#personal ramble

[universal-casey]

Something that always annoys me is people who get all up in arms about an LGBTQ event (whether that’s graduation celebrations, a parade, a festival, a fucking potluck) and bitch and moan about how “they can’t have this because it doesn’t include ME”. Or god forbid it’s an event held in a university or library. Then they cry about “my tax dollars are paying for this!!”

Your tax dollars pay for bombs. For wars. For ripping families apart. For murder. For letting evil people run free solely because they have six zeroes in their bank account. And yet you draw the line at… gay and trans people existing in a space. (Not to mention the event that brought this thought to mind wasn’t even paid by taxes or university money. It was privately sponsored.)

Then the complaining about “excluding straight/white/american/christian/etc etc”. You are welcome to attend. No one will turn you down because you fall into one of, some of, or all of those categories. A birthday celebration about a person is not EXCLUDING you because you’re not the birthday person. You are not a toddler. You should understand not everything is about you.

“Oh but what if I had a CHRISTIAN graduation celebration. Bet you’d be mad then, LIBERAL.” I literally don’t care. Fucking churches do that shit all the damn time. Why SHOULD I care? It’s your life. Your prerogative. I might not attend, because I don’t usually care to be preached at while I’m trying to stuff my face full of crackers and easy cheese, but I’m not going to stop you. And I’m definitely not going to bitch and moan about how Christians are “excluding me” from the celebration because it didn’t specifically state “this is a celebration for CHRISTIANS AND BISEXUAL WOMEN WITH ADHD”.

If it HAD been a Christian event, no one would have said a word. I wouldn’t have to see fucking articles on it. I wouldn’t have to hear “we shouldn’t celebrate degeneracy.” It would just be another fucking Tuesday.

Let people live their damn lives and celebrate what they want to celebrate.

[domestically-loving-monsters]

Finally watched the Superman movie and can I just say -

I've only had Krypto for one day and if anything happens to him, I will destroy everything and then myself in every way possible.

It was such a fun movie! I loved it a lot and I love David Corenswet as Superman. It's such a nice angle on Superman. The light-hearted type of writing and screenwork. I love the dark and gritty Man of Steel ones, but this Superman hits so much harder to me. He's so kind and sweet. The "people were going to die!" line hit so hard and with so much emotion?? Loved it. I love how they portrayed him in this movie.

But tbh, I eat up any sort of DC media because I love DC so much!!

I want this Superman and Robert Pattison's Batman to meet so bad.

A real sunshine x grumpy duo for sure.

[starryjkoo]

accounts randomly closing or just becoming inactive is extremely common in fandom. pretty much half of ARMYtwt including a lot of my favorite accounts disappeared during ch2. i still remember the timeline meltdown when jk loops deactivated out of nowhere. it’s definitely a mix of twt becoming unbearably toxic, people moving onto other fandoms or just becoming busier in life. idk why people have to spin so many random dramatic narratives just because a jkk account closed. parts of the shipping community are so exhaustingly overdramatic and negative sometimes, idk. feels worse than usual lately.

[batfambrainrotbeloved]

GUYS- I FOUND BONES >:D TW dead (not rotting) animals and hand reveal I guess?? but not rlly

So got bored, went "Oh I have free will" and decided to wander in the woods like one does. The way the paths where I am are is theres a main "loop" path and then off shoots that lead all sorts of ways to different areas. I entered through the loop and decided to split off over by the creek- and went "You know what- free will" and decided fuck the brick cross paths and went MUCH further down the bank then normal.

Which is where I spotted the first gem in a small deer skull! Cant tell species since I didn't mess with it much to closely examine- But it was a tiny thing from what im used to seeing from white tail bucks. THEN go another few feet and BAM kill ground for what I assume is a cougar or bobcat based on how big the bones were and they're the only big enough predators I know have been spotted nearby

THEN On my way off- decided to go by the old abandoned slaughter house (not even kidding, yes its fun) over to the creek- but I ended up getting my pants caught in some prickles so I sat down for a sec to pick them out

Once again- BAM- spotted that lovely pelvis, which lead me to finding bits of what ended up being an ENTIRE racoon skeleton. Though most of the pieces had been buried or picked off, just by a little pine needle moving I managed to find the small pile.

