Dear Diary,
I am sad and happy tonight.
I thought I am one step closer to my dream, to be an offcial housemate on PBB, but it did not happen. I did not receive any messages from the network. I know I did my best to be one, but nothing happened. This was my second time trying to be a housemate, I really wanted to be one because I know I can be a better version of myself if I become one of the housemates.
I am sad, because I believe in my heart that I will be one of the housemate this season, I claimed it and I do believe on my audition clip and on my streaming while I'm in Bulacan. But nothing happened, the show started already and I am here in nowhere. I'm still nothing and still far from my dream.
I am sad, yes. But I am also happy because I know I can still move forward. At least I tried and I did something to pursue my dream, even though I was rejected and was not seen. I know there is something for me, it might not be now maybe next time. I am happy because I prove to myself that I can do something and I am brave enough to showcase my dream. I am glad and proud to myself because I was able to accept who I am.
Even I am not victorious to be one of the housemates, or was given a chance to be on 100 aspiring housemates on Kumu. I am still grateful.
🥲
