12, 16, 17, 18, 26 for Collide and The Shrike?
12. Is there a trope you haven’t written yet but really want to?
I answered this yesterday, but I thought of another trope I would love to write is the fake dating trope. I’ve wanted to write a fake dating fic so bad for so long.
16. What is your most underrated fic?
Um... I would say Someday My Prince Will Come. I’m really proud of that fic. But it kind of went under the radar. Which I don’t mind. I appreciate when any of my fics get any kind of attention.
17. What fic are you most proud of?
18. What is a line/scene you’re really proud of? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene.
"I think you're looking at happiness in the wrong way."
"What way should I be looking at it, then?"
Blaine places his forearms on the tabletop and sits forward. "Think of it like," he looks out thinking before casting his eyes back to Kurt, "a wave."
The idea of comparing happiness to waves came to me out of nowhere. The moment I had the thought I knew I had to include it in the story.
"A wave?" Kurt arches an eyebrow, intrigued and confused.
"Yes. Waves slowly build, creating this beauty that lasts for only a few fleeting moments, until it crashes. That's happiness. It builds and you have these fleeting moments of pure happiness, then it's gone. Until a new wave starts to form."
I love this comparison. As the question asks, it’s something I’m proud to have written because it always seemed perfect to the story I was telling.
"So where are you right now?" Kurt crosses his arms over the table. "Are you forming, cresting, or crashing?"
Blaine thinks. "Right now?" His mouth turns up in a smile. "I'm content. So...forming."
This small glimpse of how Blaine feels could be taken as a slight foreshadow to how we end the story with him. Because, and this is something that will come up in The Swan, he was happy with Kurt. We know this in the fact that he wanted more with him. Fought for it. And when Kurt walks away from him and that offer, it’s easy to know without being outright told that he is unhappy; that he’s crashing.
"Doesn't it scare you knowing you'll crash soon? That this happiness you're starting to feel will be replaced with discontent?"
"Isn't that life? Riding out one wave and then waiting in the lull until we can catch the next one?" Blaine takes a drink of his bourbon. "What are you right now?"
Kurt considers the question.
I think this is first time Kurt is asked this by someone outside of Ophelia. She’s his best friend, and therefore can easily read his feelings. So, for him to be asked this by someone other than her causes him, I think for the first time in years, to really consider how he feels. If he’s happy, or has been at any point in the past few years.
He knows he's not happy. There have been times in his life where he was. But it's been a while since he's felt complete happiness. And it doesn't feel as if he's coming into happiness. Which leaves one option.
"I think I've been crashing for a few years now," he painfully admits.
Since his dad died. Since he had to pack up his childhood home and really learn to be on his own in a world that is big and scary.
He's been crashing, and in the lull waiting for the next wave, for years.
We know Kurt is afraid of open water, likes to avoid it all costs. So to make the comparison of his happiness to a crashing wave, something seen in an ocean, was too perfect for me to pass it up. It was fitting in a way that I absolutely loved.
26. Which part of [x fic] was the hardest to write?
I answered this for The Shrike already. But for Collide I wouldn’t say there was nothing in particular that was hard for me to write. Maybe trying to write OCs that could be lovable and fun without seeming forced or fake.
