Also the position of the plane (which isnt a spitfire, yeah i know it would have been more fitting but i couldnt get the angle i wanted on it :’0) was referenced from a screenshot from the Polish Squadron 303 film!
I dont know why engpol is such a beautiful ship to me, maybe cause its tragic. I feel a really personal connection to this ship i guess, and since its valentines day, i guess a bit of an explanation from my personal experineces would be fine? I guess what gets me with it is just… Engpol for me is when you grow close to someone under very harsh circumstances, and you just end up absolutely adoring them, and then it all crashes and burns in a way that is just unrepairable, but that love that once existed is still there, but never able to come out again. It makes those moments of happiness seem so much grander, so much more beautiful than before, like a moment in time thats encased in your mind and cant ever be repeated, since you cant repeat the past. There is someone in my life whom I met under harsh circmustances too, not like, a war ofc, but harsh enough to know we NEEDED to work together to survive. We didnt treat it as anything more, we barely thought of each other as friends at first. We had a huge language barrier too and frankly, theres something about language barriers that always gets me in ships, that kind of uncovering and discovering a whole new language with a person, its like being reborn. And I guess kind of similarly to how i see engpol, me and this person went through certain things that just cant be fixed. Even though I love him, I love him more than anyone I’ve ever loved and I doubt I'll love someone with so much intensity for a long time, I cant push past the things he did, and the things I did too. Its a tragic limbo which also makes the memories of the good times seem so much sweeter. Its to the point where you almost wish you were back in that dark place you were before, just because that was when your bond grew with that other person. For me, the guy I love is the most intelligent, ambitious, and just amazing person ill ever meet, someone who turned my life upside down and changed me forever, but I cant ever go back to him. For me engpol is a similar ship to that, the things that happened have an effect, and will never go away, and they are so sweet and full of love, but they are frozen in time, because the world has moved on and the choices we make cant always be retracted.
