I have been in an angst reading mood and its bled into my writing, making it difficult to write the fluff needed for the parts of Attendant 3 i'm working on... so I pulled up some notes on “I want to feel your wreckage” three part series (inspired by "Periscope" - Papa Roach) that has been sitting on my flashdrive since may 2022. I might work on this alongside it... idk
Here are some notes:
Theo and Liam circle the drain that is their non-existent love lives, drawn together by the push and pull of unspoken feelings. Theo is hesitant to try, after all he's done, and all he has now gained through hard work with the pack, and his friendship with Liam- the angry little beta who takes up residence in Theo's stolen heart, who, if Theo thought he had any right he would love with every breath remaining in his body. But Liam is made for so much more than what Theo can offer, and even though he can see the spark of something when Liam looks at him too long, too intensely, Theo knows he can never allow it to happen. Liam is the warm rays of summer sunshine, the kind that heats your skin at first touch and keeps you comfortable and happy. Theo is the bitter sharp howling winds in a winter storm that pelts you with sleet and freezing rain, numbing you entirely and reminding you to seek shelter. No matter how much magnetism is pulling them close, Theo will not let Liam touch the dumpster fire that is his life.
And from the third part:
(1 ½ years ago)
"Who is your friend?" Cora asks while kneeling down to ruffle the fluffy neck fur of the tawny-brown coated wolf. She incorrectly assumes he is not a shifter after he does not return human when Derek did. She presses a kiss between the wolf's eyes and smiles as its long tongue lolls out and it shuffles close to nudge her with its wet snout. "He's gorgeous."
Derek snorts as he pulls on a pair of sweats, "that is Liam. He is also Scott's first bitten." Cora stops petting to stare incredulously at her brother as if the idea was insane. "Scott bit someone?" Her gaze then darts back to the wolf who pushes against her with a soft growl, clearly awaiting more petting. With a critical eye, Cora obliges and gives its flank long strokes. When the wolf wags its tail and leans in more she cracks a tiny smile. "If this- if Liam- can shift, then why is he still a wolf? Is he stuck or something?"
so from posting that snippet earlier it got my brain going. I now at least have an ending to 'i want to feel your wreckage' series idea. Noted a bunch at work too.
I'm really not made for tunneling a single idea at once, I think. Brain can't focus 😞 it's why I have so many WIPs. Oh well.
