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Now, first of all, I would like to compliment the song, “Forgiveness” that was sung by Matthew West. I love the tune and how the lyrics was through the heart, or if I may describe it in my native language, dulot sa heart (salamat google translate, I don’t even know if that was the right translation for it but still, you’ve tried your best [pats google translate’s back]). It was very heartfelt and it made me reflect on how I sometimes hold a grudge against someone before but luckily now, I’ve learned to let go of it for I want to have a peace of mind. Although, I admit, there are still some things that I find it hard to let go because what that person did to me cost me my mental health. Yes, I want my peace of mind but it is still not easy to forgive someone who you thought that can be trusted but turns out they’re the opposite.
Anyway, let me make chika na naman of how my day went. I woke up at 8:00 A.M and had my breakfast while waiting for our class. However, Ma’am Tadena informed us in our google classroom that we’ll be having asynchronous class today and she’ll be posting a recorded session for today’s class. So while waiting, I decided to wash my clothes and help my mom and my sister in our daily household chores. And then later on, I went to the pharmacy to buy her medicine since it was out of stock and then when I went home, I continued on with my laundry. I finished washing the laundry at around 6:00 P.M because the current of the water was very slow so it took me a while to finish the laundry. I took a bath and after it, I took a nap and told my sister to wake me up at 10:00 P.M (lol is that even a nap) because I still have to do my journal. Atleast, I did something productive today unlike the other days. : )
Today’s lesson was very informative. It reminds me of our philosophy class way back in 11th grade because one of our topics was holism. Anyhow, have you ever met a person who seems to be so complex that it is difficult to fully understand him or her? What makes this person a complex character? That was the question that Ma’am Tadena asked us before starting the class. The first person who comes into mind is myself. Yes, myself. I couldn’t think of anyone else but myself because honestly, I still do not fully understand myself. I think I’m still in the process where I’m still trying to know who I am and what I want.
Siguro, the thing that makes my character to be complex is the experiences and lessons as I reflect every night on everything and how I try hard to apply it in the present. I even go back to my past mistakes because I do not want to do it again in the present. However, there are still some instances where my actions or emotions overcome my rational mind and instead of thinking before doing something, I do something before I think and that is very sad and toxic for myself. Now that I realized how I often do that before, my coping mechanism in order for me to avoid doing that is isolating myself (especially in social media) and finding things to read instead. And I find it therapeutic because I discovered that having an alone time by yourself is very stress and drama free.
So that’s it for tonight folks, good night! : ) < 3
