6. My plea for help and peace
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Finally, we have reached the last point of my post.
As I mentioned in my last point briefly, I want to make peace. I want to make peace with the whole conflict and be able to move on. More importantly, I want to make peace with Moira. A lot of things happened, a lot of sad things and a lot of ugly things. After a whole month… I think I should leave it at that and move on. I want to make my peace with the community. I want to return and feel like a part of it again, and writing with mutuals again. And most importantly I want to make peace with Moira roleplayers, so we can all co-exist without any more problems.
But I can’t do it alone. I know I am asking for a lot here, and I know this is definitely not your job to build me up again and to help me like that. But still, I want to ask you for your help. I will be direct: I want to ask Moira roleplayers for their help. Please talk to me. Please help me find a place in this community again. Please help me find a way to fit Joe in again. Please help me find her place again, and please help me find a way were both Moira and Joe can exit within the same world, no matter how similar they are. Maybe you have a better understanding of the situation than I do. Maybe you can show me differences I fail to see. Maybe you can offer me another view point. Please note that I will not force anyone to do that. I won’t force anyone to help me, and I am aware that this is not your job to help a complete stranger with a funny problem. All I am doing here is only to ask. I want to reach out my hand. We don’t have to be friends afterwards or anything the like. All I hope is just for us to live next to each other and be in the same community, enjoying ourselves without conflict. I just hope to put it behind me. Together with you. And if you feel too uncomfortable with the whole post and with me, then I will accept it without a question. It is your right not to engage with me in any way. Please do not feel forced to do anything. This is everything I wanted to say. It was a very long post, it was probably troublesome to read through it all. Everyone, Thank you all for your attention and for taking your time to listen to what I had to say. Thank you all for listening. Thank you for sticking with me. Again, I want to apologize for all the trouble and inconvenience with this post. I am sorry for bringing this problem up again. And again, I am sorry for all the mistakes I have made. For all the people I have hurt, I am sorry. Nobody is perfect, I know. But please know that I feel guilty. And please know that I miss you all. Your kladdi.