── .✦ texts between you & your best friend jungwon (who you just so happen to be fucking)
── .✦ cw.ᐟ nsfw in the form of playful sexting (nothing too detailed), won is sarcastic and mean but in a loving way, reader is a cutie patootie (cus u all r cutie patooties ;)), mentions of head & sex, mentions of a perverted stranger at one point??, thts all i think lmk if i missed any hihi. :-]
── .✦ a word from fawn.ᐟ໒꒱ HAIII my lovelies this is my first ever smau type post sooo pls bare w me and the fact that there isn't all that much in terms of actual content. also pls ignore the times not matching ifgfudhdiugdf i cbb to fix it</33333 butttt i thought it would be fitting to expand on the bfwb!won-verse so this is my way of doing so hihi. 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 im workin on something bigger rn that hopefully will be out soon for u all !! although i cant make any promises ><
a/n: no trigger warnings!! Mostly fluffy!! <333 this was my first attempt at Baji removing his nerd disguise, but it got buried and I forgot ab it!
Before… › here! › After!
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“Say.. Baji,” you said, almost in a whisper.
You’ve been tutoring Baji for about three months now. He was doing well, well enough that he could get by without your paid support. Yet…
Even knowing this, you wanted to stay by his side, and know more about him.
You’d be lying if you said you weren’t attracted to Baji. He was gentle, considerate, dutiful, passionate — well, that aside…
You just weren’t ready to part ways. Not yet, at least.
There was just one thing bothering you.
These three months, you felt as though there was a huge part of Baji you still hadn’t met yet. Like he was only showing you a mask of a person.
You wanted to see who Baji Keisuke really was. Behind the thick rim glasses, behind the suppressed persona he claimed to be.
“Why… don’t you drop the act, around me..?” You asked, forced and meek.
You tried to maintain an aura of composure. Baji could sense that.
He picked up on your little mannerisms so easily now. The glasses actually ended up being a blessing, he was soon to realize. You could never tell when he stared at you, or read him quite right.
They kept you curious. He liked that growing curiosity of yours, and wasn’t sure if he was ready to give in so easily.
“What act?” He feigned jokingly, maintaining his composure without neglecting his handwriting over the latest study packet.
You gave your best glare, which only came off as a pout, crossing your arms passive aggressively. “Fine.” You sighed sarcastically, heaving yourself from your seat.
He realized quickly you were packing up for the day. “If you’re going to keep pretending around me, then keep it that way. I’m leaving. ”
What did you mean by that? What the hell made you so mad all of a sudden?
“Leave? I still don’t understand h—“ he tried to weave his way back into your usual groove, but you looked back at him with a somewhat… hurt expression, stopping all brain function he had.
The hell were you looking at him like that for?
“Baji.. I’ve done by duty as a tutor. If…. If that’s all I will be to you, then I …” you said shakily, having to pause a moment to maintain your poise composure.
“If you’re worried about how I’ll react to knowing the real you, please, stop. I want to be your friend. A real friend to you. I don’t want to keep pretending like I don’t notice the way you act differently around me.”
Your face was getting warmer and warmer, the more embarrassing things you were saying.
You weren’t planning to spill your heart out, this type of honesty was beyond your comfort, so why couldn’t you stop?
“Whoever you turn out to be, I would proudly stand beside you. S-so,”
“Wait,” Baji stopped you, voice stern and face completely hidden from view.
Baji knew why he’d kept who he really was from you for so long. He wasn’t a coward, he wasn’t hiding behind a mask because he thought you were shallow enough to shun him.
He was hiding because as soon as you got wrapped up in Toman, your life could be at risk.
Having no way to fight or protect yourself, being associated with Toman would only make you a walking target. Being involved with a gang was unpredictable. Some real sick fucks roamed these streets.
There’s no telling what one miscalculation would result in your inevitable pain.
Emma, Mikey’s own sister, had been held at knifepoint more than once. Attacks against her have been made more than Baji even knew. But no matter what, Mikey was always there to protect her and ensure her safety.
Could Baji say the same? He wasn’t sure if that was a promise he could keep. Baji is protective by nature, but throwing you into that life without giving you fair warning would be cowardly.
