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crazy how 2 years can feel like a lifetime ago. i am a completely new person now… if i’m being honest, i haven’t been the same since we broke up. it was disappointing reading my earlier blogs about you, disappointing that i let us down. more importantly that i let that 17 year old down. that 17 year old who was so in love with you and so in love with life. that 17 year old who knew that you were the only thing she ever wanted. if i could redo everything i would. i am only slightly seeing now how we weren’t made for each other but i still wouldn’t change us getting together. i would change how i ended things. i would be better at it. be more honest and communicate better. i’m so sorry i let us down. no denying that the past 2 years were the absolute hardest years i’ve gone through. so many mistakes made but the hardest thing was watching you get the love you deserved, the wife you deserved and it not being me. that fucking sucked. i still think about you. nearly daily. i dream of you often. i keep trying but my brain (or is it my heart?) won’t let me forget your touch. it’s a bitch.
19-april-2024