As a little girl I remember waiting for mom and dad to come back from work. They would always arrive so tired and instead of just crushing into the couch, watching TV and preparing to rest, they would sacrifice their free time to spend with my brother and me.
I just turned 4 months into my job and oh boy I feel so tired. I just realized how being an adult feels like and the fact that I will have to sweat blood until I can have any vacation time. It’s the first time in my life that I realize that I can’t quit and go back to college days when everything was so fun, no worries but what you want to explore and learn. I realize that the future me is being shaped by what I am doing right now and how much I am sacrificing right now.
Some days I wake up 5am and work from 7:30 to 5:00, others till 8:30, the optimistic days i’ll work 9 hours in a comfy office with music and friends, coffee and close from home. Other days I’ll cross all Mexico City from south to way up north and be in the factory, go to meetings, direct furniture installation and en uf tired af. And some days I want to just quit, rest and sleep. But I wont.
It’s funny how I have to everyday have this strong mental therapy for me to keep going, keep learning, keep fighting because I know this will all be worth in satisfaction and happiness in the future and I am working oh boy so so hard for it to become a reality. I will become the most shining beautiful diamond I’ve ever seen.