THE PRESENT MOMENT!
Right now I am not stuck nor confused i feel a sense of serenity. for everything at this moment is calm. I will describe as best i can. I had a strange feeling all day and i had felt it lingering for the last few weeks and did’t quite know what to make of it, it wasn’t until i contemplated my own emotions and went to the deepest parts of my brain that i could uncover what it was. it was everything that I am and everything that i will be. it was my future my past and my present self all communicating with one another and on top of that it was the entity within each version communicating also, to sum up everything i am is complex and unless you truly know me you may find it difficult scratch that even if you truly know me you may still find it difficult. i do not expect people to believe the words i am saying, i guess know-one truly can unless they experience it for themselves. all day we were interacting with one another and i could not shut them out like i usually do on a daily basis and i found myself getting frustrated as i couldn’t focus on the task at hand, it wasn’t until i came home and gave myself 26 minutes of meditation to realign myself, that i could feel normal and present once more.I have wrote before in a journal of mine that it is a daily struggle to keep my inner-god contained, this also reigns true with my other selves. i truly believe that each day we can present our worst self or our best self even if our days are going smoothly. I have done a lot of growing in my young life and the more i grow the more i discover about my past self, perhaps it is because i enjoy looking at how far i have come and the intrigue with how far i am still yet to go. my mind is some days a playground filled with fun and other days a jungle filled with deadly animals, the fact that i can foresee this level of intensity is how I manage to have the peaceful beach where i go to relax and everything can once again take shape. i know many wise people in my life but i think if they each knew the realist version of myself they to could walk away with a new found piece of knowledge. to some it may sound like i am rambling nonsense, but everything i am writing makes perfect sense to me. i just wish i could simplify everything so humanity could grasp the important things more clearly.
