I wake up to last night’s mistakes stamped across my hand,
head pounding, my eyes flutter helplessly against light
sneaking, creeping through curtains torn
from the time she tried wine without the glass
spilled lines, tasted freedom, wasted time;
all while white smoke billowed from her lips.
I can still hear her now, anxiously pursing her lips,
“We have to leave soon,” choking neck with hand.
But she can’t find her phone to check the time,
reaching angrily to borrow my light.
I’ll primp and pose, reflecting in glass
only to surrender to scrutiny of tights, torn
but not wasted, like the pages she had torn
from their places, stealing stories from my lips.
She skips class to kiss glass,
begging strangers for a light,
swearing by the words, “next time.”
I’ll tap my toes, keeping us in time
While she bleeds into speakers, “I’m torn.”
I can’t make out faces beyond blinding light,
between licks, chapping lips,
bent strings; I’ll etch progressions in glass
while she looks on, glass–
y eyed like the last time.
Instead of lending a helping hand
I’ll point and I’ll prod until she is torn
From this town, leaving nothing but lips-
tick stained cigarettes at the setting of light
hearted jokes taken anything but light–
ly, she breaks glass after glass after glass
in spite of me. Curses flood from cold lips
while I repeat, “There won’t be a ‘next time.’”
Bludgeoned promises beneath ideas of shirts torn
by a boy who never even offered to hold her hand.
As my head aches, my words shake, I shed tears with time,
Finding memories between paper clippings, pictures torn
Heartlessly from their frames, I’ll mourn who she was, on paper, by hand.