the back of his mind.
~
"Roman have you seen-" Virgil was cut off by the loud music that hit him as he entered. He found Roman dancing about, singing at the top of his lungs.
"If you like it then you should've put a ring on it!~"
Virgil watched silently as Roman sang through the entire song (and dance the entire choreography which was… impressive). He grinned when it finished.
"Wow Roman I didn't know you knew the dance too."
Roman spun around, face bright red as he catches sight of Virgil.
"You tell no one." Said Roman, pointing at Virgil. Virgil snickered. "Alright. Alright. No promises though. I was just going to ask if you've seen Patton?" Said Virgil.
Roman relaxed and shook his head. "Nope. Maybe Logan has? Why don't we ask him? I was just about to go find Pat." Said Roman. Virgil shrugged. "Sure, let's go." Said Virgil.
They left Roman's room, heading for Logan's room until they bumped into him in the hall.
"Oh Virgil, Roman. Salutations. Do you two know where Patton is?" Asked Logan. Virgil and Roman looked at each other before looking back at Logan.
"We were just about to ask you the same thing Specs." Said Roman. Logan blinked in surprise. "Oh. Well that is not overly helpful I suppose. Have you checked his room? I was about to check." Asked Logan. Virgil shook his head.
"Nope. First place I looked. I suppose he might be in the common room?" Suggested Virgil. "Oh yes. He did mention about doing some "spring cleaning" as he put it." Said Logan.
"Well what are we waiting for?! Let's go find Patton!" Exclaimed Roman.
They all walked down and heard music. They all stopped and looked at each other before all of them peeked into the common room. It was nearing the end of the song and they could see Patton dancing about, broom in hand.
"I'm on sunshine baby oh! I'm walking on sunshine wooooah~! I'm walking on sunshine oooh! I'm walking on sunshine wooooaaaah! And don't it feel good!"
Patton's voice rang loudly in the room as he sang to his heart's content, bopping his head and spinning the broom. His hair was all messed up and his glasses were a little askew on his nose.
The three sides couldn't help the smiles on their faces. Soon another song started playing and Patton squealed, dropping the broom.
"Oh Mickey you're so fine, you're so fine, you blow my mind, Hey Mickey!"
Roman covered his mouth and the other two stared as Patton full on began to dance about, singing loudly. Patton pointed to random parts of the room, pretending he was singing to an audience as he danced.
"Oh Mickey, what a pity you don't understand! You take me by the heart when you take me by the hand!"
Patton had a large smile on his face, hands clasping over his chest as he shimmied about.
"Oh Mickey you're so pretty, can't you understand! It's guys like you Mickey! Oh what you do Mickey- Do Mickey! Don't break my heart Mickey!"
Patton danced as if he knew the moves off by heart. He spun around, expression happy and joyful.
"Hey Mickey- eeek!"
Patton squealed as he noticed all of them, the door having slowly opened fully as they had watched.
"How- How long have you been standing there!" Squealed Patton as he hurriedly tried to switch the radio off.
"Since near the end of the previous song. So I'd say around three or four minutes." Answered Logan. Patton blushed and rubbed the back of his neck. "So you all saw…" Mumbled Patton embarrassed.
"By great Odin's eyepatch! That was incredible Patton! Where did you learn to dance like that!?" Exclaimed Roman. Patton squeaked. "Uh thank you! And um no one? I made the dance up" Said Patton shyly. Roman gasped.
"You mean to say that those were your own moves!? Patton you've been holding out on us! On me!" Exclaimed Roman. Virgil shook his head amused.
"Why have you been holding back from singing alone in front of us Pat?" Asked Virgil. Patton smiled sheepishly and shrugged. "I dunno. I just get so emotionally into a song that I guess I was just… shy." Said Patton.
"Well you don't need to be with us! You're amazing!" Exclaimed Roman, running over and picking Patton up. He spun them around and Patton squealed. "Haha Roman!"
Logan quirked a small smile. "Roman is quite correct with his statement. There's no need to feel shy with us." Said Logan. Virgil nodded. Patton smiled as Roman put him down.
"Thanks you three. The same goes to all of you as well! We should all be honest and open with each other!" Said Patton. Virgil grinned and Roman paled at it.
"About that, you'll never believe that I saw Roman-"
"Virgil don't you dare-"
"-dancing the entire choreography to Single Ladies!"
Patton squealed as Roman turned red. "Roman! That's impressive!" Exclaimed Patton. "Thank you Patton…" Said Roman smiling. "Could you teach me?! We could dance together!" Asked Patton. Roman grinned. "That's a great idea! I'd love to!" Exclaimed Roman.
Patton had a lot of feelings. So far, so obvious, he knew, but he felt like it needed to be said. He had a lot of feelings, and often didn’t know what to do with them. He’d make little drawings or cards for the others around the holidays, be a mother hen if they were sick, the works. But in between those times, he often felt a little lost for how to express the overwhelming emotion he got from watching the others be themselves.
Roman was probably the easiest person to subtly share his love with. Patton was always ready for a dramatic duet, or a Disney movie, or even just a moment where the two of them were doing two separate things on the same couch.
One day particularly stood out in Patton’s mind, where Roman came to him, red in the face and panting, saying, “I-don’t-know-what-you’ve-done-yet-but-you-gave-me-an-amazing-idea-thank-you.” He hugged Patton tightly and then ran off somewhere, if Patton had to hazard a guess it was to tell Thomas about what he had come up with.