SO now i have a racoon skull, jaw bones (all teeth intact or found other than the other canine but I think it gives him personality), and some vertebre I plan to bleach for display or jewlery

[irys955]

The funny and amazing thing about Haikyuu is that even though the manga has ended, there're still updates now and then about their lives beyond the end (Haikyuu magazine 2024 for example) so it just feels like the characters are living alongside us, in a parallel world. Now and then, their world collides with ours, where we get updated about them lol.

Heck, forget about parallel world, maybe they are living among us. If I ever have a chance to go to Italy in near future, maybe I can meet Kageyama in the street, who know haha /j

Forgive me, I'm still in the pit................

[fae-dreamer-99]

So I know I said I wouldn't make more superman posts but the movie is living rent free in my brain and has genuinely done so much for me so like I'm sorry but NEW POST no spoilers though just rambling thoughts about the movie and my love for my small town farm boy Clark Kent 💜

Okay so I said before how much ma and pa Kent mean to me, BUT CLARK MEANS SO MUCH TO ME TOO OKAY!

See I've been going on walks more, and these are the views of my walks. And as I'm walking, taking in the beauty, snapping my little pictures of nature, I think to myself: these are the kind of views that made Clark fall in love with earth, aided in making him believe it was a place worth fighting for. It fills me with such joy and hope and I wanted to share what has been bringing joy into my life with all of you!

Also I want to do good. Like a lot of good. I always have but I'll be honest, lately I've been stuck in a massive rut convinced there's no hope, there's nothing I can do, and other depressing bullshit. This movie genuinely brought back that spark in me. I have seen similar sentiment from a lot of people. However, a spark isn't enough if you don't utilize it! It will diminish and fade otherwise! So I wanted to share some small things that have been helping me build that spark into a bit of a flame and hopefully I inspire someone else (who maybe is like me) to do the same:

I started taking gloves and a trash bag on my walks and cleaning up the side of the road while I walk (I used to hate all the trash but I never did anything about it, just bitched to myself and my family as if I couldn't do something about it 🙄 so now I am doing something about it). I try to smile and wave at everyone passing by, no matter what (you really never know who just needs to be kindly acknowledged, ya know?). When I'm extremely upset by something or someone online, I am much more likely to ignore or block them/it rather than engage (I always have been a liberal blocker but I also had a propensity to argue, but who was I benefitting through that?). When I'm not extremely upset, I try to approach people with more gentleness than I had before (again, propensity to argue, so instead of arguing or engaging in negativity I try to be kind to them in some way, whether it's letting them know I like their PFP, asking if they're okay, letting them know they're worthy of life, etc etc).

I'm not trying to say I'm some great person, honestly quite the opposite. I fuck up, I argue with people, I get nasty when it's unnecessary, I have the habit of thinking the worst of people/situations, I hold my forgiveness like it's some coveted prize, I complain more than I actually do something about the problem, I'm a nihilist at heart who struggles to believe the world has any good in it. I genuinely believe I, currently, am someone Clark wouldnt like. I want to change that, I want to make the active choice to be a better person than I have been. I want to improve. I want to be someone people can be proud to call their friend, family, loved one. I have been miserable for a very long time and I am a huge reason behind that misery. I'm comfortable in misery. But I'm sick of it.

Superman (2025) has genuinely made my life better. It smacked me in the face with the realization that only I can do the work to make me into the kind of person I want to be. That hate, even if it's myself, changes nothing. That hate does so much harm. I mean, I watched that movie and realized I'm my own god damned Lex Luther and I'm sick and tired of it. It HAS made me a worse person.

So please, don't take this post as "I'm so much better" or "look at me I'm doing the bare minimum, praise me". However, after doing next to nothing but hating myself (and distrusting the world around me) for so long, pretending like that isn't my reality, the bare minimum is so much better.

So, I guess the point of my post is: superman inspired me to be a better person. It inspired me to learn to love myself and maybe learn to trust the world at large. That my misery is doing nothing. There is no honor in misery, but there's honor in getting the fuck up and doing something different.

So yeah, this is honestly just a ramble and next to no one is probably going to read this whole thing but I wanted to share these thoughts and what I'm doing about them to anyone in a similar position.

[hyperpotamianarch]

Once upon a time I was an idiot.

