#peixesofme

[comesailawway]

I KNOW IT'S BULLS)(IT!!! But I didn't want to just suddenly pop up out of t)(e blue and act like everyt)(ing was ok because look at t)(e fat lot of good it did for -EIT)(-ER of us.

there are twwenty different wways you could havve approached the situationdont act like that wwas your only option fef because it wwasnt 

[comesailawway]

O)(, you mean w)(y I wasn't on my blog. Well... I was, actually. I just wasn't posting. I just wanted to c)(eck up on you and make sure you were ok, but t)(en I saw t)(at you )(ad all t)(ese ot)(er friends and I guess I just t)(oug)(t t)(at maybe you didn't need me around, so I wasn't.

thats bullshit

[comesailawway]

You never bot)(ered to try to talk to me or visit or anyt)(ing, can you BLAM-E me for t)(inking you didn't care? It's not like I moved! I'm still in t)(e same place as before. Same coordinates and everyt)(ing.

wwevve already gone ovver this

[comesailawway]

I would )(ave told you! I just didn't t)(ink you really... cared. Anymore.

howw the fuck did you think that

shit

fef howw the fuck did you get it in your pan that i didnt care anymore

[comesailawway]

It's better t)(an not)(ing.

yeah

next time you wwant to fuck off just fuckin

let me knoww ok i wwont take it personal or anythin ill understand

i just wwant to knoww wwhats happenin

or somethin

[comesailawway]

Does t)(at mean you're not mad at me anymore and we can be friends again?

slowwly

[comesailawway]

> Eridan: Receive message from Feferi.

"I know you probably don't want anything at all to do with me and I really shouldn't be trying to write out all my feelings at you for multiple reasons, the most pertinent of those being that I'm not your moirail anymore and I haven't slept in almost a week, but I have to at least try or I'll never be able to keep living under any sort of guise of normalcy and I really, really don't care if you don't listen or you don't respond or you just don't care about me anymore, but I need to do this.

"What I shouldn't have done was make it your fault, because it's not.

"It's mine.

"It's always been mine.

"Everything that happened with the Horrorterrors and your gills getting messed up was my fault because I didn't make it to you on time and then I more or less cut you out of my life because I couldn't bear to be around you knowing that what happened was my fault, and you can say it's not my fault all you want but it's not going to change my mind.

"I really do want to be your friend again and I really, really, really do want you to talk to me, but I don't want to force you to do something you obviously don't want to do, which is why I haven't made an effort to talk to you since we had that stupid fight. And it was stupid, it was so stupid and you were right and I shouldn't have said anything, I should have just taken it and moved on, and maybe if I had we wouldn't be in this situation. But I didn't, and I just HAD to fight back, and now I'm sitting here alone in a big stupid empty house with no one to talk to, dead tired, and trying to tell you all of these stupid feelings I have but it's coming off so retarded and you probably will not even read this.

"Honestly, I don't feel any better saying any of this. But I do really believe I had to say it.

"So, um.

"There you have it. Take it for what it is or don't take it at all. I'm a smart girl and I can figure out the decision you make by your reply. Or lack of one.

"If this is a goodbye, then goodbye, Eridan. I'll miss you.

"If it's not, the transportalizer is plugged in and turned on if you ever want to come visit."

----- It takes you a couple of minutes to really read the message thoroughly. Afterwards, you stop. You hold your face in your hands for a moment, rubbing around your eyes in an attempt to will yourself into keeping calm.

You're not even entirely sure of the emotions you're feeling. They're too tangled up in each other; writhing and pulsing in a way that makes you ache.

You still don't even know what you're going to say to her, or how to say it. When you finally do reply, you do so with your eyes closed; as if doing so will trick yourself into writing it more easily.

It doesn't work.

[comesailawway]

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wwhat the evverlovvin FUCK FEF