Lye

Dito ko madalas ilabas ang gumugulo sa kaisipan

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Rejected anthology submission

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[heylye]

Here we go with the New Normal.

Fck that shit.

[heylye]

Ang dami mong ideya ngunit hindi mo maibahagi. Imbes na sumuporta ay pag kuwestyon ang napala. Bakit nga ba uso ang manghila pababa?

Etong utak ko din ang may sala! Napamahal masyado sa proseso walang inisip kundi mapaganda pa ito.

Kahit kanya kanya sila sa pagbabango, walang nakikinig sayo sa larangang ito, walang may paki pero patuloy pa din ito.

Punyetang utak ito, pero ganito na talaga siguro.

[heylye]

Daydream

Daydream | By Ian Daryl

It's this kind of scenarios that makes me rethink whether I'm alright. Definitely not.

Daydream

Another day

Another time to waste

Along with all the ideas

I think are not waste

Maybe it's risky

If only was given a chance

Instead, got treated like garbage

Pulled down till you are buried

Are they intimidated?

It feels like its hatred instead

Does it reveal their intention?

Cause it feels like a competition

But you're awaken

From the dream you're making

Staring blankly till it's forgotten

Maybe, it's better to be forgotten.

A new start

Finding a way to restart

The life you had and be smart..

And maybe it'll save you

From youself and be alive.

[heylye]

Pahingi ng dahilan

Para ako'y lumaban

Utak kong bumabaliko

Para bang sinto sinto

Pilit hinahanap ang gusto

Ano ba talaga ang silbe ko?

[heylye]

Dream

Dream | By Ian Daryl

Damn.

Lived a dream

On top of everything

But one day it was gone

And life has cheated again

What's going on?

Felt something's wrong?

Everything is in order

Or are you blinded by disorder?

You become a shell

To hide your old self

Empty and soft

Fragile and useless

It left you dry

It left you dead

And every single day will pass

Did you regret, how it felt?

How does it feel

To be able to speak freely

To be able to feel lovely

To be able to be at peace

[heylye]

Kiss

Kiss | By Ian Daryl

Have you watched Backstreet Rookie? It made me write this haha! Kim Yoo Jung is so pretty ❤️

I can't imagine how it's even possible

Staring at you beyond this counter table

Thinking that it was beautiful

That you are still beautiful

How many years has passed already

Still thinking of that kiss you gave me

While sipping my hot cup of tea

Staring at the nothingness, blankly

Confused, what is this feeling?

When I see you, I know it's beating

Not expecting this to happen

But why am I getting excited?

I can't imagine of this moment

At the rooftop of your apartment

Standing in front of you, wondering

While our hands intertwine

Will you accept my feelings?

Let me return the kiss that was given.

[heylye]

Artistically Weird | By Ian Daryl

Some of us do this to conceal what they feel in order to shed some light to those in need.

"Artistically Weird"

We only rely on what we see,

how it is stunning, visually.

how you see the details

Like a paradise we'd live in.

An art that was appreciated

Without knowing who made it

the inspiration behind it

the reason it was created.

Why does some are used to this?

Created art that's the opposite

They'll make you feel betrayed

When you think, it's insane.

We only rely on what we hear

Its harmony blends in our ear

how the beautiful lyrics came in

That kissed your soul, passionately.

A harmony of love songs,

mixed feelings with a sad note.

How it boost the tension inside you

without knowing if its true.

Most of the amazing art you'll get to see

Are those made by the broken and weak.

Too subtle that you'll never notice

All the struggles that they're in.

[heylye]

Your Inner Demon | By Ian Daryl

The demons you battle every fucking day.

"Your Inner Demon"

As I close my eyes, I imagine

A moment that I always wanted

A quite and peaceful place

Away from sorrow and pain

I always knew something's wrong

Uncontrollable decision, weird action

It confuses me with all this tension

And I'm starting to lose it all

All those voice that are screaming

How it define your well being

"You suck" and "you're nothing"

It kepts on yelling and it's breaking

How am I supposed to keep it?

When all it did was to linger.

How should I even treat it?

When all they ever did was to feed it.

[heylye]

What you can call as Hell | By Ian Daryl

A place you'll wish to visit. A one way ticket into the deep.

