#personal cactus

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lou wilson is such a great actor/comedian in general, and one of the (MANY) things that make him great on dimension 20 is how hugely empathetic he is, and how obvious it is from his reactions

other players will be having exciting/tense/emotional moments, and it’s just as fun in those moments to watch lou’s reactions as it is to watch theirs

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right now my stand-out favourites for eurovision this year are Moldova’s Zdob și Zdub and Frații Advahov, Albania’s Ronela Hajati and Serbia’s Konstrakta.

i also really like Lithuania’s Monika Liu, Sweden’s Cornelia Jakobs, and San Marino’s Achille Lauro.

as well: - i think both Cyprus’ Andromache and Iceland’s Systur have really pretty songs - i love the emphasis on the dancers in the performance of Romania’s WRS, apparently he himself is a dancer, so it makes sense that the dance in his performance feels just as featured as the song (instead of just being the background) - i have a big soft spot for Austria’s LUM!X and Pia Maria (they just want to make a party!) - Ukraine’s Kalush Orchestra give such a vibrant performance - Norway’s Subwoolfer are meme legends 😂 and the song is very fun too - from the big five i of course enjoy Italy’s Mahmood and Blanco, but I also surprisingly find myself liking UK’s Sam Ryder, and I appreciate how meaningful it is that France’s Alvan and Ahez are performing in Breton

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if you saw me liking way too many scooby doo posts, i can explain,,,

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btw in case anyone is curious, ukraine and albania are tied for #1 for me

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i have reached the point in the juno steel relisten where i have now listened to “the monster’s reflection” again.

(ramble about all my feelings for this episode below the cut)

this is (i think) my third time listening to “the monster’s reflection”, and i always remember that it makes me cry, but still, the memory doesn’t really do justice to just how much it makes me FEEL. and especially part 3, every time, i’m sobbing.

you just think about how all three of them - juno, benzaiten, sarah - each deserved so much better. they all deserved so much better from the world, from jack, from each other. and the episodes do such a good job of painting the picture for you (which of course is the point), not just of how they deserved better, but of how it all went wrong, of just exactly how all the things that shouldn’t have happened to them, happened, one after another, trickling into each other. and you can’t know exactly what would have happened if things hadn’t gone wrong, but it’s so easy to imagine, and that idea of what “could have been” fills the picture in even more, drawing the shadow beneath what “did happen anyway”. juno, benzaiten, and sarah steel all deserved so much better than they got.

obviously i’m really simplifying the episodes’ story/message here, (i’m not super eloquent and doing a proper analysis is beyond the scope of my abilities), but these three episodes are so masterfully crafted. “the monster’s reflection” is my favourite set of juno steel episodes for a reason, and that reason is that it is some of the best storytelling i have ever heard in my life.

i think, for as long as i live, i will never forget about “the monster’s reflection”, and i think no matter how many more times i listen to it, it will always hit me just as strongly as it did the first time i ever heard it.

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i recently found a new album that perfectly scratches my itch for PUP (the band)

the album is called “i thought you didn’t even like leaving”, by prince daddy & the hyena

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listening to pup’s album “the dream is over” is something that can actually be so personal