Every bit of Sanders Sides canon or fan content makes me miss everyone again… And miss the show. I love all my fellow sides. I’d love to talk to any of them! I rarely shift to Patton anymore, but I definitely get them.
Honestly… I think part of the reason I haven’t watched it in a bit it is cause I don’t WANT a Patton shift.
Sometimes they improve my mood, which is really great!!! But not always. I know it’s not my fault if I’m feeling depressed or pessimistic, and I’d never say this about someone else, but sometimes, it does make me feel like a bit of a failure. I know, I know, “how many times do we have to teach you this lesson, old man?” Lmao, I know it’s okay to feel unhappy. But to be honest, it’s been a long time since I felt even a little bit happy. I’m not just sad sometimes, I’m an overall negative person. I feel bad about that already. Comparing myself to my canon self makes it feel even worse.
I’m sure I’ll be fine again sometime. I don’t know when, but I’m sure it’ll happen. Maybe watching my favorite episodes will cheer me up. I hope it does…
I hope all the others are doing better than I am, lol. Everyone’s going through something, though. I just hope you’re all okay. Please be nicer to yourself then I am to myself, hahah.