"What you can call as hell"

Welcome to a place you'll love

Where all things are crushed

And forces people to get lost

As they play with their prey

And here's how we fell

Lied to and it hurt as hell

Now all dreams have faded

and every detail, jaded

It dictates the unfortunate

To live in a world of hate

Disguised as a paradise

A world made for your angst

Where it is filled with greed

You'll feast with the beast

And next thing you know

You're next to be killed

[heylye]

Lies from within | By Ian Daryl

Here lies the thoughts that are hidden. How it makes us feel all broken.

"Lies from within"

You hated the night

You hated them, right?

Giving up, wrap it up

Surrender and just stop.

Stare into the eyes of what seems

To have died a long, long time ago

Indenial of what is happening

A smile to cover up from deep within

An empty cocoon

A soul less buffoon

Zombified, electrified

Someone who is lost in time

Consumed, and now rotten

How everybody disgusts them

And just to prove it them

You're not broken and wounded

But every time we're trying to live

To feel positive, to set us free

We're being dragged down below

They'll hurt us, they'll kill us too.

[heylye]

A little boost | By Ian Daryl

A little boost could help.

"A little boost"

So I think it's time

To pull myself up

From this place

I know I fucked up.

You know I hate it!

No really, I hate this!

The feeling that I'm stuck,

Unable to free myself up.

I might need a little help,

Or just a boost for myself.

In order to get back up

At least fix this mishap.

I really wanted to live

What you're willing to give

That maybe it is too deep

To understand, to make a stand.

[heylye]

Umibig ng Palihim | By Ian Daryl

Mas mabuti pa kasing inilihim nalang.

Poem #21

January 21, 2019

"Umibig ng palihim"

Nagmahal ako minsan ng palihim

Inaabangan ang minsang pag tingin

Umaawit na minsa'y madinig

Naman niya ang tinig ng pagibig

Kung kayang ipahayag

Ang namumuong nadama

Tatanggapin nya ba,

O kaya'y lilisan bigla?

At maiwan sa isang sulok bigla

Talunan, luhaan at gustong mawala

Kaya mabuting nilihim nalang

Baka sakali'y malimot ko pa

Nagmahal ako minsan ng palihim

Eto ata'y pinaka ayokong gawin

Ibinaon sa lupa, huwag ng makita

Dahil takot na ako muling umiyak

Tinitiis nalang ang takot

Dinudungaw nalang sa malayo

Habang nakikita siyang masaya

Puno ng saya sa piling ng iba

[heylye]

Doubts | By Ian Daryl

Doubts that consumes you. Destroys you.

Poem #19

January 19, 2019

"Doubt"

If only those times were true

Would it be alright for us to

Let go of the doubts consuming you?

Then I realized, all that said were lies

And we let the words left unsaid

Will it be alright, tonight?

I wish to turn back the time

Stop what was said and done

We're this close from being gone

And then you just walked away

Hoping this heals the pain

Or at least helps keep you sane.

You're standing in front of me

And hoping that it'll make you forget

Now you're filled with regrets

[heylye]

Maling Pagiisip | By Ian Daryl

Pinaikot ng kaisipan. Magising pa sana.

Poem #17

January 17, 2019

"Maling Pagiisip"

Nagulat aking mundo

Sa iyong sinabi

Kung anong gulo

Na ako ay kasali

Maari bang magpaalam

Habang di ka nakatingin

Mababago ba nito

Lahat ng iyong sinabi

Maaaring may naramdaman

Di naaayon sa panalangin

Ang sitwasyong nariyan

Na hindi mo masasabi

Nakakulong ka naman

Sa maling pagiisip

Magising ka pa kaya

Wag lang sanang mahuhuli

[heylye]

Meeting you

You came into my life,

it was unexpected

You made me laugh so hard,

I still hear it

I was so stressed out with my life

Then I saw you and it was a rare sight

I'm not sure what came through

As I approach you, our eyes meet too

Hoping it won't be a creepy deed

That maybe a small talk will do

What are the odds of meeting someone new

Someone to share the same thought too

And sitting by the coffee table

Telling stories about Life, about love

And under the moonlight, as we drive

Would it be alright if I kiss you tonight?

As we say goodbye, return to our lives

What are the odds that I'll meet you again?