i’m okay with not knowing.
looking back at all my tweets and writing from last year when I was in an 11th house profection year and personal year 9, I realize that I transform so much in what feels like so little time. there were so many moments of “ohh I know what’s going on now... I know what the universe is trying to teach me here,” but I seem not to resonate with something I would’ve said even 4 months ago.
it’s funny looking back at 2020 now; being in my 12th house profection year, accepting the truth of my shadow side and how it’s affected my life. I know I’ve still got far to go with becoming friends with my shadow, but it’s like she has this smug look on her face while telling me “you thought you knew, but you just touched the surface last year. wait until you uncover so much more.”
and I admit, last year was so tiring for me. coming face to face with the truth is tiring! pluto and saturn conjunct my natal sun shattered so much in my life. I had my time of escapism, I had my time of sadness and anger. now, I willingly want to sit in these emotions that arise because I’m done with running from myself. let’s see where 2021 takes me.
