#pixistic

[cuntryjunkie]

@pixistic liked for a meme starter.

“peer pressure is a mother fucker,” beat. then his eyes roll upwards dramatically. monroe sure has a way. “fine. what do you want me to do? i'll do it.”

[cuntlike]

@pixistic ( tim ) said : (tug) : for SENDER to tug RECEIVER closer by their clothing .

time folds onto itself until there are four of them-- the ones who meet in the middle with no qualms whatsoever, reaching for the other mouth first. demeanor so ravenous & desperate because they have yet to learn shame… and the ones who stay at a safe distance, as if the miles have lessened the hunger, as if the ever-ticking clock has put an end to the desperation.

there's silence, like a cover above their heads (a memory: they're fifteen again & telling each other scary stories, a flashlight beneath their chin). there's a moment spreading itself thin to leave space for an apology she won't give-- neither for leaving, or kissing him, or doing the latter despite being responsible of the former.

her mouth still tastes like him, as quick as the kiss lasted before he stepped away, and she finds herself licking her lips for the remnants to blossom on her tongue. she wants to do it again, she wants to bite into the time they wasted & swallow it whole. she wants to eat him up & not have to let go. but the ball is in his court. will he play? will he fold?

his thumb hooks in her jeans' loop. not an answer, not a lack of one. tim tugs her closer. she goes without resistance, a step into his space & another to end plastered against him. until there's no distance between them-- only years, that stretch on for miles. she waits, lets her breathing ricochet against his, her rising chest meeting him every time.

"what do ya want?", the question is asked with a breath, low & heady, a warning perhaps that any wish shall be granted. "lemme give it to ya."

[m0tel]

@pixistic i could squirt out some tears, if that would help. (monroe)

"you can work those on demand, huh." his rental jacket itches, shoulder seams squeaking while he rearranges his hands: left over right, disguise the too-wide space between the sleeve cuff and the knob of his wrist.

it's not a big deal from the back row. the mourners are preoccupied with the whole casket lowering, last goodbye situation. tossing dirt. open weeping. someone might be singing, but his hearing's kind of shit. could just as easily be a bird.

"look, it ain't your close-up." quiet exasperation, like this must be an actress thing. he pretends he's not as equally attention-seeking as he's accusing. the goal really is just to blend in. stay quiet, look sad, catch a word with the widow before the rsvp-only luncheon. most especially, come along so dean doesn't look like a freak that crashes these things on the regular. bat those big bambi eyes, monroe. sad old ladies eat that crap up.

"how about a .. a medium misty kinda sad? you got that setting?"

[favoriteache]

&&. @pixistic (meredith) asked for a starter.

the door opens & closes in a swift push of fresh air into the library-- but dante's blonde head doesn't look up from the old computer he is religiously staring at. after a silence that lasts a bit too long (he calculates time in steps taken: tracking someone's body across space with a sense that most forget to enchant) by his own calculation, whoever stands on his doorstep should have already walked forward to take a look at whatever is on offer (some shakespeare republications on the forefront of the shop, in their glossy and detailed covers). as they have decidedly not taken any step toward the books, dante lazily raises his head-- like the effort itself is an affront to his person. "can i help you?" which is to say, why can't you help yourself? the tone, of course, is as rude as the way he looks down at her... from his seat.

[mosvani]

“you’re not the only ghost around,” @pixistic says. and a small, high, laugh winds about the curve of her smile—a thin curve of lip that does reach her eyes.

“I am no ghost,” alanna says. only surrounded by them. she holds them—lovers, friends, family, warders—against her skin. so tightly that she was certain even after the elements have swept them away, beneath cutis and muscle, there’d still be traces of each. “are you?” alanna playfully cocks a brow, her head softly canting.

[cuntlike]

@pixistic, tim said : i have no fucking pants on.

her eyes glide down his athletic figure long before words start to gather on her tongue. she thinks of late night outloud dreaming, their teenage bodies entangled on a blanket thrown over hay. his mouth close to the sensitive skin of her neck, nipping while telling her all about the jersey he'd wear the next year, how he'd force her to proudly display his jacket. she remembers the amusement in his voice; the proof that he knew the idea of being branded his would annoy her, make her squirm, and subsequently make her shut him up with a kiss. they were two cogs in a shitty machine, running on nothing but spite & childlike tenderness that all the booze he inhaled could not quite tame yet.

she supposes he no longer owes his fullback duties for the lean figure, though she can't tell what it is that he does now. years have gone by and they are nothing but strangers, meeting for the first time.

