today is the four year anniversary of my best friend’s passing and it always strikes me how i subconsciously start thinking of him more and how sometimes i’m aware the day is coming and then kinda “forget” or don’t notice that the day has snuck up on me. even those days like today my body remembers. i feel a certain sadness, emptiness, and lethargy. but im glad my body reminds me even if it doesn’t feel great.
he was such a strong, constant, loving and chaotic (fun) presence in my life and i hope my body always reminds me of that loss and makes me remember. he would have done amazing things and so if my body and brain honor him with extra thoughts this time of year i’ll take it. love to anyone grieving something or someone right now even if it was years ago. and most of all so much love to my friend. grieving him has been a journey and the attached part of me hopes it always is and reminds me how much i loved.