It was easier to end what wasn’t meant to continue.
“It doesn’t matter if you accept me or not.” He felt himself fall into poker face, acting harshly neutral. “I won’t let you throw yourself in my life just cause it seems fun. Our crowds don’t walk the same streets, y/n.” He hissed, hardened eyes hiding behind the thick rims.
Baji has never used this tone with you before.
You were bound to be scared of him now, (right?).
“I respect how smart you are, but you’re looking to get yourself killed. I won’t be apart of it.” He said finally, his things gathered and stature towering over you when he walked past you and out the door.
You didn’t even get a word in before he was slamming the door behind him.
It hurt to swallow, but he kept telling himself that he was doing the right thing, keeping you at arms length.
He wasn’t smart. He didn’t stop Kazutora before he made that irreversible mistake— to shoulder so much guilt. Baji hasn’t noticed that the bike shop Kazutora led him to was Shin’s shop. If he was just a little smarter and noticed that obvious thing, he could have saved Shin—- saved Kazutora!
… This is how he saves you, right?
This was fine, this was the intended outcome. Baji could self study from now on.
To hide this gnawing guilt, he buried it deep, deep, deep down.
Toman has a fight tonight after all.
The perfect stress relief.
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Chifuyu had always wanted to be a wingman, and after he realized Baji’s crush on you, he was eager to spring into action. You were innocent and cute, opinionated yet kind. Quick witted and perceptive. Chifuyu knew you were struggling to keep your patience with Baji.
That’s why, when Baji made his dramatic exit, Chifuyu’s snooping-self quickly snuck in to evaluate the damage. And just as he’d guessed, you were left flabbergasted and flooded with frustrated tears.
“P-please wait! Before you judge him too harshly, let me speak!” He stammered. He’d never spoke more than a few pleasantries to you before now, yet there he was, desperately trying to make a case in Baji’s defense.
It took a little explaining, but without giving too much of the situation away, Chifuyu had managed to get you to agree to follow him. He promised on his life that he was trust worthy, and honestly, you believed him.
So that’s how you found yourself in audience of a bunch of thugs gathered for mischief just ahead of you. A long row of motorbikes rangling the boys into formation.
You weren’t sure where to spot Baji, his dead give away glasses being no where in sight. Still, Chifuyu promised that if you kept your eye out for his own blonde bowl cut, you’d spot Baji not far behind.
Before you could get a proper gander, you noticed two thugs from each opposing side came to the middle of the parking lot to speak, before ultimately calling for war.
You had guessed Baji was associated with some kind of shady pass time, as he did have a very intimidating presence, and he often boasting about his excellent skill of martial arts. To think he would put it to use like this was… <3
As you stood watching the scene unfold, you took a moment to consider if your lack of shock at the situation playing out should concern you or not. Were you more desensitized, or impressed….
You were taken out of that train of thought when a deafening roar almost shook the ground you stood. A scream that loud could only be made by a rage filled monster. And rage filled it was, Baji Keisuke’s patience had finally ran out, unable to swallow back that guilt he pushed so far deep. All the vulnerable sides of him he accidentally let you see—- revealed in those rare moment of gentle hand touches and kindness you gave him unconditionally.
He knew Your gentle hands would become soiled before long. His bruised knuckles would start to stain you.
Forgetting about you was for your best interest.
His hair was uncontainable, hair-tie snapping before the fight had even begun. His eyes were piercing and sharp, ferocious and merciless to anyone who met his gaze.
He stood out like a wild beast amongst helpless prey.
Baji wielded a wicked grin that took up most of his face, screaming out insult after curse as his fists broke skin and bone alike. He was ferocious. Unstoppable and feral.
It was normal to run in fear of such a creature, yet you….<33
“Hey hey hey! What’ve we got here?” Sing-songed a delinquent who did not share the same black and gold uniform your classmates had on.
No one noticed this interaction at first, but your shrill shriek seemed to alert others tenfold. It was an unspoken rule that if there’s a girl’s scream, you intervene.