"yeah", she says, her eyes finally climbing back up to his face, though the effort appears herculean. he hasn't changed much, and she assumes the same can be said of her; a little more hardened than they were at eighteen.

it's hard to stare; the sight is too familiar & too strange at the same time, like two pictures attempting to overlay perfectly-- yet failing every time. it makes her want to run. take a step back & forget she ever knocked. however she's done that already, years ago. stole mama's truck & never looked back. there's no point in doing it twice.

"got company already?", she asks, almost polite, though she attempts a smirk-- levity a coat she puts on because the weight of it anchors her down.

[cuntlike]

when she wakes up, the world is a fuzzy mess of colors and lights. something stirs beneath her cheek: what she's lying on is warm, it rises & falls to the ever-thrumming rythm of a heart. panic starts with this: trying to remember who lies beneath the sheets and finding no memories of the mysterious identity.

the lack of memory is less upsetting than the source of the amnesia. ishtar's debauchery rarely entails large amounts of alcohol: she likes to ruin things with a clear mind. but yesterday… oh yesterday must have been horrid. she can smell it in the room: sex and drinks and something heady-- probably the result of a joint passing between spit-slick lips.

panic grows tenfold when an unfamiliar weight is registered on the hand that clutches the covers. a ring. she can see it as it gleams in the blurry mid-afternoon light. "fuck," comes first, soon followed by another heartful "fucking hell", spitted while she tries to get up and finds that her head is swimming in all directions, while her body has yet to move. deciding that sitting might be the only option, she goes back down, and waits a moment, breathing through her nose.

a look to her right: there, a familiar head of hair turned away from her, and the familiar torso she was lying on. realization catches on her tongue. "tim," his name comes out in a whisper, soon followed by a much more acerbic: "wake up, asshole." @pixistic

[killerdame]

TIM RIGGINS. OUR MUSES GO FOR A LATE NIGHT SWIM.

at midnight she stands on the front stoop, glowing supernal in the stark halogen of his porchlight. can i borrow your car? hot summer wind blows, a gust gentle enough to stir the hair on the nape of her neck but leave the hem of her dress unruffled. despite the dropping temperature, it's the same one dove put on this afternoon. she's not ready to let go of the day yet.

he's leaned up against the door, forearm braced against the frame. from her perspective he looks load-baring to the structure around him. this house she knows he built. something the matter? no. simple. more importantly, true. i just feel like going for a drive. a jangle of metal. y'want company?

sure, she says, without thinking much about it. already turning. handing the keys back to him as if that's what she came here for to begin with. that'd be nice.

it might've been. she isn't entirely sure. the size of her wants is so great these days, so wide and wild, that it's hard to find her bearings within them since the fences of her old life were pulled up. or no, not quite — now that she's jumped them.

so they drive, dove's gaze occasionally drifting to @pixistic's bare knee and the shin below it, the otherwise inconsequential length of leg that exposes something about him: the bone almost obtrusive through the skin, pushing up through taut ropes of ligament, the arc of his calf hard to the point of knotty. lean, hard-won musculature. the features of an athlete or of a tradesman, of someone whose worked toward something rather than worked at the body itself. she turns her chin away.

[ ... ]

we could swim.

they're sitting thigh to thigh on the bank when it's posed, the ground cool under her bare feet. the conversation is warmer. her eyes are turned out over the lake — or what she presumes to be a lake, even though she read somewhere that most of the bodies of water in texas are man-made reservoirs. in the dark she can't tell the difference. she assumes it's no different by light, or at least she holds fast to what she knows to be true, what she'd learned the hard way over the last decade: a thing reveals more of its truth in the night than during the day.

she thinks about it a moment. the water that looks cooler and purer than the marsh by the house ever did.

dove stands up, reaching under the flare of her sundress to pull down the underwear beneath. panties first, the way she's used to. undressing for a purpose. three drawers of designer hosiery in her bedside drawer and half of the underwear bares stretchmarks on the sidings, creased from where they've been pulled to the knees but never taken off. offering clay access to what he couldn't, wouldn't, wait for. she thinks about that as she moves now — slower, unhurried. his head is at the level of her mid-thigh, almost parallel with the place hem inevitably catches on wrist as her hands slide upward, bunching up to expose what she knows will be a brief flash of a flaring upper hip, the bone rounded like a giant pearl. white silk, prismatic in the moonlight, falls to the ground underneath her. the opalescent innards shucked from an oyster.

she's good at this. it feels good to be.

dove steps out of the panties and then steps further, moving forward toward the water, her arms pulled behind her to undo the zipper there. for a moment, as dove turns her chin downward to meet tim's eyes, she looks like she has her wrists tied.

like the lake, she can see him better in the dark.

"i've never been skinny dipping."