#personal: work

[milesmarek]

clocking into the Misgendering Factory, I sure hope they don’t like… misgender me or something

[milesmarek]

Serving Fifth Beatle gender envy realness in this Staples tonight

[alittletune]

I'm drafting my goodbye work email in my head and all I can think about is how I need to include instructions on updating their email signatures lol. Also dreading Friday's afternoon tea farewell and staff birthday party because they will probably ask me to say things and I will probably choke and cry because I'm a wuss like that but I'd really like not to cry in front everybody for once. Heh. Did I cry on my last day at PW @muldyfi? Can't remember lol Are there things one can do to become less wussy.. Maybe a YouTube tutorial?

[alittletune]

i have so much to say and yet it seems not one of those things want to be written down.

so after almost two years of working at my current office it’s time to say goodbye. almost. i’m currently wanting it to end sooner rather than later.

basically the last two years of employment has been contractual, and by the indonesian labour law if the program wants to continue to employ me, they’ll have to make me a permanent staff. i have notified my boss in december that i am withdrawing from that as i’m planning to work for the family company.

anyway, my boss asked me to stay past the contract end date so there can be a smooth handover. i said to him i can do so until the end of march, and he insisted that i could at least stretch it until april. i reluctantly said that we’ll see.

fast forward to today - where my manager was asking the hr person about the consultant fee formulation so she can put forward a request to get me in as a consultant for the rest of march. the hr person - who by the way spread rumours about a fellow colleague committing adultery with another colleague - asked my manager if it was in fact necessary to keep me as a consultant. UMM. what? (my manager said yes.)

i don’t know the exact chronology but basically the hr person refused to let my manager propose a certain amount as my consultancy fee and suggested that the current daily rate + 20% is enough of a raise. (a colleague was in the same situation as me and she was paid almost double her daily rate. considering they had to bring in an expert to help her do her job, and i don’t, i don’t think it’s too much of an ask to give me the same courtesy?)

my manager: ‘if she became permanent maybe. but not as a short term employee.’

hr: ‘she’s the one who needs the job anyway.’ (as if that’s ever a ground for underpaying someone.)

my manager: ‘no, we’re the ones who need her. she’s doing us a favour. the team leader asked her to extend, so she’s extending out of courtesy.’

hr: ‘well, that’s what ~she claims.’

hold up.

lol. what?

and i would make something like that up for what purpose exactly? i’d be thrilled to get some extra money, sure, but i’m not that hard up for it. i’d be more thrilled if i can leave this junk hole full of liars and overpaid tools who care more about playing politics and saving their own sorry asses rather than doing the right thing as soon as my contract finishes! i mean, i’ve had enough of the unnecessary drama in this place to last me a lifetime - and if i had to deal with that kind of crap, i would rather do that in my family business. plenty of junk there too, i’m sure, but damn at least i’ll be tidying up in my own house right?

sigh. and now i’m really not sure if i even want to do the consultancy at all.

first of all, the person i’m supposed to hand over the work to? yeah, they’re not hired yet. because the guy took another offer (a.k.a. hr sabotaged the offer by delaying it. and then refused to counter-offer because she ‘had a bad feeling about the person’. okay dude), and told the head of operations and anyone that would listen that they ‘missed out’ on the guy. so really, that beats the purpose of me wasting more time here and not starting at my family company sooner.

and second of all, after that kind of comment? i don’t think i want to work in a place where they think i’m so hard up for extra cash so they think they can stomp all over my professional worth.

my manager is saying that she’s still fighting for a better rate but let’s say she ends up victorious and they offer me the job with around double my current rate.. is it too petty, spiteful and proud to then say to them ‘thanks, but no thanks’?

[alittletune]

I’m not usually a petty person (lol yeah who would believe me right?) but man does vindication feel good sometimes.

[alittletune]

Critiques are never easy to swallow, especially when it’s only partly called for. Oh well, there’s always room for improvement right?