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“Shall I tell you a story? A new and terrible one? A ghost story? Are you ready? Shall I begin?”

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no one has ever accurately captured the intensity of teenage girl friend groups the way that libba bray did in 2003. -> -> -> constant, messy power dynamics, anything to move up the hierarchy. doing so much, almost anything for each other but not always liking each other, not even loving. knowing each other instinctively and intimately but still struggling to understand them. wanting each other to succeed but being so resentful, so jealous of exactly the things that the other has and doesn't value. infighting. turmoil of the hierarchy; you know someone is replacing you and every time you try to make it stop, you alienate yourself further. "be careful she doesn't get bored with you next. it's a long way to fall." aching to prove yourself, endear yourself to the girls who look down on you, to take the mantle of respect and love, deluding yourself that this time, for me, it's not conditional. frienships so intense and quick that they have to burn out. each feeling left out of the group for different reasons. every fight so vicious because even when you don't love each other, you know them so completely that you say the worst possible thing they could be hurt by. each individual bond as impenetrable as it is delicate. the two whose intimacy you know is more than friendship but you can't say, even though everyone sees it, they want to avert their eyes, but doing so would be an acknowledgement of the truth. friendships borne of shared experiences, not affection. thinking you make each other happy- and you do, just not as much as you end up making each other miserable in the end. wanting to be loved by the others so much more than you actually love them.