As some of you guys now. Im moving this month from my home to a friend in the middle west of germany. which is a big step for me i guess. Im realy sceared to do anything wrong.
In my short life that i had i tried a lot of things but i guess i always wanted to be an actor. And i remember realy good that when went with school to the job center and there was this lady. She once told me that im just 15 and its just a dump feeling about that actor thing. I never tried and as long as i never tried this stupid wish dont will have a success. Also she told me to get a job whos safe not like the actor businesses. I remember that i was so shocked by her that i eminently started to cry and run of the job center. I still remember her as the horriblest person which i ever met.
It tooked everything from me. And i began to belive that i never will be an actor, also the people in my school didnt liked me that much. So why shoud people like me when im on the tv.
a sparkle of hope gave me my teacher which told me on our last day at school that hes sure he will see me someday again on the tv screen. I was happy about this but noch sure. I was week and many stuff happend. To many to write them down.
But for now. I think im finally happy.
Ive got the brave to go to the drama school that i always looked up to. And this was the rigth choise i think. For now im a bit afraid because i dont know to handle all the stuff. Im also lucky about to have such taff friends. but also taff friends cant take this feelings from me because its natural to be sceard and theres nothing bad about it.
Im just happy that i have a space here to write all this down. But not today maybe another time. im realy tierd rigth know i didnt sleept and im hungry. (how is it posible that someone like me who loves food just forget to eat x´D just like srzly WTF im doin....)
anyways for those who read this.
just a friendly reminder to not give up your dreams. It tooked me 6 years to find my brave to go to drama school. If you a dream catch it !
