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It's kind of funny how you can be normally a pretty secure person in all your relationships and yet still wind up very insecure about one particular relationship. Like insecurity gets treated as an immutable trait that carries across all situations but the reality is that it's quite variable with circumstances and history specific to that circumstance. There's worries I have with some of my relationships that I just do not have with others and therapy really helped me realise that is not a failing but how a lot of people would feel in the same circumstances. So now I'm a lot less hard on myself when I do feel insecure about some things/relationships cause I'm like, well, a) understandable to feel that way given everything, and then b) I am clearly secure in other relationships/aspects of my life so struggling occasionally with some stuff is maybe not indicative of total failure as a person, lol. I also no longer see feeling insecure/struggling emotionally or with anxiety as a failure, but just a part of life and being alive and human. Which means when I do have anxious episodes I can pick myself up from them faster because I am not beating myself up about it, but just learning to accept it and be more compassionate with myself and other people who are also struggling. Like man, it's a hard world, shit happens, things be complicated.
