#pomemes

[ghostmuffingarden]

If you ever fall in love with me,

leave me bundle of vegetables

on my doorstep.

[ghostmuffingarden]

I don't think

I feel right

When I'm

With

You

:/

[ghostmuffingarden]

You make a choice for me

I question it

We discuss it

Now you say I'm making you

Compromise yourself?

I wanted a say

I wanted a conversation

If you have to put

Your partner in box

To feel like your

"Authentic self"

Then maybe you

You'd be better off

With a mannequin

[ghostmuffingarden]

We walk to the store

We giggle, we talk in made-up voices, we sing.

We separate briefly once inside

You're looking for something in the freezer section

A man bothers to me and I hurry back to your side.

We brush it off. We giggle some more.

We don't separate again.

Another man is in every section we go to.

The freezer. The fruit. The desserts. The snacks. The fruit again. The man is there.

A cashier stops the man. He leaves in the direction we came from.

We wait to walk home.

We talk. We don't giggle. We don't sing.

It's time to get home. We have frozen food.

We walk the long way.

We don't talk. We silently take turns checking behind us.

We make a wrong turn, we've done it before.

"Aw damn" I break the silence. We both pretend to laugh. We both pretend to not care that our walk will take a few minutes longer.

You need something from your car. We go together.

We are silent again.

We wonder if men have ever had to be as calculated as we are on a walk home from the store.

[ghostmuffingarden]

Two impossible things

Can exist hand-in-hand.

I can allow myself

To feel happiness

Because we finally kissed.

But I can also acknowledge

The fear that's just as present.

Because that opened the door

That holds back so many

Painful conversations

That I'm just.

Not ready

To have.

[ghostmuffingarden]

Do you like me

Or do you just

Also enjoy platonic cuddling?

Because I enjoy

Platonic cuddling

But I also find myself

Smiling

When my clothes

Smell like you

[ghostmuffingarden]

To be loved by someone

In the way that I love my cat

Would be enough

To fill a dozen lifetimes

[ghostmuffingarden]

Ugh I'm

About to meet

My partners partner

For the first time.

(I refuse to use

The ugly M word

That polyam people

Decided to call

This relationship)

And I'm so nervous.

We're at their house

Waiting for them

To be ready to go.

And it's been like

10 minutes

Of just waiting

In the car.

I'm gonna get

Sweaty.