Spokeisheres steps to making up for your past actions and mistakes:
Step 1. Gifts, everyone loves gifts. If you give enough you’ll make up for it and her death that you caused won’t hang over your head anymore. Her family will forget about the girl you made them bury if they are so unbelievably rich and free to build and have fun every single day!
Step 2. Cheat. Steal. Kill. Who cares! It’s all for your good, you are as greedy as they come
Step 3. Lie. Lie like it’s all you know, lie like it is the only thing that matters because it is, they trust your word so you trust your word. You can build an empire out of lies, you can build cities and whole other personalities! But in the end the best lie you can tell yourself is that this is all for the good, you are good.
Step 4. ????
Step 5. You never learned how to grieve. You replace what you loose. So keep replacing. Loose your pet? Good thing there’s tons of fish in the sea! Loose your purpose? Well there’s always a cause you can join! Loose your morals? It wasn’t like you had those to begin with.
Step 6. Don’t let anyone see what you have done, they don’t know you have to keep it that way. They don’t know, they don’t know what you are; they don’t know what you are.
Step 7: if enough blood covers you then eventually the blood she left on your hands will be replaced. But it will not be washed away. The mafia is there, it is under your skin, it will not go away. She knows what you did, she knows why you did it. This blood will never leave you, as it is in your veins now. It is a part of you. You will never outrun what you are.
Step 8: #foundfamily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!1!1!1!1!!!1!1!1!11!1!1!!
Step 9: accept that she will never forgive you. Because that’s who’s redemption your searching for, or maybe it’s the friend that you will never see again, that left because of your own stupid actions, just like she died because of your stupid actions. They start to blur together don’t they?
