finding fellow poc queers is really fucking hard bcs when i did find a queer group to talk about stuff i believed id finally found a place but nope apparently i was the only poc in the group? how hard is it to find fellow queer pocs in already marginalized places? apparently really fucking hard i realized after that fact that even in a place i belonged in i STILL didnt feel like i belonged? it was like speaking through a metal mesh, i had and have no one to fully talk about things bcs unlike them, my queerness is also linked into my culture/ethnicity that they probably wouldnt get i had to edit my words, couldnt fully express myself or my frustrations, had to censor myself incase i accidentally hurt someones 'white feelings' i just grew restless, and trapped, and my mental state just makes me passive aggressive and horrible to be around so when i found an excuse i took it and left its really freeing getting away from things even if they might offend someone, but honestly, im emotionally, physically and mentally past the point of giving a shit