I've been trying to post something for DAYS and have been thwarted by one thing or another. Well today was TOO GOOD to let the moments keep slipping away. The short of it from today was I had some divination from someone I highly respect and he showed me that I'm going to just keep getting better and better health-wise, strength-wise, bad-ass-wise. I really needed to hear this because my mind was starting to be taken over by the anxiety of uncertainty and having listened to some hard stories of stage 4 ladies who shuffled off this mortal coil. I honestly can't listen to those stories anymore. Not until I feel like I'm fully back on my feet and have the further certainty in knowing that cancer no longer dwells here (my next CT/PET Scan is 9/11). The day before yesterday I ready LOVED my outfit and needed to take a photo of it and share that (with you all). So there's that photo. I actually felt cute, sassy, creative and happy! Then, my "boob" fell out of my bra yesterday and it was actually hilarious. That's the other photo. Due to the absence of feeling on my chest, I have NO IDEA when my fake boobie shifts around or in this case, totally falls out! I live for that level of ridiculousness of being a human. I mean, that's some funny stuff. I get to wear a falsie until some future unknown date when I will carry on with reconstruction. I actually totally love the foob because it's so squishy and fun to squeeze and poke. When I was a kid I poked the eye of fish in the package and the grocery store and while that's totally gross, it was also oddly satisfying--much like poking the squishy boob I don daily. I'm excited to take the medicines I've been prescribed to help me feel better; one is promacta for the ITP (platelet problem) and the other will likely be tamoxifen in September after it's confirmed I'm still pre-menopausal. Though that'll have it's serious drawbacks, it's going to give me peace of mind (at least for awhile) that estrogen isn't contributing to a reoccurence of BC in my body. It does increase uterine cancer risk, but I'll deal with that after I've taken tamoxifen for a year or two. #feelingcutesomedays #relieved #postchemo #itgetsbetter https://www.instagram.com/p/B1sgSpYBmiv/?igshid=2a90sesyyedh