The thing was, Patton had been joking around the night before with Roman, just spit-balling ridiculous story ideas, the last of which had Roman in stitches. Apparently a puppy pirate was too cute an idea for Roman to pass up on talking about, and the longer they talked about it the more Roman was laughing and nodding. He had wound up half asleep on the couch in the common room, muttering to himself. Patton had just helped him into bed and tucked him in, Roman continuing to mutter until he was fully asleep.
Patton had beamed with pride all afternoon once Roman had hugged him, and whenever anyone asked him why, he just shrugged and said, “Guess I’m glad I got to help someone.”
Virgil wasn’t as easy to demonstrate affection to as Roman was, granted, because he was constantly suspecting Patton was making it up. But eventually, he seemed to warm up to the idea of Patton hanging around him every once in a while, not because Patton didn’t have anything better to do but because it was just something he wanted to happen.
Patton startled Virgil one day while he was scrawling madly in a notebook just by walking up to him and clearing his throat, and Patton immediately backpedaled. “Sorry, Virge, I didn’t realize that you were so absorbed in writing.”
“Not a big deal,” Virgil muttered. “What’s up?”
“I saw you were working hard and I just thought I’d bring you over something to drink and something to eat,” Patton said, putting down a plate of a peanut butter sandwich with cheddar and sour cream chips on the side, and a glass of Sprite. “The Sprite’s been out of the refrigerator a while so it should be about room temperature the way you like it, the sandwich is plain peanut butter, no surprises, and the chips are still sealed in the bag so you know I couldn’t have done anything to them.”
Virgil looked down at the lunch in surprise and then up at Patton. “I...don’t know what to say. This is...exactly the way I like my lunch. Thanks.”
Patton smiled and bounced on his toes. “Any way that I can help, kiddo!” he said, moving off to the next thing he had set out to do that day.
Logan, out of all of them, had to be the hardest to express affection to. Not because Patton didn’t like him, far from it! They just had vastly different ways of interpreting the world and as such often didn’t see eye-to-eye on what was affectionate and what wasn’t.
Still, Patton made the effort. Though he didn’t understand why it was so important, he kept all of Logan’s things tidy if they were out in the open and someone had moved them to do their own thing. He put bookmarks in places where Logan had been reading books if he absolutely had to close them, because he knew Logan hated dog-eared pages. When Logan wanted to explain something he found interesting, Patton always sat down with him and listened to what Logan had to say.
Logan actually felt a lot of emotion. Patton had discovered this through whenever Logan got excited about something he was learning. He just felt it differently than the others did, and that was something Patton could work with, even if it was hard sometimes.
One day, Roman and Virgil were in the living room, about to play a Mario Kart tourney to end all Mario Kart tourneys, and Patton spotted Logan’s work on the table in front of them. “Guys, wait!” he exclaimed. “Logan’s stuff is all over the table, it’ll go everywhere if we don’t secure it somehow first!”
Roman and Virgil looked at each other in realization before turning to Patton. “That wouldn’t be good,” Roman muttered. Then he asked Patton, “How do we...uh...‘secure’ it?”
“Well, we could move it to the kitchen,” Patton offered. “I know which books he’ll want on top and what papers should go where. If I tell you, do you promise to follow my directions exactly and help out? Because I know the exact way Logan likes his stuff to be placed.”
Roman and Virgil nodded and together the three safely removed Logan’s work from the table and transferred it to the kitchen. Patton didn’t miss the way Logan relaxed later that afternoon when he saw all his work was in order and not messed up from Roman and Virgil’s heated debate about who truly won the tourney because each accused the other of cheating on several courses. Patton also didn’t miss the small nod and smile Logan gave him when he looked up from his work later, letting him know he knew just who had orchestrated the move.
Patton sometimes found it hard to express how he felt to the other sides. But that didn’t mean that they all didn’t know how he felt.
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Warnings: Angst(?), belittling
Be Yourself
Patton hated what he had done to himself sometimes. Sometimes he enjoyed feeling a little less responsible in the videos all the time, true, but he hated the fact that now all the others spoke to him like he was an idiot.
When the videos started out, he felt all too stiff. He was only showing his most responsible side, with only a few moments of how he truly felt shining through. He hated that he felt like he couldn’t be himself, so he decided to relax a little bit in the next video.
But when he did that, Logan treated him like he was a complete idiot who couldn’t see the big picture, which wasn’t true at all. Patton still could see the big picture fine. He could tell the difference between right and wrong, and he knew Thomas’ limits. He had a penchant for exaggerating everything he did though, when he was himself. And that fact about him, which at first would make him smile, because it made others laugh, was now the very thing he hated most about himself. Inside the videos and out, he was treated like a complete moron.
At first it wasn’t this bad. Logan and Roman still asked for his input outside of videos, because they remembered he could be serious when he needed to be, he just didn’t always need to be. But time went on, weeks passed, and it was like Logan had forgotten Patton knew things about morality and adulthood, even if his words got jumbled or details were switched around. Roman still saw him as a father figure of sorts, but as the goofy dad who had little use beyond comedic relief.
Virgil, to his credit, never forgot what Patton was truly like, and when everything got bad, Patton knew he could always turn to Virgil. Even if in the videos Virgil played along with the others, he never did it to the point where it hurt Patton. And when the video was over, Patton could sink out to the common room and Virgil could join him and together they could talk about what Patton really wanted to say, what he regretted not bringing up, and what the others did this time that made his skin crawl.
Patton didn’t wish he had stayed as stiff as he was in the first few videos, but sometimes, he wished he hadn’t been so eager to be himself.
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