May 8
My biggest flaw is that I have no social skills and by default assume people want me dead low-key
I don't think I've ever spoken unless spoken to first now that I think about it, I hope people didn't take that as me having no interest 😭
Or sometimes I talk weird, like I'll say something weird without considering how long I've known that people, so I'll randomly drop a tmi, like my bad
I need to work on that tbh tbh... Instead of projecting this onto... Lotus ...
#didn't think I'd mention him did you#you'd be wrong#also yes Lotus has ass social skills#due to his own isolation#but me and him are different#i have no social skills and I think everyone is out to get me: so I try to be as nice and whatever as possible#lotus has no social skills and also thinks the world is out to get him: so he reacts with more aggression#even if the person he talked to wasn't aggressive or was just joking about something#he's like a reactive dog#i wish he's bark at me anyway#what who said that#perverts around here#btw#i would say this is anxiety#but I'm not diagnosed#I'm not even self diagnosed... my family always talks about me having anxiety#they mention it to strangers when they think I might freak out#like chat I don't even have that diagnosis#but whatever#lotus has anxiety anyway though