Controversial Polytheist Opinion Time
It doesn’t matter if every deity from a pantheon breaks down your door and is like “HEY YOU COME AND WORSHIP US” if you’ve had bad experiences with that faith community, you have every right to walk away.
I know this from personal experience. There are parts of the Heathen community that embrace a right wing, dick-swinging “if you’re not part of the inner circle your opinions are worthless” culture that was just not something I wanted in my life. I’ve had bad experiences with individuals and groups in other faith communities when I tried to branch out.
Now I know a lot of the times the deities will chase after you and be like “NO, STAY” but if you don’t have a supportive faith community it’s going to be rough, even if you’re a diehard solitary like me.
“But Gef the deities call whoever they want and they get converts eventually” yeah but if you’re supposed to represent the interests of your deities and you’re being such a dick that you’re pushing people away, whose fault is that? It’s you, it’s your fault.