This is a misleading line. It implies I was only idiot once, and that the only time was in the past. Maybe even the distant past. The truth is far from it. As a matter of fact, part of this post's argument is that I'm being an idiot right now. Even if I somehow am not, I was an idiot many more times than the once I'm about to relay, and will likely be in the future. But hopefully, I can learn from past mistakes. So allow me to relate this one time I was an idiot, as well as perhaps explaining its relevance.

In a server I was in at the time, someone posted a picture of a rainbow as seen from above. If you didn't see it I recommend you look up picture, as it's amazing. It's apparently an entire circle, which is really cool. Someone commented that it was like a force field protecting LGBTQ+ people. And that was when yours truly has opened his big mouth and said that they shouldn't have added that, rainbows are from everyone. So yup, my moment of stupidity was me being homophobic. Fun stuff.

From there on, things went downhill. I was asked why I said that, and tried to avoid getting into the conversation, until I was pressured to reveal what was my worldview at the time. It was rather homophobic, largely based on religious reasons. A Reform Jew who was also present hastened to note that Judaism isn't inherently homophobic. I was quick in contradicting them by pointing out the verse of the Tanach against sexual intercourse between two men. I was then told that this was a mistranslation - which has since become a berserk button of mine because please stop saying "mistranslation" in front of a person who actually read the original text, damn you. I was also told most Jews are atheists, which also became a berserk button for me to a degree because yeah. Hi. Orthodox Jew here. Can we actually engage with that point?

I was justly kicked out of the server for voicing homophobic opinions. I don't know what happened to the other participants in the conversation, but I rather think they were glad I was gone. A moderator on the server recommended I read Wrestling with God and Men by Rabbi Steven Greenberg - an Orthodox gay rabbi. So far I admittedly didn't quite see Rabbi Greenberg's argument so far, but I didn't finish the book yet. I should probably get back to it soon, this incident was a while back - nearly four years ago, by now. I also have since learned some things about homophobia, including that what I said, as well as pretty much every argument against homosexuality, is something every gay, trans, queer, ace or aro person has heard way too many times in the past. Which isn't the reason I shouldn't say such things - the actual reason is "don't be hateful" - but did knock me down a peg, as I said nothing they didn't hear a million times before.

The other side of the story is that it really hurt me as well at the time. Being me, I very much attempted to be rational. I enforced nigh complete radio silence on my side after the mods of the server were summoned, and I accepted their eventual judgement as just. I have certainly made undue comments, broke server rules, and thus deserved to be kicked out. That doesn't mean it didn't take a toll. Right after I was kicked out, I also turned to another server I was in at the time - which was also largely made of LGBTQ+ people, though I knew them for slightly longer than the people from the other server - and told them I should probably quit this server too, since I displayed homophobia in a different server. My reasoning was that if this is how they reacted there, this other server will likely also be better off without someone who is unsafe for them to be themselves around. In the end I didn't leave this server, not then. Ieft a couple of months ago for other reasons, but I'm still in contact (to a limited degree) with people from there. I don't remember how full were the details I gave them on the incident, and I am very much a biased party, but the conclusion was that I didn't break the rules of this other server. As long as I learned my lesson and didn't repeat this behaviour there they won't kick me out.

I'm bringing this up because I feel that the six lane jaywalking discourse had led me to a similar emotional state. Thus, I can only conclude that I made a stupid mistake in reacting to it. Again. This time it's not homophobia or any direct form of bigotry that I can think of, but I clearly didn't handle being sent what probably amounts to a hate ask well, and it may have led to unnecessary escalation.

So what I'm going to do next is try my best to not touch this topic for now, possibly until I calm down from this mess - which may take a while. I might find myself needing to reply to something, in which case I'll try to postpone it until I'm calmer. Thank you for reading, and have a good day/afternoon/evening/night.

(This is likely to drive some people away. I guess we'll see.)

[razzz-poutine]

Okay, I was half-way joking when I said that reddit hates Wuk Lamat and tumblr loves her, but I didn't realize that it's at a point to where people who enjoy Dawntrail are being bullied for it within the FFXIV subreddit.

Like, Jesus, I had been using reddit quite a bit because I'm unlikely to run into disturbing US news when I'm just looking at ten different cat subreddits.

And for the longest time I had considered the FFXIV subreddit a safe place, that it's the nice mmorpg community, where I can be myself.

But, damn, it really really sucks how the community became so goddamned hostile because they didn't like DT. Was it this bad during Stormblood when everybody hated Lyse?