“I don’t recognize that school uniform, what’re you spyin around us for huh? Want in on the action?” The delinquent held you in place between your collar and the wall behind you, his grip harsh enough to rip some of the cloth.
Any do-gooder would easily have stepped in to put the sicko in his place, for pulling an uninvolved girl into a beef like this one, but no one dared move.
Because there was a sick, cold, heavy air that swept the parking lot. A nauseous feeling that made any man back down. Everyone felt it. And Toman knew damn well to get the Hell out of Baji Keisuke’s way.
Chifuyu let out a yelp when he noticed he had pretty much made you a hostage, putting you directly in harms way. But you wanted to see who the real Baji Keisuke was so badly, and Chifuyu didn’t mean for it to turn out like this— and no amount of reason would spare Chifuyu from the beating he was sure to receive once Baji learned the truth of how you ended up here in the first place.
But with having no further context, Baji’s intense rage was fueled with worry for your safety. ‘Why the hell is she here? Did she follow me or something?’
Baji spat, dead focus not leaving your squirming form. The way you squirmed in the offenders grasp seriously made him feel like puking. The way your eyes desperately darted around to look for him broke his heart. So helpless, so scared… Any bit of restraint he had left suddenly no longer existed.
“Baldys got a death wish, eeeehhhhh?!” Baji graveled his most intimidating roar as the distance became shorter and shorter, reaching your side at sound-breaking speed.
Before the bold delinquent who had a hold on you could react, he was already being slung backwards. Gravity corrected you quickly, and you hissed when your knees met the ground below. Baji’s attention was solely focused on killing this stupid sack of shit.
Chifuyu came following after, helping you to your feet as you stare in awe. “C-come on, let’s get you somewhere safe-“ he tried guiding you toward an escape route, but you refused.
You remained rooted in place while you watched Baji wail on the poor guy. The force of his punches shook the offending delinquent’s whole body, head to toe. Punch after punch, his fists grew bloody.
Minutes passed, and the man before you had long lost consciousness. Still, Baji’s assault remained uninterrupted.
Surely he had lost feeling in his hands by now. The skin on his fist couldn’t even be identified as skin anymore, painted and dripping red.
You knew that when that block head was lost in thought, like he was now, you could never get his attention with words.
When you would study together, and he’d all but forgotten your presence, the only way to get his attention…
So, unfaltering, you laid one hand along the back of the blood stained monster protecting you. Without fear, you gently wrapped your other hand around his wrist. Immediately he froze.
The night was silent. Your lone whisper broke the tense atmosphere. “Baji,”
Finally getting his attention, Baji slowly turned his head to look you face to face. Eye to eye.. as though it really was for the first time.
Damn the ‘love at first sight‘ troupe. Baji called bullshit since preschool. But there was no better way to describe the unfamiliar feeling growing in his stomach.
Your expression was angel-like. Smile as kind as the heavens, moved with emotion. Looking him in the eye for the first time was also sending you into a vulnerable state. It was so pleasant feeling.
Baji couldn’t move, couldn’t breath, couldn’t think. You were literally stealing the breath out of his lungs.
Were you getting closer? Why did it feel like one side of his face was being cradled? Wait, were you—-
Your body moved on it’s own, unable to restrain yourself, until the very last second.
Baji could feel the gentle sigh of your breath against his lips, any sudden movement could mean life or death. He took a sharp breath in, but by the time he gathered his bearings, you weren’t kissing him like he thought you might, not on the lips at least.
Your lips gently rested on his sweat and blood stained forehead.
You parted, created distance shyly, and tried to glare at Baji. But it was impossible.
“I like the way you fight. Give it your all, Keisuke. You have to do well on tomorrow’s test, s-so try not to hit your head too much.” You quickly lectured, softly punching his shoulder, before awkwardly backing away. Grossly aware of your surroundings now, having All eyes on you was not a good feeling.
“U-um, anyway..! I’ll be rooting for you, s-so don’t lose!”
realized that ive had this account for over 8 years (yike) and have unnecessarily over shared every lil detail about my dumb silly lil life except my dumb silly lil face. so here’s a collection of me getting black out drunk over the last 3 weeks :•) thx ily
