#pessimistic pov

[heylye]

Being a second rate

As the light starts to fade, being stuck with all this rage from the conflict that errupted And now, it left me corrupted. Wrote the idea that I'm hopeless and from the others, I am less. Forcing myself to think, "If only I can change in one blink." But it was a mere fantasy and this is the so called reality It left me a great amount of hate for being just a second rate.

[heylye]

Weird..

I know some actions I made is quite annoying, despite being hated, I keep on pretending. Because, I ain't that numb, and all my decisions makes me look so dumb. The more I think about gaining your trust. pushes you back, giving thoughts you disgust. Within my inner self I think day by day, Makes me sorry, turn back and fade away. I wish to disappear along with the gust, or to wait until it turns my thoughts into dust.

[heylye]

How I see things

It may look the same, Views from different aspect. May find this a Curse, Subjects we don't inspect. Some may see the sun, It shines, gives hope and light. I see it's other side, Chaos, the heat that causes a fight. I choose to be alone. Indulge myself with sadness. While others choose to smile, Conceal their weaknesses. Different views that springs must listen with caution. It's how I see things, Affects my decision.

[fictionaldeity]

I kinda hate movies so much sometimes... because they tell you it's going to be hard, and that you're going to hurt and cry and you're going to want to kill somebody, but then, it the end, it'll be worth it, you'll get your happy ending.. but that doesn't happen that way in real life you know? in real life when your life's a mess, it's a mess and there's no way to work it out, because sometimes.. guys are just jerk, girls are just bitches and there is no ice cream in your fridge to drown your sorrows...