#personal irrelevant stuff

[carpebucky]

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!

thank you everyone for your kind and encouraging words ♥

my first grown up adult job wow im still processing it even tho i’ve gotten a tour and talked about potential placements. I’m so relieved

i start in the fall which means i can finally relax and enjoy my (maybe) last summer break ever

[carpebucky]

tomorrow is my last day of classes!!! FOREVER!!!!!!

and i graduate next saturday with a freakin M.S. lmao how did this happen

[carpebucky]

yesterday I was looking for the exit in our clinic building and I accidentally barged into one of my professor's office cuz I wasn't paying attention. And she seemed as shocked as I was but I ended up introducing myself and talking to her for a bit and ended up on a personalized tour of the campus with her as my guide bc she wanted to show me where all the cool hidden spots to be alone were

[carpebucky]

!!!!!!!!!

so i got an email from my top grad school i applied to and they want to have an interview with me on monday! Im super excited and not that nervous tbh but i really want to get in this school so if you could keep me in your thoughts and prayers id really appreciate it ❤️

[carpebucky]

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over the weekend J had a panic attack while he was rock climbing and i was belying him and had to get him down bc he was freaking out a bit.

and i know he’s had them before but it’s the first time in my life that i experienced someone having one. it only lasted for a few minutes and i think i did a good job helping him but i keep thinking about it and how when it was happening i had no idea if i was helping him or not or what i couldve done and now i cant stop thinking about it and im just sad he has to go through things like that :(

[carpebucky]

yknow, as much as i want to be super happy for J going off and hanging out with his friends and making plans with them to go climbing and camping

it’s still really hard not to be jealous and sad that im not going too (◡︵◡)

[carpebucky]

ive now done 2 clinic therapy sessions and i was so scared at first but i think im doing okay!!!!!? i still have no idea what im doing but does the 3 year old know that? no.

so i’ll just keep pretending that playing all these games is doing something

[carpebucky]

this is about J sorry

so i went back to SD for the long weekend and it was so great, i know it was only 2 weeks away but i was so happy to be back with J and he was so happy to be with me :’‘‘) but we had sucha productive weekend, we went to go see onerepublic last friday and then shopping on saturday (bc J always needs more clothes imo lmao) then we went out to dinner on sunday and then monday we went rock climbing and had a labor day bbq with his fam

but he gave me a surprise care package for me to open when i got back to my house. and it was a bunch of snacks and chocolates and a succulent (bc he thinks my room looks too lifeless pfft) and a super sappy card that made me cry AND a picture frame with a cute picture of the two of us along with 10 other photos that he actually went to office depot to go develop (if that’s not love idk what is) and later when i snapchatted him all of it, he said he couldnt choose just one photo so he developed a whole bunch of them and then i cried some more

i hate that he makes me cry so much he’s just honestly the best guy i’ve ever met and i love him so incredibly much :’‘‘‘‘‘‘‘‘‘))))))))