It's true
that I do feel remorse and regret for treating her the way I did. At the time however, it was what was needed for the both of us, even if it was difficult to see & understand. What troubles me now, is the fact that after one attempt, although very pathetic on my part, to revive a friendship that would be lively and benefit both of us tremendously: that we cannot function in any sort of relationship no matter the degree. However, I can understand the fact that time is not only needed, but most of the time the only thing necessary. Yet, in the real-world, things of the past, no matter how much they hurt, will need to be forgiven. If her aspirations and admirable goals are still with her, than this mindset of never forgiving will be a difficult one to maintain. The higher you get the lonelier it gets: I will be there, this I have no doubt, I believe she will as well: one connection, friendship, will make our chances of surviving at the top more likely. But what do I know. I was not in that position, I wasn't given the poison, I distributed it. If I feel what she did, maybe I will gain a better understanding. Either way, I will always be fond of her ideas/heart/mind. The time, my personal position, etc. did not align, and thus our history was written and finished. The future holds prospects we have yet to know: I will stay positive and continue to entertain the idea.