#personal crap

[weedle-testaburger]

brb tearing up rn

[weedle-2-staburger]

entirely reasonable reaction to happosai

[fanfic-inator795]

Man, I’m not Jewish (or religious in general, really), but as someone with complicated feelings about my mom, “Long Story Short” on Netflix is VERY relatable and definitely hits.

Please give it a watch, it’s by the creator of BoJack Horseman, so it can get fairly heavy, but thankfully it’s not nearly as depressing as that show can be - but it still has plenty of genuine emotion and really great storytelling (love all the little details and callbacks throughout the season) plus plenty of really good jokes and well written dialogue.

[slithergaunt]

When I match with you on a dating app, and I begin our interaction by telling you up-front that I'm VERY awkward and inexperienced...

Please, for the love of GOD, don't be surprised when I slip up and say something AWKWARD AND INEXPERIENCED.

I'm sick of people comforting me at first

"Don't worry lol I'm awkward and inexperienced too lol"

and then being SHOCKED and CONDESCENDING when I reveal my aforementioned nature as an awkward and inexperienced fool.

And please, PLEASE for the love of GOD, don't honestly recommend that watching more FUCKING ROM-COMS will teach me new helpful things about dating.

You cannot, CANNOT be fucking serious.

[evgenmalkin]

daesanghyeok -> evgenmalkin

new url, new icon, same old me.

icon credit: @vietnamgp

[greypetrel]

Me: Ok, I got *some* more free time, I can sketch some things of my own. Let's make it something simple-

Also me: *suddenly has the idea for a tarot card that's been eluding her for years*

[nathnnie]

Yo, heads up!

Inugami is the REALEST golden retriever boyfriend and we all need to agree.

...Yeah that's all I want to say.

Oh, yeah and he will trample you with a hug.

[echoechowhiskey]

Hey y'all, I have been M.I.A and I hates it, but I wanted to pop up real quick just to say I see all your lovely WIPS and tags and works, the continued inclusion means the world, and I am getting back on the train slowly but surely and am very grateful for y'all thinking of me and that I have about a billion amazing works to read through.

I tend to be a blatant oversharer and I'm not gonna do that here, but I do wanna explain and in short my fucked up life has culminated in an inability to feel shit enough to actually write or create anything substantial myself (I can't FEEL anything I write, and it stops me from seeing the scene at all). My therapist explained it to me, as I have been flaying myself over it and struggling really hard with the need to create and the absolute wall I have internally about doing it, that it isnt that I've lost my ability to create, but I've blocked it out. She says you can't push away the bad emotions without pushing away the good. I essentially have gone numb in my effort to survive, and even tho I'm now safe those emotions are still turned off.

I want to write. But I just can't right now. I jumped in a bit to early in my eagerness to be okay and live again, but I'm now turning that want into stress and its impacting me badly.

Especially when you add in the fact that my brain struggles to write fic and read others fics simultaneously anyway it just adds another layer of stress, cause I REALLY wanna just read some fic...

So I'm gonna stop for a bit. I wont stop developing my ladies and their stories, those daydreams still get me through and I love them, but I'm gonna allow myself to wait on trying to write any actual fic. Which is disappointing for me, but until I figure out where the on switch is I think it's best.

Anywho if you read this far thank you, if you feel this way I see you and we got this, and if you are one of the lovely people who tag and follow my stuff you're support means the whole world to me and I hope you know that, I promise I am working on my tags and eeking out time to read your stories and give them the attention they deserve ❤️